Was home real early today, wee =) had alot of hours of sleping but...i broke out in cold sweat sia..
i didnt know what the dream was all about, only remember parts of it..well i was having dinner with sz,zhek,angela and jun..haha..not sure why they appear in my dreams..and i bumped into sh and xz at the restaurant..hahas..stupid shit..den it seems like all of us know each other for a very long itme like good frens for a long time..hahas..
Not sure where we're heading..hahas..and we ended up in a bus filled with loads of indian and Thai's..omg..and one by one all ps me and left the bus leaving me alone on my way home..thus i not sure how to get home i went down to ask the bus driver for directions and i left my Bag at the to deck..it was a double decker bus..and i didnt noe why the hell i left my bag at the top deck..BASKET!..when i return back to the top deck a Thai guy was holding on to my bag i grab it back fiercely and an indian started to snack it away from me! Fuck tt bastard!!! NO DOUBT ITS ONLY A DREAM BUT IT BLOODY SCARES ME..!!!!!!!!!!
i tried calling the police but it was in malay i dont understand don;t understand y..hahahs,.
Tt bloody dream shock me kinda bad..=x
oh wells..spent whole day rotting at home today..warm up the food and had my dinner..
Kept eating the whole day..was surprise no one came home early today..leaving me alone till bout the late evenin..oh wells..
jus did a personality DNa test..
and it states thast im a "Encouraging Dreamer"
Friday, August 11, 2006
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!! SO OLD!!! 41 YRS OLD ALR!!!!
Im up too early, gg back to sleep after blogging...
Finally i went to watch "Tokyo Drift" kind of disappointed in a way, because it's like the Jap version of "Initial D" preferred the first two "Fast and Furious"..But the cars are nice, i like the Fairlady =)
And i like Han. =) too bad tt happened to him. I dont want to spoil the story for those viewers who hasnt watch "FAst and Furious Tokyo Drift"..hahahs..
I actually crashed bf's lecture..LOL!!! his bloody class only had like 28 people!!! but the lecturer was fine, i guess he thought i was one of his students =x It was kind of fun in a sense, the class was kind of rowdy, but fun people.
We sneaked home, after bf's group did their presentation.hahas..and went over to his place to put down his heavy Bass guitar first before heading down for movie and dinner.We were hungry like mad!! But gotta go down to Aranda first to get my pay.
Oh..i saw bf's Dad too! hahs..very friendly..
STUPIDEST!!! Thing ever happened, as the cheque didnt had my english name, i went to take my boss's pen to write my name..and its in DIFFERENT INK!!!!! argh!!!! the cheque is void already!!! i needa head back down to ask the accountant today, to write me another cheque =(
STUPID ME,ITCHY BACKSIDE!! =(
We had "AGISEN" is this how they spell it?..oh well..i dont like their ramen, not nice. =x nearly got into trouble for that..because in the first place i said i would share the noodles i take his and he take mine i forgot about it!!! and i just said the noodle wasnt nice, he gave me his and i didnt like it either..said i preferred the dry one, he was kinda angry about it though..
Something was wrong with me ytd, i kept hearing things wrongly causing bf to be kinda pist off about it..i guess it's my turn to be HEARING IMPAIRED. oh wells..
Alright enough said, im heading back to sleep..
which i highly doubt i could, hahas..just try my luck ya. Niites.
Im up too early, gg back to sleep after blogging...
Finally i went to watch "Tokyo Drift" kind of disappointed in a way, because it's like the Jap version of "Initial D" preferred the first two "Fast and Furious"..But the cars are nice, i like the Fairlady =)
And i like Han. =) too bad tt happened to him. I dont want to spoil the story for those viewers who hasnt watch "FAst and Furious Tokyo Drift"..hahahs..
I actually crashed bf's lecture..LOL!!! his bloody class only had like 28 people!!! but the lecturer was fine, i guess he thought i was one of his students =x It was kind of fun in a sense, the class was kind of rowdy, but fun people.
We sneaked home, after bf's group did their presentation.hahas..and went over to his place to put down his heavy Bass guitar first before heading down for movie and dinner.We were hungry like mad!! But gotta go down to Aranda first to get my pay.
Oh..i saw bf's Dad too! hahs..very friendly..
STUPIDEST!!! Thing ever happened, as the cheque didnt had my english name, i went to take my boss's pen to write my name..and its in DIFFERENT INK!!!!! argh!!!! the cheque is void already!!! i needa head back down to ask the accountant today, to write me another cheque =(
STUPID ME,ITCHY BACKSIDE!! =(
We had "AGISEN" is this how they spell it?..oh well..i dont like their ramen, not nice. =x nearly got into trouble for that..because in the first place i said i would share the noodles i take his and he take mine i forgot about it!!! and i just said the noodle wasnt nice, he gave me his and i didnt like it either..said i preferred the dry one, he was kinda angry about it though..
Something was wrong with me ytd, i kept hearing things wrongly causing bf to be kinda pist off about it..i guess it's my turn to be HEARING IMPAIRED. oh wells..
Alright enough said, im heading back to sleep..
which i highly doubt i could, hahas..just try my luck ya. Niites.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
current location: Ngee Ann Poly
Time: 1.55pm
I'm so stress!!!! hahas..im in NP to accompany my bf =)
Too STRESS for me!!! if only i was student of this school or smth..Oh wells..Not THAT BAD after all, at least bf's friends are friendly =) so yeap no prob with that..
Woke up real early today..about 5am?..hahas..as i wanted to prepare "breakfast" for bf..oh wells..i only woke like 5.45? after so many times of pushing the alarm on my phone to the next 9 mins..hahas..
It seems so fun being an FSV student, no doubt there's loads/tons of things to do. I dont mind being in the course, at least in a way it's kinda linked to "MUSIC" =) But..haiis..oh well..they dont take in ITE students..so ya..We reached bf's sch bout 8am? somewhere arnd there..hahas..went to take the 48 track rm key and went to draw equipments..bf's fren ke song showed us a video meant for the song..OMG..hahas..its gruesome man!..lol..luckily i wasnt feeling sick after watching part of the video..hahs..after setting up of everything, we waited for Rahman to come and Don with his frens helping out for the vocals, gutars,bass and drums..
They were awesome man! kind of makes me wana take up some music courses for myelf too..esp electronic guitar..so cool mann..LOL..but it was serious work..loads of tuning to be done..
To some certain extend there was kind of like a little screwed up here and there..and i wasnt able to help just sat there and watched them..helpless...=(
The only i guess i could do to help bf relieve a little stress was to give him a good back massage..
As more of his classmates came into the rm..i felt real out of place..thus..i left the room.. sitting outside the studio..blogging away..hahs..oh wells..
i wana go IKEA later =x wonder if the plan will work out..hahas..
alriites..shall continue with my spider solitaire..hahas..
Bye..
Time: 1.55pm
I'm so stress!!!! hahas..im in NP to accompany my bf =)
Too STRESS for me!!! if only i was student of this school or smth..Oh wells..Not THAT BAD after all, at least bf's friends are friendly =) so yeap no prob with that..
Woke up real early today..about 5am?..hahas..as i wanted to prepare "breakfast" for bf..oh wells..i only woke like 5.45? after so many times of pushing the alarm on my phone to the next 9 mins..hahas..
It seems so fun being an FSV student, no doubt there's loads/tons of things to do. I dont mind being in the course, at least in a way it's kinda linked to "MUSIC" =) But..haiis..oh well..they dont take in ITE students..so ya..We reached bf's sch bout 8am? somewhere arnd there..hahas..went to take the 48 track rm key and went to draw equipments..bf's fren ke song showed us a video meant for the song..OMG..hahas..its gruesome man!..lol..luckily i wasnt feeling sick after watching part of the video..hahs..after setting up of everything, we waited for Rahman to come and Don with his frens helping out for the vocals, gutars,bass and drums..
They were awesome man! kind of makes me wana take up some music courses for myelf too..esp electronic guitar..so cool mann..LOL..but it was serious work..loads of tuning to be done..
To some certain extend there was kind of like a little screwed up here and there..and i wasnt able to help just sat there and watched them..helpless...=(
The only i guess i could do to help bf relieve a little stress was to give him a good back massage..
As more of his classmates came into the rm..i felt real out of place..thus..i left the room.. sitting outside the studio..blogging away..hahs..oh wells..
i wana go IKEA later =x wonder if the plan will work out..hahas..
alriites..shall continue with my spider solitaire..hahas..
Bye..
Monday, August 07, 2006
Sick
Finally im down. Im finally sick. Went to sch for bout 5mins today..hahas..why the hell did i tap my card for?,..hahs..eventually i'll go home..oh wells..
After passing sz her paper, i went to see the doc..my gawd is so ex! it's $56 bucks..omg..luckily mum was with me so i need not pay =x hahas..Some infection shyt and ya i've consulted the doc bout my face too..and he gave me a lotion form thingy and a box of tablets..omg..
Im craving for potato chips right now..omg..sinful temptation, aint doing my face or weight any good. *CONTROL!* i guess i'll rest for a while, and head of for work later.
I highly doubt i'll be gg to school tmr either, doc asked me to rest more, but since i gave schedule at work already, and i highly doubt there will be another staff companying me tonight, i beta not report sick. Or else..i dont know.hahas..
i'll go catch some rest now..ciaoz
After passing sz her paper, i went to see the doc..my gawd is so ex! it's $56 bucks..omg..luckily mum was with me so i need not pay =x hahas..Some infection shyt and ya i've consulted the doc bout my face too..and he gave me a lotion form thingy and a box of tablets..omg..
Im craving for potato chips right now..omg..sinful temptation, aint doing my face or weight any good. *CONTROL!* i guess i'll rest for a while, and head of for work later.
I highly doubt i'll be gg to school tmr either, doc asked me to rest more, but since i gave schedule at work already, and i highly doubt there will be another staff companying me tonight, i beta not report sick. Or else..i dont know.hahas..
i'll go catch some rest now..ciaoz
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Exercise for me.
Wasnt really something to talk about tt happened last night during the phone convo.
Mas came to pick me up after pickin up da and headed off to josh's place for badminton session..LOL..can u believe it, we're actually having a healthy lifestyle =)
Had some problems once agaiin. This time round -for a moment i thought i was going to die on the spot.
He said it out himself. (Tears formed immediately)
I've got no choice but to let him know of my situation. I don't think it's anything nice or fascinating to talk about espically it's about my family life. No doubt he's my bf, i don't want him to be so worried over me, he has his things to worry about too..i dont want him have extra stress/burden.It's stupid. my situation is fcuked up.
My weekends are over, it's already Sunday..
Got to do my BFD project tmr, no more delay. And after which, i've got work. =( arghs..
i miss dear in many ways.
But at times it seems like we're both too drained.
The tv is fcuking noisy! I guess my dad has some hearing problem, he turned on the volume so loud i hate it..argh!
Might be gg for a jog later, don;t know not sure. Depends.
Mas came to pick me up after pickin up da and headed off to josh's place for badminton session..LOL..can u believe it, we're actually having a healthy lifestyle =)
Had some problems once agaiin. This time round -for a moment i thought i was going to die on the spot.
He said it out himself. (Tears formed immediately)
I've got no choice but to let him know of my situation. I don't think it's anything nice or fascinating to talk about espically it's about my family life. No doubt he's my bf, i don't want him to be so worried over me, he has his things to worry about too..i dont want him have extra stress/burden.It's stupid. my situation is fcuked up.
My weekends are over, it's already Sunday..
Got to do my BFD project tmr, no more delay. And after which, i've got work. =( arghs..
i miss dear in many ways.
But at times it seems like we're both too drained.
The tv is fcuking noisy! I guess my dad has some hearing problem, he turned on the volume so loud i hate it..argh!
Might be gg for a jog later, don;t know not sure. Depends.
looking back.
Once again, im looking abck at my past posts. When me and u first got together, how awfully shy the both of us were, to a whole new different thing now, as though we knew each other for more than a few years..
Through time, people changes. People are everchanging. Changes so fast, grew tired of things easily, resulting in contradiction. I seriously can't get back to sleep i've only manage to like read my Feb post till about April's post and it took me about an hour already. I smiled at most of my post, because through those post it brings back all the "Honeymoon Period Memories" with da. We were so sweet back then, it's not that we're not now anymore, it's just that..we're more different from the past?..Well when people are in the relationship long enough, we'll somewhat know or understand our partners to a certain extend. Ya i guess that's how i can put it. No doubt we're fighting more than usual now, even to a point when both of us can just ignore each other, walking in the supermarket, but aint talking to each other and just acted normal with friends but aint with ourselves. Hurtful things/words came direct into our faces, no more giving chances. No more giving in. It felt kind of stupid to an outsiders point of view becuase we never settled our matters calmly, the way we approach the matter was like at times, shouting, with all the "fuck this fuck that,fucking this fucking that"..maybe its not me to use all these FANCIFUL words, seriously. But to dear it's normal for him cus all these while he's been saying all these.
From the starting when Da was so protective of me not wanting to do anything to hurt me physically, till now...we can pinch each other, flicked each other, even when i told him my left finger which i hurt it a few months back while playing basket ball that index finger on my left hand, up till now...it's hasn't fully recovered yet!!! and it hurts even more when it's being cracked!
Maybe it's due to too many rounds of fight we had that, at times we can't stand each other. But eventually, we'll recover and be loving again. It's like we're acting in a story, for a moment we can be real sweet, the next moment u know it, we're fighting me throwing tantrums and he like a wild beast..yes..he's like a beast at times when we quarrelled...
Quarrels makes relationship turn sour, real sour to a point when sometimes you just felt like letting go..But i know it'll hurt even more if it actually happened. We say things that we don't mean to when we quarrelled, it's like the both of us are real stubborn, neither of us wants to give in, fight till the end. That's how our relationship works..
Watched movie with the usuals.."The Click" a real touching movie i must say..I cried. It's real sad..
Imagine if i had that remote and everytime me and dar fights, i'll fast forward that page..omg..i don't want to fast forward my life man..
Seems like i've grumbled quite alot of things..
=(
wth..it took me bout 15mins to blog..OMg..how long winded am i?..
