Some pictures I've just uploaded to my com, hmmm..not really in the mood to blog today..

Happy Birthday to Ms Leong Yan Lin !!!!

ur're finally 20!!!!


woot`

Alright so I feel kinda blue today..I didnt had my peaceful nap! msgs after msgs! HUMPH!
hahas, oh well..guess will be a busy day today.hahas..

[ The day before we clubbed..hahas.. ]

[ Look at how UGLIFIED I looked..and the tipsy zara..lol ]

[ That was what I wore last night..CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! ]

[ Finally I went clubbing last night, MOS. The music was CRAP! ]

-why does it always has to happen. So having our picture on is so difficult for you huh.

Then I shall never..

Never..

[ Happy Birthday Girl ]

Finally I've got the pictures! woot! =)

Pictures from Eski Bar, like so long ago..hahas..

Had alot of fun killing ourselves in the cold room..hahas.

I wana have more fun!!!!!!! =))

A long day at work today, but Im a happy girl =))

Had ToriQ for lunch today =) hmmm, hadnt hit target though.

But oh wells =))

What's the catch phrase for MacDonalds?

What's the catch phrase for Nike?

What's the catch phrase for Addidas?

Hahas, I was totally lost for answers! lol..

It's gonna be a long week for me.

Will be working 5 days this week. Off on Thurs and Fri.

mmm, just finished "fried fish soup" =)

I'm so FAT now.. Alright people are sick of hearing me whine about this to the extend of ignoring me alr..hahas..

Went over to Van's place yesterday for her birthday celebration..hahas, she was very busy yesterday, hahas..I felt like helping but like not sure where to start so I just do my best- I help them refill their drinks..lol..brought Joleen along with me, hahas..she had so much fun! and she didnt wana leave! hahas, idiot.. ohyea! I had BAILEYS!!! NICE!! but not as sweet as the other time I drank it, hmmm..but NICE! hahas..

there was green bean durain dessert, very unique. =) Oh ya! Van's grandparents are very cute I must say. Hahas, if only my grandfather was still around..but hais, I was never a good grand-daughter, I never did my part as one, even when he was in the old folks home, I never looked him up. He doted on me the most when I was young.Sorry gong gong. Now I try to make time for my grandmother, but I dont think Im doing enough either, everyone doted on me alot, but I never cherished. Never. I remembered ah mah was very mad at me when I told her I wanna stay with my mum and not stay with her anymore, she was heartbroken.

I still feel bad about it, after so many years, a good whole 10 years..

Nothing much to say now..

Hahas..

bIRTHDAY wishes to

-ang lin lin ADELINE!! [ meet up when I get pay!! ]

-Vanessa Leo Ming Xue!!

Big 2!! hahas, girls may good fortunes come along your way!!! =) hmmm, I suck at birthday wishes, lol..

hmmm, hahas, for Ade yea may you find a good husband who loves you and may you stirke 4D!! lol!!!!

As for Van..XING FU MEI MAN!!!! =))

To Audrey girl..

I MISS YOU!!!

Alrights..I heading to bed..

Nites people =)

Apparently, Im dumb-struck.
Was on the phone with him, why at this hour? cus I couldn't sleep and the fact that Im flat broke thus wasnt able to join them for movie.
Great another movie watched without me. It's annoying. I swear it is. I just refuse to fight with him over that. Too childish. It's not a MUST that he watches movie only with me. [ Am I lying again for saying this? ]

Well I'm not.I seriously mean it. It's not a MUST to catch a movie with me.
I was lost for words, what led to this silence? can't really remember, must be me and my big mouth once again.Talk without thinking.

A moment on my own.
Is this love only this shallow?

YOU ARE NOT BETTER OFF
EITHER!

Another dumb move. Thought of giving the sick boy a surprise, but it ended up with me, giving myself a big surprise. Monster didnt wake up till bout 8.15am =(
I didnt sleep the night before, after our conversation I was actually awake throughout the whole night.
Surprisingly, Paul,Mas, Char and a few others were still awake. Paul needed some attention, lol he was bored..oh ya! yanlin was online too, was doing her assignment. Felt kinda bored so I played audition with Paul..LOL you NOOB! hahas..around 4plus? Aud came online! woot! hahas so Paul, Aud and I chatted for a while..
So yeap, I left home around 6.30 rushed to the 7-11 to get sandwich and mineral water for monster.

Reached his place at 7, called him all the way till 8 =(( No choice gotta ask Paul to do me a favour and call his place.Sorry Paul, but I was half expecting that to happen, since I myself got it before.
Monster called me at 8.15am, he's gonna miss his 1st class so he'll only attend the second one which is like at 2pm. So, I left. No doubt he asked if I wanted to go up his place, I was like thinking, nah, I'm afraid of his mum.
Judging from his voice, he's still in his ' very sleepy state ' so I left.

