It's more of just a few minutes of phone conversation.
Haven been seeing much of each other.
Called me last night, but i was way tired. He was tired too.
He didn't had dinner nor lunch.
Wonder if he's up already.
Was his last day of work yesterday. Got "tekan" real bad.
Many thoughts ran through my mind.
Good and bad.
What's the feeling like right now?..
Wonder if your're up already?..
Yesterday, went to school late. LOL as per usual.
First it was training, and then it was the friendly match against NYP.
woot`
it was nice though. The communication was there, had so much fun, we dived for the ball, i wasn't really on form to do the spiking but other than that, we ahd fun =)
Though we didnt win, but the morale and all were there, that feeling that was lost for quite a while all came back to me. It was like back to sec sch days man.Nice =)
After everything, went over to my cousin's birthday party, at first it felt kind of outta place, cus there were lots of her classmates there. But after that my uncle and all came hahas, so yea.
Ate alot, till my stomach can't take it.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
vball! woot!
As per usual, went to work today, nothing much happened.
After work, went for training, wahaha, that's where all the stuff began.
Was having loads of fun, playing sets, 3 on 3 and stuffs..blah blah blah..
hahas, had a last minute friendly match at Bedok erm..the Khaki Bukit there.
And something which you only get to watch on tv happened.
A ROBBERY!..
A real life robbery, hahas 3 guys went to chase the robber, brave people huhs..trainin their stamina.But none of us really paid much attention to it cus we were starting the match.
I was so nervous, as per usual..haiis..
But overcomed it after a few games.
It's kinda down the drain yesterday.
Because of small little things and the matter blew up.
Don't wish to continue further, but..
I was real touched by what he did.Serious.Aint kidding.
But right now, he is having fun.
So yea, i shall go sleep.
Because i believe calling wont help a shit.
He didnt pick up my call just now.
Blardy shit!
i'll go sleep alr.
SHIT.
After work, went for training, wahaha, that's where all the stuff began.
Was having loads of fun, playing sets, 3 on 3 and stuffs..blah blah blah..
hahas, had a last minute friendly match at Bedok erm..the Khaki Bukit there.
And something which you only get to watch on tv happened.
A ROBBERY!..
A real life robbery, hahas 3 guys went to chase the robber, brave people huhs..trainin their stamina.But none of us really paid much attention to it cus we were starting the match.
I was so nervous, as per usual..haiis..
But overcomed it after a few games.
It's kinda down the drain yesterday.
Because of small little things and the matter blew up.
Don't wish to continue further, but..
I was real touched by what he did.Serious.Aint kidding.
But right now, he is having fun.
So yea, i shall go sleep.
Because i believe calling wont help a shit.
He didnt pick up my call just now.
Blardy shit!
i'll go sleep alr.
SHIT.
Monday, October 02, 2006
woot-
yeap im back about my life. haha =p
Phew it's nice to have a long hot bath after a long dayyyyyy at work. hehe.
Well, have I been missing for quite a while?..
Well, my tag still seems active.hahas..
Alright people, for this whole week, im gonna be busy with work and training. Will be working 6 days this week. I'm going to earn $$ to keep my survival on-going. hahas,crap.
Alrights, work was kinda BUSY for me, and i MEAN IT!
Reason being, Roland came down. Yes sh laugh at me. I bet you would when u read this entry. =p
I kept myself busy packing pints, giving my ever best service to customers?..hahas..hmmmm, and er..had bad stomache. LOL
There you have it. A BUSY day. LOL. I'm lazy to go into details. hahas.
Alright, yesterday was worse! =( but luckily, IT'S OVER! =))
As I was saying, yesterday was worse, because I was working at the restaurant and there was HUGE function going on. A wedding banquet.
Luckily i wasn't on the banquet side, bleah. But i aint having a good time on the restaurant side boohoo.We were running like a blardy full house at the start of the night shift.
Tons of customer flocked into the restaurant. In a funny way or other, Willkie came with his family for dinner!!! what a day! hahas, lucky him i don't know his parents name. Wahaha..Sorry im kinda lame, just kidding, but his mum sure wasnt nice to mess with i guess?..LOL..
I was literally on the ball man, BALL!! hahaha, Had so much to do, serve menu,serve bread,fil the CUPS with drinks, Wine, Customer, and blah blah blah.Whew, typing everything out sure would kill my poor fingers. So im not gonna continue. LOL.
I'm working 10-6 tomorrow, people do visit me if ya free?..hahas..
Hmm, Mr Daryl is out with Mas and Co. not gonna mumble anything to him, hahas, Im fine alone at home enjoying the tv =)) serious!
He was mentioning that he saw some hot chicks today, and my reaction was like, Oh..okay good for you, AND HE BLARDY WENT BERSERK..hahahaha..well, not really berserk, he just wants me to flare up but i just feels that it wasnt necessary, he sees hot chicks i see hunks..wahahah..
Does it really kills to literally SEE people?..wahaha, I don't know.
The mysteries lies in the eyes of the beholder...wahahah..
Sounds familiar?..well it's from the "No Fear" tee-shirt.
Aint sure why i can still remember that quote that well..hahahs..
Alright im off
-Out-
Phew it's nice to have a long hot bath after a long dayyyyyy at work. hehe.
Well, have I been missing for quite a while?..
Well, my tag still seems active.hahas..
Alright people, for this whole week, im gonna be busy with work and training. Will be working 6 days this week. I'm going to earn $$ to keep my survival on-going. hahas,crap.
Alrights, work was kinda BUSY for me, and i MEAN IT!
Reason being, Roland came down. Yes sh laugh at me. I bet you would when u read this entry. =p
I kept myself busy packing pints, giving my ever best service to customers?..hahas..hmmmm, and er..had bad stomache. LOL
There you have it. A BUSY day. LOL. I'm lazy to go into details. hahas.
Alright, yesterday was worse! =( but luckily, IT'S OVER! =))
As I was saying, yesterday was worse, because I was working at the restaurant and there was HUGE function going on. A wedding banquet.
Luckily i wasn't on the banquet side, bleah. But i aint having a good time on the restaurant side boohoo.We were running like a blardy full house at the start of the night shift.
Tons of customer flocked into the restaurant. In a funny way or other, Willkie came with his family for dinner!!! what a day! hahas, lucky him i don't know his parents name. Wahaha..Sorry im kinda lame, just kidding, but his mum sure wasnt nice to mess with i guess?..LOL..
I was literally on the ball man, BALL!! hahaha, Had so much to do, serve menu,serve bread,fil the CUPS with drinks, Wine, Customer, and blah blah blah.Whew, typing everything out sure would kill my poor fingers. So im not gonna continue. LOL.
I'm working 10-6 tomorrow, people do visit me if ya free?..hahas..
Hmm, Mr Daryl is out with Mas and Co. not gonna mumble anything to him, hahas, Im fine alone at home enjoying the tv =)) serious!
He was mentioning that he saw some hot chicks today, and my reaction was like, Oh..okay good for you, AND HE BLARDY WENT BERSERK..hahahaha..well, not really berserk, he just wants me to flare up but i just feels that it wasnt necessary, he sees hot chicks i see hunks..wahahah..
Does it really kills to literally SEE people?..wahaha, I don't know.
The mysteries lies in the eyes of the beholder...wahahah..
Sounds familiar?..well it's from the "No Fear" tee-shirt.
Aint sure why i can still remember that quote that well..hahahs..
Alright im off
-Out-
Friday, September 29, 2006
IMVU
went for work and training, lately tt's my lifestyle. Work and training.
Wasnt really a good day for me ytd, cus sort of lyk had a little conflict during training, i wasn't on form and the morale of the team was kinda bad.
Well, and i was having fever, hmmm, what a day.
Woke up kind of early today, and was excited to try out the IMVU thingy. lol
And it's kind of fun to me, sort of Sims-lookalike. lol..
Had fun chatting with van in IMVU..
AUDREY!! YVONNE!!! d/l IMVU!!! hahas..then we can slack in starbucks and chat le..lol..
'out
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Hong Kong Cafe part II
Aright im back here to blabber once again.
Just came back from work, feeling kinda exhausted though i didnt do much at work today.
Well took alot of pictures today, hahas.
Alrights bout last night.
Met up people of East View Primary.hahas.
Had dinner at Hong Kong Cafe.
People involved-Fang,Pei,Phei,Jun and Na..
hahas..we laughed so much, we ate alot and we had DESERT! whoot`
what a dinner. =))
Alright i guess my mind is too dead to blabber too much..
hahas..
i'll try to upoad pics now.
Missed my bf ):
Though we quarrelled and all,
I melted when he just treats me sweetly.
I miss your bear hug!..
Will most likely be seeing him on either Thurs or Fri..not sure.
Miss you.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Dinner at HOng Kong Cafe
Met up with the usuals for dinner..wonder if im able to upload the pics.
After meeting up with them, my moodswings all gone. hahas.Funny bunch of nonsense people, never fail to brighten up people's day. =))
Argh stupid blogger is giving me probs. Shall upload the pics other time.
Got to go, working at 10 tmr.
nights.
After meeting up with them, my moodswings all gone. hahas.Funny bunch of nonsense people, never fail to brighten up people's day. =))
Argh stupid blogger is giving me probs. Shall upload the pics other time.
Got to go, working at 10 tmr.
nights.
okay, so i've failed.
No matter what i do, fucking things happens.
I kept very calm, tried talking nicely on the phone.
And i fucking missed out on the submit request part!..
I was so engrossed on the blardy class details shit, i omitted the submit request part.
Just cause i wanted to get the the submission thing over and done with soon.
It resulted in more shit. Now he is left with some crappy module, seriously i feel bad. I hate doing this kind of things.Yes, no doubt it's something very simple. Yet, I SCREWED IT UP.
Yes, i don't use my brains, yes its all my fault. Why the hell they only open up so little vacancies.
When i was in the page, it was left with 4 vacancies, but i screwed it up.
Yes, I've SCREWED IT UP.
I'm way disappointed with my capability. Seriously, what am i good for?.
Nothing i suppose, N-O-T-H-I-N-G
I'm only good at whining,sleeping,crying my eyes out for all the stupid reasons.
It's all my fault, what can i do to make things better?..N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
Bascially, i've did nothing right. Nothing to make him happy.
Therefore, in conclusion- A B-U-R-D-E-N to him.
Yes, a BURDEN. Nothing but a BURDEN to him.
I am neither good in studies, nor do i follow instructions well.
What the hell is wrong with me?..
People yelled at me for the same reasons.
Everyone, all of my boyfriends.
I do see this problem, by why can't i fix it?..
I fucking suck to the core.
Why can't i get things done correctly.
A senior crew who doesn't do the part of one.
A student who failed in her studies.
A girlfriend who failed in doing anything right for the relationship.
A daughter who failed - (one that would do the parents proud.)
A friend who people rather not have.
I'm afterall- a failure.
Enough said, my day is busted.
No matter what i do, fucking things happens.
I kept very calm, tried talking nicely on the phone.
And i fucking missed out on the submit request part!..
I was so engrossed on the blardy class details shit, i omitted the submit request part.
Just cause i wanted to get the the submission thing over and done with soon.
It resulted in more shit. Now he is left with some crappy module, seriously i feel bad. I hate doing this kind of things.Yes, no doubt it's something very simple. Yet, I SCREWED IT UP.
Yes, i don't use my brains, yes its all my fault. Why the hell they only open up so little vacancies.
When i was in the page, it was left with 4 vacancies, but i screwed it up.
Yes, I've SCREWED IT UP.
I'm way disappointed with my capability. Seriously, what am i good for?.
Nothing i suppose, N-O-T-H-I-N-G
I'm only good at whining,sleeping,crying my eyes out for all the stupid reasons.
It's all my fault, what can i do to make things better?..N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
Bascially, i've did nothing right. Nothing to make him happy.
Therefore, in conclusion- A B-U-R-D-E-N to him.
Yes, a BURDEN. Nothing but a BURDEN to him.