* i still wana watch fireworks =(
Through time, people changes. People are everchanging. Changes so fast, grew tired of things easily, resulting in contradiction. I seriously can't get back to sleep i've only manage to like read my Feb post till about April's post and it took me about an hour already. I smiled at most of my post, because through those post it brings back all the "Honeymoon Period Memories" with da. We were so sweet back then, it's not that we're not now anymore, it's just that..we're more different from the past?..Well when people are in the relationship long enough, we'll somewhat know or understand our partners to a certain extend. Ya i guess that's how i can put it. No doubt we're fighting more than usual now, even to a point when both of us can just ignore each other, walking in the supermarket, but aint talking to each other and just acted normal with friends but aint with ourselves. Hurtful things/words came direct into our faces, no more giving chances. No more giving in. It felt kind of stupid to an outsiders point of view becuase we never settled our matters calmly, the way we approach the matter was like at times, shouting, with all the "fuck this fuck that,fucking this fucking that"..maybe its not me to use all these FANCIFUL words, seriously. But to dear it's normal for him cus all these while he's been saying all these.
From the starting when Da was so protective of me not wanting to do anything to hurt me physically, till now...we can pinch each other, flicked each other, even when i told him my left finger which i hurt it a few months back while playing basket ball that index finger on my left hand, up till now...it's hasn't fully recovered yet!!! and it hurts even more when it's being cracked!
Maybe it's due to too many rounds of fight we had that, at times we can't stand each other. But eventually, we'll recover and be loving again. It's like we're acting in a story, for a moment we can be real sweet, the next moment u know it, we're fighting me throwing tantrums and he like a wild beast..yes..he's like a beast at times when we quarrelled...
Quarrels makes relationship turn sour, real sour to a point when sometimes you just felt like letting go..But i know it'll hurt even more if it actually happened. We say things that we don't mean to when we quarrelled, it's like the both of us are real stubborn, neither of us wants to give in, fight till the end. That's how our relationship works..
Watched movie with the usuals.."The Click" a real touching movie i must say..I cried. It's real sad..
Imagine if i had that remote and everytime me and dar fights, i'll fast forward that page..omg..i don't want to fast forward my life man..
Seems like i've grumbled quite alot of things..
=(
wth..it took me bout 15mins to blog..OMg..how long winded am i?..
* i still wana watch fireworks =(
cant sleep
For some reasons, i can't get back to sleep. Therefore i've got no choice, but to turn on the com so as to company me till later.I'm still tired. But i can't get back to sleep. I guess for these few days i'm gonna be back to a zombie, like the past once again..argh! i hate this.
-unwell.
-unwell.
Friday, August 04, 2006
arghhhh
arghhh..i feel hungry, tired, feel like gg for a swim, i don't know what im thinking.
The Excel exam was a killer for ME today. I've missed out quite alot of things, i didnt autofit the columns, landscape one of the reports, omitted my index number, instead of using &Date, i went to typed it out manually, argh wtf, i guess my marks are all gonna be deducted...ya im STUPID..
My arms are once again swelled. After receiving the terrible spikes from my coach, it has resulted in some slight bruises on it.
Had prawn bee hoon soup for lunch once again with aud,van and von. Spicy like mad, with lots of chili padi, sets my tongue on fire..hahas..but the feeling was shiok! hahahs..which made me feel more hungry after it.stupid shit. hahas..
National day coming real soon =) there will be a few more days of fireworks after National Day, saw the notice on TVMobile today while i was on my way to school, hehe =))
I don't think i wana go to school on Tue, some post National Day celebration i guess?..well im just thinking only..not confirmed yet of anything or whatsoever.
Working morning shift tomorrow at HD =(( i getting kinda sick of that job, somehow.
Some ppl just talked to me online, hahas..weird. I aint in the mood to reply..
I guess i'll just catch a nap now, since I'm home so early today.
I've forgotten totally abt the BFD project..suppose to stayback today to get it done, feel like skipping work tomorrow, i don't mind doing BFD project cus i don't think it's gonna take 5-6 hrs to do..just simple things i guess?..hahas..don't know, not sure. haiis..
gtg..
byee
The Excel exam was a killer for ME today. I've missed out quite alot of things, i didnt autofit the columns, landscape one of the reports, omitted my index number, instead of using &Date, i went to typed it out manually, argh wtf, i guess my marks are all gonna be deducted...ya im STUPID..
My arms are once again swelled. After receiving the terrible spikes from my coach, it has resulted in some slight bruises on it.
Had prawn bee hoon soup for lunch once again with aud,van and von. Spicy like mad, with lots of chili padi, sets my tongue on fire..hahas..but the feeling was shiok! hahahs..which made me feel more hungry after it.stupid shit. hahas..
National day coming real soon =) there will be a few more days of fireworks after National Day, saw the notice on TVMobile today while i was on my way to school, hehe =))
I don't think i wana go to school on Tue, some post National Day celebration i guess?..well im just thinking only..not confirmed yet of anything or whatsoever.
Working morning shift tomorrow at HD =(( i getting kinda sick of that job, somehow.
Some ppl just talked to me online, hahas..weird. I aint in the mood to reply..
I guess i'll just catch a nap now, since I'm home so early today.
I've forgotten totally abt the BFD project..suppose to stayback today to get it done, feel like skipping work tomorrow, i don't mind doing BFD project cus i don't think it's gonna take 5-6 hrs to do..just simple things i guess?..hahas..don't know, not sure. haiis..
gtg..
byee
Thursday, August 03, 2006
tired.
im so not in the mood of going to school.
It's gonna be a LONG day in school, lessons till 4? or is it 3? and then training till 9pm. I exaggerate things, takes dumb project so seriously, simple slides takes me few weeks to fucking complete. Ridiculous.
I no longer feel like explaining anything anymore. I wana sleep at least 24hrs away.
I'm working at HD this sat, morning shift. Work and more work, I'm working Mon,Wed and Sat at Aranda next week, which means i'm gonna miss the fireworks on Wed. HD called me ytd and i didnt pick up their phone, reason being- I guess it's about my schedule... IM LAZY.
If it's isn't cause of handing in the project, i feel like skipping the OFA lesson to have more sleep. I doze off in the study room with my working uniform ytd, woke up in the middle of the night walking around the house lyk a zombie changed out of my uniform and get back to sleep. Im lazy to even go iron my clothes, i guess i can't make it on time once again to meet von at the interchange, hahas..
Set my priorites right--
It nearly ended.
Dear hasnt been sleeping much lately, he has tons of things to do. Lots of test coming up, have more rest when u can dear. U need slp too.
Saw HER ytd.
Dear found a job. Till then both of us will be working alot.
argh, it looks like it's gonna rain outside real soon, can smell that familiar scent before the rain.
never found solutions, never knew.
-actions speaks louder than words- What have u got joanne? ( I think to myself...blank in my mind)
-silent mind in troubled moments...-
It's gonna be a LONG day in school, lessons till 4? or is it 3? and then training till 9pm. I exaggerate things, takes dumb project so seriously, simple slides takes me few weeks to fucking complete. Ridiculous.
I no longer feel like explaining anything anymore. I wana sleep at least 24hrs away.
I'm working at HD this sat, morning shift. Work and more work, I'm working Mon,Wed and Sat at Aranda next week, which means i'm gonna miss the fireworks on Wed. HD called me ytd and i didnt pick up their phone, reason being- I guess it's about my schedule... IM LAZY.
If it's isn't cause of handing in the project, i feel like skipping the OFA lesson to have more sleep. I doze off in the study room with my working uniform ytd, woke up in the middle of the night walking around the house lyk a zombie changed out of my uniform and get back to sleep. Im lazy to even go iron my clothes, i guess i can't make it on time once again to meet von at the interchange, hahas..
Set my priorites right--
It nearly ended.
Dear hasnt been sleeping much lately, he has tons of things to do. Lots of test coming up, have more rest when u can dear. U need slp too.
Saw HER ytd.
Dear found a job. Till then both of us will be working alot.
argh, it looks like it's gonna rain outside real soon, can smell that familiar scent before the rain.
never found solutions, never knew.
-actions speaks louder than words- What have u got joanne? ( I think to myself...blank in my mind)
-silent mind in troubled moments...-
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
-
well, im suppose to be sound asleep, but oh wells..i cant. Im wide awake for god knows what reason.
guess i'll continue with my project..im having bad outbreaks once again!!! arghs!!!! =(
kinda hungry right now, cant eat! cus it's bad to snack in the middle of the night, esp at such hours..arrgh..wth..
was so FAT conscious today..hahahs..oh well..
It happened in school during lunch. People involved were, Audrey,Von,Van,SZ and Nysha. hahas had a hell of time at Campus Heaven, i had Set A for lunch..consisting of Chicken fillet, rice and colesaw. hmmm, i guess i was real hungry..manage to complete my meal. hahas..and von,van,aud can still say they're on diet, lol..they had pizza and chicken wing. LOL..omg, aud and van was fighting over who should eat more of the chicken..lol..crap but darn funny ending up with me and von laughing lyk mad..
Wasn't really a fine day for Dear, he's stressed up with the recording tingy, haiis..=(
irresponsible people, i dont want go into detail.
Went back to Aranda just now and made dear company me. wanted to see him...
Adam made a tropical drink for me and dear to share. Mixture of pineapple and erm orange?..hahas..cant rem..well..it taste alrights..getting my pay on the 7th!!!! omg..7 more days of struggle..OMG! i forgot to wish fang her bdae!! msg her now..lol..
alriite im back, omg time really flies man, zoom past!..we're growing old man!! turnin 19 soon!! eeee!! i dunwana grow up..=(
Was talkin to dear on the web cam when he got back home..hahas..he looks cute and at the same time real attractive, handsome. just felt lyk huggin him then and there..hahas..hugging the screen?..i guess i would be crazy to do that..hahas..
enough of my bullshitting..
good nites everyone. =)
with love,
joanne
guess i'll continue with my project..im having bad outbreaks once again!!! arghs!!!! =(
kinda hungry right now, cant eat! cus it's bad to snack in the middle of the night, esp at such hours..arrgh..wth..
was so FAT conscious today..hahahs..oh well..
It happened in school during lunch. People involved were, Audrey,Von,Van,SZ and Nysha. hahas had a hell of time at Campus Heaven, i had Set A for lunch..consisting of Chicken fillet, rice and colesaw. hmmm, i guess i was real hungry..manage to complete my meal. hahas..and von,van,aud can still say they're on diet, lol..they had pizza and chicken wing. LOL..omg, aud and van was fighting over who should eat more of the chicken..lol..crap but darn funny ending up with me and von laughing lyk mad..
Wasn't really a fine day for Dear, he's stressed up with the recording tingy, haiis..=(
irresponsible people, i dont want go into detail.
Went back to Aranda just now and made dear company me. wanted to see him...
Adam made a tropical drink for me and dear to share. Mixture of pineapple and erm orange?..hahas..cant rem..well..it taste alrights..getting my pay on the 7th!!!! omg..7 more days of struggle..OMG! i forgot to wish fang her bdae!! msg her now..lol..
alriite im back, omg time really flies man, zoom past!..we're growing old man!! turnin 19 soon!! eeee!! i dunwana grow up..=(
Was talkin to dear on the web cam when he got back home..hahas..he looks cute and at the same time real attractive, handsome. just felt lyk huggin him then and there..hahas..hugging the screen?..i guess i would be crazy to do that..hahas..
enough of my bullshitting..
good nites everyone. =)
with love,
joanne
Sunday, July 30, 2006
im happy =)
i was late for work by an hour today =x
Eve gave me a shock at TAmp's MRT platform, i wasnt paying much attention to the passer-by and she was lucky to sneak up in me and gave me a shock of my life..hahas..that gurl..YOU LIED!!! says who that u put on weight !!!! Ur're still the same !!!..SKINNY!!!..and one thing for sure..she is getting PRETTIER!!! I SWEAR!!!
well, was kinda busy at work today, customers came in all at once, busy till it was time for me to knock off and head down town to meet my dear! =)
Well, i wasnt informed by my bf that they had gone to HMV, therefore..i gotta walk back to HMv from WIsma..oh wells..i should had called again upon nearing the destination. hahas..i aint blaming or anything..so yea.
Was kind of hungry as i didnt had lunch at work, was too busy though. Met up with bf,mas and kenn at HMV and we shopped around a while..Dear bought himself a pair of earrings. hahas..looks kinda small though..but oh wells, gotta do with it first =) hehe.All of them felt tired, as i was kind of hungry and being the fact that they cant really make decisions lol, i've decided to head to the nearest- Cine Leisure, to have my late lunch..hahas..i had Yoshinoya. yummy =)
Followed by KFC popcorn chicken wahahaha..so much for dieting =x
After all the resting and sheat, we made our way to PS. Just to play guitar freaks. I own my bf =x hahahs..well..he's good too..he own me at Drums..hahas..after the "jammin session" lol, we headed home. Sorry bout it MAs and Kenn..hahas..well..went over to dear's place..we talked about alot of stuff =)
i like the feeling of just lyking on dear's chest and just talk about everything and anything..our plannings..lol..
It felt so "future" =) hehe.
He's my 1st bf ever that could just talk out everything on how we felt..just anything..and i kinda liked that feeling =) chatted till bout 11.45pm when his mum came back..so we head of for supper at 85 hahahs! OMG..im gaining back the FATS..=x
alrights, i guess i gotta crash soon..meeting my p.sch frens tmr at 12pm..omg..its nearing 3 and im still so full of energy..must be the oyster omelette.
gonna take loads of pics tmr..hahahs..
alrights. good nite readers =)
[Dj still going strong =) ]
Eve gave me a shock at TAmp's MRT platform, i wasnt paying much attention to the passer-by and she was lucky to sneak up in me and gave me a shock of my life..hahas..that gurl..YOU LIED!!! says who that u put on weight !!!! Ur're still the same !!!..SKINNY!!!..and one thing for sure..she is getting PRETTIER!!! I SWEAR!!!
well, was kinda busy at work today, customers came in all at once, busy till it was time for me to knock off and head down town to meet my dear! =)
Well, i wasnt informed by my bf that they had gone to HMV, therefore..i gotta walk back to HMv from WIsma..oh wells..i should had called again upon nearing the destination. hahas..i aint blaming or anything..so yea.
