Bangs not

Tried getting those "bangs" once again recently and it looks relatively better as compared to the past. But I'm done with it, gonna keep back my fringe as I find that it gets in the way of my eyes and it's not that easy to manage especially when I have a morning flight and I've to get up earlier than usual to blow dry those fringe. If managed wrongly, then there it goes, uber bad hair day.

My hair doesn't seem to be growing ever since. It's still stuck midway, when it curls at the bottom when I tie it up into a ponytail. It kinda irritates me. Was contemplating if I should get extensions done or not?.. miss my locks.

On a lighter note, I'm exactly 4 days away to see the boyfriend. (: It's like a judgement day for me as well, when the bf will tell me the truth if I've put on weight or not! lol.. then it'll be October. Not exactly my favorite month but I have something to look forward to (: can't wait!!!

Will be meeting the ladies tonight for dinner and some picture craze sessions..

Till the next update ;)

xoxo
jo

December dreams

Looking through peoples' birthday celebration, I feel like doing one for myself this year. Somewhere along the line of "turquoise and white theme.." hmm definitely balloons, cupcakes, friends and just hang out and have fun (:

My 21st might have been sucky but it's okay (: there's always another year to celebrate.

The contractor came today, gave the quotations and all, hopefully it'll be nice and cosy after all the renovations and what nots. Can't wait for it to actually happen!! time when I can finally get rid of unwanted stuffs and bring in new furniture and a WARDROBE of my own!! (:

Hopefully everything goes according to plan..
Looking forward (:

nom nom nom

Can I request for some nice yummy cakes from "cupcakes n bakes"
some nice little get together at "hatched"
some nice relaxing spot for a little picnic..

just some small and random thoughts on such a sunny and nice weather today.. (:

The cycle

Each time when I'm back home, there's bound to be new stories heard. The anger and the disappointments. It has come to a point where it got so bad, everyone is giving up.

Oreo Cheesecake

I've finally used the recipe Sop got for me- Oreo cheesecake. Though it took 12 hours to complete, it was a satisfaction! as this was the first time attempting it, there was lots of things to be done through that 12 long hours. The effort, the patience, the correct ingredients, the heat. Best of all, we did everything without a CAKE MIXER. To whisk the egg whites till it turns into "foam" was extremely tiring! effort goes to Sher for that. All in all we baked about 10 cheesecakes. LOL~! the first 4 were burnt due to the adjustments of the time and temperature, we need to trial and error due to the size of my oven and that we couldn't follow the exact timing and temperature given on the recipe.

When we finally had our very first successful cheesecake done, that feeling of satisfaction and excitement was overwhelming..it felt good. (:

I'm definitely going to get a cake mixer soon before the next baking session, in the meantime, I'm gonna go to the fridge to grab more cheesecake as it's finishing soon!

xoxo

Jojo (:

It's interesting to know that, there's actually people reading my entries, and that your comments do make my day. Be it for your sarcasm or your thoughts that you think it'll kill you if you don't pen it down. I appreciate the feedback. Be it I'll taste my own medicine or not, it's not up to you to conform upon me. No one is saint, did I not say that I'm not here to be a clown to please all?. People do make mistakes, and learn from it, maybe you haven't learn from yours. Or that maybe you haven't realize you did fault as well? why not just learn from it and MOVE ON?. I know I've made mistakes in my life, and that there'll never come a second chance to change the facts. It'll take time to let it go, if I irks you that much.. you could jolly well not read my entries.

Don't torture yourself. Stop making yourself a living hell. Move on..

review

Tonight I feel otherwise.

going "buck" to work

The 9 days of leave has finally come to an end. Though we've only spent our days in sunny island Singapore, it was more than enough for us to have the fun and rest we needed. (:

It seriously doesn't matter whether you'll be able to go overseas or not when you're on leave. It's the company that means the whole lot. As for now, I've to compose myself, and prepare for work tomorrow. Though there were times that we dread heading back to work, I guess we should strike a balance between work and play..not gonna whine anymore that I'm heading back to work.