I am neither good in studies, nor do i follow instructions well.
What the hell is wrong with me?..
People yelled at me for the same reasons.
Everyone, all of my boyfriends.
I do see this problem, by why can't i fix it?..
I fucking suck to the core.
Why can't i get things done correctly.
A senior crew who doesn't do the part of one.
A student who failed in her studies.
A girlfriend who failed in doing anything right for the relationship.
A daughter who failed - (one that would do the parents proud.)
A friend who people rather not have.
I'm afterall- a failure.
Enough said, my day is busted.
mandatory IS modules
Im up so early today because i gotta sign up an IS module for bf, as he got work, i gotta help out.
I don't seem to understand what the e-mail was trying to say, it seems like they are writing in some gibberish language which i dont understand. Hahas.
I bet i got to be real calm when i call him later at 12pm to do his IS module thingy.
Everytime when i got to do this kind of thingy, i'll get so pist, as it's like i'm the one viewing the thing not knowing a clue on how to go about with it, while he is the one knowing what to do but can't view it and will have to try his best to explain to me. IN conclusion, with both impatient people trying to work out something on the phone would mean D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R.
I hope i don't piss him off. If i do and he hangs up the phone, there goes his IS module.
The stupid computer would randomly allocate him. And if that happens, I would be in deep shit.
Therefore i got to be real NICE and i MEAN it. I won't want the computer to randomly pick a stupid IS for him, and eventually it's whose fault for that...not him, not the com, not my parents, not his parents..ITS MY FAULT. So yea, im in a sort of stressful position myself too..
Hahas, enough said, i've got to get ready.
'Out
I don't seem to understand what the e-mail was trying to say, it seems like they are writing in some gibberish language which i dont understand. Hahas.
I bet i got to be real calm when i call him later at 12pm to do his IS module thingy.
Everytime when i got to do this kind of thingy, i'll get so pist, as it's like i'm the one viewing the thing not knowing a clue on how to go about with it, while he is the one knowing what to do but can't view it and will have to try his best to explain to me. IN conclusion, with both impatient people trying to work out something on the phone would mean D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R.
I hope i don't piss him off. If i do and he hangs up the phone, there goes his IS module.
The stupid computer would randomly allocate him. And if that happens, I would be in deep shit.
Therefore i got to be real NICE and i MEAN it. I won't want the computer to randomly pick a stupid IS for him, and eventually it's whose fault for that...not him, not the com, not my parents, not his parents..ITS MY FAULT. So yea, im in a sort of stressful position myself too..
Hahas, enough said, i've got to get ready.
'Out
busy day at Tembling
Loads of customers today, i was late.hahas, as per usual.
Saw my primary school friend, Cheryl.Gave her discount.
Had "zui kuey" for dinner, hahas very nice! =)
My manager went to buy K800i when he went to got us dinner. IDIOT.
Meeting up with my primary school friends tomorrow..Whee` =))
Currently waiting for my hair to dry before heading to bed, so during the meantime, i'll just surf the net or something.
I've seem to misplaced my Ftt receipt.OMG, and i've forgotten the date.Im D-E-A-D.
Alright i've seem to lose the talent of blogging nonsense on my blog..
Enough said..
Im off
When love comes around'
Saw my primary school friend, Cheryl.Gave her discount.
Had "zui kuey" for dinner, hahas very nice! =)
My manager went to buy K800i when he went to got us dinner. IDIOT.
Meeting up with my primary school friends tomorrow..Whee` =))
Currently waiting for my hair to dry before heading to bed, so during the meantime, i'll just surf the net or something.
I've seem to misplaced my Ftt receipt.OMG, and i've forgotten the date.Im D-E-A-D.
Alright i've seem to lose the talent of blogging nonsense on my blog..
Enough said..
Im off
When love comes around'
Sunday, September 24, 2006
just woke up;
Just woke up!..omg..half a day wasted..LOL
Actually woke up at 10 plus this morning, but i felt that it was too early for me..
After heading back to sleep, i only woke up now. Damm.
Now my eyes are still so swollen, arghs. hahas
Going to work soon, gotta go prepare soon. hmmm,
How's everything?..
'Out
Actually woke up at 10 plus this morning, but i felt that it was too early for me..
After heading back to sleep, i only woke up now. Damm.
Now my eyes are still so swollen, arghs. hahas
Going to work soon, gotta go prepare soon. hmmm,
How's everything?..
'Out
my eyes are feeling real tiny..hahas
Finally!! i've finally complete watching the whole show of Full House..all the Dvd..wahahas..
and my eyes feel way so tiny..hahahs..
and i guess its bed time for me..*yawns*
A very nice show which i wont feel bored watching it over and over again..
No doubt they are always bickering at one another..but, in a way..its all in all a feeling which is difficult to explain..only be felt with the heart =))
I can feel exactly what they went through..
This shows brings out the cuteness of the character of ji en..
Her acting is awesome, her facial expression..when she gets mad..being provoked..
hahas..she's really very cute..tt's why it made Rain "Ying Zai" fell so deeply in love with her, she has a unique character that attracts him to her.
She gets along well with people and she makes every little thing seems so enjoyable doing..
She's a simple,innocent girl..that never allows others to bully her..
A strong and independent girl..on the other hand..as she is innocent..her thinkings at times would be kinda.."ben ben de"..hahas..
Well..it's a MUST WATCH drama series..
It makes u cry.laugh,and feel her silliness..
hahahs..overall a nice show!!!..
my eyes are way tiny now..lol..
and my nose hurts!..
loads of tissue used tonight..lol..due to my tears..hahas..
mum gonna nag at me again..=x
Went to work today, was quite enjoyable..
worked with fen and jean sure brings the gossip queens together man..LOL..=p
dear came to pick me up after work, so sweet bahhs?..hehe =x
guess he's either still playing game, or asleep at Ken's place..
shall turn in already..
im working tmr..6-11 pm at Tembling Haagen Dazs..
bleahs..
' Love =))
and my eyes feel way so tiny..hahahs..
and i guess its bed time for me..*yawns*
A very nice show which i wont feel bored watching it over and over again..
No doubt they are always bickering at one another..but, in a way..its all in all a feeling which is difficult to explain..only be felt with the heart =))
I can feel exactly what they went through..
This shows brings out the cuteness of the character of ji en..
Her acting is awesome, her facial expression..when she gets mad..being provoked..
hahas..she's really very cute..tt's why it made Rain "Ying Zai" fell so deeply in love with her, she has a unique character that attracts him to her.
She gets along well with people and she makes every little thing seems so enjoyable doing..
She's a simple,innocent girl..that never allows others to bully her..
A strong and independent girl..on the other hand..as she is innocent..her thinkings at times would be kinda.."ben ben de"..hahas..
Well..it's a MUST WATCH drama series..
It makes u cry.laugh,and feel her silliness..
hahahs..overall a nice show!!!..
my eyes are way tiny now..lol..
and my nose hurts!..
loads of tissue used tonight..lol..due to my tears..hahas..
mum gonna nag at me again..=x
Went to work today, was quite enjoyable..
worked with fen and jean sure brings the gossip queens together man..LOL..=p
dear came to pick me up after work, so sweet bahhs?..hehe =x
guess he's either still playing game, or asleep at Ken's place..
shall turn in already..
im working tmr..6-11 pm at Tembling Haagen Dazs..
bleahs..
' Love =))
Saturday, September 23, 2006
at home-PArt 2
Woke up around 1 plus just now..
woke up to an empty house..no one around..only me and my dog..
wonder where have my sisters gone..but oh well..it's good to be alone at times..
went out for dinner ytd..met up with bf.
had rojak for dinner..and we headed to CS's arcade to play the Drums.
Was suppose to be having dinner with ken and the rest, but all came late, so me and bf have our dinner first.
After playing at the arcade..mas came and the rest has arrived at the mutton shop..so we went over to meet them. And off we headed to Ken's place..
After trying for about 4 hours or more?..lol..on the guitar..i manage to play "Holiday" starting base part and "Guang Huai Fang Shi" starting part..hahas..all half past six..=p
Dear went in to Ken's rm to rest while i continued playing on the guitar..watched tv all the way till bout 5..after Oprah's show..went homez..
Bf felt that i didnt show any concern for him ytd, as he was still ill..and he's grown numb to my "sorry's".Well seriously, i mislooked that part out. I thought he was feeling better and everything, and that he was playing games with ken and mas at first..so i was left playin on the guitar..for quite a while..i don't know..
'Out
woke up to an empty house..no one around..only me and my dog..
wonder where have my sisters gone..but oh well..it's good to be alone at times..
went out for dinner ytd..met up with bf.
had rojak for dinner..and we headed to CS's arcade to play the Drums.
Was suppose to be having dinner with ken and the rest, but all came late, so me and bf have our dinner first.
After playing at the arcade..mas came and the rest has arrived at the mutton shop..so we went over to meet them. And off we headed to Ken's place..
After trying for about 4 hours or more?..lol..on the guitar..i manage to play "Holiday" starting base part and "Guang Huai Fang Shi" starting part..hahas..all half past six..=p
Dear went in to Ken's rm to rest while i continued playing on the guitar..watched tv all the way till bout 5..after Oprah's show..went homez..
Bf felt that i didnt show any concern for him ytd, as he was still ill..and he's grown numb to my "sorry's".Well seriously, i mislooked that part out. I thought he was feeling better and everything, and that he was playing games with ken and mas at first..so i was left playin on the guitar..for quite a while..i don't know..
'Out
Friday, September 22, 2006
alone at home
hello mr daryl..view my blog eh..wahahahs..
aiya..it's so difficult to upload pics to my BLOG!!! argh! =((
yeah! can upload the pic alr..hahas..i wana buy this bag..wahaha..it's only 39 bucks..wahaha..im gonna get u! next month..ahahs..
aiya..it's so difficult to upload pics to my BLOG!!! argh! =((
yeah! can upload the pic alr..hahas..i wana buy this bag..wahaha..it's only 39 bucks..wahaha..im gonna get u! next month..ahahs..
and that was my lunc
h..hahas..bleah
the bag i wana buy..wahahs..
well..im bored at home..wahahs..
oh well..i noe i look stupid..but its my PROB!! hahas..
im just sick with this CRAMPS!..its driving me nuts..
bleah!
bad =((
i am currently PMS-ing officially NASTY
The cramps are officially killing me..
i skipped singing club for today..
disappointed =(
can't sing!!..
was looking forward for today..
at first i was lazy to get out of bed to prepare for Singing Club..
But when i finally got up to prepare..
The cramps attacked me...
AAArrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
not in a good mood...dont mess with me..i bite!
The cramps are officially killing me..
i skipped singing club for today..
disappointed =(
can't sing!!..
was looking forward for today..
at first i was lazy to get out of bed to prepare for Singing Club..
But when i finally got up to prepare..
The cramps attacked me...
AAArrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
not in a good mood...dont mess with me..i bite!
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Photographs speaks a thousand memories.
Went over to Dar's place to bring him to the doctors..
Was not in a ease of mind, having to press the doorbell and making the grandmother answer the door.
Because somehow..i know that his family members doesn't really like me..
Dar was still having high fever..he was like sort of bed-ridden..
Helped him put on his clothes..and brought him to the doc.
I didnt really treat him nicely..i kept using the towel..dapped it into the pail of ice water..and smacked it onto his body..hahas..kinda mean..=x
Well..after bringing him to the doc..and company him back home..helped him dish the porridge and fed him..like a big baby..=x..
but he was ill..real ill..so i tried my best to take care of him..
After makin sure that he has his med and barley water, his grandma cooked..rested for a while and i left for home arnd 6..
Did nothing much at home..i bought fruits on my way back..
watched tv..and chatted a little with my sis..
took out my photo album..laughed at the pictures..
and some memories..
and i found my diary..that's like so long time ago..
afterall..its nothhing..
im gg to school for the singin club thingy..
aint sure how many will show up...
just try my luck..maybe after that drop by dar's place and check on him or something..
good nites.