Yes, I'm stupid for trying to give him a surprise, my intention was to get him breakfast and 'send' him to school. ARGH. Crap. =( Bad move.

So off I went to TP to meet up with Paul and the rest. Since Paul did me a favour of calling up his place. I gave him one of the sandwich. hahas, it's CLUB sandwich okay..appreciate that!..
Slacked with them for a while, and JH send me home.
Eve you still look as pretty as before!!! ugh, any secret formula for great skin?

-A day at TP

I've been eating these gummies for the whole day, and now my tooth hurts. The pain is dreadful, it's like as though it's gonna drop off!..not sure if it's due to hallucination?? my tooth seems to be like shaking?! =( I'm scared!!! ROAR!!!!

Suppose to meet monster, but my ez link got no more $$ to grant me any rides.. =(( So I've got to forgo Clementi. Wonder where is he now, he's phone is flat, I can't contact him =((

I'm sorry that I lied, but I dont like the idea of taking money from you. Hope you understand that. It's just not right.

*Ouch* my tooth really hurts. Been doing nothing but gaming the whole day. Uh-oh =(

One off day gone just like that. How will it be like tomorrow?..What is Joanne gonna do tomorrow?..

Feel like tanning, but I cant =( feel like going out to slack but I cant =( It's LADIES NIGHT TONIGHT! and I cant. It's always the monetary problem. Did my maths, and I've realise that I cant spend like the way I wish I could. Haiya! whinning and more whinning, my life isnt organised, back to the same crap.

Hmmm, feel like packing my study room tomorrow, maybe pack my wardrobe too?, get rid of some dumb clothes.. Oh well..

[ pictures i took lately..]

Im BORED. My second time posting for today, argh.

My baby sister is FINALLY --- 14. Boo! hahas, still a long way to go girl. =)

She's got a very sweet birthday cake, which I wish it kinda happened on me.

Many things I wish for, but I doubt I'll be able to acheive for now.

Many plannings need to be done, some idiot talking to me bout ' future plannings' telling me stuff like he is gonna lose his "V" at the age of 27 and thereafter get married. Hahas, cute la this guy. You DONT PLAN THIS KINDA STUFF!!! well, maybe you do, but..hahas..oh well maybe he has some dark secrets not revealed to us. LOL..oh well ..

Im not very chatty lately, not my usual self, I wonder why?..

Dad is currently tryin to outwin me in typin, he is typing on his lappy so loudly, it's irritating me..hahas..

Dad asked for supper and I replied him straight in his face w/o second thought, - "NO!"

hahas, and his reaction was " why r u able to go with ur frens till the wee hours for supper and not me? "

I ignored him, lol..I just dont feel like it. =x I mean, it's just not the same..UGh crap, this is just random shit.

I've been online for like 2 hr plus now, no phone calls, hmmm, wonder what I'll be doing tmr..maybe I should start doing my hw.. He's suppose to call me when he got home, but nope, no calls. Oh well, either he's mapling/gaming/ I dont know. Ha. Should had gone out with the guys..at least I'll be doing something now, talking bout life or something..hahas..I love those kinda talks..hahas, it makes you feel motivated. But at times, makes you feel like killing yourself just taking a knife and stab your heart and die. LOL..I'm seriously crapping man.

Still no phone calls..waiting for that familiar ringtone. UGH.

My life is kinda mundane, no longer that interesting, I need to club or something to regain back my [ ] ? what's that word?!! my gawd, it slipped my mind. Fill in the blanks..hahas..

Stupid TM hasnt return me my CD!! and he didnt reply my msg!!! I swear I'm gonna kill you!! I seriously NEED THE CD!!. aaaaahhhhh =((

Whee! phone call, hahas, guess I cant stay home for long, needa go out for a breather, hmm yeap. A breather.

Else I'll go berserk.

Things Joanne Hasnt Been Doing For a Period of More Than 1 Month.

-Shopping

-Clubbing

-Good Rest

-Sun-tanning

-Cool Date

-Holiday

I guess this are the few that is kinda important to me..yeap..need to do at least 2-3 out of these 6.

Alright, guess I'll be going for milo soon, I've really got nothing to do at home..

BOREDOM is killing me.

Wee~ Im home =)
Im off tomorrow and Thur!! =)) hmmm, but I don't think I'll be heading anywhere.
Hmmm, stay home to sleep? =x LOL

My hand seems to be hurting alot these days. I can't really twist my hand when I turn it.Even reaching into the pocket to get my card is giving me problem. I guess seeing the sinseh is necessary this time round.
Maybe after I get my pay then I'll visit.. Ouch.

Seen this quote on some fella's blog.

" There is no right one out there..We just got to love the right way.."
How true is that? hahas..