Was kind of hungry as i didnt had lunch at work, was too busy though. Met up with bf,mas and kenn at HMV and we shopped around a while..Dear bought himself a pair of earrings. hahas..looks kinda small though..but oh wells, gotta do with it first =) hehe.All of them felt tired, as i was kind of hungry and being the fact that they cant really make decisions lol, i've decided to head to the nearest- Cine Leisure, to have my late lunch..hahas..i had Yoshinoya. yummy =)
Followed by KFC popcorn chicken wahahaha..so much for dieting =x
After all the resting and sheat, we made our way to PS. Just to play guitar freaks. I own my bf =x hahahs..well..he's good too..he own me at Drums..hahas..after the "jammin session" lol, we headed home. Sorry bout it MAs and Kenn..hahas..well..went over to dear's place..we talked about alot of stuff =)
i like the feeling of just lyking on dear's chest and just talk about everything and anything..our plannings..lol..
It felt so "future" =) hehe.
He's my 1st bf ever that could just talk out everything on how we felt..just anything..and i kinda liked that feeling =) chatted till bout 11.45pm when his mum came back..so we head of for supper at 85 hahahs! OMG..im gaining back the FATS..=x
alrights, i guess i gotta crash soon..meeting my p.sch frens tmr at 12pm..omg..its nearing 3 and im still so full of energy..must be the oyster omelette.
gonna take loads of pics tmr..hahahs..
alrights. good nite readers =)
[Dj still going strong =) ]
Saturday, July 29, 2006
true or conincidence? for u to decide..
---------------JANUARY BABY--------------------
pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.
-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
------------JUNE BABY ------------- You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
utgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. ]________________________________________________________________________
pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.
-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
------------JUNE BABY ------------- You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
utgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. ]________________________________________________________________________
life..
Most of the time people are contradicting themselves,
sometime people changes real fast that you aint sure if tt change is temporary or true..
How should people of my age be like?..
What's a lifestyle of a 19 to be?..
What will my future be like in a few years down the road?..would it be happily ever after?..
I guess that only happens in fairytales..
I guess im uttering nonsense of my own once again.
Aint sure of what im blogging these days, hahas..oh wells..
Met up with dear just now..no doubt its only for a while..just missed helding his hand..
missed his hugs too..hahas..= ) im afraid of falling deeper, till there's no return. Or is it, i've fallen into the pit of love. There's always some part of the past haunting me.
Afraid that history repeats itself once again. But i have the trust in him. It's only bad past experiences, that creates some form of phobia in me.
The more we dont get to see each other much, the more my feelings grew.
It's the absence that made me miss him even more than usual. =)
I hope its not a bad thing, i've fallen deeper in love with you.
"I LOVE YOU"
sometime people changes real fast that you aint sure if tt change is temporary or true..
How should people of my age be like?..
What's a lifestyle of a 19 to be?..
What will my future be like in a few years down the road?..would it be happily ever after?..
I guess that only happens in fairytales..
I guess im uttering nonsense of my own once again.
Aint sure of what im blogging these days, hahas..oh wells..
Met up with dear just now..no doubt its only for a while..just missed helding his hand..
missed his hugs too..hahas..= ) im afraid of falling deeper, till there's no return. Or is it, i've fallen into the pit of love. There's always some part of the past haunting me.
Afraid that history repeats itself once again. But i have the trust in him. It's only bad past experiences, that creates some form of phobia in me.
The more we dont get to see each other much, the more my feelings grew.
It's the absence that made me miss him even more than usual. =)
I hope its not a bad thing, i've fallen deeper in love with you.
"I LOVE YOU"
Friday, July 28, 2006
Aching
Was it meant to be?..
Finally its the weekends again. I can finally rest once again. MIssed entrepreneurship meeting once again, hahas..well it just slipped my mind =x
My whole body is aching due to the vball training yesterday. aRghs..Both arms swelled, due to the spiking of my coach. argh...my knees feels like its been locked, unable to bend them. Thus giving me lots of problem walking, especially climbing of the stairs, had cramps today, PAINFUL! Had accounts test, hope i can get 100 for this.
School overall was kinda slack today, working tmr morning...hope there wont be much customer?...feel like taking mc =x
Sometimes people wonders, what it would be like to be with so and so..
Up till now..people still wonders...
I wonder...haiis..
It's like u came the wrong time, wrong place...
At times it felt wrong, or is it most of the time for my case..
Believe it or not..i always feel like a 3rd party..stupid sheat..
Well you cant control what people are thinking, well..i just can't help thinking either, cus i was never in the league. Just a spare.
Well..getting my pay in like 3 days time? =x hahahs..yesh! finally..
What would you do if you were in my situation?..
Well, i guess no one does cus i aint saying anything about it..
Just keep it that way, short and sweet.
i dont have to say anything to you.
Deep down inside. kept within.
Finally its the weekends again. I can finally rest once again. MIssed entrepreneurship meeting once again, hahas..well it just slipped my mind =x
My whole body is aching due to the vball training yesterday. aRghs..Both arms swelled, due to the spiking of my coach. argh...my knees feels like its been locked, unable to bend them. Thus giving me lots of problem walking, especially climbing of the stairs, had cramps today, PAINFUL! Had accounts test, hope i can get 100 for this.
School overall was kinda slack today, working tmr morning...hope there wont be much customer?...feel like taking mc =x
Sometimes people wonders, what it would be like to be with so and so..
Up till now..people still wonders...
I wonder...haiis..
It's like u came the wrong time, wrong place...
At times it felt wrong, or is it most of the time for my case..
Believe it or not..i always feel like a 3rd party..stupid sheat..
Well you cant control what people are thinking, well..i just can't help thinking either, cus i was never in the league. Just a spare.
Well..getting my pay in like 3 days time? =x hahahs..yesh! finally..
What would you do if you were in my situation?..
Well, i guess no one does cus i aint saying anything about it..
Just keep it that way, short and sweet.
i dont have to say anything to you.
Deep down inside. kept within.
Monday, July 24, 2006
a day at Toy R' Us
Was a tiring day in school today. Felt real lethargic. Manage to push myself to complete my accounts. Wasnt really active in school today.
Met up with Dear after school, as we had to return the Dvds we owed for like about a month plus? hahahs..
i wanted to renew my library book but i was lazy to go to the library..wait till tmr bahhs..hahas..
After returnin the Dvds, we went TM to walk around. Walkin aimlessy till we were exhausted looking for a place to sit down. The weather was so hot today, it's like the air-con have malfunctioned.
After walkin for so long, we went into our favourite shop Toy R' Us..
It was real hillarious!!! ahhahs.. we played soccer, Star wars returns LOL..i was laughing till my stomach can't take it. LOL..It was fun spending time in the shop. WE played soccer till we got scolded by the sales person..=x
Actually wanted to follow Dear to meet up with the usuals for dinner, but i was too tired so i went back hm first.
i guess tt's all abt it..
bleah =)
love u.
Met up with Dear after school, as we had to return the Dvds we owed for like about a month plus? hahahs..
i wanted to renew my library book but i was lazy to go to the library..wait till tmr bahhs..hahas..
After returnin the Dvds, we went TM to walk around. Walkin aimlessy till we were exhausted looking for a place to sit down. The weather was so hot today, it's like the air-con have malfunctioned.
After walkin for so long, we went into our favourite shop Toy R' Us..
It was real hillarious!!! ahhahs.. we played soccer, Star wars returns LOL..i was laughing till my stomach can't take it. LOL..It was fun spending time in the shop. WE played soccer till we got scolded by the sales person..=x
Actually wanted to follow Dear to meet up with the usuals for dinner, but i was too tired so i went back hm first.
i guess tt's all abt it..
bleah =)
love u.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
What A Day.
My mum didnt wake me up at 9 today as what i asked her to. Reason being, she was at work and her boss was around therefore unable to call me. Mr Tan said he would wake me up. But neither did he. i woke up on my own at 10. Was like a "gan jiong spider:" Rush ironin of my clothes,bathe and do a quick pack with stuffs i need and out i left the nest.
So now i've finally know my way of going to UBI. Either i take 65 or 22 from Tamp interchange and then alight at some stop and wait for 93. And "TADA!" im at UBI Driving centre. Well lame..alrights alrights. After the test, Dear came down, as he wanted to book for PDL. But eventually, lol we didnt book anything. After dear got his queue number. We went down for lunch, by the time we got back up, the counter was already CLOSED. ahahas and Dear went down for nothing...well....just treat it like u went there to pick up ur gf who just failed her FTT?..arghs..gotta rebook agains..
Went Suntec to watch "Pirates" not bad, preferred the first one though. Even though i've like forgotten the stroyline for the part 1. Looking forward to part 3 seems like more things would be revealed. SOrry Dear,, for making u watch it with me for the Second time. Had B&J lol..we shall buy one bowl each the next visit =x ahahs
Headed off after that..wasnt really a good day once again. My eyes feels heavy and itchy right now. Too much of getting back at each other. I can't help myself from going away from him..so i was the one doing all the walking up to him. Till a point where i just felt like staying stagnant. and Dear thinks tt i dont bother bout him. Well..i "layan" if tt's how its spelt. "Layan" me sometimes ar..=(
Im kinda sad though when it feels like this. and Dear is real stubborn..lol..stupid shit. If he doesnt wana move means he doesnt wana move. Nothing stops him. Not even me. I guess must be like some "powerful figure/person" has tt ability to bring him down?.. =x
Everyone changes everything changes. You wont expect this person to be the same 10yrs down the road. It's always the starting of the relationship tt is fun and sweet. After that, it's up to u to decide. Maybe i've caused him to change back to what he was sort of like in the past?
How do i help to make situations better? Are expectations too high here?..
I don't dare to think about the future..
I'm afraid the future freaks me out.
think about it.
Self-refelction.
Who am i?
So now i've finally know my way of going to UBI. Either i take 65 or 22 from Tamp interchange and then alight at some stop and wait for 93. And "TADA!" im at UBI Driving centre. Well lame..alrights alrights. After the test, Dear came down, as he wanted to book for PDL. But eventually, lol we didnt book anything. After dear got his queue number. We went down for lunch, by the time we got back up, the counter was already CLOSED. ahahas and Dear went down for nothing...well....just treat it like u went there to pick up ur gf who just failed her FTT?..arghs..gotta rebook agains..
Went Suntec to watch "Pirates" not bad, preferred the first one though. Even though i've like forgotten the stroyline for the part 1. Looking forward to part 3 seems like more things would be revealed. SOrry Dear,, for making u watch it with me for the Second time. Had B&J lol..we shall buy one bowl each the next visit =x ahahs
Headed off after that..wasnt really a good day once again. My eyes feels heavy and itchy right now. Too much of getting back at each other. I can't help myself from going away from him..so i was the one doing all the walking up to him. Till a point where i just felt like staying stagnant. and Dear thinks tt i dont bother bout him. Well..i "layan" if tt's how its spelt. "Layan" me sometimes ar..=(
Im kinda sad though when it feels like this. and Dear is real stubborn..lol..stupid shit. If he doesnt wana move means he doesnt wana move. Nothing stops him. Not even me. I guess must be like some "powerful figure/person" has tt ability to bring him down?.. =x
Everyone changes everything changes. You wont expect this person to be the same 10yrs down the road. It's always the starting of the relationship tt is fun and sweet. After that, it's up to u to decide. Maybe i've caused him to change back to what he was sort of like in the past?
How do i help to make situations better? Are expectations too high here?..
I don't dare to think about the future..
I'm afraid the future freaks me out.
think about it.
Self-refelction.
Who am i?
Friday, July 21, 2006
wish me luck.
Having my FTT tmr..11:35-12:45 if im not wrong..well hope i'll pass this time round. Dear will be accompaning me dwn to UBI to do his PDL and hopefully mine too..
Considering whether to take auto or manual..haiis..Well b4 i get to tt..i've still gotta pass my FTT first..arghs..
Well lets recap what happened today..
Went to work as usual..was in a world of my own at work..because im working the mornin shift so i got the rest of the day to enjoy myself =) Didnt touch any homework today..OMg..School starting on MOnday..argggghhhh..i want a longer holiday man! arghs!
So far my project only has like 3 slides..and im still stuck there..lazy to continue man...
Alrights after finishing work..i went home straight..and Dear came over my place to slack..hahas..cus i was lazy to go over his place..poor thing sia..hahas..the initial plan was to watch "Pirates Of the Carribean.." but oh wells..preferred going out to meet the rest to slack..don't really have the "feel:" to watch Pirates..well..yupps..
Dear has been asking me all these weird questions lately..like "Will be angry if i looked at other girls?"..well dear..i'll use back the same example u gave me today..put urself in my shoes.
Well...actually it depends..just watching doesnt really mean anything. Unless u went to continus fantasizing over it..and talk on and on abt it and all..well u noe...Dats kinda too much los..=x i mean "IF"...
Stupid Dear smacked my head real hard today...idiot..it HURTS! u stupid shit..hahhas..i didnt ask for much did i? i just wana bite ur face..=x hahahas..dun ask me why but i always feel like biting him..=x
In a way just holdin hands with Dear made me feel love =) dunno wad tt shit head tinks?
hahahas oOopps =x
tt's jus how i love to call him..lol..but u noe i love u dear =)
feeling real tired now..i guess i'll read through one more round on my FTT book before i crash..
as promised..
good niites people..wish me luck
peace out.
Dj still going on strong.
Considering whether to take auto or manual..haiis..Well b4 i get to tt..i've still gotta pass my FTT first..arghs..
Well lets recap what happened today..
Went to work as usual..was in a world of my own at work..because im working the mornin shift so i got the rest of the day to enjoy myself =) Didnt touch any homework today..OMg..School starting on MOnday..argggghhhh..i want a longer holiday man! arghs!
So far my project only has like 3 slides..and im still stuck there..lazy to continue man...
Alrights after finishing work..i went home straight..and Dear came over my place to slack..hahas..cus i was lazy to go over his place..poor thing sia..hahas..the initial plan was to watch "Pirates Of the Carribean.." but oh wells..preferred going out to meet the rest to slack..don't really have the "feel:" to watch Pirates..well..yupps..
Dear has been asking me all these weird questions lately..like "Will be angry if i looked at other girls?"..well dear..i'll use back the same example u gave me today..put urself in my shoes.
Well...actually it depends..just watching doesnt really mean anything. Unless u went to continus fantasizing over it..and talk on and on abt it and all..well u noe...Dats kinda too much los..=x i mean "IF"...
Stupid Dear smacked my head real hard today...idiot..it HURTS! u stupid shit..hahhas..i didnt ask for much did i? i just wana bite ur face..=x hahahas..dun ask me why but i always feel like biting him..=x
In a way just holdin hands with Dear made me feel love =) dunno wad tt shit head tinks?
hahahas oOopps =x
tt's jus how i love to call him..lol..but u noe i love u dear =)
feeling real tired now..i guess i'll read through one more round on my FTT book before i crash..
as promised..
good niites people..wish me luck
peace out.