Was not in a ease of mind, having to press the doorbell and making the grandmother answer the door.
Because somehow..i know that his family members doesn't really like me..
Dar was still having high fever..he was like sort of bed-ridden..
Helped him put on his clothes..and brought him to the doc.
I didnt really treat him nicely..i kept using the towel..dapped it into the pail of ice water..and smacked it onto his body..hahas..kinda mean..=x
Well..after bringing him to the doc..and company him back home..helped him dish the porridge and fed him..like a big baby..=x..
but he was ill..real ill..so i tried my best to take care of him..
After makin sure that he has his med and barley water, his grandma cooked..rested for a while and i left for home arnd 6..
Did nothing much at home..i bought fruits on my way back..
watched tv..and chatted a little with my sis..
took out my photo album..laughed at the pictures..
and some memories..
and i found my diary..that's like so long time ago..
afterall..its nothhing..
im gg to school for the singin club thingy..
aint sure how many will show up...
just try my luck..maybe after that drop by dar's place and check on him or something..
good nites.
how long more?
how long more can i still endure with all the hurting words?..well..i dont know..
It's like the rubber band is stretching longer and longer..and it aint gonna hold back..it's just stretching the band to the extreme limit..
I've grown numb..
you knew i didnt liked being scolded to a drastic state..
Why is it that at times like this you make me feel that ur're so insensible..
i'll take that ur're sick and not argue back with you..
But that doesnt mean that you can jolly well..take me for granted..
You've always said that i hurt ur feelings..have you considered mine?..
I know all these vulgarities are in you..you cant change that..but at least try when you want to use these words on me..
i'm just telling you..this rubber band is stretching...
please dont use all these strong words on me..
It wont salvage the situation..it'll just make me walk away. far far away...
It's like the rubber band is stretching longer and longer..and it aint gonna hold back..it's just stretching the band to the extreme limit..
I've grown numb..
you knew i didnt liked being scolded to a drastic state..
Why is it that at times like this you make me feel that ur're so insensible..
i'll take that ur're sick and not argue back with you..
But that doesnt mean that you can jolly well..take me for granted..
You've always said that i hurt ur feelings..have you considered mine?..
I know all these vulgarities are in you..you cant change that..but at least try when you want to use these words on me..
i'm just telling you..this rubber band is stretching...
please dont use all these strong words on me..
It wont salvage the situation..it'll just make me walk away. far far away...
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
failure.
Wasnt really a good day today.
Met up with PS and yL..walked around Tm as Ps wanted to get jacket for work..
She needs a total white jacket..but we found none..
After shopping and having dinner with them..
They headed home..while i went to meet him and the rest.
Well..he was complaining that he wasn't really feeling that good..
But i didnt really bothered..
I remembered once when he was ill..
I skipped my first main team training..for touch rugby..just to take care of him..
Now he's sick once again..
Had a little quarrel..and both gave the cold shoulders..
throughout the whole of the time..
He was feeling real weak..
After smoking..he got worse..thus we went back by cab..him,mas and me..the usual 3
I alighted first..
i shouldnt had alighted..should had gone over to his place..
He was right..
I only cared about myself..
I did had the intention of going over to his place..to take care of him..
But i didnt..
Not sure what i was angry about..
I left him alone....im so FUCKED UP..
Wasnt there for him when he needed me the most..
now im worried sick..feel like just takin my dad's bicycle and go over to his place..
But what can i do?..it's already late..and i don't know my way to his place by bicycle..
I regret not going over to his place..wtf was i angry about?!!!.. :(
I guess the only thing i can do..which i would..is to appear at his block downstairs tomorrow..
Call him around 11plus?..or maybe earlier..and bring him to the doctor..
He did call me when he reached home..but he didnt do anything..
Not even taking the panadol..
He's running a high fever....
Dammit..im so fucked up..
FUCKED UP.
Dear,im really sorry. I should had gone over to your place..
At least i could be there to sponge you..and make sure u take ur medicine..
But i wasnt there to do anything..
What have i done?..
I deserve nothing man..
I feel so tired myself.
Fucked up.
Met up with PS and yL..walked around Tm as Ps wanted to get jacket for work..
She needs a total white jacket..but we found none..
After shopping and having dinner with them..
They headed home..while i went to meet him and the rest.
Well..he was complaining that he wasn't really feeling that good..
But i didnt really bothered..
I remembered once when he was ill..
I skipped my first main team training..for touch rugby..just to take care of him..
Now he's sick once again..
Had a little quarrel..and both gave the cold shoulders..
throughout the whole of the time..
He was feeling real weak..
After smoking..he got worse..thus we went back by cab..him,mas and me..the usual 3
I alighted first..
i shouldnt had alighted..should had gone over to his place..
He was right..
I only cared about myself..
I did had the intention of going over to his place..to take care of him..
But i didnt..
Not sure what i was angry about..
I left him alone....im so FUCKED UP..
Wasnt there for him when he needed me the most..
now im worried sick..feel like just takin my dad's bicycle and go over to his place..
But what can i do?..it's already late..and i don't know my way to his place by bicycle..
I regret not going over to his place..wtf was i angry about?!!!.. :(
I guess the only thing i can do..which i would..is to appear at his block downstairs tomorrow..
Call him around 11plus?..or maybe earlier..and bring him to the doctor..
He did call me when he reached home..but he didnt do anything..
Not even taking the panadol..
He's running a high fever....
Dammit..im so fucked up..
FUCKED UP.
Dear,im really sorry. I should had gone over to your place..
At least i could be there to sponge you..and make sure u take ur medicine..
But i wasnt there to do anything..
What have i done?..
I deserve nothing man..
I feel so tired myself.
Fucked up.
a song felt with memories..
I guess Bf would be real upset to know tt im listenin to Jay Chou's latest song right now..
i cant help it..seriously..his songs are real nice..i swear..
Was listening to Bai Se Feng Che..oh mann!..i swear..that song sure was meaningful..
It made me well..cried. Yupps..i cried, because it brought back memories of me and my once best friends back in RC haagen Dazs..
They were very nice people..aint sure what was the reason..all of us went our seperate ways..and im only in contact with fen..cus we're now working at Tembling..
Reminiscing back of the past..when we went to Mt Faber, while kelz drove us up there..LOL..
It was so much of funny episodes running through my mind..
They were the colest collegues i ever had in RC..bestest wroking kahkis..the unbeatables..lol..
Well..i dont mind meeting up with them..
But i believe things would be different now..
It's like those feelings were lost..
Never brought back..
and that..they have their new groups now..
yupps..
nothing much..
i cant help it..seriously..his songs are real nice..i swear..
Was listening to Bai Se Feng Che..oh mann!..i swear..that song sure was meaningful..
It made me well..cried. Yupps..i cried, because it brought back memories of me and my once best friends back in RC haagen Dazs..
They were very nice people..aint sure what was the reason..all of us went our seperate ways..and im only in contact with fen..cus we're now working at Tembling..
Reminiscing back of the past..when we went to Mt Faber, while kelz drove us up there..LOL..
It was so much of funny episodes running through my mind..
They were the colest collegues i ever had in RC..bestest wroking kahkis..the unbeatables..lol..
Well..i dont mind meeting up with them..
But i believe things would be different now..
It's like those feelings were lost..
Never brought back..
and that..they have their new groups now..
yupps..
nothing much..
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
packed.
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Well i just got back home after fetching my sis back from school..she had fever and was stuck in the sick bay..thus i've got to rescue her..lol..
let's back track..
Accompanied sh to a few shops ytd..and she got her "gift"..hahas..after which..met Audrey..companied her down to Novena..we didnt had to get out of Novena as we saw her cousin whom, her friend wanted to head down to the headquarters for an interview..so all Audrey had to do was to pass her the stuff and off we head to next destination..
Bugis..wahhas..
We went there to look for yvonne at the same time..Aud went for the interview..
von was real hyper ytd..seems like after her clubbin session..she cant stop dancing..
she was dancing away ytd when we saw her at her store..wahahs..
i bought a white watch..hahas..i knda like it alot..but still it cant replace my adidas..hahas..
After everything..Aud and i head back to Tamp..it's time for our GYM session..LOL..yes i've said GYM!!..hahhas..
On our way to the GYm..i saw her..what a day!..i'm not sure what was her problem..but she still has that look back then in school..well..can u wake up girl?!!..no one lives in the past?!!..and her stupid POPEYE friend..trust u to have this kind of friend..the sight of that POPEYE irks me..yucks..
Oh well forget about it..it's ur lost girl..not mine.. ;p
We hit the GYM and finished after about an hour plus nearing 2?..Aud did the treadmills for full 20mins..while i went around doing the weights and stuff..hahahs..LOADS of nonsense happened..
hahhas..before we did the treadmill..we tried doing cruches and sit-ups..we tried hooking on to each other's leg and proceed with our sit-ups..but i cant help it but kept laughing..hahahs..so full of nonsense..there were many people there ytd night..thus causing me and aud a little shy..hahahs..
After our gym session we took pics..lol..and headed for....erm.........dinner..
LOL..well i ate Bah Chor Mee..and Aud Yong Tau Hu soup..she wasted her rice..hahas..
and yeap..i headed home..
rest,watch tv,upload pics
took med..and i doze off real soon..
hahas..
alriights shall upload some pics..
and back to tv..hehe :)
oh yupps! it's dear off day today..so i'm gonna company him..;)
tatas!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
K-tved.
Yeap! went ktv-ed yesterday, with sh..kind of disappointed. My singing has gone down the drain..=(
Ktv-ed till bout 7..and went for dinner..
Dinner-ed at Tamp swiming complex's Sushi restaurant..well the food aint that bad?..kinda nice though..well after dinner was shoppin a while at Pasa malam..well..
hmm..after that, i headed home..nothing much..went home.
Felt kind of nauseous, not sure..maybe i'm still sick and everything..
hadn't check the net about the prices for the best package to Thailand..
well i have nothing to further scribble on my blog..
gtg..working at 6 today..
but i'm heading down to Cs today..
to return sh her phone..
Ktv-ed till bout 7..and went for dinner..
Dinner-ed at Tamp swiming complex's Sushi restaurant..well the food aint that bad?..kinda nice though..well after dinner was shoppin a while at Pasa malam..well..
hmm..after that, i headed home..nothing much..went home.
Felt kind of nauseous, not sure..maybe i'm still sick and everything..
hadn't check the net about the prices for the best package to Thailand..
well i have nothing to further scribble on my blog..
gtg..working at 6 today..
but i'm heading down to Cs today..
to return sh her phone..
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Full House
A holiday which i long wanted..but not sure of how to spend it..
therefore im watching Full House all over again..hehe..
No doubt i've watched this show b4..but..still...i like Ji En and Ying zai..they rawks..such a cute couple..i wish i had those kind of life..
Well..should i go for a holiday?..hmmm not sure..Dear called me last night..telling me bout the holiday plan..well. i like holiday..but..i've not save any money..monetary issuse is a big problem for me..Dear was planning on Thailand..hmmm..i wana go there!!! hahas..but since $$ is in the way..hmm..maybe KL will do..=)) i don't mind that..hehes..oh well oh well..
Dear's been working hard these days..he got home only bout 4.35 AM! poor him..=( and he should be awake by now..needs to reach HarbourFront by 1.30pm.. hmmm..hasn't seen each other for like 4 Days already?..
Well..many things happened..sometimes..i miss him alot..sometimes..i just feel like being alone...well...currently..we're fine once again..
Yeap..that's about it..
It feels kind of weird not going to school..it's like i'm used to going to school..at least my days were like faster to get by.Now that i'm working at Tembling..there's seriously nothing much for me to do, just sitting on the counter and watch the cars go by. Will be meeting Sh later..gg to K-tv..wahahs..it's been a long time since i last went to K-tvs..hmm..wonder if she can wake up on time mahhs..she got home only like 6plus AM..well..everyone has everything to do during the holidays..should i start my dieting now?..hehe..