TV!!! =))

I feel so fat right now. Hahas, had too much to eat yesterday.
It was my long awaited Family Day once again, where all my relatives come together for a lil get together, we were all gathered at Allson Hotel to celebrate the 'June Babies' birthdays.
The people are..
-> Grandpa
-> Zachary
-> Joleen
It was a buffet from 11am till 5pm. So my family was the second to reach, so yea. Mum got all excited and brought back mountains of food each time she went near it..
I was practically forcing food down. ARGH, kinda embarrassing too, so typical Singaporean. gosh. =x
Soon after..bout 1plus my other two families came down..woot` and the picture spree started!! hahas..=)
I only got a few in my phone, the rest are all with my sis.
The rascals were so much fun, they brighten up my day =)))
Will upload the pictures tonight.
The buffet was really worth the money, besides the fact that my mum was a 'Kiasu Queen' it was only bout 23 per person after the triple+++. Isnt it worth it?

After the feast, Jo and I went to Bugis St as I need to trim my brows, it's too messy LOL..
We were like ZOMBIES after I've trimmed my borws, we just banged our way through the MRT station.

Feeling so exhausted, I still wanted to go to the gym. So I messaged everyone, and only 3 replied. IDIOTS!
So there was Ken,Willkie,Daryl and myself. We were there for like only a mere 1hr plus?
and headed for dinner at Subway, Jz met us up for dinner. Imagine I could still take down 6-inch honey oat with tuna. OMG.
Now I feel so bloated. hhahs, there is girl, an ang moh. She wanted Jz's no. hahas, said that he was cute.
We shall bring JZ back there again this week! =x

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When stabbings still happens. Trust being betrayed over and over again.
Im always. ALWAYS. Kept in the dark.
I hate this. WHY MUST IT HAPPEN ON ME! =(

Is this my retribution? Why is GOD so cruel.
GOD why are YOU doing this to me? Will it make me a stronger person?
It's crumbling my life?. Why do I have to learn life through this way?

*Im beginning to hate you.How am I gonna face you?

Currently we're all at Daryl's place playing monopoly, hmm well not everyone. Except Mas & I.
Mas is playing "Gof of War" while I'm just sitting around using Dar's laptop. hmmm, finally had the celebration for him at " Lemon 3 Thai " well all I can say is, the celebration was "alright".
Why I said that?..well cause I kinda screwed it up..
At first it was the " waiting time " part, cus not really everyone has reached the place, so I thought maybe it would be nicer to bring the birthday boy for a walk first before everyone has arrived.
My idea was like to give Daryl a lil surprise to see people there for his birthday dinner.
But I didnt told Ken my plan, so it was like..hmmm he was kinda pist?.. hmm SORRY KEN..
Oh well, that was my first mistake, second it was "The cake joke". Not sure why but I was kinda pist.
Maybe this whole birthday celebration took me a while to prepare?..but Daryl is not making things easy for me, since he can read my mind like a book. He kinda knows exactly what I was gonna do.

Sad to say, I find that this year's celebration was kinda sucky. =(
Wasnt really a perfect one. I know Daryl's upset, but I've really run out of brain juice to figure new surprises..
=(
I feel so lousy, told myself not to cry, but my tears drop the minute I hear them joking about it.
Hey, it's not like I'm a baker, this is my first time baking a cake ON MY OWN! so yea.. if you dont appreciate it, dont criticise it.. =(

Well maybe 'criticise' is kinda strong word to use, but somewhere along that line.

Wanted to surprise him last night, at the storke of 12. But my attempt failed, cus I could not hail a single cab at all, waited for like 15mins below my house, before I could get one.
Then I had to blow the ballons, stick the paper on the wall, it turned out to be in a mess..
I felt shitty about it. =(

I feel so lousy! argh =(

Before my tears start rolling down once again.
I better stop here..

I dont understand. Not a single thing. Am I really too shallow bout this kinda stuff..
" I look as though I really have alot to think, but on actual grounds I'm just very shallow. "
I just don't get it.. even if it has nothing to do with those stuff.. still? I was lost for words, no word vomit at all.
I just kept very very quiet. Tears started to fill my eyes once again.

I'm not asking alot do I?..
What is so deadly that I would NEVER KNOW? and even if I did, it will already be too late...
I'm feeling a lil disappointed..My eyes hurts.

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Alright, I guess I feeling better typing it out. I need to/ I got to. Else I cant carry on.
ARGH. The cramps are not making me feel any better. =((

Why is it there are such bad predicaments? =(
All I just wanted to do was to ... argh =(( please make it turn out smoothly.
I might just break down anytime.

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" What you don't know doesn't kill you "
But honestly. It already did.

The letter should be here anytime soon.Hmmm.. or it wont?

Loads of updates lately, hmm..