Cheerios~

what goes around comes around

I'm not perfect no one is, I'm not saying that everyone has to like me neither am I here to be a clown to please all. After a while in this chaotic industry or should I say in every industry, you'll learn that you can't trust no one except yourself. If you're able to find a handful amongst the people, you should start counting your blessings.

I'm glad I know who got my back, so long as you do what you're suppose to do and not interfere in unnecessary 'stirs', you're more or less on safe grounds. I'm no master of the 'sa-ka' and do not bow down to them. I'm trying to learn the way of not being so judgmental of things/people unless necessary. It's a bad habit I picked up before and I'm trying to do away with it. After all, 'hear says' are pretty harmful, it hurts relations and other factors will subsequently snowball.

It's best to let bygones be bygones.
Be the bigger man..

Early morning

It's pretty sad that I can't continue to sleep further especially on my off day. I gave up trying to sleep after tossing and turning in bed for the longest time ever.

I've another dental appointment later at 9:30am with RMG. I'm bearing so much fear in me, I guess that's partly why I couldn't sleep in peace. The thought of the dentist trying to use those shiny equipments in my mouth..UGH. It's really a serious investment for me. The sufferings just got to end. I haven't been able to chew properly for the longest period of time and it seriously upsets me, as I'm a person that's fond of eating. It came to a point whereby I rather pop pills to kill the aches and not eat for the rest of the day, that's how bad the ache got to me. No more sweet tooth, it has finally taken a toll on my tooth. ) :

While these past few weeks that I'm away from here, I went ice-skating!! I enjoyed myself a lot though it was kind of tiring as I was trying to cope with the skates for the first hour, while the bf has to stick with me to ensure that I don't fall. So sweet of him, so bad of me. I kept pushing him away, as in I want him to go enjoy, instead of sticking to me when I needed support. LOL. It was pretty much a tiring day for him, as he was wearing skates that had slightly bended blades. I really enjoyed skating. At least I managed to skate better in the second hour. We bought volleyball as well. (: can't wait to get my hands on it (: There's so much that went on in the past weeks, caught a few movies, hung out with his friends. All in all I don't have much to complain about (: hahaha.


I enjoyed myself while bf did the back breaker (:

It's been a while since I've penned down a proper entry. Days been going by pretty fast. I've a feeling I didn't worked hard enough this month, and it's already coming to an end. May is approaching, and I can't foresee what's ahead. There'll definitely be lots of things going on but can't picture it as of yet but I can finally say TGIF tomorrow because I'll be off (:

It's been a while since I really dress up for an occasion/outing and the only group of people that makes me feel so stressful when I have to meet up with them-the primary school peeps. It's either I'll be overdressed or under,which in this case it's always UNDER. LOL I'll be meeting them tomorrow and now I've a huge headache on what to wear. The theme is "Casual". When questioned what's Fang's casual, she told me "either maxi dress or long skirt.." base on my understanding, my form of casual are :shorts, tees, tank tops,etc. LOL oh well.. I hope I'll figure something out by tonight.

It's been the longest time since I've seen the ladies, work has really tied them down, having to meet with deadlines and all. I wonder what I'll be like if I were in their "mess" hahaha. Sitting in the office cramping the accounts, the audits, reports and more reports. Generating brain cells every single day. Sometimes, I do feel like changing my job to work in the office, to experience those "OL's" lifestyle and also to work my rusty braincells a little...

Time will tell, I'm giving myself 2 years to figure it out..

Thoughts lingers~

Drop that bomb

Im weighing at 56kg as of 18 April 2011. FAT PIG IS BACK!!!

Failed Model LOL

Went for a photo shoot today. It was crazy, hmm not much of a fun experience for me as I was clad in outfits that I wasn't comfortable with. Oh well, guess I'm not cut out to be a model after all. Hopefully I'll look okay?. LOL. At least I've the experience of how life's like in the office of a magazine company. It looks pretty interesting..hmm (:

All in all it's the experience ;) thanks Nget lol.

Met up with Sher for lunch after the photo shoot, as I looked pretty horrendous, I got myself shades that's kinda expensive. Finally had my dessert at Bugis. Had the longest conversation on the "Hello Kitty". Having lots of fun making fun of it, Sher actually searched the web for Kitty's surname, twin sisters name..LOL.. I had my fair share of fun laughing my ass off.. (:

good night world..
xoxo

jojo.