Alrights..back to my show..
Oh! you just signed in..=)) its been a long time..
back' couch potato..
misses-
therefore im watching Full House all over again..hehe..
No doubt i've watched this show b4..but..still...i like Ji En and Ying zai..they rawks..such a cute couple..i wish i had those kind of life..
Well..should i go for a holiday?..hmmm not sure..Dear called me last night..telling me bout the holiday plan..well. i like holiday..but..i've not save any money..monetary issuse is a big problem for me..Dear was planning on Thailand..hmmm..i wana go there!!! hahas..but since $$ is in the way..hmm..maybe KL will do..=)) i don't mind that..hehes..oh well oh well..
Dear's been working hard these days..he got home only bout 4.35 AM! poor him..=( and he should be awake by now..needs to reach HarbourFront by 1.30pm.. hmmm..hasn't seen each other for like 4 Days already?..
Well..many things happened..sometimes..i miss him alot..sometimes..i just feel like being alone...well...currently..we're fine once again..
Yeap..that's about it..
It feels kind of weird not going to school..it's like i'm used to going to school..at least my days were like faster to get by.Now that i'm working at Tembling..there's seriously nothing much for me to do, just sitting on the counter and watch the cars go by. Will be meeting Sh later..gg to K-tv..wahahs..it's been a long time since i last went to K-tvs..hmm..wonder if she can wake up on time mahhs..she got home only like 6plus AM..well..everyone has everything to do during the holidays..should i start my dieting now?..hehe..
Alrights..back to my show..
Oh! you just signed in..=)) its been a long time..
back' couch potato..
misses-
Friday, September 15, 2006
a rainy day at work..
It's another day at work..well..hmm..openin as usual..well..there's nothin much..
Only 2 customers..from 11-3pm..hahas..
Yu feng came in early today..so yeap..i cud sit back and watch the on-going entertainment..hahas..
Nothing much done today, got home changed and time to sleep..
thought there was friendly match today..but it was cancelled..so yeap..
SLEEEPPPP!!! ZzzZZzzZZzz..so shiok..hehe
It's nice to jsut stay home and sleep in..=))
I was being locked out!!! when i got home..cus i didnt bring my keys..again..arrgghh..someone please remind me bout my keys..hahhas..
aarrgghhh........
Tembling people aint that hostile after all..
and guess wad..hahahs..one of the manager lives just opposite my block! wahaha..
Thursday, September 14, 2006
im back with HD..
HeyHeyHey..im back.back again.Back working my arse out at Haagen Dazs..hahas..well..it wasnt much work..serious..the customers that came were countable..
ermm..i guess total in all less than 10 customers..wahahas..
Im working at Tembling..bleah hahas..
Heard that its closing down..but aint sure when.."going CS" wHhheeeee!! =)
Nothing much done at work today..just slacked with fen and catch up the times we had missed out on. So much to talk about..wahahas..no doubt..theres like a little awkwardness bwtween us..or is that how i feel..yupps..im not sure how to put it..but it just felt like..err..not shy of what to say..there were a few moments of silence here and there..
I see my old-self in fen..she's so like my past..
I miss the times..
I use to be so talkative like her..
it's like me and fen had swopped positions..
she sure is enjoying her life right now..i feel happy for her..=))
Im not sure of certain things, not sure how to put it,
some times, or many a times things fade.
Well..aint sure what im saying once again..
welll
BLEAH!..
Todays' mood: Moodless.
ermm..i guess total in all less than 10 customers..wahahas..
Im working at Tembling..bleah hahas..
Heard that its closing down..but aint sure when.."going CS" wHhheeeee!! =)
Nothing much done at work today..just slacked with fen and catch up the times we had missed out on. So much to talk about..wahahas..no doubt..theres like a little awkwardness bwtween us..or is that how i feel..yupps..im not sure how to put it..but it just felt like..err..not shy of what to say..there were a few moments of silence here and there..
I see my old-self in fen..she's so like my past..
I miss the times..
I use to be so talkative like her..
it's like me and fen had swopped positions..
she sure is enjoying her life right now..i feel happy for her..=))
Im not sure of certain things, not sure how to put it,
some times, or many a times things fade.
Well..aint sure what im saying once again..
welll
BLEAH!..
Todays' mood: Moodless.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
woooHHHOooo!!!
Finally!!! EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! woohoo!!!..
oh well..screwed up m y paper..but oh wells!..its finally my long awaited holiday..
arghh..but it also means i've got to start working already..bloody hell..my managers are fast man..they dont give me a break......
But on the other hand..no work=no $=cant go out and shop or have fun..
haiis..................
Thanks to Audrey,Von,Van,Dk,Ryan,Zhe Wei..some help from Edmond,Jie Yin,..u people rock!!!!..thanks for helpin me out in my AFd..=))
Stress period finally over..
Now..i just hope that everything turns out fine for everyone..
oh well..screwed up m y paper..but oh wells!..its finally my long awaited holiday..
arghh..but it also means i've got to start working already..bloody hell..my managers are fast man..they dont give me a break......
But on the other hand..no work=no $=cant go out and shop or have fun..
haiis..................
Thanks to Audrey,Von,Van,Dk,Ryan,Zhe Wei..some help from Edmond,Jie Yin,..u people rock!!!!..thanks for helpin me out in my AFd..=))
Stress period finally over..
Now..i just hope that everything turns out fine for everyone..
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
good to go =))
After 12 hrs+ of slp..im good to go =)
sorry von..didnt went with u to study last night..i took med and i drop dead..sorry sorry..=(
went over to bf's place for a while ytd..met up to see e doc together..LOL..i was terribly coughin..
At first it was just companying him to see e doc..But after hearing me cough he cudnt stand it anymore..so i've got to register to see the doc too..arrrghh..=(
Went over to bf's place to rest..cus i was having headache..bf slept real fast!..lyk within 2 mins..omg..and throughout i could not sleep..cus of the thunderous SNORING..ZZzzz
i tried using Audrey's method..pressing his nose..LOL..i did all sorts of nonsense just to stop him from snoring..i even covered his nose and mouth for few secs..
it did woke him up..it did stop..BUT ONLY FOR A WHILE!!!!!..argghh..
so i tried sleepin on the floor...arrgghh..its too cold for me..so i got back up and tried to cover his nose or something..ARGH!..i gave up hope..i jus lay there..feeling more sick than ever..was having fever..felt so so so uncomfortable..i didnt want to make noise cus i guess bf's real tired..he hadnt sleep much lately..so i jus lie there and listen to his snoring..left his place at 6.30pm..groggly..rush to the ATM to draw money and took cab home..i was real sick at that point in time..
The cab drive was nice..told me to take care of myself and everything..cus i was coughing real badly..now my throat feels so dry and painful when i try to swallow down my saliva..aaarrgghh...im losing my voice..wahahas..
im sorry to everyone whom called me but i didnt pick up their calls..SORRY PEOPLE!!!..
June i dunno if ur're at Macs last nite or not..im sorry too..the medicine that i took almost most of it causes drowsiness..SORRY PEOPLE..really sorry!!!..=((
alot of AFD to catch up today..for today..and only today..I'VE GOT TO HOLD ON!!!..
Pei finally uploaded the pics we took during her birthday..hehehe..
shall upload one pic of me with tt famous pose..lol..
did i mention that i waited for bf outside his house for half and hour ytd?..hahahs..my bloody line got cut off for a while and i could not reply anything or call anyone..argghh..basket..
oh wells..im just DAN BAI..
bleahs..
OH yeap HAppy Belated Birthday to DK..it was his bdae ytd..
they celebrated his bdae at the Macaroni Cafe..cutting cake w/o waitin for US!..lol..
it was a tiramisu cake..=x so i only ate the chocolate part..
yeap..tt's abt it..
byee
DAN BAI
Monday, September 11, 2006
FINALLY!!!!!!
Finally..
finally BFD is down :) left AFD to go..
Was coughin so badly while doing the paper..felt so bad..its lyk so disturbing to others..Sorry People..
Used one whole packet of tissue for the runnin nose..arggh..sick..
now im not feeling so stress..but there's still stress..hahas..cus im afraid of my AFD..haiis..i've been coughing so badly that it feels lyk my throat is coming out soon..
i guess i'll go rest a while first..
niites
Sunday, September 10, 2006
im sick sick SICK!!!!
Have been coughing and sneezing for the whole day..it's getting real irritating..
i rested a while bout 2 hrs..im still feelin kinda tired.."ahhhchewww"
argghh..there goes the sneezing again..
Study so much till i cant take it anymore, so many things cramped up in my mind.
He woke up at 7 plus..now over at josh's place..
The phone convo was a little silent..like not sure of what to be said, i feel hurt. But the thought of last night just simply wont go away from my mind this time round.
I needed someone to hug today, but no one.
I needed someone to take care of me today- but none.
I didnt msg or anything..didnt want to disturb..
Didnt know i was ill till i told him so.
I want this exam to be done and over with.
I've not started with AFd..i know no SHIT.
I want to break down and give up everything.
But i cant...
"ahhhchewww"..basket..
im nasty-
go away.
i miss the cheerful me in tt pic.
Exhausted-
Im sick! omg..im down with flu and slight fever..was coughing the whole night..waking my sisters up..sorry about it..i wasnt able to sleep at all last night..i guess i only slept at 3plus..
Had been going to the Macs to study...only studied BFD..omg..im afraid i will fail my Major.
If i really failed..i guess i just drop out of school..and work..my parents arent happy that im still wasting their money studying..They dont trust me..they doubt me..With these kind of attitute to me..It's not encouraging me to study well..i just got more depressed..its all about the monetary issuse..
Went out to celebrate Pei's birthday..initial plan was to bring her to Chai Chee's CC to sing karaokae..but...cus there were so little people..so change of plan..we went to town to shop and eat SUSHI..wahahas..we ate so much till we couldnt eat anymore..therefore..we gotta hid the sushi's in the plastic bag..and threw it away..(sssssshhhh)
After eating and all..PS gotta go alr..left me and sh to walk around..were kinda tired..
I want to join the Brazilian some sort of martial arts combining with music,dance and martial arts..it's really nice..we stood there to watch it for quite some time...
After that sh bf came so we went to look around for food to eat..
ended in ThaiExpress..i wanted to have the fruit salad..but..nahhs..they didnt have mango..so i chose Sour Plum drink..which i only drank like 1/4?..lol..
Bf came soon after so we went our seperate ways..sh and her bf went their FoodFair i guess?...
While me and him had some problem..
Wasnt happy bout alot of things..things which he felt..i shouldnt had done..
I know im sorry to kinda expect so much from u..Sometimes..i just dont want u to get into trouble..
It made me realise i wasnt tt good after all..Please dont walk away..i cant afford to be chasing u back all the time..
im no longer who i use to be..
accept me for who i am..
Had been going to the Macs to study...only studied BFD..omg..im afraid i will fail my Major.
If i really failed..i guess i just drop out of school..and work..my parents arent happy that im still wasting their money studying..They dont trust me..they doubt me..With these kind of attitute to me..It's not encouraging me to study well..i just got more depressed..its all about the monetary issuse..
Went out to celebrate Pei's birthday..initial plan was to bring her to Chai Chee's CC to sing karaokae..but...cus there were so little people..so change of plan..we went to town to shop and eat SUSHI..wahahas..we ate so much till we couldnt eat anymore..therefore..we gotta hid the sushi's in the plastic bag..and threw it away..(sssssshhhh)
After eating and all..PS gotta go alr..left me and sh to walk around..were kinda tired..
I want to join the Brazilian some sort of martial arts combining with music,dance and martial arts..it's really nice..we stood there to watch it for quite some time...
After that sh bf came so we went to look around for food to eat..
ended in ThaiExpress..i wanted to have the fruit salad..but..nahhs..they didnt have mango..so i chose Sour Plum drink..which i only drank like 1/4?..lol..
Bf came soon after so we went our seperate ways..sh and her bf went their FoodFair i guess?...