Dj still going on strong.
gaming and free meals
Yeap no doubt, i said FREE meals..hahah..shall not go into detail bout tt =x
Well..let's see, i woke up abt 11plus today? and yea was online all the way till about 4plus in the noon..doing my project and at the same time changing my blogskin..hahas..i liked this blogskin better than my previous..wanted to search back my older one but cant be found.
Dear called asking if wana go play lan game..hahas..got kinda addicted to "Battlefield" intro by dear and the rest..hahas.. bleahs..
Well, imagine tt even while gaming we could quarrel! arghs! felt bad though cus i use parent's name for my character name..and ya you should know who's i used... I tried changing it..but i don't understand why my changed name wasnt appeared on the rest of the guys screen..and well..i was kinda pist off myself..so i quit the game and went into maple..hahas..and i saw ms heng shi hui inside..lol..sorry gal..i use those "code words" lol..
I saw my ex at katong..omg.He looked lyk bangla man..ahahs..but tt wasnt the main point..so yeap.
eh i have a secret to tell u..smoking is bad for health..hahas =x
well i guess being in a relationship..you gotta let go of quite a number of things. Things like hanging out late into the night with friends..you know just hang out, chilling..nothing bad alrites..well..i still hang out with friends and all..but i wont miss out my bf =) dont want him to feel insecure..
you just gotta put urself in ur partners point of view of what they think of how he/she feels with the what you are doing and stuff like that..im bad to a certain extend cus i tend to be selfish at times only to pity myself when i find that the things he did hurt me...But actually im doing things that hurts him..tt's y we got into quarrells and stuff..Well..is it due to the ego? hahahah =x
Well both of us are bad! =x after reading through his blog..i do see a chnange in him..in myself too..Both changing for sort of the worst! lol..but we're sweeter than the past =) Cus the complicated love of ours is growing fonder for each other? LOL..what am i talking about man?!!! LOL..readers sorry for the "hard to digest fact of mine?" LOL bleahs! alrights alrights! i'll try to stop my nonsense with the parents name shit..and me being kind of vulgar..i must say its through the influence of you! Mr Daryl!!! hahaha..i dont use horrible vulgarities before if u realise..=x i think its cus of the gaming too..OH NO!!! urgh! uncivilise =x..
enough of my nonsense...gotta go slp now..tiired man..
nittes =)
love u (",)
Well..let's see, i woke up abt 11plus today? and yea was online all the way till about 4plus in the noon..doing my project and at the same time changing my blogskin..hahas..i liked this blogskin better than my previous..wanted to search back my older one but cant be found.
Dear called asking if wana go play lan game..hahas..got kinda addicted to "Battlefield" intro by dear and the rest..hahas.. bleahs..
Well, imagine tt even while gaming we could quarrel! arghs! felt bad though cus i use parent's name for my character name..and ya you should know who's i used... I tried changing it..but i don't understand why my changed name wasnt appeared on the rest of the guys screen..and well..i was kinda pist off myself..so i quit the game and went into maple..hahas..and i saw ms heng shi hui inside..lol..sorry gal..i use those "code words" lol..
I saw my ex at katong..omg.He looked lyk bangla man..ahahs..but tt wasnt the main point..so yeap.
eh i have a secret to tell u..smoking is bad for health..hahas =x
well i guess being in a relationship..you gotta let go of quite a number of things. Things like hanging out late into the night with friends..you know just hang out, chilling..nothing bad alrites..well..i still hang out with friends and all..but i wont miss out my bf =) dont want him to feel insecure..
you just gotta put urself in ur partners point of view of what they think of how he/she feels with the what you are doing and stuff like that..im bad to a certain extend cus i tend to be selfish at times only to pity myself when i find that the things he did hurt me...But actually im doing things that hurts him..tt's y we got into quarrells and stuff..Well..is it due to the ego? hahahah =x
Well both of us are bad! =x after reading through his blog..i do see a chnange in him..in myself too..Both changing for sort of the worst! lol..but we're sweeter than the past =) Cus the complicated love of ours is growing fonder for each other? LOL..what am i talking about man?!!! LOL..readers sorry for the "hard to digest fact of mine?" LOL bleahs! alrights alrights! i'll try to stop my nonsense with the parents name shit..and me being kind of vulgar..i must say its through the influence of you! Mr Daryl!!! hahaha..i dont use horrible vulgarities before if u realise..=x i think its cus of the gaming too..OH NO!!! urgh! uncivilise =x..
enough of my nonsense...gotta go slp now..tiired man..
nittes =)
love u (",)
Thursday, July 20, 2006
shutting down.
My eyes can barely open man, feeling real tired. Keeping myself awake by reading my superman's blogs.hahahas..im calling him right now for the 3rd time. 'ring....'
Hahahs that pig! should had bet with him! he COULD NOT WAKE UP TO DO HIS ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!!! arghs!..oh wells..what should i do?!!! arghs..he's definately sleepin throughout man...
Was working 2 places today once again..
There were bout 13 people today for lunch..one was the usual people..the Aranda staff and the other was just some walk-in customer...
arghs i'm lazy to blog the whole shift man..oh wells..the gist was that i liked the ballons meant as a gift for that lady's birthday.very nice =)
knocked off at 2 and headed down to haagen dazs. At first i was kinda lazy to start work..But after a while..i just crapped along with cecilia and monster..hahas..and kept myself busy..
Times passes real fast today, i realise i didnt had the time to even look at the clock today, or should i say i could not be bothered? ahahas..was thinkin of my guy today at work and i cant help it but msged him..i miss u alot today da =) ALOT!! arghs..
im dead tired now...'yawns'
nites people
sweet dreams..
Hahahs that pig! should had bet with him! he COULD NOT WAKE UP TO DO HIS ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!!! arghs!..oh wells..what should i do?!!! arghs..he's definately sleepin throughout man...
Was working 2 places today once again..
There were bout 13 people today for lunch..one was the usual people..the Aranda staff and the other was just some walk-in customer...
arghs i'm lazy to blog the whole shift man..oh wells..the gist was that i liked the ballons meant as a gift for that lady's birthday.very nice =)
knocked off at 2 and headed down to haagen dazs. At first i was kinda lazy to start work..But after a while..i just crapped along with cecilia and monster..hahas..and kept myself busy..
Times passes real fast today, i realise i didnt had the time to even look at the clock today, or should i say i could not be bothered? ahahas..was thinkin of my guy today at work and i cant help it but msged him..i miss u alot today da =) ALOT!! arghs..
im dead tired now...'yawns'
nites people
sweet dreams..
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
eye sore
My eyes feels heavy, and are smaller than usual. Suppose to wake up at 5 to do my hw but i drag till now. Thanks for ur kind testi Ms Heng. I'll remember that. hahas..well the other day meeting at Simpang sure was fun and me ordering a second serving of "Tissue" oh man..sinful indulgence..LOL..
I went to view everyone's profile on friendster to kill time lately. Hahahs, bad rites? Well i find it alrights..=x just anyone and everyone. Be it in my friend list or not, i just view view view. =x Well am i considered kaypo-in? well im sorry if you think i am. No offence ya? But i've just got nth better to do. Do add me as friends ya? hahas..i dont mind making more friends though. But im attached ya? hahas..
A long day at work ytd, but the total cover was only 11. hahas..
First time slpin at Aranda, and i had nightmares alr. i dreamt that Dar was being attacked by something..i guess it was snake or smth?..i've forgotten once i woke up. I jumped up immediately from that dream. Was scary though.
i tried to remain as my usual self at work, but was in the toilet for a while. Returning back to work with swollen eyes.Peep at work like Yan xian, asked me what happened... i just tried to divert away the question. I made myself hot milk with sugar and a little cocoa powder. It taste real nice =)
Yes i know it sounds a little weird but ya i don't drink milk..i wanted hot chocolate. So i tried my luck =x LOL
I close cashier fast and went home straight after. Logged onto the net for a while and headed for bed. Chatted with him for a while on the phone and i doze off fast after we hung up. Not able to think much, because of my splinting headache.
I scribbled on a paper at work, and it turned to be like of some song lyrics. A sad one. I dump it away after scribbling for a while.
sigh~ Enough of me blabbering nonsense..
i'm heading back to complete my accounts. Having lessons later.. ciaoz.
I went to view everyone's profile on friendster to kill time lately. Hahahs, bad rites? Well i find it alrights..=x just anyone and everyone. Be it in my friend list or not, i just view view view. =x Well am i considered kaypo-in? well im sorry if you think i am. No offence ya? But i've just got nth better to do. Do add me as friends ya? hahas..i dont mind making more friends though. But im attached ya? hahas..
A long day at work ytd, but the total cover was only 11. hahas..
First time slpin at Aranda, and i had nightmares alr. i dreamt that Dar was being attacked by something..i guess it was snake or smth?..i've forgotten once i woke up. I jumped up immediately from that dream. Was scary though.
i tried to remain as my usual self at work, but was in the toilet for a while. Returning back to work with swollen eyes.Peep at work like Yan xian, asked me what happened... i just tried to divert away the question. I made myself hot milk with sugar and a little cocoa powder. It taste real nice =)
Yes i know it sounds a little weird but ya i don't drink milk..i wanted hot chocolate. So i tried my luck =x LOL
I close cashier fast and went home straight after. Logged onto the net for a while and headed for bed. Chatted with him for a while on the phone and i doze off fast after we hung up. Not able to think much, because of my splinting headache.
I scribbled on a paper at work, and it turned to be like of some song lyrics. A sad one. I dump it away after scribbling for a while.
sigh~ Enough of me blabbering nonsense..
i'm heading back to complete my accounts. Having lessons later.. ciaoz.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
day went by.
was real bored at home today. intended to meet up wif sh earlier to bake cookies. a surprise for dear. But dragged the whole day as i wasnt really in the right mood to like go out and all..
Eventually..made up my mind and meetin sh at 5.
it was kinda fun baking and cookin..lol i helped out in cookin as i have not touched cookin for a real long time. Packed a little of the food and the cookies for Dear..
well i guess there's room for improvement?..
Met up with dear and the usual people for yet another slacking session. After which was joy ride to Jalan Kayu. Felt kinda bad cus jz wasn't able to follow us there cus the car was packed.
Some things happened at jalan kayu. But it was over soon..nothing much.
feeling tired now..
wana slp.. good nites.
i love u dear, im sorry for not being myself lately, i promise it'll go away.
i love u.
Eventually..made up my mind and meetin sh at 5.
it was kinda fun baking and cookin..lol i helped out in cookin as i have not touched cookin for a real long time. Packed a little of the food and the cookies for Dear..
well i guess there's room for improvement?..
Met up with dear and the usual people for yet another slacking session. After which was joy ride to Jalan Kayu. Felt kinda bad cus jz wasn't able to follow us there cus the car was packed.
Some things happened at jalan kayu. But it was over soon..nothing much.
feeling tired now..
wana slp.. good nites.
i love u dear, im sorry for not being myself lately, i promise it'll go away.
i love u.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
miseries.
people tend to self-pity when they are alone suffering.
it's so stupid.cus at tis point in time. one tends to think of oneself, discarding the feelings of others.
i am one of them. its so fucking stupid.
go away. don't come near me.
im selfish.
it's so stupid.cus at tis point in time. one tends to think of oneself, discarding the feelings of others.
i am one of them. its so fucking stupid.
go away. don't come near me.
im selfish.
awake
Had weird dreams last nite. hahas it's like im in a fantasy world. Was like saving the world with bears,and some other cartoon animals..lol..omg..dumb dream it was..
The first thing i did when i woke up was to check my hp.there was a miss call i was hopin it was bf.But it wasnt, just my fren.
Didnt went out with sh this mornin as planned, cus my cramps was hurting alot..wonder if it's necessary to see a doc? =(
im feeling better now after the long rest. Wonder if there's any plans today?
Wonder where is bf...
I hate wondering so much..arghs. i guess i'll go do my hw now..
bye.
The first thing i did when i woke up was to check my hp.there was a miss call i was hopin it was bf.But it wasnt, just my fren.
Didnt went out with sh this mornin as planned, cus my cramps was hurting alot..wonder if it's necessary to see a doc? =(
im feeling better now after the long rest. Wonder if there's any plans today?
Wonder where is bf...
I hate wondering so much..arghs. i guess i'll go do my hw now..
bye.
Friday, July 14, 2006
haiis
arghz..i've been slpin for tooooo long!!!!!!! whole day gone just like tt..just cus of the cramps..ah!!!!!
=( i guess he's asleep alr..didnt answer his phone.
a lonely night for me i guess..time when i start to let my imagination run wild.once again.
beeen thinking too much lately. What if it really happens? DO i know how to handle it? arghs..
missing bf alot now..
He's been real nice to me lately..for the past 2 days..hahas..i miss him alot now =(
Feel like calling him a few more times..but what if he's aslp? i don't want him to be grumpy though..hahs..
Never really go out with bf much lately..and my situation now..i doubt i wana go out either..
the bloody cramps!!!!! arghs!!!! =(
currently doing nothing jus online chattin with frens..
i miss u like crazy..
niites.
=( i guess he's asleep alr..didnt answer his phone.
a lonely night for me i guess..time when i start to let my imagination run wild.once again.
beeen thinking too much lately. What if it really happens? DO i know how to handle it? arghs..
missing bf alot now..
He's been real nice to me lately..for the past 2 days..hahas..i miss him alot now =(
Feel like calling him a few more times..but what if he's aslp? i don't want him to be grumpy though..hahs..
Never really go out with bf much lately..and my situation now..i doubt i wana go out either..
the bloody cramps!!!!! arghs!!!! =(
currently doing nothing jus online chattin with frens..
i miss u like crazy..
niites.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
alone to myself
finally a whole day of work off loaded. =)
all by myself me and com. At times i would think to myself about things..........
seriously, what would it be like without u?
that thought that just pop up in our conversation. Would u continue with ur pursue? hahas..well just can't help thinking and there's something weird about me, i'll usually encourage my bf to go for tt girl..hahas..guess i'm weird? I'll think it's not worth if my bf were to like give up on someone he really likes alot. This always happens. In all of my relationship.It's not about comparing or whatever. But i can't help it just thinkin of stuff like- what if i didnt appear in his life? i would have been a nobody till today. Just work, friends and maybe more work.