Supper?

Supper sessions never leaves me with only undigested food and water retentions, in fact it's times like this when we sit down and talk about life, anything and everything. It works like a reminder sometimes, to make you reflect on yourself a little, and realise that actually there's changes in yourself that you didn't feel. Sometimes changes are good, if it helps you grow.. if it doesn't, and your perceptions and all gets confused and mixed up, it'll be nice to have someone to trigger you.

The topic that we touched on and all, it shows how much I've pulled myself away from all these, and how comfortable I'm in my tiny box.. talks like these that makes me get back on track. I enjoy hearing people talking about life and all, especially when they've got lots of encounters of weird and funny things..

Do I even make sense?.. hmm..

Don't wanna be in the default category, I wanna learn more things!

funny shit!

April FOOLS

I seriously feel like a fool right now preparing for flight..it's so freaking early!! waking at 2am when I got home only like 11plus last night..Doubly shitty..

It's not "where" that gets to me..maybe I just bother too much..

I miss Taiwan but...

Monday that has blue written all over my forehead

This morning I woke up dreading for work. I feel mentally sick, like literally trying to psycho myself to fall sick this instance so that I won't have to feign any illness. I was feeling lethargic, it's morning like this that makes me wanna change my job. Mornings' like this that makes me wanna do something outrageous like calling some random figure waking them up to pee or just to company me on the phone while I make my way to work. It's times like this that I've to remind myself, STOP BEING LAZY.

Let's think of happy things to make me feel a little tad un-blue.

-My toothache is gone! (: (touch wood)
-I've got myself Laniege's powder (:
-My nails ain't chipped
-My Sunday with my family was amazingly FUN (:
-Fell asleep while reading
-Ice cream chef =))
-Changed my seat, it feels so comfy as though someone's hugging me.. (:
-Tamagochi! =) haha..

Alrights I'm ready for work! (:

xoxo
Jojo

Happy 1 year anniversary (:

To the little one

I've still the habit when Im home whenever I walk past the kitchen, I'll still turn my head to look at the place where you used to be..

I miss you little one..

In loving memories.. 26 Feb 2011

Coco left me, in my arms..
I'll miss you..


Heart aching..

done

Finally fell into a deep sleep at 8 plus this morning, woke up at 12 plus. Packed my cabin bag, cleared some stuffs, ironed my uniform,vacuumed the place and had my nails painted. Everything done within 2 hours (: It felt good. Will take a rest, wait for my nails to dry and there after to TM to get lunch.

Will be back to work tomorrow, the thought of having to head to office tomorrow makes me a lil uncomfortable. Shall continue later.. back to tv (:

Addicted

Facebook is addictive, it's becoming a daily routine for people to log on to it.
And times like this when I CANT FALL ASLEEP AGAIN!!! that I'll end up going online. This is crappy. =(

I'm sleepy but I can't fall back asleep again. My nose is blocked and the mood swing is bad. The worse of all, IM HAVING MAJOR OUTBREAKS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Clicked on my past entries, went all the way back to "2006" and the first entry that appears with the header "INSOMIA!!" greeted me.LOL, it's been with me so many years..

Was out with Sheryl and Teressa to town yesterday, curb my wanton mee cravings at Graffiti Cafe once again before heading for another singing session at Kbox. They were having this promotion $57.50 for 3 hours so I kept within my budget range for yesterday spending less than $40. I was literally hogging the mic, and Teressa had to search for songs for us.. but the amount of screaming wasn't enough for me..












I hate mood swings, it makes me all so emotional..negative at it's best..
I need happy pills..

STEER CLEAR.MOOD OVERHAUL AGAIN.

for the first time

For the first time ever, I took public transport to and fro work. Amazing isn't it?. It might just be the last time..LOL. I would say, I talked myself into taking public transport, along with my Ipod it'll never go wrong. As long as I have music to company me, I'll take the public transport, there's nothing for me to rush home to, I'm not feeling a wee bit tired, maybe a little hungry..but yea that's all.