While me and him had some problem..
Wasnt happy bout alot of things..things which he felt..i shouldnt had done..
I know im sorry to kinda expect so much from u..Sometimes..i just dont want u to get into trouble..
It made me realise i wasnt tt good after all..Please dont walk away..i cant afford to be chasing u back all the time..
im no longer who i use to be..
accept me for who i am..
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Oh my goodness-
After the long hours of studying im finally gg BERSERK...(is it spelt tt way?..hmmm)
Studied at home ytd..and Tamp Mac..omg..BFD whole day...
hmmmm..currently i can smell Bak Kut Teh fragrance twirling around me..hmmm...yummy..wonder which unit is it coming from..wahahas..
Oh wells got up like an hour ago..and here i am once again..hahas..
Dear hasnt msg me..guess he's busy...
Went studying at Tamp Mac last night..me and ACT sweetie =x
We ACTUALLY TAWNED!!! can u believe it?! LOL..wahahha..went home bout 5 plus?..6?..
We studied till bout 3plus and the bonkers mode came to us..we just pick on people to talk bout and laugh our heads off man..hahahs..we were lyk some drug addicts on cracks or smth..LOL..
I laughed till snorting could be heard..and i gave the person sitting kind of beside us a shock..LOL..oh wells..madness always hits me in the wee hours..=X
Before gg to mac to study..i went over to Suntec groggly to meet Dear after an angry phone call from him..LOL..oh wells..what to do?..a gf got to do what a gf got to do..so yeap..not gonna whine bout tt too..or else he'll think i dont love him anymore..hahahas..
I guess after gg to the toilet to do my big business..im off to the STUDY room..to study my BFD before heading off to mac to study AFD..
i feel lyk uploading a countdown counter in my blog. hmmm..but aint sure how to go about with it..
Omg..all the BFD shit are rotating in my head..argggghhh..gotta store them till lyk the 11 Sep..unleashed all the knowledge i know on the bloody paper..i gotta PERSERVERE!!!!...
alright alright i gtg!!!
the sheat is coming out!!!!
oooooohhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Studied at home ytd..and Tamp Mac..omg..BFD whole day...
hmmmm..currently i can smell Bak Kut Teh fragrance twirling around me..hmmm...yummy..wonder which unit is it coming from..wahahas..
Oh wells got up like an hour ago..and here i am once again..hahas..
Dear hasnt msg me..guess he's busy...
Went studying at Tamp Mac last night..me and ACT sweetie =x
We ACTUALLY TAWNED!!! can u believe it?! LOL..wahahha..went home bout 5 plus?..6?..
We studied till bout 3plus and the bonkers mode came to us..we just pick on people to talk bout and laugh our heads off man..hahahs..we were lyk some drug addicts on cracks or smth..LOL..
I laughed till snorting could be heard..and i gave the person sitting kind of beside us a shock..LOL..oh wells..madness always hits me in the wee hours..=X
Before gg to mac to study..i went over to Suntec groggly to meet Dear after an angry phone call from him..LOL..oh wells..what to do?..a gf got to do what a gf got to do..so yeap..not gonna whine bout tt too..or else he'll think i dont love him anymore..hahahas..
I guess after gg to the toilet to do my big business..im off to the STUDY room..to study my BFD before heading off to mac to study AFD..
i feel lyk uploading a countdown counter in my blog. hmmm..but aint sure how to go about with it..
Omg..all the BFD shit are rotating in my head..argggghhh..gotta store them till lyk the 11 Sep..unleashed all the knowledge i know on the bloody paper..i gotta PERSERVERE!!!!...
alright alright i gtg!!!
the sheat is coming out!!!!
oooooohhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
half time
was blog hoppin around when i came over my friends blog..one of her entries she mentioned..
what is it like to choose between the one YOU WANT and the ONE that you know loves you?..
its such a big risk in a way if one were to choose for the one YOU WANT cus you wont know if that person has the same feelings for you too..(risky eh) hahas..
Oh wells..hasnt been doing any proper bloggin on my previous entry..reason being..my mind was in total blank..
Exams are nearer..access paper was over. It suck big time..oh wells its over i aint gonna whine about it..
Lets back track..
hmm..i've been swimming for 3 days back on Fri-Sun..hmm..not bad everyone says im Tanned..hahas..im ''AN-NE" hahahas =x..
went to the COMEX fair on Sunday..omg..the crowd kills me man..all the typical singaporean cant wait to grab those "GREAT" deals..omg..hahahs oh well..
My com is running real SLOW!!! must be my sis..kept playing online games..wonder what virus has she got for the com once again..omg..
there's training this Thurs and Fri there would be a friendly match against Tamp ITE..hmm..i guess i'll most likely be the reserve..the benchwarmers..hahas..
i wana watch "THE BREAK UP"..
heard its a good movie..hmm..
i wan more "TAnning" sessions..oh ya..
and maybe more clubbin sessions.. =x
i've finally seen for myself the actual "ButterFactory" omg..its real small..something lyk Coco Latte..just that Butter is more crowded..
i've gotta learn the right way to POP the tequilla man..the second time i did it myself..there wasnt even bubbles.... oh wth..
PEOPLE LETS PARTY OUT! hahas..
2 weeks time..wahaha..
Devilish Seduction- :p
what is it like to choose between the one YOU WANT and the ONE that you know loves you?..
its such a big risk in a way if one were to choose for the one YOU WANT cus you wont know if that person has the same feelings for you too..(risky eh) hahas..
Oh wells..hasnt been doing any proper bloggin on my previous entry..reason being..my mind was in total blank..
Exams are nearer..access paper was over. It suck big time..oh wells its over i aint gonna whine about it..
Lets back track..
hmm..i've been swimming for 3 days back on Fri-Sun..hmm..not bad everyone says im Tanned..hahas..im ''AN-NE" hahahas =x..
went to the COMEX fair on Sunday..omg..the crowd kills me man..all the typical singaporean cant wait to grab those "GREAT" deals..omg..hahahs oh well..
My com is running real SLOW!!! must be my sis..kept playing online games..wonder what virus has she got for the com once again..omg..
there's training this Thurs and Fri there would be a friendly match against Tamp ITE..hmm..i guess i'll most likely be the reserve..the benchwarmers..hahas..
i wana watch "THE BREAK UP"..
heard its a good movie..hmm..
i wan more "TAnning" sessions..oh ya..
and maybe more clubbin sessions.. =x
i've finally seen for myself the actual "ButterFactory" omg..its real small..something lyk Coco Latte..just that Butter is more crowded..
i've gotta learn the right way to POP the tequilla man..the second time i did it myself..there wasnt even bubbles.... oh wth..
PEOPLE LETS PARTY OUT! hahas..
2 weeks time..wahaha..
Devilish Seduction- :p
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Thursday, August 31, 2006
time flies-
Time flies..
we're together for almost 6 months..=))
there were definately downs and ups..
times when we didnt know what to do of the relationship..
times when i cant stop irritating you..
the first time we held hands..
the first song we dance to..
your hug..
that smile when i irritates you..
There's this unique feature of you..
That's something that kept my love for you ongoing..
-i love you <3>
Was a real LONG day today..
woke up in the morning and went to my former sch..met up with ken,bf,paul,willkie..
nothing much changed from that sch..just that almost the teachers that taught us..all gave me kinda the same comment..."You've put on weight"..basket...arghhh!!!!...
nothing much..hahas..every teacher said bf was a rocker..hahas..that's what u like people to call ya dont ya?..hahas..
After that companied dear to CDC..he had driving lesson..i tagged along to book my FTT..argh..kinda embarrassed by the way the recep. person talked to me..."Ah..you've failed FTT twice..why dont u join the school..u'll be able to pass easier...." well..I DONT WANT! bleah! hahahs..
well..it was raining cats and dogs today..aaahh..hahas..met iza at the centre while i was waiting for bf to finish his driving..she was there for her driving lesson too..
after bf finished his driving we went over to his place for a while..said he was tired needa rest a while..so i went over to watch DVD..oh well..hahas..
Since we cant go out tmr..as dear has work..yeap i said work..DEAR'S FINALLY WORKING..lol =(
oh well..not gonna grumble bout that..
thus we celebrated our 6th month today..went AirPort's Fish & Co..hmmm..had soooo much to eat..DIE! ading back the KGS!!!...
It was a sweet date today..it's been a long time since we last went out on Dates..i want MORE DATES..wahaha..nahhs..jus joking..
After meeting up with dear..my sadness just fades away...
-awfully fat with happiness-
we're together for almost 6 months..=))
there were definately downs and ups..
times when we didnt know what to do of the relationship..
times when i cant stop irritating you..
the first time we held hands..
the first song we dance to..
your hug..
that smile when i irritates you..
There's this unique feature of you..
That's something that kept my love for you ongoing..
-i love you <3>
Was a real LONG day today..
woke up in the morning and went to my former sch..met up with ken,bf,paul,willkie..
nothing much changed from that sch..just that almost the teachers that taught us..all gave me kinda the same comment..."You've put on weight"..basket...arghhh!!!!...
nothing much..hahas..every teacher said bf was a rocker..hahas..that's what u like people to call ya dont ya?..hahas..
After that companied dear to CDC..he had driving lesson..i tagged along to book my FTT..argh..kinda embarrassed by the way the recep. person talked to me..."Ah..you've failed FTT twice..why dont u join the school..u'll be able to pass easier...." well..I DONT WANT! bleah! hahahs..
well..it was raining cats and dogs today..aaahh..hahas..met iza at the centre while i was waiting for bf to finish his driving..she was there for her driving lesson too..
after bf finished his driving we went over to his place for a while..said he was tired needa rest a while..so i went over to watch DVD..oh well..hahas..
Since we cant go out tmr..as dear has work..yeap i said work..DEAR'S FINALLY WORKING..lol =(
oh well..not gonna grumble bout that..
thus we celebrated our 6th month today..went AirPort's Fish & Co..hmmm..had soooo much to eat..DIE! ading back the KGS!!!...
It was a sweet date today..it's been a long time since we last went out on Dates..i want MORE DATES..wahaha..nahhs..jus joking..
After meeting up with dear..my sadness just fades away...
-awfully fat with happiness-
A shoulder
Was totally fucked up today..
Currently moddless to reply anything..
First it was some issue with you and me..
next it was work..
work was disastrous..was real late for work today..the moment i reach there..i see rain and adam doing the tables in the maple room..which means..there is a function gg to take place tmr..they always do the setup last min..because..the maple room is actually meant for dining in too..
quickly prepared myself for work..my uniform looked kind of sloppy. i felt real depressed not sure why..for a moment there wasnt a customer insight..next thing i know...people were walkin in..being rude and stuff..
i was blur for the whole day..did the wrong things..not listenin to instruction given..resulting in customer unhappy..sort of quarrelled with adam..sort of..
was suppose to go to inter Macs to study..brought my stuff for studying and shit..in the end..i went home..
i need a shoulder for me to cry on..i seriously need it alot..i cried while i was on my way hm..tears kept rolling down..
i do need someone there for me..i do need u..but i made u angry..
i dunno..
why am i so unlucky today?..nothing went well for me..nothing.
let me die..
Currently moddless to reply anything..
First it was some issue with you and me..
next it was work..
work was disastrous..was real late for work today..the moment i reach there..i see rain and adam doing the tables in the maple room..which means..there is a function gg to take place tmr..they always do the setup last min..because..the maple room is actually meant for dining in too..
quickly prepared myself for work..my uniform looked kind of sloppy. i felt real depressed not sure why..for a moment there wasnt a customer insight..next thing i know...people were walkin in..being rude and stuff..
i was blur for the whole day..did the wrong things..not listenin to instruction given..resulting in customer unhappy..sort of quarrelled with adam..sort of..
was suppose to go to inter Macs to study..brought my stuff for studying and shit..in the end..i went home..
i need a shoulder for me to cry on..i seriously need it alot..i cried while i was on my way hm..tears kept rolling down..
i do need someone there for me..i do need u..but i made u angry..
i dunno..
why am i so unlucky today?..nothing went well for me..nothing.
let me die..