Don't ask me why but i seriously look down on myself.
Low self-esteem.
What would it be like in the near future?
no one knows a clue about it. neither u nor me?
What would u do if a teleporter existed?
What does true love means?
What am i talking about?
It just felt weird. Suddenly.
all by myself me and com. At times i would think to myself about things..........
seriously, what would it be like without u?
that thought that just pop up in our conversation. Would u continue with ur pursue? hahas..well just can't help thinking and there's something weird about me, i'll usually encourage my bf to go for tt girl..hahas..guess i'm weird? I'll think it's not worth if my bf were to like give up on someone he really likes alot. This always happens. In all of my relationship.It's not about comparing or whatever. But i can't help it just thinkin of stuff like- what if i didnt appear in his life? i would have been a nobody till today. Just work, friends and maybe more work.
Don't ask me why but i seriously look down on myself.
Low self-esteem.
What would it be like in the near future?
no one knows a clue about it. neither u nor me?
What would u do if a teleporter existed?
What does true love means?
What am i talking about?
It just felt weird. Suddenly.
when im with u.
doesnt matter what we do just as long as im with u =)
we've been on the rocks lately, ending up in bad situations. But its always sunshine after the rain. =)
being able to see u, just chase away my sadness. It's raining outside right now.
wanted to go over to his sch to meet up with him but well as per usual, im late =p hahahs..tt's nth new man. Always happens hahas.
So i just meet him at Clementi control. Well guess where we headed? right back from where i left. Tampines!!!! argh! i was thinking we might be having dinner at IKEA or smth =x arghz! but oh wells. missed him =) cant wait to see ya! hhahas..
Bf was real irritating! arghz! disturbed me all the way throughout the trip..but poor thing though..he gotta stand all the way back to Tampines =( sorry dear..didnt offer u my seat.
We're up for Pasta! craving fer pasta hahas! =)
so we headed straight fer Pasta Mania. And i guess that's where Dear grew kinda upset.Cant wait to leave the place? hahas..cus we saw TM. Actually if he didn't approach us. we wouldnt even noe he was outside. I can see Dear wasnt really happy bout it. Understood that. But we still stayed on to have our pasta.
That feeling of awkwardness. MY bf and my ex. But i don't feel anything. Cus my feelings fer bf is way much more =)
NO DOUBT.LOTSA TRUST. BF i LOVE U!
we've been on the rocks lately, ending up in bad situations. But its always sunshine after the rain. =)
being able to see u, just chase away my sadness. It's raining outside right now.
wanted to go over to his sch to meet up with him but well as per usual, im late =p hahahs..tt's nth new man. Always happens hahas.
So i just meet him at Clementi control. Well guess where we headed? right back from where i left. Tampines!!!! argh! i was thinking we might be having dinner at IKEA or smth =x arghz! but oh wells. missed him =) cant wait to see ya! hhahas..
Bf was real irritating! arghz! disturbed me all the way throughout the trip..but poor thing though..he gotta stand all the way back to Tampines =( sorry dear..didnt offer u my seat.
We're up for Pasta! craving fer pasta hahas! =)
so we headed straight fer Pasta Mania. And i guess that's where Dear grew kinda upset.Cant wait to leave the place? hahas..cus we saw TM. Actually if he didn't approach us. we wouldnt even noe he was outside. I can see Dear wasnt really happy bout it. Understood that. But we still stayed on to have our pasta.
That feeling of awkwardness. MY bf and my ex. But i don't feel anything. Cus my feelings fer bf is way much more =)
NO DOUBT.LOTSA TRUST. BF i LOVE U!
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
vexed.
Call me a noob. i seriously can't find any relevant pictures for my project. and thus i've yet started on it. I hope i don't waste my time like this.
Feeling moodless lately, might be due to the lack of sleep i got. But i woke up quite early today. Woke up bout 11 plus. My only off day. I'm working 2 places tmr once again. =( Kinda sick of working. I've like locked myself up from my social life. It's now only me and work. Even the time spend with bf is little. Just phone conversations. Friends are worst. Not contacted at all =(
Seems like the little exposure from people, i grew more sensitive of things. Feeling lonely in a way =(
It's like no one understands me. More of just going with the flow. Working seems to pull me down alot. It's hard to act strong anymore. Breaking down real easily lately. I don't wana cry so much. I hate that " sour feeling "
vexed.
Feeling moodless lately, might be due to the lack of sleep i got. But i woke up quite early today. Woke up bout 11 plus. My only off day. I'm working 2 places tmr once again. =( Kinda sick of working. I've like locked myself up from my social life. It's now only me and work. Even the time spend with bf is little. Just phone conversations. Friends are worst. Not contacted at all =(
Seems like the little exposure from people, i grew more sensitive of things. Feeling lonely in a way =(
It's like no one understands me. More of just going with the flow. Working seems to pull me down alot. It's hard to act strong anymore. Breaking down real easily lately. I don't wana cry so much. I hate that " sour feeling "
vexed.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
work
Been working lately, and have yet started on my project. Didn't really have the time to sit down in front of my com and blog about my life.
Went to my class chalet lately. Almost whole class was there. Had BBQ and slacked around. Played cards and took lots of photos with Audrey,Zhen,Von,Zara ahahs..wacky pics we took. Didnt stayed long.
Lately, i've been drowning myself with work. Feel kind of tired. Wanted to quit that job. But NO! i wont. Gonna Prove u wrong. It's like im immune to the "tidious" workload. i've learnt how to cope with it. School's starting soon. Homeworks yet completed. I'm so dead. I need some awakening!. I wana have fun than just work! arghz. NO $ how can i have fun? stupid contradicting shit. =(
And with mums ranting. Arghz! i just can't afford to be jobless.
i'm uttering nonsense once again. Gotta go prepare already. Working at HD @ 5pm.
byeeee.
Went to my class chalet lately. Almost whole class was there. Had BBQ and slacked around. Played cards and took lots of photos with Audrey,Zhen,Von,Zara ahahs..wacky pics we took. Didnt stayed long.
Lately, i've been drowning myself with work. Feel kind of tired. Wanted to quit that job. But NO! i wont. Gonna Prove u wrong. It's like im immune to the "tidious" workload. i've learnt how to cope with it. School's starting soon. Homeworks yet completed. I'm so dead. I need some awakening!. I wana have fun than just work! arghz. NO $ how can i have fun? stupid contradicting shit. =(
And with mums ranting. Arghz! i just can't afford to be jobless.
i'm uttering nonsense once again. Gotta go prepare already. Working at HD @ 5pm.
byeeee.
Friday, July 07, 2006
i failed.
i failed in my promises.
i made u pist off once again.
i feel so useless.
the way things said ... i was seriously hurt, but i guess i made u felt worse. because i've been hurting u all along.
if ever to come a day, when we will never see each other again. please. hate me to the core.
At times i really felt like im not worth any bit.
im tempremental, unreasonable, insensible. It was already a blessing in disguise when we fell in love.
recall the past.
When we were at Bedok Reservoir talking bout everything. WHat was that feeling can u recall?
can u recall the times when u were ill and i tried buying luo han guo for u to drink?
a holiday over at genting & KL
the Dvd marathons.
Mayb the past is a bad thing to recall.
i love u.
seriously i do.
Yes its all just words. But if u felt with ur heart.
...
it's how u and i collide.
im still loving u.
i made u pist off once again.
i feel so useless.
the way things said ... i was seriously hurt, but i guess i made u felt worse. because i've been hurting u all along.
if ever to come a day, when we will never see each other again. please. hate me to the core.
At times i really felt like im not worth any bit.
im tempremental, unreasonable, insensible. It was already a blessing in disguise when we fell in love.
recall the past.
When we were at Bedok Reservoir talking bout everything. WHat was that feeling can u recall?
can u recall the times when u were ill and i tried buying luo han guo for u to drink?
a holiday over at genting & KL
the Dvd marathons.
Mayb the past is a bad thing to recall.
i love u.
seriously i do.
Yes its all just words. But if u felt with ur heart.
...
it's how u and i collide.
im still loving u.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
all clashed together..
having class chalet today and goin out with nite cyclin clan..for u know what.
I guess I'm lacking of sleep, feeling so tired right now. Been lazy to blog lately, won't be pleasant either if i were to blog it down. It was me and Dar's 4th month together and we went Hard Rock to celebrate =) yummy!
Had Nachos, very huge serving! lol Dar had the honey-pork chop and i had hmm..i've forgotten the name for it..lol but it's with marcoroni cheese ultra DELICIOUS!!!!! i feel like uploading the pictures we took at Toy R' Us but i guess i better keep my promise of not showing to people how funny the both of us looked when we had those plastic wigs? lol on our head =p i can't stop laughin man! =x
After having so much fun we went back to tamp to meet up with the usual ppl for soccer cause it's screening on the Big Screen at the big field beside Tamp Mall..the atmosphere was there. It was so cool, and we were all shouting like crazy hahas =p
oh ya! and Dar cycled me back home after England's match to change to shorts and refilled their bottles. hehe
Tompang me a few mre times ah! go get a bicycle! =p
alright i'm too lazy to blog further..lol..byeee..
having class chalet today and goin out with nite cyclin clan..for u know what.
I guess I'm lacking of sleep, feeling so tired right now. Been lazy to blog lately, won't be pleasant either if i were to blog it down. It was me and Dar's 4th month together and we went Hard Rock to celebrate =) yummy!
Had Nachos, very huge serving! lol Dar had the honey-pork chop and i had hmm..i've forgotten the name for it..lol but it's with marcoroni cheese ultra DELICIOUS!!!!! i feel like uploading the pictures we took at Toy R' Us but i guess i better keep my promise of not showing to people how funny the both of us looked when we had those plastic wigs? lol on our head =p i can't stop laughin man! =x
After having so much fun we went back to tamp to meet up with the usual ppl for soccer cause it's screening on the Big Screen at the big field beside Tamp Mall..the atmosphere was there. It was so cool, and we were all shouting like crazy hahas =p
oh ya! and Dar cycled me back home after England's match to change to shorts and refilled their bottles. hehe
Tompang me a few mre times ah! go get a bicycle! =p
alright i'm too lazy to blog further..lol..byeee..
Friday, June 30, 2006
its totally fucked up
why is it always my fault?
i can't find the shirt for work later..called and ask her..give all sort of places to look for it.
it's no where to be found..kind of pist off..
messaged her and asked if she could just transfer $ to me so that i can buy a new shirt..
but NO..she called me back and yelled at me..
i've tried holding back my temper and speak to her nicely..but NO!
she's yelling to much! i can't take it..i yelled back..
why must she always be like this..wad respect is she asking from me now?
so the theory of her's is that it's always right for parents to yell as much as they like to their children and the children just be dumb and just let them vent it all out?
fuck this shit man..
i can't find the shirt for work later..called and ask her..give all sort of places to look for it.
it's no where to be found..kind of pist off..
messaged her and asked if she could just transfer $ to me so that i can buy a new shirt..
but NO..she called me back and yelled at me..
i've tried holding back my temper and speak to her nicely..but NO!
she's yelling to much! i can't take it..i yelled back..
why must she always be like this..wad respect is she asking from me now?
so the theory of her's is that it's always right for parents to yell as much as they like to their children and the children just be dumb and just let them vent it all out?
fuck this shit man..
Thursday, June 29, 2006
in school..
currently im in class not having any lessons..therefore here i am bloggin..
im HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!! arghz~!!!!
don't know what to blog about.
had a thrilling day yesterday..hahaha =x
there's this feeling that i can't explain, can't describe... when we are quarrelling it feels like total DISASTER, but it's that special feeling. That stops me from getting so mad at him. On the other hand when i look at him i jus feel like laughin..hmmm alright that doesn't sound right, just that i can't bear to be angry with him any further. But at times, i just can't help it, having the urge to make him real pist-off. =p Trying my luck i guess..hahas..
it's a very different kind of feeling when im with him. =)
no doubt im being more self- centered lately..
i want to be that girl that won't give my dear any miseries.
Though we have fun and all..
there will still be things to improve on. to be a better gf =)
i love you.
im HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!! arghz~!!!!
don't know what to blog about.
had a thrilling day yesterday..hahaha =x
there's this feeling that i can't explain, can't describe... when we are quarrelling it feels like total DISASTER, but it's that special feeling. That stops me from getting so mad at him. On the other hand when i look at him i jus feel like laughin..hmmm alright that doesn't sound right, just that i can't bear to be angry with him any further. But at times, i just can't help it, having the urge to make him real pist-off. =p Trying my luck i guess..hahas..
it's a very different kind of feeling when im with him. =)
no doubt im being more self- centered lately..
i want to be that girl that won't give my dear any miseries.
Though we have fun and all..
there will still be things to improve on. to be a better gf =)
i love you.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
not myself..
was told to write down something like a diary..about ourselves to our CA..
felt sad..as i had to think about all the things happenin..teared a little..luckily no one noticed..
i dont like it..not one bit of it.
felt sad..as i had to think about all the things happenin..teared a little..luckily no one noticed..
i dont like it..not one bit of it.
the questions-
The 7 Facts bout me...
7 Random Facts Bout me-
-Lame
-Noisy
-Easy-going
-Lazy
-Self-centred
-Blur-look
-Tempermental
7 Things That Scares Me.....= p
-cockroaches
-clown (they jus scare me)
-being alone
-backstabbed
-you
-when my bf sneak up on me
-when my loved ones leave this world..
7 random music at the moment
-Stick with you
-Du chang qing ger
-we're all in this together
-Scars
-summer79
-when i'm with you
-all my life
7 things i like most
-the toy R' us FLOWERS bf gave me
-CAM CRAZE
-SINGING
-my K750i
-gg anywhere with my bf =)
-my computer
-attention
7 things i say most
-STUPID SHIT
-dumbass
-wad sia
-sucker
-idiot
-try your luck
-love you ( to my bf..hahas..and it's ever the 1st time i say it so often)
7 people to do this
-my bf
-shi hui
-yan lin
-pei shi
-mantianal ppl! hey gals u shud noe who u r huh
-u who is reading my blog
-joleen
7 Random Facts Bout me-
-Lame
-Noisy
-Easy-going
-Lazy
-Self-centred
-Blur-look
-Tempermental
7 Things That Scares Me.....= p
-cockroaches
-clown (they jus scare me)
-being alone
-backstabbed
-you
-when my bf sneak up on me
-when my loved ones leave this world..