It's finally the HOLIDAYS!! but I dont feel one bit happy about it. =(

There were like few meeting ups here and there =)

Latest was Eski Bar shall upload the pics when I get hold of the people!!

Everyone was there, cept kiku.

The 'cold room' was freaking COLD! it's like NAB! the minute we went in..lol

I had Lychee Martini, MF had Snowball, Lily had Blue Lagoon, Cactus was some ermm..what is it call? lol I cant recall..hmmm was it Eski Ice or smth?..hmm and Jun had ermm..Mango Margarita.

The food there wasnt that fantastic, maybe the sausage roll?..=x

Daryl had Heineken, lol. Watch that belly mister!..

Was a nice lil gathering that ended kinda early on a Friday night?..

Hmm, it's already Monday, and I am already feeling drained. So little time so much to do..

I snapped once again. Kinda bad, I'm unable to control my temper these days, must be the sleepless nights..

Some pictures I got hold of..

( He Never Takes DECENT pictures )

( In the Cold Room )

Shall continue when i get the rest of the pics

So I've slept only like hmmm, an hour plus.
Thinking of too many stuffs.
Went to school this morning to do my retest paper and headed back home to sleep.
No idea why I brought the helmet to school either.
I'm going to miss the application once again.ARGH =(
Knew of it too late.

When hand and floor meets.

Happened to be blog hopping once again. It's always your blog that updates me the most.
No doubt we don't know each other, but we have common flaws. Ha, what crap.
The pictures are sweet, certain stuff mentioned brought back memories to me.hahas..
Nothing much from Ms Anonymous. [ My Best Wishes ]

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Work was "not so boring" I guess?. Kept myself real occupied, doing stuff you wont believe Joanne will do.
Yes, I kept myself busy- for a moment. I wana go Thailand =(
Cristelle is a nice girl, easy to talk to, talked bout almost everything..

What is it like now?..

Is it really my fault to be like this. [ Yea ]
Is it wrong for the person to be like this now? [ No ]
Conclusion : [ Joanne has died ]

Call me childish, I just hate the sight of it.

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Just came back from school, went to have lunch at East Link with the girls.
I'm exhausted, but I've got work later, hmmm..
Nothing much happened in school today, I was only looking forward for PIE lesson.
Finally we've completed the movie-" Pay It Forward ". I liked the ending. No doubt the lil boy died.
But at least he manage to "Fix" people, or should I say, change?..

I'm gonna rest now.

It's SUNDAY!! =)

Finally the day we have been waiting for SO LONG.

10 June 2007. Mum's coming back!!!!!!! =))))

Everyone woke up real early today, including me. I woke up at 7 despite the fact that I got home at around 2plus 3 this morning.

WooHooo, finally x)

Some pics before she left.

=)

Some shit happened to my blog. Now it looks alien to me.....

5 Star Chicken Rice

Was a long boring day for me yesterday.
My day was spent at home doing practically- NOTHING.
Cept for the daily chores which I cant escape.

At least I went out last night. That moron came back home, shouting and yelling.
I couldnt take it, I just went out.
Met up with Mas and Josh, as I haven had anything the whole day, I suggested supper.
They brought me to 5 star Chic. Rice. SHIOK!!!! ahahs.., it's located at Katong.
We ordered half chicken, mei cai kou rou, salad you tiao, kidney?..hahas, ermm, I guess that's about it.
After which we head down to the NTUC, checked out the magazines..
Lindsay Lohan was arrested for consuming cocaine, her car hit some lampost or something?..hahas..

After the pit stop, we went Yishun Dam. WOOO, there were loads of CARS and I mean ALOT!..
But nothing much, so I fell asleep real soon. hahas..
So we headed to JLK, had some drinks and we just felt like riding bike once again.
Therefore, Paul's place was next. He's bike was better to sit on?..
But he needs to change alot of stuff..hahas, esp his sexy horn. HAHAHA..
Slacked a while, and we went home.

That boy was out clubbing yesterday.

Blogger is giving me problems..

My pay is PATHETIC.
Been a long time since I've changed my template, so I thought it was time for me to change.
Hmmm, didnt took me long to settle on one though.
Woke up real late today; 3plus.

Let's talk about yesterday..

Finally, after a week of rest, I was back working at Ben n Jerry. Marisa was like saying, how long haven you been working??..weeks/months?..hahaha..
Was working with Mai and Marisa for closing. Hmm, I feel that I'm a lil difficult to start conversation with huh??..
People are saying that I'm "DAO" difficult to approach..hmmm..
Is it that way, or people just simply dont feel like talking to me?..Oh wells.
I'm not really a people person at times myself I guess??
But I dont feel that left out last night while working, so yea. =)
Oh yea! There was quite a commotion yesterday at Pasir Ris MRT station.
There were ambulance,police cars and civil defense.
Kenny,Mai and myself were like thinking, giving our own conclusion of what's the commotion were all about.
We all agreed; someone commited suicide. Hahas, there was like groups of NOSY buggers, waiting to see what is going to happen next.
After about an hour or so?..We saw police officers about hmmm, 4-5 of them?..with a indian guy?..looks like terrorist to me..LOL.Well, not sure what really did happened. And the guy was sent into the ambulance on hand-cuffs and that was it. Up to you guys to decide.