Monday, August 28, 2006
stoned-
im tired but i refuse to sleep not sure why...
BFD book is in front of me..but i lazy to study..wth is wrong with me..
Went out with Dar and Mas today..followed Mas to Art Friends..to get his art stuff and then off to Bugis to do a little shopping..hahas..Dar bought me a Tee..hmmm..i guess i needa buy smth back for him too..hmm...
After the shopping..went to meet Josh for dinner at Changi..had Hainanese Chicken Rice..hmmm..was alright?..cus i guess i was too hungry till i lost my appetite..
=)) i like the tee dear bought..
Life is mundane now..Most of my days im STONED..
too many things on my mind..
cant wait for the holidays..
for the time being..im off..and away..
BFD book is in front of me..but i lazy to study..wth is wrong with me..
Went out with Dar and Mas today..followed Mas to Art Friends..to get his art stuff and then off to Bugis to do a little shopping..hahas..Dar bought me a Tee..hmmm..i guess i needa buy smth back for him too..hmm...
After the shopping..went to meet Josh for dinner at Changi..had Hainanese Chicken Rice..hmmm..was alright?..cus i guess i was too hungry till i lost my appetite..
=)) i like the tee dear bought..
Life is mundane now..Most of my days im STONED..
too many things on my mind..
cant wait for the holidays..
for the time being..im off..and away..
Saturday, August 26, 2006
oh wells..
Oh wells..wasnt doing anything meaningful just now..just slacking away..
after i got back from work..Saw ah mah and Kookoo came over our place..they're still over at our place..i guess we're having deinner together..missed my Ah Mah =)) hehe..
Waiting for him to wake up..hahas..that pig..luckily i didnt wake him up after work..doubt he has enough rest..he's starting work soon..oh well..
Not in the mood to talk to anyone online..signed-out early..
Ok..aint gonna continue blogging..sis is back with food..LOL..shall take a look at it..=x hahas..
gone-
after i got back from work..Saw ah mah and Kookoo came over our place..they're still over at our place..i guess we're having deinner together..missed my Ah Mah =)) hehe..
Waiting for him to wake up..hahas..that pig..luckily i didnt wake him up after work..doubt he has enough rest..he's starting work soon..oh well..
Not in the mood to talk to anyone online..signed-out early..
Ok..aint gonna continue blogging..sis is back with food..LOL..shall take a look at it..=x hahas..
gone-
Pondering-
Woke up real early for sch ytd..just to do my AFD test..it was alright i guess..just some careless mistakes..and the stupid staff welfare thing..oh well..not gonna grumble bout that..OFA was slacking period..played games..and i made my fren angry..sorry.
After sch..went arcade with von,van and aud..hhahs..we went to play pool..hahaha..welll well well..haven been touching much of pool for quite a while..had fun taking pics..aud took a few pics of me..and i found the angle real nice!! doesnt look like me! LOL..very sweet sia! =x self-praise not shy..=x shall upload the pics once i got them from aud..hehe..after we got tired of pool..we played Daytona..HAHAHAHA I AM THE CHAMPION!!! the 2nd round was scary..cus at the last lap von caught up wih me..tail-gating me sia..and i tink i drift! LOL...and won her..wahaha..=x who's the next challenger? LOL..we played DDR too..LOL..brings back primary sch feeling..hahahs..so old sch man..hahas..after the madness at the arcade..we went to have some food..hahas..had free chicken wings ..nice =) and off to the NTUC to get the ingredients for brownie..hahahs..von could not join us cus she is working..
Took a cab to my place to pick up my dog..hahas..and off to Van's place..her dog is super HYPER! AND HORNY!! lol..the moment he see my dog..he chiong for it..hahahs..omg..hahahs..it's lyk wana rape my dog sia..lol..poor keith gotta be locked up behind the fences..and coco..a naughty girl..she pooed everywhere and peed too..argh..SORRY VAN!!! the baking session was fun..Von next round join us we go van's place to cook..hahas..i wana learn sweet sour pork from Aud..den can cook for dear..hehe =x
After i got home..i went to bathe immediately..cus i reek of Coco's smell..and my white shirt has become brown..lol..after bathing..i rushed out to meet him =)) brought along the brownie..hahas..they rated it quite well..dear rated it 8/10, kenneth said wasn't sweet..., paul rated it 7/10..and josh rated it 8/10 wahahahaha..=x
missed him alot..i guess its better to lyk meet him only like thrice a week?..wahahas..i'll tend to be sweeter i guess? =x hahas..missed his hugs =)) hahas..and he offered to piggyback me..i didnt ask for it..he offer de..hahas..met him only a while..cus they heading off for fishing..i didnt tag along..no space..hahas..oh wells..=))
*out for work.-
After sch..went arcade with von,van and aud..hhahs..we went to play pool..hahaha..welll well well..haven been touching much of pool for quite a while..had fun taking pics..aud took a few pics of me..and i found the angle real nice!! doesnt look like me! LOL..very sweet sia! =x self-praise not shy..=x shall upload the pics once i got them from aud..hehe..after we got tired of pool..we played Daytona..HAHAHAHA I AM THE CHAMPION!!! the 2nd round was scary..cus at the last lap von caught up wih me..tail-gating me sia..and i tink i drift! LOL...and won her..wahaha..=x who's the next challenger? LOL..we played DDR too..LOL..brings back primary sch feeling..hahahs..so old sch man..hahas..after the madness at the arcade..we went to have some food..hahas..had free chicken wings ..nice =) and off to the NTUC to get the ingredients for brownie..hahahs..von could not join us cus she is working..
Took a cab to my place to pick up my dog..hahas..and off to Van's place..her dog is super HYPER! AND HORNY!! lol..the moment he see my dog..he chiong for it..hahahs..omg..hahahs..it's lyk wana rape my dog sia..lol..poor keith gotta be locked up behind the fences..and coco..a naughty girl..she pooed everywhere and peed too..argh..SORRY VAN!!! the baking session was fun..Von next round join us we go van's place to cook..hahas..i wana learn sweet sour pork from Aud..den can cook for dear..hehe =x
After i got home..i went to bathe immediately..cus i reek of Coco's smell..and my white shirt has become brown..lol..after bathing..i rushed out to meet him =)) brought along the brownie..hahas..they rated it quite well..dear rated it 8/10, kenneth said wasn't sweet..., paul rated it 7/10..and josh rated it 8/10 wahahahaha..=x
missed him alot..i guess its better to lyk meet him only like thrice a week?..wahahas..i'll tend to be sweeter i guess? =x hahas..missed his hugs =)) hahas..and he offered to piggyback me..i didnt ask for it..he offer de..hahas..met him only a while..cus they heading off for fishing..i didnt tag along..no space..hahas..oh wells..=))
*out for work.-
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Transferred
Back from the clinic..waited for lyk 45 mins..argh.what a long wait for Doc Tan.
Just received a call from HD manager..told me i am officially transferred to Tembling. No more grumbling of the journey to Raffels City..suddenly felt a pang of sadness striking me..wont able to see monster, kelz, ym, ah cek, serene, YY, Diana!!!!!!! omg..i'm out of RC for good..OMG..i actually miss working with you people..=(( visit me at Tembling?.. lyk what fen said at first..the saying goes for me.." wo bei da jing len gong le" not wanted anymore at RC..reason being..they've hired too many staff and im the only one living nearest to Tembling..
I wanted to voice out that i want to transfer to CS..but..but..but..but..haiis forget it..
I'm always like this..ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!
aiya..
Just received a call from HD manager..told me i am officially transferred to Tembling. No more grumbling of the journey to Raffels City..suddenly felt a pang of sadness striking me..wont able to see monster, kelz, ym, ah cek, serene, YY, Diana!!!!!!! omg..i'm out of RC for good..OMG..i actually miss working with you people..=(( visit me at Tembling?.. lyk what fen said at first..the saying goes for me.." wo bei da jing len gong le" not wanted anymore at RC..reason being..they've hired too many staff and im the only one living nearest to Tembling..
I wanted to voice out that i want to transfer to CS..but..but..but..but..haiis forget it..
I'm always like this..ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!
aiya..
sick once again..
wanted to be stubborn to go to school but he wasnt happy about it..and i did promise not to be stubborn anymore..so now ended up..me at home studying on my own..and i've to go school tomorrow..when quite alot aint going back.. =(
exams are nearer and it brings back the feeling when i had back when i was retakin my O's..im afraid of taking exams now..
Might be heading down to macs or something to study..or maybe my house downstairs..i just can't concentrate studying at home..wondering what's happening in school..can't attend training today =(
in total..i've missed 4 trainings..=( tt's alot to catch up =(
I'm upset. Not sure of what exactly it is..i've been missing out quite alot with the Nan Quans..didnt meet up for a long time already..
Whereas for Mantianal..well..schools been busy..and Uni has started.."Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming"
Where you people go?..or is it where have i been?..
Life's been mundane for me..lately..it's not that i want it my way..
It's just that..everything and everything seems to be getting in my way..( is this considered wanting
my way? )
I want to be extremely CHEERFUL once again..
i miss my crazy laughter..
i miss those late night outings..
i miss so many things in life..
i don't want this obedient life..
i miss BEING MYSELF..
i miss going to the Ktvs..
Saw lifen ytd..asked me out this Sat..not sure if i can meet her..Missed the Dewgongs too..
After so much of pushing down their outings..they don't call me anymore..
Maybe i might have time to meet you people for lunch or something..
I think we can work something out here..
anyway..i've dragged long enough..i've seriously gotta go see doctor..but currently..im feeling better already...
i guess i better go..
bye
exams are nearer and it brings back the feeling when i had back when i was retakin my O's..im afraid of taking exams now..
Might be heading down to macs or something to study..or maybe my house downstairs..i just can't concentrate studying at home..wondering what's happening in school..can't attend training today =(
in total..i've missed 4 trainings..=( tt's alot to catch up =(
I'm upset. Not sure of what exactly it is..i've been missing out quite alot with the Nan Quans..didnt meet up for a long time already..
Whereas for Mantianal..well..schools been busy..and Uni has started.."Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming"
Where you people go?..or is it where have i been?..
Life's been mundane for me..lately..it's not that i want it my way..
It's just that..everything and everything seems to be getting in my way..( is this considered wanting
my way? )
I want to be extremely CHEERFUL once again..
i miss my crazy laughter..
i miss those late night outings..
i miss so many things in life..
i don't want this obedient life..
i miss BEING MYSELF..
i miss going to the Ktvs..
Saw lifen ytd..asked me out this Sat..not sure if i can meet her..Missed the Dewgongs too..
After so much of pushing down their outings..they don't call me anymore..
Maybe i might have time to meet you people for lunch or something..
I think we can work something out here..
anyway..i've dragged long enough..i've seriously gotta go see doctor..but currently..im feeling better already...
i guess i better go..
bye
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
im just a fucked up bitch.
im fucking ANGRY..so fucking angry..so fucking worried..
CAN U PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF?!!!!!..
u have blood in ur phlgem..(if tt's how u spell it..) im sorry i yelled so much..because it
WORRIES ME!!!!.. =(
why is it so difficult to talk?..
I know my temper towards you aint nice at all..
not the way to treat you..But i'm seriously pissed that ur're taking this matter so lightly..at least see a doctor and see what's wrong..at least something right?..
It's your holiday now..i don't want to make you feel fucked up not being to play game and all..thus i dont make much noise when you gotta hang up and continue with your game..It just worries me if you are falling ill..
You might or might not bother bout this blog..or maybe you don't even view it at all..i miss you..i do..
I just don't want to pick a fight about it..you should have your own free time too..do what you like to do..i don't to be a irritating fuck..unhappy about this and that..causing too much nonsense for you..
Just want you to enjoy your holiday..
I really did take my med in class today..I didnt forget about it..Aint wasting the money for the medicine..