7 random music at the moment
-Stick with you
-Du chang qing ger
-we're all in this together
-Scars
-summer79
-when i'm with you
-all my life
7 things i like most
-the toy R' us FLOWERS bf gave me
-CAM CRAZE
-SINGING
-my K750i
-gg anywhere with my bf =)
-my computer
-attention
7 things i say most
-STUPID SHIT
-dumbass
-wad sia
-sucker
-idiot
-try your luck
-love you ( to my bf..hahas..and it's ever the 1st time i say it so often)
7 people to do this
-my bf
-shi hui
-yan lin
-pei shi
-mantianal ppl! hey gals u shud noe who u r huh
-u who is reading my blog
-joleen
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
magnifyin glass
i see things in a way, where ppl wont understand me..
met up wif dear todae..thought could had gone Nokia Care to service his phone..but it was kinda troublesome..he has to do a back up and it'll take bout 4 hours to get the phone back..since it was bout 4pm we've decided to give up the idea and head for a late lunch..
had meesiam and i guess it wasnt that nice afterall..preferred the noodle..the usual =p
had a small little tiff..but got over the problem after a while..dear bought me a flower..=)
hee..sweet of him though..<3
no doubt there's good and bad times in a relationship..
i guess TRUST is the main source in a relationship..
i feel so jumble up inside at times..some past haunting me..
but i just shrug it off cause time and again Dear proves me wrong..
and i hope that past would just leave me alone and never come back..
my dog hummed on dear's leg..LOL..stupid dog..too despo!..hahahs..
met up wif josh and ken and jz fer dinner @ carls
LOL i was very late..and dear proudly pushed all the blame to me! bleah!
chatted so much..lol..
bout anything and everything..past to the future..lol..
met up wif dear todae..thought could had gone Nokia Care to service his phone..but it was kinda troublesome..he has to do a back up and it'll take bout 4 hours to get the phone back..since it was bout 4pm we've decided to give up the idea and head for a late lunch..
had meesiam and i guess it wasnt that nice afterall..preferred the noodle..the usual =p
had a small little tiff..but got over the problem after a while..dear bought me a flower..=)
hee..sweet of him though..<3
no doubt there's good and bad times in a relationship..
i guess TRUST is the main source in a relationship..
i feel so jumble up inside at times..some past haunting me..
but i just shrug it off cause time and again Dear proves me wrong..
and i hope that past would just leave me alone and never come back..
my dog hummed on dear's leg..LOL..stupid dog..too despo!..hahahs..
met up wif josh and ken and jz fer dinner @ carls
LOL i was very late..and dear proudly pushed all the blame to me! bleah!
chatted so much..lol..
bout anything and everything..past to the future..lol..
Sunday, June 25, 2006
updated.
update! update! update!
well well well, tons of things happenin..my OFA exam..finally got over and done with..my Dear's bdae party..
celebrated Dear's birthday at Marina Bay..well..got hold of 15/16 people to get together for Dear's birthday celebration. But i felt bad in a way.. shant go into details..
But i felt so proud of myself? being able to get together everyone just to celebrate my Dear's birthday! =)
he was freakin noisy tt nite..hahas..sweet in a way =p lovey dovey? lol..
i was waiting for this day for like ages! and i mean it! cus i sucked at keepin my anxiety to myself..cant wait fer him to see the present i got fer him hahas..had to wait for the right moment to give him..well or should i say i wanted to give him his present b4 the clock strike 12 midnight..hahas..but eventually i still did..i perservered! hahas..
im really thankful for those who turned up fer Dar's Birthday..Really appreciated it alot! u guys made my bf happie =)
thanks pei shi fer being able to choose a nice tee Dar like! = )
Thanks yan lin for re-organising who to meet up at city hall
cus i was sort of in total mess myself..arghz!
and shi hui who mdae it possible fer a few mre gers to turn up fer the celebration..
and of cus the D2 group! not forgettin wee siong..lol..
it was nice to see some of the calss get together..
i miss the class chalet..when can we have it again?
will we be gg overseas?! all together?
well well well..thanks guys..=)
went zouk after the celebration..OMG..the DJ sucked tt nite ! arghz..well got myself drunk i guess? arghz..
i wan some RnB!!!!!!! =x
wana club soon! ahas...
and ytd was the shooting fer Dear's project..hahas..i wasnt cut out to be an actress afterall..brought my dog along..hahas..she was lyk freed frm hell enjoyin the runs on the grass..tt ger..hahahas..
overall..dear's bunch of frens was a fun-lot..
well i should head back to doin my hw now..arghhhhh....
i love my silly fool =)
well well well, tons of things happenin..my OFA exam..finally got over and done with..my Dear's bdae party..
celebrated Dear's birthday at Marina Bay..well..got hold of 15/16 people to get together for Dear's birthday celebration. But i felt bad in a way.. shant go into details..
But i felt so proud of myself? being able to get together everyone just to celebrate my Dear's birthday! =)
he was freakin noisy tt nite..hahas..sweet in a way =p lovey dovey? lol..
i was waiting for this day for like ages! and i mean it! cus i sucked at keepin my anxiety to myself..cant wait fer him to see the present i got fer him hahas..had to wait for the right moment to give him..well or should i say i wanted to give him his present b4 the clock strike 12 midnight..hahas..but eventually i still did..i perservered! hahas..
im really thankful for those who turned up fer Dar's Birthday..Really appreciated it alot! u guys made my bf happie =)
thanks pei shi fer being able to choose a nice tee Dar like! = )
Thanks yan lin for re-organising who to meet up at city hall
cus i was sort of in total mess myself..arghz!
and shi hui who mdae it possible fer a few mre gers to turn up fer the celebration..
and of cus the D2 group! not forgettin wee siong..lol..
it was nice to see some of the calss get together..
i miss the class chalet..when can we have it again?
will we be gg overseas?! all together?
well well well..thanks guys..=)
went zouk after the celebration..OMG..the DJ sucked tt nite ! arghz..well got myself drunk i guess? arghz..
i wan some RnB!!!!!!! =x
wana club soon! ahas...
and ytd was the shooting fer Dear's project..hahas..i wasnt cut out to be an actress afterall..brought my dog along..hahas..she was lyk freed frm hell enjoyin the runs on the grass..tt ger..hahahas..
overall..dear's bunch of frens was a fun-lot..
well i should head back to doin my hw now..arghhhhh....
i love my silly fool =)
Monday, June 19, 2006
dont shut me out
im worried.
where went wrong?
wad' goin on?
u dun seem to bother animre..
where went wrong..
missed u like crazy..
ur cold replies jus drive me nuts..
is it all my fault?
what have i done?
i miss u so much..
miss u badly..
what happen?
where are u now?
i feel so fucked up inside..
i feel total darkness befalling on me..
paranonia inside of my head..
where are u now?
i miss u so much!!!!!!
where went wrong?
wad' goin on?
u dun seem to bother animre..
where went wrong..
missed u like crazy..
ur cold replies jus drive me nuts..
is it all my fault?
what have i done?
i miss u so much..
miss u badly..
what happen?
where are u now?
i feel so fucked up inside..
i feel total darkness befalling on me..
paranonia inside of my head..
where are u now?
i miss u so much!!!!!!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
screwed shit
i lost the bet! stupid shit...
spent almost the whole mornin today doiny my new blogskin..whew..luckily it didnt screwed up.But the contents of the skin is kinda wrong though =x i think i gotta change it soon..
class was still talkin bout soccer fer the whole day..and one of my classmate jin yi was known as "The God" cus he gave alot of accurate information bout the matches..hahas..
well overall school was fine today..
just tt i was somehow affected by Zara's mood..she was so so quiet today..and so was i..hahs..mine is jus STUPID..arghz..talkin bout it jus wont help though..hahhas..
gg out to study today..definately..TEST is lyk tmr and ya im rushin through today..
Dear seems kinda fishy..he's gg out but he aint gonna tell me where he's gg..hmmm...
i missed him mann..i just dont want to tell that fella..or else he'll be so proud of himself once again...ahas..
i guess he's in his D2 again..Oh well...
gotta go prepare..or else i'll be too lazy to even go out of my house...
gtg..wish me luck fer tmr's test..i hope it wont kill me further!!
spent almost the whole mornin today doiny my new blogskin..whew..luckily it didnt screwed up.But the contents of the skin is kinda wrong though =x i think i gotta change it soon..
class was still talkin bout soccer fer the whole day..and one of my classmate jin yi was known as "The God" cus he gave alot of accurate information bout the matches..hahas..
well overall school was fine today..
just tt i was somehow affected by Zara's mood..she was so so quiet today..and so was i..hahs..mine is jus STUPID..arghz..talkin bout it jus wont help though..hahhas..
gg out to study today..definately..TEST is lyk tmr and ya im rushin through today..
Dear seems kinda fishy..he's gg out but he aint gonna tell me where he's gg..hmmm...
i missed him mann..i just dont want to tell that fella..or else he'll be so proud of himself once again...ahas..
i guess he's in his D2 again..Oh well...
gotta go prepare..or else i'll be too lazy to even go out of my house...
gtg..wish me luck fer tmr's test..i hope it wont kill me further!!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
in sch
currently im in sch..kinda bored..doin the past year exam paper fer my OFA..
World Cup started lyk a few days ago..watched the first 6 sets at Dar's place wif a few of nite cyclin clan..LOL..wad a nite man..we were lyk zombies in the day vampires in the nite..hahahs..
im missin him badly now..now dat soccer is his first priority i gotta keep up with my school work dat i've kinda lost..having my CA tis thursday...and i noe nothin at all still!!!!! omg!!!!!!
my teacher is startin lesson soon..gotta start..now we have a test a minimum of 10 slides using powerpoint..hab to submit on a hard copy of the cover page..screenin six in one...explainin the lessons we learn..omg hyperlink is required!!!! im dead!!!!! colour, slides, blah blah blah is 60 marks..total is 40%..project with so much trouble..im so dead..tink about a topic..omg..
dead line for audit is 1 sept..end date fer my lecturer is 1st week of Aug!!!! ARGHZ!!!!! where to find tt time man!!!!! i needa help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOMEONE PLS HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM A COMPUTER NOOB MANN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Data has to be frm internet..omg..do i even have powerpoint? hahas..
goin out to study with sh later.its been a long time i neba meet up wif her alr..no doubt we were in the same sch i neba seen her b4 within tis week..can u believe it? hahas..
class is wacky lately with the soceer fever and all...LOL..
oh well..gtg muackz = )
World Cup started lyk a few days ago..watched the first 6 sets at Dar's place wif a few of nite cyclin clan..LOL..wad a nite man..we were lyk zombies in the day vampires in the nite..hahahs..
im missin him badly now..now dat soccer is his first priority i gotta keep up with my school work dat i've kinda lost..having my CA tis thursday...and i noe nothin at all still!!!!! omg!!!!!!
my teacher is startin lesson soon..gotta start..now we have a test a minimum of 10 slides using powerpoint..hab to submit on a hard copy of the cover page..screenin six in one...explainin the lessons we learn..omg hyperlink is required!!!! im dead!!!!! colour, slides, blah blah blah is 60 marks..total is 40%..project with so much trouble..im so dead..tink about a topic..omg..
dead line for audit is 1 sept..end date fer my lecturer is 1st week of Aug!!!! ARGHZ!!!!! where to find tt time man!!!!! i needa help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOMEONE PLS HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM A COMPUTER NOOB MANN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Data has to be frm internet..omg..do i even have powerpoint? hahas..
goin out to study with sh later.its been a long time i neba meet up wif her alr..no doubt we were in the same sch i neba seen her b4 within tis week..can u believe it? hahas..
class is wacky lately with the soceer fever and all...LOL..
oh well..gtg muackz = )
Thursday, June 08, 2006
baffled
it aint gg smooth at all.i've let u down time and again.i wished the times when we jus had fun, did nonsense, and get on each others nerves would come back.its all bout giving in and compromising.i wish i was there fer ya always.But there's always constrictions.. guess today was the worst.i've mad u real mad.i've seen scenarios lyk tis happenin to me b4.It hurts to see it happenin and yet i cant prevent it.I cant even be there to handle ur injuries.How i wish u just vent it all out on me.At least i get to know how exactly u would feel.How i wish tt punch jus came straight at me.I'm sorry that i've been makin matters worse.I see u these days..more of suffering than being lovey dovey in this relationship.How else can i do to stop ur unending miseries..i cant slp at all.i guess ur're asleep by now?..or mayb outside? i cant reach u and i dun dare to call u.I only msged.
Why do i always screw up in relationship.Is this my retribution of "what goes around comes around?"
Its lyk im goin through a mental struggle.I dun wish the relationship would turn out this way.I've had several failed relationships.Am i the one with problems causing my loved ones to change?..
im so useless.
Why do i always screw up in relationship.Is this my retribution of "what goes around comes around?"
Its lyk im goin through a mental struggle.I dun wish the relationship would turn out this way.I've had several failed relationships.Am i the one with problems causing my loved ones to change?..
im so useless.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
lost.
sch is crazy. Lecturers teachin real fast.
im currently online as i wanted to rest a while from what i was doin..AFD
its actually all the basics stuff that i knew long ago.
But seems like i've returned all my knowledge back to the textbook.
I needa break man..HOLIDAY pls come soon! = (
Skipped touch ytd as i wanted to take care of Da.
Seems like i'm more of irritating than making him feel better.
Went to get him "Luo Han Guo" some chinese herb drink i guess..cures cough..
Did some excel work at his place..while he rested.
oh mann..its alr 7.. i guess i better head back to do my AFD..
Didnt know how i should put it, but it felt nice taking care of Da.
I don't know y...am i cut out to be a nurse?..OMG den im in the wrong course alr..
hahas..im lame man..
gtg..
Loving DB Lim = P
im currently online as i wanted to rest a while from what i was doin..AFD
its actually all the basics stuff that i knew long ago.
But seems like i've returned all my knowledge back to the textbook.
I needa break man..HOLIDAY pls come soon! = (
Skipped touch ytd as i wanted to take care of Da.
Seems like i'm more of irritating than making him feel better.
Went to get him "Luo Han Guo" some chinese herb drink i guess..cures cough..
Did some excel work at his place..while he rested.
oh mann..its alr 7.. i guess i better head back to do my AFD..
Didnt know how i should put it, but it felt nice taking care of Da.
I don't know y...am i cut out to be a nurse?..OMG den im in the wrong course alr..
hahas..im lame man..
gtg..