Heard that the CIC interview is on not sure till which batch, have yet to take a look at the notice. Will do so when I get back on Thur..as for today and tomorrow, it'll be my rest and off day ;)

So much things yet so little time to do..hmmm..

Feel like tanning but the sun's not shining..and the thought of going into the cold pool makes my goose pimples stand.LOL. It was freaking cold last night, I've actually used 4 blankets to wrap myself which seems redundant till my ankle hurts due to the cabin temperature. Alrights enough rantings for now, gonna go wash up already..

ps: sometimes some feelings is best left unsaid..cus sometimes it stirs shit..

love

I'm getting pretty obsessed with those lovey dovey thingys that's on tv,magazines, radio, everywhere I go. It's getting on my nerves at times, you know how a woman will end up when she's too obsessed with such feelings, and when they're disappointed just because expectations weren't met that they'll eventually fall into the "perceived failings".

I can't help it..seriously..although those 4 days spent with bi was really a different feeling all over which I really like alot.. I don't wanna start on the possessive, "where are you what are you doing.." when we're apart. It's a NIGHTMARE..LOL!!! I don't wanna become like this.. though it's sweet some times, too much of it will get you diabetics.

I'm sticking to "time apart for time together.."

PS: as much as I hate to say this..I miss my long hair..lol! UGH

Count your ang baos!!!

CNY is officially over, it's time for me to open up my packets and count my incomes!! hahaha..I'll wait till bi is back and we'll do the sums..hahas!

Popped over to bi's mama place yesterday for dinner, another round of steamboat, filled with relatives, snowy, cousins..ate to my hearts' content. Though bi wasn't around, it felt okay, as in I didn't feel out of place, everyone was so friendly it didn't make me feel awkward or otherwise.Collected 2 more ang baos hahas, from bi's mama and orh yee..I liked the fish ball that has green fish roe inside, yumms!! (: didn't manage to take pictures as I was too engrossed with the food last night..

Left around 10 to meet Nic at Serangoon Garden, chilled at the ktv pub sang songs and drank beer BWEAH!! ): I hate beer, it's so bitter! we had our little fun, trying to out win those other tables there singing last night..we felt that we could do better with the singing to justify those that ruined the songs..HAHAHAHA..mean.. oh well, it's good to have some fun sometimes..

It's finally Friday, the poor one is sick..not gonna disturb him over the weekends, hopefully he'll be able to get some rest..gonna go prepare now, needa head to office. UGH it's making me tensed up..zzz

xoxo

Jojo

Words spreads like wildfire

Word of mouth is really dangerous. As much as I wish it wouldn't have happened, this would be 2011's joke for a long long time. As much as I try not to believe in the zodiac for 2011, things are slowly surfacing. I'm called to the office AGAIN, this Friday with more members involved. I wonder what I'm in for this time round. How to keep a low profile ):


Oh well, I'll just enjoy the limelight while I still got it..

Baking and IKEA!

A very good morning, the sunflower on the computer table is so pretty (:

I'm wide awake now and extremely hungry!! UGH. I'm currently on SBY mode, and I can't go anywhere ):

Went to Ikea yesterday with Sher to get some colourful stuffs before we started our baking session, I was so fascinated with the lights and everything in Ikea, they're all so colourful (:
Been having mad cravings for ToriQ lately, just had it yesterday and I'm still craving for it NOW!!!
I would say the baking yesterday was a success, as I was able to get my colours mixed well onto my cupcakes and it's definitely tastier than my first attempt, it look more appealing (:
Pandan essence is my favourite mixture for my cupcakes as it's green in colour and I like pandan (:

Though the process of going about, preparing the cupcakes was a little tedious, it's the final product that made everything worthwhile. Thumbs up for the great effort (:

More baking sessions soon!!! (:

The power of We

And so my Valentine was spent with Teressa in town, and it was awesome. hahaha

We met up at 8ish had dinner at Graffti Cafe in Cine followed by movie. I would say I felt damn crappy for the whole afternoon as I thought the delivery man wasn't coming. Bi said he has a surprise for me the night before and it got me all hyped and excited. The delivery fella came only bout 8ish, so I wasn't home to receive it, but NONETHELESS!! it still made me tear when I got home.. it must have cost a bit, for the "Vday special" when all the boyfriends turns into "ROberto". LOL!! BUT! l like the forever bear and pink roses. I don't care what any of you has to say about it, cus as long as I like it, that's what that matters. (:

Smiling from ear to ear.. (:
To the man I love..you sure know how to make me tear for the right reasons.. (:

Appease!