I only feel more useless..i've downgraded so much..simple things gone..
i don't want to say anything..i don't want it to be my way..
and i dont want this relationship to be one sided either..
Do you remember what you told me last night?..
Im pist.
CAN U PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF?!!!!!..
u have blood in ur phlgem..(if tt's how u spell it..) im sorry i yelled so much..because it
WORRIES ME!!!!.. =(
why is it so difficult to talk?..
I know my temper towards you aint nice at all..
not the way to treat you..But i'm seriously pissed that ur're taking this matter so lightly..at least see a doctor and see what's wrong..at least something right?..
It's your holiday now..i don't want to make you feel fucked up not being to play game and all..thus i dont make much noise when you gotta hang up and continue with your game..It just worries me if you are falling ill..
You might or might not bother bout this blog..or maybe you don't even view it at all..i miss you..i do..
I just don't want to pick a fight about it..you should have your own free time too..do what you like to do..i don't to be a irritating fuck..unhappy about this and that..causing too much nonsense for you..
Just want you to enjoy your holiday..
I really did take my med in class today..I didnt forget about it..Aint wasting the money for the medicine..
I only feel more useless..i've downgraded so much..simple things gone..
i don't want to say anything..i don't want it to be my way..
and i dont want this relationship to be one sided either..
Do you remember what you told me last night?..
Im pist.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
ANXIOUS!!!!!!!
Roleplay tmr..OMG!!!!!!!
Alright, i guess this is going to be a fast one..
Met Dear for dinner today..saw Audrey..hahas..she gave me a fright...hahas..oh well =)
Wasn't out for long cus they going back to play game..whereas for me..im still sick..
i'm wondering whether to quit HD or not..not sure yet..no decision done..what should i do?..
not told dear bout this..difficult to discuss with mum..Sweetie how?!!
haiis..what should i do?..
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE WAKE ME UP?!!! IM NOT PUTTING IN EFFORT..=(
arghs..i want to pass ITE and move on to POLY..
i want to have enough savings so that i wont need to depend on anyone..
i want to pass my driving and get myself a car..[that's the near future]
i need a holiday
i want to slim down
i need a MAKEOVER
i need sleep..
i need fun
i need to learn it the hard way..
I WANA BE CHEERFUL LYK BEFORE..=(
im so RIDICULOUS..
im uttering yet once again..another NONSENSE..=(
gotta slp already..waking up at 5am later..
niites everyone..
Alright, i guess this is going to be a fast one..
Met Dear for dinner today..saw Audrey..hahas..she gave me a fright...hahas..oh well =)
Wasn't out for long cus they going back to play game..whereas for me..im still sick..
i'm wondering whether to quit HD or not..not sure yet..no decision done..what should i do?..
not told dear bout this..difficult to discuss with mum..Sweetie how?!!
haiis..what should i do?..
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE WAKE ME UP?!!! IM NOT PUTTING IN EFFORT..=(
arghs..i want to pass ITE and move on to POLY..
i want to have enough savings so that i wont need to depend on anyone..
i want to pass my driving and get myself a car..[that's the near future]
i need a holiday
i want to slim down
i need a MAKEOVER
i need sleep..
i need fun
i need to learn it the hard way..
I WANA BE CHEERFUL LYK BEFORE..=(
im so RIDICULOUS..
im uttering yet once again..another NONSENSE..=(
gotta slp already..waking up at 5am later..
niites everyone..
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Too all the sickly people..FALL IN!!!!
I'm finally DOWN..my cramps got me and im down with fever..37.5 hahas..minor shit..
Got all the things i need for Monday..ooo so excited =)) kinda anxious too..TIMING is soo IMPORTANT!..if i screw this shit up im dead..
My plan FAILED!!! I GOT SABOTAGE by my manager..kept tempting me with the food..i could not take it..and had a BITE..the after taste was so HEAVENLY!!!!..maybe its due to lack of NORMAL food..lol..oh wells..AGAIN I'LL TRY..FOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
hahahas...Went over to dear's place today after work..met him like 5 plus..supposedly 4.30 but he had stomache so we met up late..FINALLY i've got my cheque =)) should be able to get it by Wednesday =)
Dear and i went to Bedok NTUC to get the ingredients for dinner..fettucine, sauce for the pasta, crabstick, button mushroom..hmmm. hahas..preferred cabonara though..oh wells..must try new things mahhs =))
By the time we finish shoppin it was bout 6 plus nearing 7 already..Oh ya..saw Michael at NTUC too..with his gf..very pretty girl..yea..Dear agree too...
Before heading to dear's place we tried Shop and Save..to see if they have "Bacon Bits" but nahhs..they dont have it..so off we head back to Dear's place..
Rest a while, read the newspaper to see the daily horoscope and started cooking. Had trouble opening the sauce cap..thus dear tried using the spoon..the cap came off..i was lyk FINALLY..but to my HORROR!!!!!!! i saw a broken piece of glass and blood started flowing out from dear's fingers!!!..OMG..i swear i didnt noe wad to do man..i tol dhim to rinse his finger in the running tap while i searched his cabinet for plaster..saw a FIRST AID kit and quickly took it out..it looks brand new.not touched before..i tried taking anything out i see..wanted to use guaze..but i know that's definately wrong..his sis came back just in time..took her handkerchief and tied his fingers...so as to add pressure to it and preventing blood from flowing out..i feel so useless..simple FIRST AID and i can screw it up..=(( oh wells..luckily dear's finger stopped bleeding..continued cooking the pasta and the sauce..well i guess my estimation wasnt that good..=(( there was too little sauce and too much fettucine..but overall it was alright..=)) watched a little of liverpool vs..ermm smth starting with " S" smth Wednesday de..watched half way his grandma came home..so gotta let her watch tvbee..so we watched "Hard Gay" on his com..hahahahaha..FOOOOOOO!!!!..lol..
A really NICE gay man i must say =) hahas..he helps people. Just that his eroctic poses are some what embarass to look at..lol..but overall..funny..hahas..
Oh ya..while we were at NTUC dear bought me "Robitson" cough mixture..bloody ex!!!! it's lyk $9.45!! i can buy a "Baby Fresh" cologue for my baby coco man!!..which is only lyk $9.35
But Dear has his sweet intention..just worried bout me..Because i've been "singing" alot lately..hahas..=))
Realising that it isnt early anymore..i went home..and now dear's playing warcraft..hahas..and me..hmm bloggin =))
Alright... SAY! SAY! SAY!! hahas..
Okkkkkaaaayyyy!!!!!!
HAHAHS..NIGHTS EVERYONE =)
Got all the things i need for Monday..ooo so excited =)) kinda anxious too..TIMING is soo IMPORTANT!..if i screw this shit up im dead..
My plan FAILED!!! I GOT SABOTAGE by my manager..kept tempting me with the food..i could not take it..and had a BITE..the after taste was so HEAVENLY!!!!..maybe its due to lack of NORMAL food..lol..oh wells..AGAIN I'LL TRY..FOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
hahahas...Went over to dear's place today after work..met him like 5 plus..supposedly 4.30 but he had stomache so we met up late..FINALLY i've got my cheque =)) should be able to get it by Wednesday =)
Dear and i went to Bedok NTUC to get the ingredients for dinner..fettucine, sauce for the pasta, crabstick, button mushroom..hmmm. hahas..preferred cabonara though..oh wells..must try new things mahhs =))
By the time we finish shoppin it was bout 6 plus nearing 7 already..Oh ya..saw Michael at NTUC too..with his gf..very pretty girl..yea..Dear agree too...
Before heading to dear's place we tried Shop and Save..to see if they have "Bacon Bits" but nahhs..they dont have it..so off we head back to Dear's place..
Rest a while, read the newspaper to see the daily horoscope and started cooking. Had trouble opening the sauce cap..thus dear tried using the spoon..the cap came off..i was lyk FINALLY..but to my HORROR!!!!!!! i saw a broken piece of glass and blood started flowing out from dear's fingers!!!..OMG..i swear i didnt noe wad to do man..i tol dhim to rinse his finger in the running tap while i searched his cabinet for plaster..saw a FIRST AID kit and quickly took it out..it looks brand new.not touched before..i tried taking anything out i see..wanted to use guaze..but i know that's definately wrong..his sis came back just in time..took her handkerchief and tied his fingers...so as to add pressure to it and preventing blood from flowing out..i feel so useless..simple FIRST AID and i can screw it up..=(( oh wells..luckily dear's finger stopped bleeding..continued cooking the pasta and the sauce..well i guess my estimation wasnt that good..=(( there was too little sauce and too much fettucine..but overall it was alright..=)) watched a little of liverpool vs..ermm smth starting with " S" smth Wednesday de..watched half way his grandma came home..so gotta let her watch tvbee..so we watched "Hard Gay" on his com..hahahahaha..FOOOOOOO!!!!..lol..
A really NICE gay man i must say =) hahas..he helps people. Just that his eroctic poses are some what embarass to look at..lol..but overall..funny..hahas..
Oh ya..while we were at NTUC dear bought me "Robitson" cough mixture..bloody ex!!!! it's lyk $9.45!! i can buy a "Baby Fresh" cologue for my baby coco man!!..which is only lyk $9.35
But Dear has his sweet intention..just worried bout me..Because i've been "singing" alot lately..hahas..=))
Realising that it isnt early anymore..i went home..and now dear's playing warcraft..hahas..and me..hmm bloggin =))
Alright... SAY! SAY! SAY!! hahas..
Okkkkkaaaayyyy!!!!!!
HAHAHS..NIGHTS EVERYONE =)
cramps!!!
argh..i've to retrieve the key and open the restaurant tomorrow.. :(
Wee..so happy with myself..im actually following the "plan" =)
wonder if i can still control myself tomorrow?..
Currently my left nose is giving me alot of problem..just gotta keep stuffing tissue..
Down with FLU and COUGH.. =( where's my "nurse"? lol
Not sure where's dear now..but i guess he's cycling somewhere..i dont know where is it..not gonna wait for his call alr..working at 10am tmr..aaaaahhhhhh............ :(
i'm once again too free to view blogs again..arghz..oh well..need rest alr..
Not sure of how to go on anymore..
I just have too many things in my mind till it's lyk over-flowing with too many thoughts..
don't wana know..
Hope it's not for the worse..
Oh ya..thanks D.K too for sort of cheering me up..lol..
JH told me im no longer that cheerful anymore..lyk my laughter not from the heart..
hahas..oh well..[economy bad] hahas..
only sh knows what im saying..this period will be over soon..
sleep sleep sleep!!!!!!
i guess tmr wont be much of gg anywhere..bf needs rest too..don't want him to company me go walk walk if he's too tired..[i'll understand]
good nights-
Wee..so happy with myself..im actually following the "plan" =)
wonder if i can still control myself tomorrow?..
Currently my left nose is giving me alot of problem..just gotta keep stuffing tissue..
Down with FLU and COUGH.. =( where's my "nurse"? lol
Not sure where's dear now..but i guess he's cycling somewhere..i dont know where is it..not gonna wait for his call alr..working at 10am tmr..aaaaahhhhhh............ :(
i'm once again too free to view blogs again..arghz..oh well..need rest alr..
Not sure of how to go on anymore..
I just have too many things in my mind till it's lyk over-flowing with too many thoughts..
don't wana know..
Hope it's not for the worse..
Oh ya..thanks D.K too for sort of cheering me up..lol..
JH told me im no longer that cheerful anymore..lyk my laughter not from the heart..
hahas..oh well..[economy bad] hahas..
only sh knows what im saying..this period will be over soon..
sleep sleep sleep!!!!!!
i guess tmr wont be much of gg anywhere..bf needs rest too..don't want him to company me go walk walk if he's too tired..[i'll understand]
good nights-
Friday, August 18, 2006
aiyaaaaaaaaa
im so tired now..not sure whether to rest or not..finally my DARKEST DAYS are here..better dont pist me off..i'm very very nasty..