Met up with Mas,Josh and Jz to slack.
I rode, or should I say start up?..hahas..anyway. I was on Jz's bike.
I was having real difficult time to kickstart the bike. The 3 of them had to hold on to the bike while I did the kickstart.
They were like telling me, "ZAM the thing..!!" and I was trying my very best to "ZAM". LOL. But my attempt failed. So Jz helped me, he kickstart the bike, I had to hold on to the clutch and the breaks. Slowly release the clutch and trottle, I guess I'm having some cordination problems and the bike stalled. LOL.
Man, my legs feel wobbly. Hahas..

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Cant wait for Sunday to arrive. Mum is coming back. =))
Been doing the laundry's and washing of the dishes. My hands feels so old now.
I miss you mum.

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You've been real busy lately.

Hello ?

This feels so way off.
Why do people held high hopes on me?..
You see people around me, having a goal in life, striving for that something.
On the other hand, I just felt like throwing away all these miseries, studies..
And maybe just work. Work and earn that pathetic sum of money.

There were some motivational talks by Ms Chan, that kinda made me stop in my track.
Realising how I'm wasting my life away.
I dont seem to have that motivation- to push myself to work hard, strive for something.
What do I want in life?
What are/is my goal/goals?
ITE has made me realise some cruel facts which I knew long ago which I just chose to ignore.

Her words. Only this person. Whenever she talks to me. She just wakes me up.
I've seriously let her down. No doubt she isnt that close to me.
But I'm not sure why, but EVERYTIME. I will definately break down in front of her.

It felt nice to receive a lil hug from my younger sister when I got home.

Hurt.

Late entry

This entry came a little late.

In this world, you can't trust just anyone around you.
Especially people you deemed as "FRIENDS"
It might take month/week to make a friend, but it takes seconds to ruin one.
Once bitten twice shy.
I've learned it well. [ YLSX ]
You should know who you are.
I'm too lazy to type out your full name.

You treat us as though you are a GENUINE FRIEND. But behind our backs, you stabbed like mad.
If you werent happy bout something, voice it out. Why used such underhand means.
Put aside that.
Do you remember who offered to give that free gift?..
To think you used the pitiful STORY. Please mend your ways, and STOP YOUR NONSENSE.
Wake up girl. Doesnt mean that when I kept quiet, I'm deemed as such person.
I've heard what you said about me.
If I were to see you on the street, I wont walk away and ignore your presence.
I would like to sit down and hear what you have to say.
This is not how "FRIENDS" treat one another.
You dont seem evil, but it kills to know you have hidden agendas.
You said too much about almost everyone.
You hate the fact that people disallowed their friends to change working venue with you.
At least that person confessed/told you. We heard your stories, we stood by you.
Now that you have made a grave mistake, you turned back to that person.
Please search your conscience.

You may/ may not see this entry. I dont care.
It's no point not turning up for school.
Do what you do best.
Save your own ass.

IT'S TIME TO SUMO.

DONT YOU DARE.

Dont you dare try anything funny.
That's all I can say.
No one will know what I'm saying, but that culprit. YOU BETTER WATCH YOUR BACK.

I hate to say this. But what is there for you to look forward to huh?..
GET OUT THE WAY. If it aint yours' please FUCK OFF.
Yes, I am a very angry woman now. NOW!.
I hate you!, why is your presence everywhere. Cant you just DISAPPEAR!.

ARGH. I'm so angry for the wrong reasons.

Went for combine school selection today, must say the training is kinda different from sec school days.
It feels like soccer training to me..hahas..oh well at least I get to play with balls..LOL that sounded SO WRONG.
I mean at least I get to play volleyball. Hmmm, people do have different views, and I must say I'm impressed in a way. hmmm, wonder if I'll turn up for school later..I wonder.. hmmm..
So, after training, we went to have our dinner, I was VERY HUNGRY..hahas, but I gobbled down my chicken rice..
No further comments on that..[ My lips are sealed ]

Slacked further at TM mac, lol..gossips and more gossips.. muahahas..
You young lil thing sure is attractive aye..hahaha..

It's like 1.29 am on my computer clock and some faggot are still singing Karaoke ..
I hope the man in blue gets to you man..

This entry is definately SSOOOOOOO RANDOM.
But I like. =)

Sorry for not turning up at the Chalet, my apologies-

The idiot is back..