Unlike others when they're angry, they'll clean things up. I'm the direct opposite. I will make a mess out of everything in the way. For instance my kitchen..poor mom got to do the washing..oh well..I'll clear up the mess before clearing myself up..

I like the cupcake session today as it's my first attempt and it taste not too bad (:
I like the green ones, it has pandan taste (:

Alrights..got to wash up the pots and pans.. Pfft~

AAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHH~~~

Besides screaming I don't know what else can I do..*phew.. at least it feels better..

I'm downright unlucky..

Unlucky that both my bday and vday got to fall on a STUPID MONDAY.. really. Crap this is. ARGH!!!!

Can someone just buy something for me? LOL I know this is fucking pathetic..

-I hate it when special days that meant something FALLS ON A WEEKDAY!!

YES IM KAO BEH-ING............................

Afterall I'm still a woman..

Out of the system

Headed down Zouk last night, realized how much I've grown..and the squeezing and pushing no longer excites me anymore. The drinks didn't get me going and the people definitely not appealing. I was like a nanny last night, taking care of the birthday girl that got so wasted before 3, they were mad drinking from 10ish till 2. Few of them were gone, and I took care of the birthday girl. She reminds me of me back then. Party like there's no tomorrow, drink till I've cleared out all my sorrows. She was mad crying when she was wasted. I remember the emotional wreck when one's gone cus I've been there as well. LOL..and it's really awful. I stood there watching the fellas make themselves get wasted, drink jugs after jugs..the jugs just kept coming..I've got to help complete a jug cus the drinks just kept coming. The music was okay, maybe it's the crowd..my khaki left early due to unforeseen circumstances, I hope everything's well on her side..after settling the bday girl, got her safe into her buddy's car, we headed back in..lucky the bouncer was nice enough to let us re-enter as there were lots of drunkards outside, making a fool of themselves.

It's pretty much tiring when you're out in the club, instead of enjoying the drinks and the music, you end up being a nanny. At least, I know that the birthday girl is in safe hands. The groping is still happening in the club, with the amount of people squeezing into the small dance floor and the bar, it's literally vibrating on the spot. LOL.. I ended up standing at a corner with some of my ladies. Waiting for the lights to come on so that we could get out..

Clubbing seems so yesterday..it no longer excites me..

Rumble

Sometimes you just can't express how you feel, like how some messages will make you look silly, when you smile to yourself while you're reading it on the train, bus anywhere yet you just don't care?.

I enjoy these moments.. (:

Smiling from my heart

Happy Bunny year to all (:

How was your chinese new year? Mine was great (: though it's only a few visiting it was a whole new experience for me. My boyfriend was there with me for CNY this year (: yes, only this and it's making me smile from ear to ear. We went visiting both his and my side. Had more ang baos to collect and best of all we made time for each other. Not that Im being proud or something, I just can't contain my happiness, it's overflowing. (:

The past 4 days had been sweet and literally in our own world. I enjoyed the moments spent together. Every single moment of it.. even if I had to be the one to turn off the lights..hahahaha..

I'm just glad dad didn't make things difficult this time round, and that he's actually fine having Collin around..bibi do you feel proud or what? my dad is the most difficult species around and yet he's not making things difficult for you...hahas!

Im overwhelmed.. (:

曹格 - Super Woman

was out with the fellas for some singing session at Cineleisure after Cec's wedding.. been a while since I've heard this song..

It's been raining of late, the weather's too good for any outdoor activities. I was literally rolling in bed today..it was partly due to the bad cramps as well. With CNY round the corner, in another 2 days time I hope I don't have to bring brolly out for visiting.