Loving DB Lim = P
Sunday, May 28, 2006
fucked up.
so knew this was comin from her.
she yellin non-stop lyk some never ending songs blasting on the radio.
yes im clumsy, lost my ez link.
wad's the point of yellin now..it wont make my card come back riite?..
watched "GREASE" last nite! =p
my first musical..with my bf = ))
thier songs were real nice.
and my bf..omg..real HOT! =x
he was dressed in green day outfit..hahahs..
i was a total pig yesterday..
changed clothes, shoes a few times..
hair wasnt done well..sorry dear = ((
and yahh..now im on dear's video of the week.omg
feel damm shitty fer the time being now..
but Dear was real sweet last nite..to sort of endure my whinnin and all
hahahs..hmmm hw bout watchin concert the next time?
MY TREAT! =p
Saturday, May 27, 2006
at home.
im currently alone at hm now.
mum and dad has left for work.
sisters off to school..
im alone at home wif my monster and the television on.
finally im sitting down in front of my computer.
surfin the net, lookin through my mails, friendster, and blog.
didnt talk to Dear on the phone last nite..
guess we're all exhausted. lol
tt unknown number tt called me last night was Zara hahas..
she was using her bf's no. thought it was my boss..hahas..
im so gonna delete tt video of me playin sonic on Dear's phone..
i dun care how im just gonna do tt before he uploads it to YouTube or smth..
it's sort of like a threat to me..hahahs..
im gonna plan hw to get rid of tt. =x
im still considering whether to get track shoes or boots?..
still considering have not decided on anything yet.
having flag day today at tamp library..ppl who know me pls drop by if u can ya?..
its been a long long time since i was out for nite cycling..and i have no bicycle..and dear's bike is still parked at tt block and he has yet retrived it..hahah..unless im helpin him to bring it back..cus his gear came off so its lyk..ya..the bike is screwed up..hahas..
gonna meet up wif the nite cycling clan on the 1st of JUne = ))
gonna go club on Friday..FINALLI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =p i've been waitin fer this day fer ages man!..
im so gonna plan my monthly usage of $$ if nt i aint gonna survive aftr the 8th of every month..
hahas..im such an idiot spendin $$ lyk playin games in the arcade..
speakin bout arcade..hmmm..Dear actually win me in Daytona..u idiot!
i was always the champion..hmmm..must be tt stupid steering wheel tt made me lost.
its been a long time since all of us had supper tgt..
its been a long time fer loads of tings..
its been a long time since i laughed till my stomach had cramps..
watchin "GREASE" tonite wif dear..hehe =p
wonder wad he's wearin..its counted as my 3rd month gift. =p
excited ya! hahahs..=x
its been a long time since i went fer such plays..
the last i rem was " such sweet sorrows"?
i kinda hungry though,,
i'll go ransacked my kitchen now..
adios!
mum and dad has left for work.
sisters off to school..
im alone at home wif my monster and the television on.
finally im sitting down in front of my computer.
surfin the net, lookin through my mails, friendster, and blog.
didnt talk to Dear on the phone last nite..
guess we're all exhausted. lol
tt unknown number tt called me last night was Zara hahas..
she was using her bf's no. thought it was my boss..hahas..
im so gonna delete tt video of me playin sonic on Dear's phone..
i dun care how im just gonna do tt before he uploads it to YouTube or smth..
it's sort of like a threat to me..hahahs..
im gonna plan hw to get rid of tt. =x
im still considering whether to get track shoes or boots?..
still considering have not decided on anything yet.
having flag day today at tamp library..ppl who know me pls drop by if u can ya?..
its been a long long time since i was out for nite cycling..and i have no bicycle..and dear's bike is still parked at tt block and he has yet retrived it..hahah..unless im helpin him to bring it back..cus his gear came off so its lyk..ya..the bike is screwed up..hahas..
gonna meet up wif the nite cycling clan on the 1st of JUne = ))
gonna go club on Friday..FINALLI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =p i've been waitin fer this day fer ages man!..
im so gonna plan my monthly usage of $$ if nt i aint gonna survive aftr the 8th of every month..
hahas..im such an idiot spendin $$ lyk playin games in the arcade..
speakin bout arcade..hmmm..Dear actually win me in Daytona..u idiot!
i was always the champion..hmmm..must be tt stupid steering wheel tt made me lost.
its been a long time since all of us had supper tgt..
its been a long time fer loads of tings..
its been a long time since i laughed till my stomach had cramps..
watchin "GREASE" tonite wif dear..hehe =p
wonder wad he's wearin..its counted as my 3rd month gift. =p
excited ya! hahahs..=x
its been a long time since i went fer such plays..
the last i rem was " such sweet sorrows"?
i kinda hungry though,,
i'll go ransacked my kitchen now..
adios!
Friday, May 26, 2006
im beat.
i totally suck today..it was so fucked up.
ran for track and field today and it was shit.
came in 4th position for 800m and 4*400m
im sorry gals..i didnt put in extra more effort..
wad was worse was Dear watchin the race..i asked him to come down to watch me..which i guess shudnt had cus he saw the lousiest times of me..i sucked at runnin to hell with tt man..i was so into runnin in the past..but i guess it was all over...i hadnt been runnin fer 2 yrs and i guess..my "talent" gone..hahas..
well i embarrassed myself in front of so many ppl..fuckin frustrated woth myself..y the hell am i panic bout sia?..i guess anxiety got over me and i didnt breathe properly?..had this sudden chest attack tt NEARLY made me stop on the spot...but many ppl would be let down so i decided to push on..but it was too late..i cock up the whole ting..im so sorry gals..
but i was at the same time happy tt Dear was there fer me when im down..= )) i love u dear..
Dear was real encouraging..even though it was just to cheer me up..i really appreciated it = ))
we talked abt things and some other problems..and i cant help but cried..yupps..dat feeling is awful...u were so brave..
i guess i better stop here..gotta bathe..I STINK = x hahas..
ran for track and field today and it was shit.
came in 4th position for 800m and 4*400m
im sorry gals..i didnt put in extra more effort..
wad was worse was Dear watchin the race..i asked him to come down to watch me..which i guess shudnt had cus he saw the lousiest times of me..i sucked at runnin to hell with tt man..i was so into runnin in the past..but i guess it was all over...i hadnt been runnin fer 2 yrs and i guess..my "talent" gone..hahas..
well i embarrassed myself in front of so many ppl..fuckin frustrated woth myself..y the hell am i panic bout sia?..i guess anxiety got over me and i didnt breathe properly?..had this sudden chest attack tt NEARLY made me stop on the spot...but many ppl would be let down so i decided to push on..but it was too late..i cock up the whole ting..im so sorry gals..
but i was at the same time happy tt Dear was there fer me when im down..= )) i love u dear..
Dear was real encouraging..even though it was just to cheer me up..i really appreciated it = ))
we talked abt things and some other problems..and i cant help but cried..yupps..dat feeling is awful...u were so brave..
i guess i better stop here..gotta bathe..I STINK = x hahas..
Thursday, May 25, 2006
when times are bad.
one after the other..
what would u do when u feel tt life's unfair to u?..
what would u do when everything and anything never worked out the way u want it to be?
where is the end of the road to this never ending scar?
i want to be there to be in that shithole..
i want to feel what is gg through..
never knew the right words to say..
only knew of being a dumbell that knew nothin but play
in times like this i just wish i could do smth special and make all these prob disappear..
but i aint no GOD..i am too just human..
it feels so helpless just not being able to help in any aspect?...
i feel so dumb, like a piece of shit..
this doesnt sound nice but i just try to sum it all up..
tis aint sound right at all..and i'm tryin to fix things..and tryin nt to rub in more shit..
i just suck at helpin..
y cant i help?
_stupid shit.
what would u do when u feel tt life's unfair to u?..
what would u do when everything and anything never worked out the way u want it to be?
where is the end of the road to this never ending scar?
i want to be there to be in that shithole..
i want to feel what is gg through..
never knew the right words to say..
only knew of being a dumbell that knew nothin but play
in times like this i just wish i could do smth special and make all these prob disappear..
but i aint no GOD..i am too just human..
it feels so helpless just not being able to help in any aspect?...
i feel so dumb, like a piece of shit..
this doesnt sound nice but i just try to sum it all up..
tis aint sound right at all..and i'm tryin to fix things..and tryin nt to rub in more shit..
i just suck at helpin..
y cant i help?
_stupid shit.
dumb monster
been tired lately didnt really have the time to even sit in front of my computer to just log on to msn or just slack around...
well lets back track..
yesterday wasnt a good day i guess?..hmm..well kinda quarrelled? is tt considered one?..but we sorted things out and it was fine again..hmmm..yupp..talked again..
i have a bad feeling that something in me is gonna surface soon and i think i gotta stop tt man..i thought things would be different after all..but i was kinda wrong...it's like its always been in me and it would not be deactivated in me..yea..it sounds lyk a time bomb...
im paranoid, sensitive..etc anythin bad.
It runs in the family..i guess?..
Having touch rugby today..man im tired dont feel lyk gg fer sw too..=x but i gotta lose some weight man..i beta go get ready now..
im paranoid_
well lets back track..
yesterday wasnt a good day i guess?..hmm..well kinda quarrelled? is tt considered one?..but we sorted things out and it was fine again..hmmm..yupp..talked again..
i have a bad feeling that something in me is gonna surface soon and i think i gotta stop tt man..i thought things would be different after all..but i was kinda wrong...it's like its always been in me and it would not be deactivated in me..yea..it sounds lyk a time bomb...
im paranoid, sensitive..etc anythin bad.
It runs in the family..i guess?..
Having touch rugby today..man im tired dont feel lyk gg fer sw too..=x but i gotta lose some weight man..i beta go get ready now..
im paranoid_
Sunday, May 21, 2006
the BIG WALK
woke up at 5.30 am today to prepare for wad was comin..' The Big Walk ' wow..was suppose to meet dear at 6.45 am and i was lyk left my place only lyk 6.45 am =x hahaha..took cab down to meet dear at Tana Merah control..
Met dear at the control station and quickly took my clothes frm dear and changed into the Big Walk tee.. = )
was kinda excited bout the walk..a 10 km walk..we didnt cheat! we walked the whole 10 km! = )) so proud of the both of us..dear piggyback me when we were walkin bout 2 km plus..hahas..and those guys in yellow took a pic of us..omg wonder if tt wud appear in the newpaper..lol..raced while we were abt 5 km of the walk..and my nose started bleedin..so darn cool!! hahas..its been a long time since my nose bled..felt kinda giddy though after restin a while wif the St. Johns
i was so proud of ourselves..we actually manage to complete the 10 km! = )
dear followed along to my belated mother's day celebration..and yeap..= ) well i noe hw it feels..to be so stressed up wif ur partners family members around and all..=x
but it was sweet of him though to stay throughout the dinner..= )
[ i love ya = )) ]
Met dear at the control station and quickly took my clothes frm dear and changed into the Big Walk tee.. = )
was kinda excited bout the walk..a 10 km walk..we didnt cheat! we walked the whole 10 km! = )) so proud of the both of us..dear piggyback me when we were walkin bout 2 km plus..hahas..and those guys in yellow took a pic of us..omg wonder if tt wud appear in the newpaper..lol..raced while we were abt 5 km of the walk..and my nose started bleedin..so darn cool!! hahas..its been a long time since my nose bled..felt kinda giddy though after restin a while wif the St. Johns
i was so proud of ourselves..we actually manage to complete the 10 km! = )
dear followed along to my belated mother's day celebration..and yeap..= ) well i noe hw it feels..to be so stressed up wif ur partners family members around and all..=x
but it was sweet of him though to stay throughout the dinner..= )
[ i love ya = )) ]
Friday, May 19, 2006
missing u.
I'm sorry for the times you cried,
and the loneliness you felt inside.
I'm sorry for the way things were,
and the selfishness that you endured
I'm sorry I wasn't there to show,
the deepest love you'll ever know.
I'm sorry for the empty days,
which made u feel the unimportance
I'm sorry for the heart I broke,
that shattered with the words I spoke.
I'm sorry for the empty space,
that laid beside you in my place.
I'm sorry for the empty arms,
you fell into when times were hard.
I'm sorry fer the empty promises,
that made tink through wad was worth.
I'm sorry for ignoring you,
i so deserve a slap from u.
once again. I hate myself.
and the loneliness you felt inside.
I'm sorry for the way things were,
and the selfishness that you endured
I'm sorry I wasn't there to show,
the deepest love you'll ever know.
I'm sorry for the empty days,
which made u feel the unimportance
I'm sorry for the heart I broke,
that shattered with the words I spoke.
I'm sorry for the empty space,
that laid beside you in my place.
I'm sorry for the empty arms,
you fell into when times were hard.
I'm sorry fer the empty promises,
that made tink through wad was worth.