Stayed in school till bout 4 plus today?..everyone tense up bout the roleplay for monday...meeting 7am!!!!!! i better have enough sleep on Sunday night..
My throat is getting from bad to worse..am afraid that i'll lose my voice before Monday..argh!..
nothing much happened in school today..well everyone seems to have their " Bad Day" so did sweetie..but i guess she's fine alr..hahas..
Missed him alot today..looking at pictures makes it even worse..so i chose not to look at ur pictures..hahas..=x oh well..did u miss me?..haiis..oh well..
I'm too tired to type anything..i go slack a while..byeeeeee
People..do tag or smth so that i know u've viewed my blog.
-wonder if you still bothered about this blog of mine....
faint-
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Stayed in school till bout 4 plus today?..everyone tense up bout the roleplay for monday...meeting 7am!!!!!! i better have enough sleep on Sunday night..
My throat is getting from bad to worse..am afraid that i'll lose my voice before Monday..argh!..
nothing much happened in school today..well everyone seems to have their " Bad Day" so did sweetie..but i guess she's fine alr..hahas..
Missed him alot today..looking at pictures makes it even worse..so i chose not to look at ur pictures..hahas..=x oh well..did u miss me?..haiis..oh well..
I'm too tired to type anything..i go slack a while..byeeeeee
People..do tag or smth so that i know u've viewed my blog.
-wonder if you still bothered about this blog of mine....
faint-
ssssssssscccccccccccccrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Im happily coughing my lungs out..the coughing sound is getting more dangerous.hahas..
Was another long day in school..Was late for my com. lesson and i guess i've missed out quite a bit..
AFD is currently covering "Bank Reconciliation".. Whereas for BFD......hmmm.....i fell asleep..hahah
Had roleplay rehearsal after school lasted till bout 5 plus?..Finally my awaited number appeared on my phone..a missed call from him =)
He sounded kinda sian though...made me think of so many things..so many thoughts on my mind..
waited for Aud and Von, headed down to TM..went to get my stuff for the roleplay..
didnt ask me bout school today..
i saw tt person again hahas..=x
Missed his hugs =) that warm feeling =)
but still i feel weird inside..am i thinking too much?......
*thanks gal esp SZ!!! a sweetie ya =) wrote me a card and a lollipop =)
*my sweetie..hahas..companied me during the darkest hours..=) u noe who u are =x
*aud and von not forgetting u gals..who leer me from the sadness =))
MUACKS!!!!!! =)
currently dar's out with the usual..=( i want my holiday soon =(
i've fallen too deep...
Was another long day in school..Was late for my com. lesson and i guess i've missed out quite a bit..
AFD is currently covering "Bank Reconciliation".. Whereas for BFD......hmmm.....i fell asleep..hahah
Had roleplay rehearsal after school lasted till bout 5 plus?..Finally my awaited number appeared on my phone..a missed call from him =)
He sounded kinda sian though...made me think of so many things..so many thoughts on my mind..
waited for Aud and Von, headed down to TM..went to get my stuff for the roleplay..
didnt ask me bout school today..
i saw tt person again hahas..=x
Missed his hugs =) that warm feeling =)
but still i feel weird inside..am i thinking too much?......
*thanks gal esp SZ!!! a sweetie ya =) wrote me a card and a lollipop =)
*my sweetie..hahas..companied me during the darkest hours..=) u noe who u are =x
*aud and von not forgetting u gals..who leer me from the sadness =))
MUACKS!!!!!! =)
currently dar's out with the usual..=( i want my holiday soon =(
i've fallen too deep...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
PMS!!!!
Yes i'm having the bloody PMS!! i can so feel the cramps on the way..
Steer clear from me..i'm nasty..
-i'll be quiet so just let me be..
-if i tear might be due to the cramps
-if i am moodless.. don't bother to cheer me up
was a long day for me ytd, 2 consecutive days it seems to me that i didnt meet up with him.
after everything and everything, i don't know what to say?.. stuffs....
I don't want to expect anything anymore, just want everything to be back to normal..*i wish*
It's definately not easy, even that few minutes that i thought it was all over killed me fast inside.
I can't believe i said that..when i can just learn to accept?..
Why do i give up so easily?..=(
Im sorry for HURTING you time and again..
neither do i want you to suffer..
i know you don't mind it..
But if one is suffering, i rather you not suffer..
This shows how lousy i am..
That i didnt change AT ALL
BE IT THE PAST OR THE PRESENT..
i'm still the same after all..
i'll try to change but this change might not bring the old me back..
Where is the love?
Steer clear from me..i'm nasty..
-i'll be quiet so just let me be..
-if i tear might be due to the cramps
-if i am moodless.. don't bother to cheer me up
was a long day for me ytd, 2 consecutive days it seems to me that i didnt meet up with him.
after everything and everything, i don't know what to say?.. stuffs....
I don't want to expect anything anymore, just want everything to be back to normal..*i wish*
It's definately not easy, even that few minutes that i thought it was all over killed me fast inside.
I can't believe i said that..when i can just learn to accept?..
Why do i give up so easily?..=(
Im sorry for HURTING you time and again..
neither do i want you to suffer..
i know you don't mind it..
But if one is suffering, i rather you not suffer..
This shows how lousy i am..
That i didnt change AT ALL
BE IT THE PAST OR THE PRESENT..
i'm still the same after all..
i'll try to change but this change might not bring the old me back..
Where is the love?
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
When you had a bad day.
Was real tired ytd..slept through AFD..hope she's not gg through the exam revision papers today..don't feel like gg to sch..seriously no mood..but i cant.
I still dont get it. My mind in a twirl. Stop questioning me.
I still dont get it. My mind in a twirl. Stop questioning me.
Monday, August 14, 2006
A Chain of Strange Events
I guess i just can't stop all my nonsense..
currently moodless to do accounts, my accounts all fucking cant balance..FUCKED UP.
currently moodless to do accounts, my accounts all fucking cant balance..FUCKED UP.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Last Day of Fireworks
oh yeaH!! =) at least i manage to watch the last fireworks!! =) very nice esp the last part..hahas..but bloody hell the bloody trees were taller than me blocking most of the fireworks that are shorter in range. BASKET!!
First before i set off to watch the fireworks.. i went over to dear's place first to pick him up..LOL..just went over to meet him cus the BUM is LAZY!!!!! i brought muffins over, as he was real hungry and i can only find muffins at hm so i brought it. But he said he last min found food at home..basket..hahas..but oh wells the muffins was self-voluntary..so yea..hahas..
We were sort of wearing couple wear ytd..hahas..white top,fade jeans,black shoes.hahas..=x
Alright, we left his place bout 7 plus and we called josh on the way, as josh wanted to watch the fireworks and take some nice shots of it. Meeting him at Raffels City. The bloody train even at Tana Merah was DAMM jam pack..basket..The human crowd was even worse when we reached Raffels City, OMG>>>>>>>>>>>>
oh well, we walked out slightly to the bus-stop opposite Raffels City to wait for Josh....
After he arrived, we took the Shuttle Bus to Millenia Walk..even the road was jammed up,many people sitting outside Supreme Court..tons and tons of humans..omg..
and i was so afraid that i'll catch the fireworks on the bus...but luckily no. hahas..
we reached millenia about 8.45, wanted to walk up the bridge..but..nahh..forget it too long way.
One joker tried to change from the 4th lane to the 1st lane, in front of a TP!!! tt stupid shit kena from the TP! lol..stupid idiot..we walked str8 into the park near esplanade too many people too many trees..so we had to run further down..and i was running away on my own..leaving bf and josh behind..hahas..eventually..we reached together bout 8.57pm and found ourselves a spot hoping that the trees dont block us..but....... oh wells...better than nothing..
Everyone took out their hp, digicam, all sorts..raising them high in the air..ahhas..basket block my view...when the fireworks actually started..Dear carried me up!!!! =) so sweet of ya..to take my weight sia..he carried me for quite a while so i quickly ask him to bring me down..and we watched the fireworks..it was really nicce..i liked it alot..=) thanks dear =)
After everything, everywhere and anywhere was so full of humans..we walked a few places and we meant WALKING...that feeling sucks man..i wanted to like just disppear into thin air,away from all these humans..it was like half or 3/4 of the sg nation all at the same place..argh!!!!...
Finally we manage to pass this ordeal and out again from that sick underpass..hahas..count ourselves lucky to be able to board a cab..
We went back to Tamp inter, met with ken and mas..the usuals..and we went rounding..hahahs..as i was feeling kind of hungry..had ba chor mee again..hahas..at the jhoo chiat there..after tt..we just went around singapore..ahhas..went to harbour front, mas school, the place near indoor stadium..and then back home..whew..what a night..=)
Alright i've blabber enough..gotta do my BFD props already..
Byeee..
First before i set off to watch the fireworks.. i went over to dear's place first to pick him up..LOL..just went over to meet him cus the BUM is LAZY!!!!! i brought muffins over, as he was real hungry and i can only find muffins at hm so i brought it. But he said he last min found food at home..basket..hahas..but oh wells the muffins was self-voluntary..so yea..hahas..
We were sort of wearing couple wear ytd..hahas..white top,fade jeans,black shoes.hahas..=x
Alright, we left his place bout 7 plus and we called josh on the way, as josh wanted to watch the fireworks and take some nice shots of it. Meeting him at Raffels City. The bloody train even at Tana Merah was DAMM jam pack..basket..The human crowd was even worse when we reached Raffels City, OMG>>>>>>>>>>>>
oh well, we walked out slightly to the bus-stop opposite Raffels City to wait for Josh....
After he arrived, we took the Shuttle Bus to Millenia Walk..even the road was jammed up,many people sitting outside Supreme Court..tons and tons of humans..omg..
and i was so afraid that i'll catch the fireworks on the bus...but luckily no. hahas..
we reached millenia about 8.45, wanted to walk up the bridge..but..nahh..forget it too long way.
One joker tried to change from the 4th lane to the 1st lane, in front of a TP!!! tt stupid shit kena from the TP! lol..stupid idiot..we walked str8 into the park near esplanade too many people too many trees..so we had to run further down..and i was running away on my own..leaving bf and josh behind..hahas..eventually..we reached together bout 8.57pm and found ourselves a spot hoping that the trees dont block us..but....... oh wells...better than nothing..
Everyone took out their hp, digicam, all sorts..raising them high in the air..ahhas..basket block my view...when the fireworks actually started..Dear carried me up!!!! =) so sweet of ya..to take my weight sia..he carried me for quite a while so i quickly ask him to bring me down..and we watched the fireworks..it was really nicce..i liked it alot..=) thanks dear =)
After everything, everywhere and anywhere was so full of humans..we walked a few places and we meant WALKING...that feeling sucks man..i wanted to like just disppear into thin air,away from all these humans..it was like half or 3/4 of the sg nation all at the same place..argh!!!!...
Finally we manage to pass this ordeal and out again from that sick underpass..hahas..count ourselves lucky to be able to board a cab..
We went back to Tamp inter, met with ken and mas..the usuals..and we went rounding..hahahs..as i was feeling kind of hungry..had ba chor mee again..hahas..at the jhoo chiat there..after tt..we just went around singapore..ahhas..went to harbour front, mas school, the place near indoor stadium..and then back home..whew..what a night..=)
Alright i've blabber enough..gotta do my BFD props already..
Byeee..
Saturday, August 12, 2006
I hope it works.
I hope im not doing any further stupid things to worse anything. *Fingers Crossed*
I just felt like it has to be done, it's the only way.
Now im sort of feeling weird inside, but at least something.
At least it's something! *Fingers Crossed*
Omg Omg, i cant believe i did it.
I just hope it helps in a way, or else im jus A DUMB FOOK!!!
im dead.
I just felt like it has to be done, it's the only way.
Now im sort of feeling weird inside, but at least something.
At least it's something! *Fingers Crossed*
Omg Omg, i cant believe i did it.
I just hope it helps in a way, or else im jus A DUMB FOOK!!!
im dead.
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