A very long time since I've last logged in to write something that happened on a particular day of my life.
Well, I did something new for the first time yesterday.. I put on fake lashes..hahas..it's VERY DIFFICULT TO PUT ON!..
Well, the comments given were kinda bad, they told me to TAKE IT OFF!!..wahahas..
Went over to study at Van's place..well.. =p as expected, we did everything cept studying..LOL
Gotta go prepare for work later..BOO =(

COLLEGE EAST GOT CHAMPION FOR 2007!! yea!!!!! =))
It's like 7 years of playing volleyball, FINALLY A GOLD MEDAL!!!!! =))

I'll be joining the combine team, going for the first training tomorrow =)
And maybe, chalet after that.

I've recovered from the bad fever, and now I'm back eating ALOT. =(

Cant remember what to write anymore..
Off to prepare for work..

Feeling so frustrated right now!!..UGH
With the fever and the "time of the month", it's seriously getting on my nerves.
Did nothing at all for the whole day.
I just slept my day away..
Got my sis to sponge me..
At least it helps to bring down the fever.
Now, it's the cramps that is killing me.
Slight depression on my tummy and the pain would be worsened.

Sick and cramps! WOAH`
Combo hit. =(

Still Sick

It's like I'm FINALLY SICK! =)
At first I was like, yea! I'm sick! hahas, kinda sick of me to think that but yea..
I just want to be sick!..
But after being sick for so long, it's kinda getting on my nerves..
Waking up every other morning, feeling like shit.
This morning was bad. =(
Been coughing alot too, not sure why but my throat is VERY ITCHY!..
And now blogger saves my drafts automatically..hahas, so cool.
No more fried food/ fast foods for me.
NOT EVEN CLUBBIN =( ARGH!
Been watching MTV almost the whole day..not really in the right condition to do a proper entry.
Wait till I get better, then I'll come back to continue..

Sick

Not sure what virus hit me but I was coughing non-stop.
I was literally coughing throughout the night, and was having difficulties falling asleep.
Woke up this morning to realise that I had fever.
Thus, skipped school once again.

My neck was killing me, cant seem to tilt it upwards else it'll be very painful..
Got to force myself out of bed this morning. UGH.
Feeling real weak now, not sure why the fever hit me..

Though I'm sitting in front of the com, and the fan is blowing at me..
I still feel very irritated, my neck is giving me problems..

Anyway, was suppose to head down to Art friends today..UGH :(
And I was suppose to attend Clark's birthday party at Aloha..my god..Sorry Clark.

Maybe I'll go back and lie down..
Not feeling very good.
Gone for now..

Painted my nails black,while watching "Mars Versus Venus"..
This kinda shows always relates to my feelings.
The killer part was Huang Bi Ren's part..
When both parties are stubborn and refuses to say any further..
Communication Breakdown Syndrome.

Hais, she did so much for her husband.
Knowing that he is facing some financial problem and it so happened that she gets to take part in some tv game show competition to win some cash prize to help him tide over..
She didnt explain her intentions, and misunderstandings happened.
The mother-in-law was fucked up.
I'm kinda lazy to write out the whole show. But the gist is that, the husband misunderstood her.
And it killed me on the spot. I teared kinda badly at the ending.
Because they broadcasted her on tv. She telling her viewers how much she loved her husband..and the best husband she ever had..My god..and to think the husband wanted a divorce.

Nothing much for me to blabber anymore,
nites.

Gathering =)

Met up with my favourites this morning for breakfast at Cartel..
I was as usual VERY LATE..hahas..
But they ordered a ermm..not sure what it's called..it consists of 2 sunny side up, a few bacons, 2 sausages
and ermm egg toast bread and a muffin. SHIOK. That was my meal of the day..
We were planning..I hope this plan works.. =)
Saw Senget queing outside Cartel with his family..hahas..
Heard some news that was quite shocking to us.
Girl..you still have us..

Alright, after breakfast and a lil of aimless shopping, it was time for me to punch-in.
UGH. But I manage to hit target for today..hmmm..I hope I can hit all..
I kept looking at my phone in hope of some people to msg me or call the counter to disturb me,,
But there was none.
Sorry for giving you headaches..I'm fine =))

I was literally in a daze when I had no customers to serve, flashbacks..they are the deadliest..
Slowly tears formed..but I didnt let it flow..cus I aint no crybaby. I'm gonna PROVE YOU WRONG.
But that was not the worst that hit me badly..
I saw my friend. For 5 years we hadn't met up only happened to talk in MSN..
A friend who chose to delete me away from the contact list..
I still regard you as a friend.
We were walking the opposing direction, I guess you were heading home..
I was heading for my bus..
We exchanged glances, I held your arm..
Yet you just walked away, like what your last msg said...
"Forget that you knew me.."
You literally ignored me, as though some stranger bumped into you..
Tears dropped..
I wanted to msg you, but I held back.I ruined the friendship.