Went shopping for CNY clothes with boyfriend over the weekends. Not much loots as of yet.
It was raining kinda heavily and thus the increase number of accidents these days. Witnessed one while we were on our way to town. It happened just right beside us, and it made my heart skipped a beat. It consist of 4 vehicles and the last in line was a Taxi. Geez~ the amount the taxi driver got to come out for the compensations of the other vehicles in front of him..
Wanted to try "Itacho" at Ion, but the queue was kinda long, and there were too many hungry monkeys thus we chose "Aoba" instead, Ron recommended it for the ramen. It's fun hearing how they debate among each other, coming out with ridiculous yet hilarious nonsense.. it made me think of my group of friends, the ones that use to hang out so often in the past. The peeps that went through good and bad times. I miss that phase. Hardly hear from them anymore. Except for Fen. I'm glad we're still in contact.

Growing up sucks sometimes. This is life. It can't always be my way.

Was over at Cecilia's wedding, the fellas were all there it was a little heart wrenching. Shan't elaborate further. There were still laughters and all going on, but it just felt different...

Either ways, I'm glad to have seen them again.

Cecilia looked good at the wedding. I guess every woman looks her best during her wedding. Xiao kel and his gf were the emcees for the night. They looked cute together. It's the first time seeing Kel in his more matured and sweet side of him. LOL!

It made me think of my own bf. And I felt like strangling him when I think of him.LOL!!!!

I'm stubborn, needs lots of attention, loves going out, anywhere and everywhere. Needs to feel important, difficult to understand and emotional. These ain't the characteristic of a Saggitarius if one were to ask me.

xoxo

good nights.

BOO

For once, after I've touched down I turned on my phone and made a call out to bibi while I was still in the aircraft, the need to just hear him say "hello.." hahas! don't ask me why. Maybe cus I didn't have any khaki with me last night, and I would say it was a long and pretty much draggy night. With the usual "not rights" happening. I so wanted to call him and just blabber everything.

I miss my da bao! (:

Bedtime for me soon.. toodles

xoxo

jojo

Silly

The silly one said I've got traditional flower legs..LOL!! it's the way he says it to me.. ridiculously funny..

amaze me (:

standstill

I spent my morning fixing my nails, like proper. To remove the paint and re-coat it with new ones. It's the mundane cycle. Town doesn't excite me that much anymore. I used to love heading town, just to walk in the streets and be surrounded by pretty things and people. Need a change of scenery, I want to go to places like ; that little ramen shop at cuppage, or maybe like that place at Yishun..can't remember what it's called, the one Fen said she'll bring me there some day. I just wanna retreat to a place whereby I can getaway from the hectic life. Some serenity. The consecutive 2 days in town was enough to bore me out. I wasn't in the mood to shop, to sing.. and for today? well it's a really lazy Wednesday. No programs, but work. Checked my mails and there's no reply as of yet. I miss summer breeze.. anyone tonight? hahas.

I know Thursday will be a better day cus the weekends nearing. (:


*Reignite (:

disguise

I should be on flight right now, but due to the call up for overnight on Sunday they took me off today's flight. Lucky or what? (: but that doesn't mean I can enjoy the weather and sleep in. I've to head down management house to settle my school stuff and there after meeting the ladies down town AGAIN. The reason why I said AGAIN; I was in town yesterday. Walked like mad and I've only manage to get myself 2 tops for CNY. I'm still feeling mad tired right now, and that I can feel the headache. I've only got this much time to do "so much". At least I'll be able to do a little bit more CNY shopping on Sat with the boyfriend (hopefully). hahas!

I've been feeling very cranky lately, so much so that I tear so easily. I guess I've finally let out my grievances, and true enough I'm feeling that much better having it out than keeping it in. At least it's out of the system, I've said my share of thoughts. It might not mean any huge amount of significance, but it meant something to me. And to not have any response didn't make things any better. I might look as if I don't mind, but once a while it'll get to me.

It'll make me think even more sometimes, stirring thoughts = "la sai". Who the hell loves to indulge in such thoughts, I'm not that sadistic. It's just some many actions, that makes me think a little bit more. Either ways, it might have been me all along.