I'm sorry for ignoring you,
i so deserve a slap from u.
once again. I hate myself.
test for u and me.
went to meet up wif dear at his sch ytd..alighted a stop earlier and had to walk up to NP..was kinda having butterfiles in my stomach..cus its my first time goin to clementi to fetch my bf..= p tt feelin is weird didnt noe hw to describe tt..hahas..= ) i was lyk cursing and swearin over the phone bout the sch being so fucked up as it was a damm big campus?..hahas..and dear was lyk laughin on the other end..hhahas..he was lyk tellin me e place was filled wif china ppl hahas..didnt bring along my WMD..we headed fer ikea no knowin which stop to alight..hahs..was lyk lookin around in semi-darkness..had swedish meat ball,pouched salmon,one-bite of hot dog and nestle cookies..den it was time to head home....
y did it all had to end up tis way?..i didnt gave the very best of me?..never ran through my mind wad he was thinkin?..wad have i become..he's my bf and yet its lyk he's suffering all the time wif me..was the way i handled tings wrong?..my bf is important to me..yes i want to see him everyday..but y?..y cant i sort of compromise?..
y did i made him felt lyk rubbish to me?..he aint..
was suppose to hab a class outing today..i cancelled dat alr..gg to collect my pay later..and head back hm..cant fuckin msg,call or see him today..
did i changed?..or was it lyk tis all along jus dat no one said anythin bout it?..
i didnt lyk it when u suffer on ur own..even though its difficult fer u to tell me wad ur're feelin at least.
i didnt lyk forcin u to tell me tings..
i miss the times when we jus talk
i miss the times when we had ice cream wif a few entertainment..
i miss laughin at ur silliness..
i miss msgin u..
im lookin at our pic..
and my visions are slowin blurrin out..
a tear rolled dwn my cheeks...
i jus miss u.
i hate myself.
y did it all had to end up tis way?..i didnt gave the very best of me?..never ran through my mind wad he was thinkin?..wad have i become..he's my bf and yet its lyk he's suffering all the time wif me..was the way i handled tings wrong?..my bf is important to me..yes i want to see him everyday..but y?..y cant i sort of compromise?..
y did i made him felt lyk rubbish to me?..he aint..
was suppose to hab a class outing today..i cancelled dat alr..gg to collect my pay later..and head back hm..cant fuckin msg,call or see him today..
did i changed?..or was it lyk tis all along jus dat no one said anythin bout it?..
i didnt lyk it when u suffer on ur own..even though its difficult fer u to tell me wad ur're feelin at least.
i didnt lyk forcin u to tell me tings..
i miss the times when we jus talk
i miss the times when we had ice cream wif a few entertainment..
i miss laughin at ur silliness..
i miss msgin u..
im lookin at our pic..
and my visions are slowin blurrin out..
a tear rolled dwn my cheeks...
i jus miss u.
i hate myself.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
test.
argh!..i've got to wake up to study for the BFD test tt's gonna take place later..just cus last nite i was too tired and my brain seems to be refusing anymore information taken in...had touch rugby ytd..and the amount of ppl tt attened the trainin was only bout a handful fer gers..but it was kinda fun ytd..mayb cus i noe someone who can company me..Zara my classmate took up touch too..so yea i sort of hab companion there..hahas..
as per usual Dear came to pick me up..and i was kinda late though =p talked bout our day spent and hw was my cca blah blah blah..den the jealousy part came while we were on the bus..he was sayin tt " we shall see who gets jealous on Thursday" ...hmmm welll...we shall see bout tt...i shall prepare my AMD. is tt term known as 'AMD'? hahahs..lyk wateva. went over his place to put down his bag and den headed off fer dinner at 85. Had lyk wu xiang and omellette oyster..mmmmm...talkin bout it makes me hungrie man..hahas..
beta go studi alr..time is runnin out..hahas..gtg..
as per usual Dear came to pick me up..and i was kinda late though =p talked bout our day spent and hw was my cca blah blah blah..den the jealousy part came while we were on the bus..he was sayin tt " we shall see who gets jealous on Thursday" ...hmmm welll...we shall see bout tt...i shall prepare my AMD. is tt term known as 'AMD'? hahahs..lyk wateva. went over his place to put down his bag and den headed off fer dinner at 85. Had lyk wu xiang and omellette oyster..mmmmm...talkin bout it makes me hungrie man..hahas..
beta go studi alr..time is runnin out..hahas..gtg..
Sunday, May 14, 2006
work
work, and mre work..i was late fer tis past 2 days...im not gonna be late fer work todae and take cab again..argh..i still have tonns of hw to do. omg...hab to burn mid-night oil i guess?..argh! hate tis..
had loads of chocolate to eat ytd..mmmmm yummy..but still hmmm..fattenin..contradicting huhs? hahas..im so gonna jog till i drop tmr at sch..i brought back all my sch books jus to tink dat i can studi..but..im workin hw to studi! shit mann..i gotta be hm early today man..so gonna rush my hw and stuff..
gotta go prepare fer work alr..ciaoz!
had loads of chocolate to eat ytd..mmmmm yummy..but still hmmm..fattenin..contradicting huhs? hahas..im so gonna jog till i drop tmr at sch..i brought back all my sch books jus to tink dat i can studi..but..im workin hw to studi! shit mann..i gotta be hm early today man..so gonna rush my hw and stuff..
gotta go prepare fer work alr..ciaoz!
Saturday, May 13, 2006
1st day at work
i thought it was gonna be darn boring at work as i would be the only one there workin..but i was wrong =x i saw Emily..her booth is right beside mine onli hehe..yupps found my slacker khaki liaos..hahas..knew 2 mre frens dere..one was catherine sellin the massager de and the other was may che..hahas..under toys department..the place was in a huge mess..flooded with "kiasu" ppl..hahas..
met Dear aftr work..he brought me his dinner..IDIOT! we went to airport to hab his bee hoon and did some crazie stuff on the way theree..hahas..we went cam crazie..=x took loads of piics till dear was sick of it plaedin me to stop! lol...it went on..takin pic all the way till we reach the air-port hahas..settled down at T2's viewing mall had his bee hoon and i brought him into Fish & Co. we had 'CHoc CHoc ARmaggedon' hahas..doesnt taste like Ben and Jerry's at all..hmmm...had loads of fun at the air port..i wana faint when Dear called me sweetheart!!! tt's mushy CAN!!!! hahahas ..well before i am late fer work once again..i beta zao =x
ciaoz_
met Dear aftr work..he brought me his dinner..IDIOT! we went to airport to hab his bee hoon and did some crazie stuff on the way theree..hahas..we went cam crazie..=x took loads of piics till dear was sick of it plaedin me to stop! lol...it went on..takin pic all the way till we reach the air-port hahas..settled down at T2's viewing mall had his bee hoon and i brought him into Fish & Co. we had 'CHoc CHoc ARmaggedon' hahas..doesnt taste like Ben and Jerry's at all..hmmm...had loads of fun at the air port..i wana faint when Dear called me sweetheart!!! tt's mushy CAN!!!! hahahas ..well before i am late fer work once again..i beta zao =x
ciaoz_
Friday, May 12, 2006
late for work
once again..im late for work..i guess tt's nothin new huh?..hahahs..omg..
and yet i can sit here and blog when i'm like startin work at 11..hahah..ya if u noe me well enough..im an extremely LATE QUEEN..lol
dear came over my place last nite bout 8plus isit? hmmm..i wasnt sure cus the cramps was killin me so i just to "lie" on my bed..i guess i fell asleep..cus the last thing i rem b4 i fell asleep, the sky was still kinda bright...and the next moment i know..it was lyk dark outside alr...tt was when Dear called..hahas..took me a while to get out of bed, change and out for dinner..we had hokkien mee..and i drank e hot milo..we chatted alot..and wad do u noe.......it rained heavily..but i didnt reali bother bout it cus was kinda engross in the convo wif dear..hahs..chatted till the rain finally got smaller..while we were waitin at the traffic light..a bloodi van zoom past and e puddle of water just splashed onto me..and dear was sayin " lucky i wasnt aniwhere near it" HARLOW!!!!!!! HAHAHS...dear sent me off and went hm..my mum and sis were watchin SURIA chnl..some ghost storie..bout "susuk" it was freakin eerie...damm nice..im sooo gonna catch the show...wonder if it's on on every thursday?..
damm!!! im so dead hahas..gtg prep fer work! ciaoz!
and yet i can sit here and blog when i'm like startin work at 11..hahah..ya if u noe me well enough..im an extremely LATE QUEEN..lol
dear came over my place last nite bout 8plus isit? hmmm..i wasnt sure cus the cramps was killin me so i just to "lie" on my bed..i guess i fell asleep..cus the last thing i rem b4 i fell asleep, the sky was still kinda bright...and the next moment i know..it was lyk dark outside alr...tt was when Dear called..hahas..took me a while to get out of bed, change and out for dinner..we had hokkien mee..and i drank e hot milo..we chatted alot..and wad do u noe.......it rained heavily..but i didnt reali bother bout it cus was kinda engross in the convo wif dear..hahs..chatted till the rain finally got smaller..while we were waitin at the traffic light..a bloodi van zoom past and e puddle of water just splashed onto me..and dear was sayin " lucky i wasnt aniwhere near it" HARLOW!!!!!!! HAHAHS...dear sent me off and went hm..my mum and sis were watchin SURIA chnl..some ghost storie..bout "susuk" it was freakin eerie...damm nice..im sooo gonna catch the show...wonder if it's on on every thursday?..
damm!!! im so dead hahas..gtg prep fer work! ciaoz!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
back
a week of sch gone just lyk tis..well tings werent tt bad after all..got to noe a few frens..i guess it was after all me feelin paranoid in the first place..hahs..
my class wasnt dat bad after all..kinda joker though..i guess it was jus the starting..the new environment..ya those shit..hahas..
zhen was sayin tt the class shud organise some BBQ outings and stuff to get to noe the class beta..felt lyk shit todae cus of the stupid cramps thus cant attend cca..but dear gonna meet me = )) so sweet ..but i felt bad though..cus dear skipped his inline-skatin...= ( sorry...
omg..my cramps are killin me..gotta rest..
till next time..
my class wasnt dat bad after all..kinda joker though..i guess it was jus the starting..the new environment..ya those shit..hahas..
zhen was sayin tt the class shud organise some BBQ outings and stuff to get to noe the class beta..felt lyk shit todae cus of the stupid cramps thus cant attend cca..but dear gonna meet me = )) so sweet ..but i felt bad though..cus dear skipped his inline-skatin...= ( sorry...
omg..my cramps are killin me..gotta rest..
till next time..
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
dirt shit
it's only the second day of school..and nothing seems to go my way..i gave people attitude..made him upset
well i was real excited tt i can finally go to school,study..blah blah blah..i miss school life i seriously do..but things aint goin my way at all..got to wake up early for school..sit in the lecture hall listenin to 2 hrs of orientation shit?..do lame games..my class was the worst i ever been in..which made me dread school even more..time table was like shit..most of it he will dismiss sch early..and ya cant meet him..till later..met him for dinner ytd..at first it was fun,nonsense..and then nearin the end it turned sour..i realised im real insensitive bout what i say..im gonna tone down...i kinda gave shi hui attitude today oso..didnt noe if she felt it or not..but i didnt noe y i wasnt in a good mood either..must be the class.. = (
i just hope i can survive tis tormentin ordeal for 2 yrs..jus 2 yrs and im outta of the school..
things got worse when dear cant receive my msgs...his phone is having some problem i guess? or is it mine?..i dunno..but dear cant receive my msgs...so its like i cant msg him in btwn classes and stuff..and felt real bad when i had to call him..chat a little put down..chat a little put down..i guess he's upset bout it too...
im tryin to cope with the schedule..it seems like impossible for me to work..now i understand y my frens cant work so often in the past...
downside of me_
i do miss you..
well i was real excited tt i can finally go to school,study..blah blah blah..i miss school life i seriously do..but things aint goin my way at all..got to wake up early for school..sit in the lecture hall listenin to 2 hrs of orientation shit?..do lame games..my class was the worst i ever been in..which made me dread school even more..time table was like shit..most of it he will dismiss sch early..and ya cant meet him..till later..met him for dinner ytd..at first it was fun,nonsense..and then nearin the end it turned sour..i realised im real insensitive bout what i say..im gonna tone down...i kinda gave shi hui attitude today oso..didnt noe if she felt it or not..but i didnt noe y i wasnt in a good mood either..must be the class.. = (
i just hope i can survive tis tormentin ordeal for 2 yrs..jus 2 yrs and im outta of the school..
things got worse when dear cant receive my msgs...his phone is having some problem i guess? or is it mine?..i dunno..but dear cant receive my msgs...so its like i cant msg him in btwn classes and stuff..and felt real bad when i had to call him..chat a little put down..chat a little put down..i guess he's upset bout it too...
im tryin to cope with the schedule..it seems like impossible for me to work..now i understand y my frens cant work so often in the past...
downside of me_
i do miss you..
Monday, May 01, 2006
2nd month!
its officially the 2nd month of
Mr Daryl Bryan Lim & Ms Joanne Tan established on 010306..
Happiie 2nd month Dear! = )
never in my life had i ever celebrate my monthly-vesary so sweet and romantic b4! hahas..i was late though..lol...had to do some last minute shoppin ytd..mostly in tamp mall..hahas..yeap..bought Dear a converse shoe tt has to change size..he's actuali a size 8 but i got a size 9..bought him a bottle of bear gummies..and a hippo dat recorded my voice in it =p
i finished arnd 6.45pm which i was suppose to meet dear at his place arnd 7?..changed to 7.30pm but i doubt i can make it on time cus i didnt noe wad to wear over to dear's place cus i didnt noe wad was his plannin..lol..basket!!! argh!..eventuali i wore a purple tube top and a Fox skirt..with heels..and dear was wearing his MYstery shirt and board shorts!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!! hahahaha..yes luff at me..but dinner was so so sos ososososososos NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DEAR cooked pasta wif carbonara sauce.becon bits,peas and carrot..and PORK fillet..hmmmm yummy!!!! the PORK fillet was mistaken as chicken by me..and yes! laugh at me again! hmmm!!! it was coated with Bbq sauce..it was sserved in a big round plate..like those i use for the "perfect match" in HD..it was lyk as though i was in the restaurant..Dear even prepared wine!!!!!! fine dinnin huhs?!! hahah..= ) tis is my FIRST time ever encountering such romantic atmoshpere..hehe..=p nice sweet dinner dear = )
i love you..= )
Mr Daryl Bryan Lim & Ms Joanne Tan established on 010306..
Happiie 2nd month Dear! = )
never in my life had i ever celebrate my monthly-vesary so sweet and romantic b4! hahas..i was late though..lol...had to do some last minute shoppin ytd..mostly in tamp mall..hahas..yeap..bought Dear a converse shoe tt has to change size..he's actuali a size 8 but i got a size 9..bought him a bottle of bear gummies..and a hippo dat recorded my voice in it =p
i finished arnd 6.45pm which i was suppose to meet dear at his place arnd 7?..changed to 7.30pm but i doubt i can make it on time cus i didnt noe wad to wear over to dear's place cus i didnt noe wad was his plannin..lol..basket!!! argh!..eventuali i wore a purple tube top and a Fox skirt..with heels..and dear was wearing his MYstery shirt and board shorts!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!! hahahaha..yes luff at me..but dinner was so so sos ososososososos NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DEAR cooked pasta wif carbonara sauce.becon bits,peas and carrot..and PORK fillet..hmmmm yummy!!!! the PORK fillet was mistaken as chicken by me..and yes! laugh at me again! hmmm!!! it was coated with Bbq sauce..it was sserved in a big round plate..like those i use for the "perfect match" in HD..it was lyk as though i was in the restaurant..Dear even prepared wine!!!!!! fine dinnin huhs?!! hahah..= ) tis is my FIRST time ever encountering such romantic atmoshpere..hehe..=p nice sweet dinner dear = )
i love you..= )
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