Met up the usuals for supper..
He came..but..
the feeling is just not there anymore..
despair is the word for me now I guess?..

Dont wish to think any further..
nites.

Didnt had much sleep last night.
That "sour feeling" kicked in once again.
My heart felt real painful.
I dont wish to bother anymore.
I'm gonna change back to my normal self.
I wont make you feel as though I'm controlling you.
I'll leave you on your own.

Just when I thought things were going smoothly..there comes that little bump.
Just when I thought everything fits into the picture..
Just when I thought, I've changed.
Reality just slaps me back on my face.
Things aint working smoothly for people around me lately either..
Disappointments..
Bullshits..
Just so you know..
I'm crumbling once again..
I hate this.

Pictures! =)

Random pictures I feel like uploadin..Fang!!! I cant find ur pic..needa get the rest from cactus!..hahas

Was out last night to meet up with the Tembeling people.
Had fun at Kbox, sang to my heart content and headed to Hong Kong Cafe for supper.
Had fun sharing ghost stories, my favourite, especially when Marcus and Weizheng are around.
They updated a few ghost stories that made me stop and think for a while.
Life after death..wooo..

Not much people was there, Kbox was with Yufeng, her friend and Marcus.
Marcus didnt sing!!!!!..hahas, I was kinda like hoggin the mic.. =x

Ali came with his gf, but not sure y, he didnt look for us..BAD!!..
There was Jasmine,Lloyd,Eric,Feng,ME,and Marcus.
So it was just a lil get together.
But it was nice hanging out, chilling. Talking rubbish, hahas..

Shall upload some pics later..
toodles.

meeting Ms popcorn =)

The weekends are here once again, been slacking alot lately.
And this is only like my 3rd week of school is it?..or is it more than that already??..hahas.
Hmm, might be crashing NYP tmr, not sure though, see how first.
Tembeling gathering tmr, wahahas, been a long time since I've seen those ppl.. =)

Nothing much for me to do now..
Went to some places that I wish I do not have to set foot there anymore.

Good nites.

Hate paperwork

Once again, we got to do our paperwork for our pay. Yes, IM WHINING.
Feeling real exhausted, no plans for tonight I guess, everything is kinda silent.
People are doing their projects and stuff..
I just dont feel like disturbing..
I'm getting donuts from Donut Factory!! muahhahas!.. =x
It's scary, just to get donuts, queuing for nearing up to 4 hrs!..

I feel like going out, but a part of me just feel like stayin home..
hmm..
Im tired, am I repeating this statement?..hahas..

Define what you think about "Alone" and "Lonely"..

Monday Blues

Morning!! Just woke up, slept about 11plus last night. Was pretty tired, didn't stayed up last night.
Feeling kinda bad, right now, it's like I was lost at words last night.
I didn't meant for that to happen, but I wish the best for you.
I've just lost yet another best friend. A real good friend whom has been with me for almost 8 years?..
Take care.

I'll be having training again today, which I dont feel like going, but CANT.
It would be a HOLIDAY for all tomorrow, and I'll be heading down to my ah-mah's place.
Been a long time since I've last seen her.
The last time was CNY, I guess.

I didnt replied the msg as told.
Just felt real bad, this should not be happening btwn friends.
My bad.

A happy girl =)

( My new phone, Nokia 6288 =) )

Im a happy girl once again =)

Mum got a $100 voucher from Starhub and she got me a Nokia 6288. No doubt I still prefer 3250

But, as long as I get to use a phone, im contented with it alr, as long as I dont have to on the

loudspeaker to answer calls, Im greatful for that. =)

I dont ask more.

PS dragon force rocks!! wahahas, that song is nice.

Alright, so I was like some dumb fcuks, thinking that I was working..

Argh, but I went to meet mum at Starhub, so yea, not that bad =)

Didnt do anything cept slacking at home today.

My aunt came over my place and she told me I've put on weight. =( booo..

Bascially, Im just happy =)) muahahas..

I cut my HAIR!

Met up with Zara yesterday. She called me around 12 plus, just nice, I just woke up. Called me out-to study.Hahas, we were suppose to meet at 2, but I only left my place at 2. =p Woot` hahas, we met up at City Hall and headed off to the library at Esplnade to study, eventually, we only did 1 quest and we head off..muhahas.
Headed off to erm, Funan as Zara wanted to cut hair, so I brought her to the cheapest!,hahas, the Kimage school, where trainees cut your hair, she only paid $8.40! she was lucky cus her hair was cut by the teacher, so yea. WORTH IT!..kinda suit her alot shall show ya the pic some other time..
As I was too tempted to cut my hair, thinking long and hard, I' ve decided to cut!..
Went to the 2nd level, where the real Kimage was located where the professionals was, hahas, but my hair was still cut by the students, =.= but they are graduates so I guess no prob.
But afterall, I only cut my FRINGE..hahas..I dare not touch the rest of my long hair, I only told the person to cut my fringe..hahas, dumb. I paid $5.25 for it, hahas..