I'm going back to my old ways. I don't like being Ms Nice. LOL I never was.

I love my bunny (:




*trying isn't gonna work if it's only a one way situation..

3 hours

I was up since 4 till now. Im still feeling wide awake. Gonna go catch some rest before I wake up for work later, in another 2 hours time?.
I've tried cutting down on the whining but it doesn't seem to be the case.

Gonna get some rest.

nights.

Crossroads

Standing at the crossroads not knowing which way to go.
I was lost from there on, and I chose a path to follow.
Now I'm stuck in it, not sure of where to go.
It's neither here nor there, and I'm hanging in the air.
Looking out into the sky tonight, it looks so gloomy, and the stars are out of sight.
Where's the light to guide me out of this tunnel?, to show me the way...
out of this struggle.

Up till now, I'm still thinking of what I wanna do after my 5 years. Time is wasted, and I'm still thinking of my future. Can someone please show me the light?. I don't wanna do "Fish or Chicken?" for the rest of my life. Some point in this career, I need to go. The conversations I had with my friends today, all gave me the same look, "I don't know what's next.." I'm left with only another 2 and half years. This is really freaking me out real bad. Who can I seek to help me out with these?. I need advises, and I need directions. geez`

The weather looks so threatening right now. Wasted my morning snoozing 5 mins away each time my alarm goes off. Left with another hour before I prepare for work. Standby on Sunday wasn't activated \m/, more like I cheated. =X

Need to head down HQ this week, before the course resumes.

And for the time being, Im mad broke. Like BROKE!!! I've to think twice before I head out. So besides work and the weekends, I consider the rest of the days HELL. Really, it's getting to me freaking bad. What have I been doing with my money man. Guess I'll start my little cashbook from..TODAY. Damnit, when I ask myself where has all the $$ gone?, I haven't been dining at expensive places, or party out..and the funny thing is, my $$ GONE!. Mad broke, drives all the negativity to it's best. Everyone's getting my ill treatments, my emotions getting all screwed up. 5 more days. Bear with it.

L.O.V.E

This 4 letter word means a whole lot to a person. It can make you or break you. It triggers your feelings, stirs up great mess. If you're in love, then everything works like miracle, even the slightest things will make you feel as though you're flying without wings. When love leaves you, your whole world crumbles, anything and everything brings you down, straight to hell.

Through these experiences, one either learns from it, or turns it into hatred. It's how one thinks of it, and their perspective. The leaving part, is one that always creates the most impact, so much greater than when love first started. Following the hurt process, will be stages of relentless cursing, cries and sometimes hatred.....

I'm feeling sleepy already..shall continue when I've got the time..

Sometimes revenge just doesn't work. It's just another stab to your heart.

nuff said..

jo

Rain check

Rain as much as you can, so that the weekends wouldn't be affected..

WAS planning to head down HQ, but look at the weather ): guess I'll just head down to TM in the evening. Can't wait for my XMN tomorrow, with ah lam!! hahaha, we had so much of grievances to whine about lol, goodness.

For the first half of this year:

-Clear all the rubbish on my table
-Dump the old clothes
-Clear the pile of letters
-START SAVING for NZ!!!!

As of the time being, these are the few goals that I've set for myself, I don't wish to disappoint myself once again for setting up too much stuffs to accomplish. It'll be more like spring cleaning for me before CNY. Apart from that, saving has always been a problem for me, since I spend most of what I earn. Which indeed got me into various problems.

And the things that I've to cut down on...

-STOP SHOPPING SO OFTEN (spend within my means)
-MCs

Though it isn't of great significance, it's a way for me to kick away the lazy bones.

I'm finally off today and I've catch up on the sleeping that I've lost for the past 2 days. Feeling pretty much refreshed (:

Met up with the ladies yesterday at Ehub with little Alvena, had dinner over at Magic wok and there after dessert at Gelare (:
Baby Alvena was so cheeky, smiling to every guy that walked past us..LOL goodness!!
We had so much fun catching up (: so much to talk about.

I'm still feeling a little tired.. nap time a while more..LOL