After the damage we had done to our hair, we went to Macs to continue studyin, but only Zara was studying this time round, I went cam crazy hahas, and there we had dinner and head home.

Some fag msg me while I was on the train, playing games with me, asking me to guess who he/she was..before I could even reply any further, my phone went flat. LOL..

I guess that's about it, oh yea, suppose to be in class now for accounts, but, since all not going, I'm heading back to sleep =)..

My line got CUT

( Jo & Claudia )

( The DUMB Lecture )

( The Ladies )

( Her fav hangout )

( Zara =p )

( Ryan and Pregnant Fish )

Sorry for the inconvenience, my line was once again CUT..

So yeap. Hmmm, it's my sec time blogging once again..ARGH! shit.

Just hate the feeling of having to re-blog my entry. HATE IT!..

Alright I'll just post a random, just wana get the pics uploaded =))

Had a simple dinner last night, ToriQ and Honey Red Tea with mini pearl =))

My throat is currently killing me, as in it is very itchy and I cant help but feel like scratching it!..

Saw some people at Century Sq last night, just that the girl beside you wasnt me..

Hahas, but I dont care! =p I've got over it! so long time ago.. =)

Felt kinda down when some people say.."You not sian meh?.."

What an idiot with sucha question.

I have alot of things on my mind, when I viewed my friends frienster.

Envious of them, being able to go on holidays..to Japan, Hong Kong..etc..

Stephen Di..entertain me will you?..hahas..

I need some comedy movies..might be going to the Dvd shop to rent

some good movies tomorrow or Friday..

If time permits..

Alfred advise me to use prepaid.

I'll see bout that..not use to it though.

Alright randoms are over..

Enjoy the pictures =)

Since I'm so "awake" might as well blog an entry and better start doing my costing..
shit man, this sem starts too fast! i'm not ready yet, so many things bombared me at once,
I'm gonna burst! anytime, the time bomb in me is ticking, anytime I'll just BUST!

Worked 3 days flat! non-stop. Can I be strong and be a fighter?..hahas..
As in having the willpower to fight on. I need REDBULL, it gives me wings!..hahas..
What a %$^#%@#%$#^ I cant say what I feel like saying.
A personal blog yet I cant blog out what I really feel like saying, ya true..I could just get a diary.
Maybe I should just do that,
It will come to a point in time when that diary will come in handy.
I'm trying to refrain from using the com so often, I dont wish to be dependant on such stuff..
hahas, dumb, I bet no one knows what the hell I'm saying once again.
But..oh well..maybe I'll just close this account down, since I wont be using it anymore
in the near future. =(
Hais..up till this point in time, I don't know what to say.
It's like a living nightmare.
I am FORCED TO FACE REALITY.
Karma I guess..
I feel so useless, I'm like still in a "refusing to accept reality" mood.
I still have that cant be bothered attitude.
Kill me.Take a knife and stab me.
I hate this.
I want to wake up from this, and do something right for once.
It's tormenting.
Alright I better not go on..I'm getting so emo-ed.

Back to work, everything was fine today.
Nothing much happened. I'm getting the hang of it.

HELPME!!!

It's like my 3rd time bloggin man..
Was online chatting with Shi fer a while..she introduced me a new game which
I was kinda stuck to it for a good whole 1hr.hahas..
But now I'm kinda bored of the games alr..ahas..
maybe you guys wana try it out..

www.maggiemarket.com

Im curled up like a ball, the cramps are killing me.. =(
I hope the cramps wont kill me at work.
I miss camera phones. =(

Pouring misery.
Im tired of putting up a strong front.
How I wish I have the guts to jump down.
But I cant bear to leave them.
I'll try my best to persevere.
Dont wish anything to happen to any of them.

Endlessly.

Late at night you call on a phone
We talk about the day
When you found out he was cheating
You tell that it hurts to the bone
To trust someone that way
To find that he was deceving
And I know I've always just been your friend
But if you look my way
I'll make sure you'll never hurt again
Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I'd cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
EndlesslyOhh, oh yeah
I remember when you fell in loveI could not believe
That it was not with me
I sent a secret prayer up above
And put my heart away
So that you could be free
And I know right now you're broken in two
But did you know my heart's been broken since the day I met you
Do you know I exist
Just to promise you thisEndlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayerI'd cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And in my sweetest dream
You've learn to put your faith in me
Endlessly
Sometimes the thing you need
Is the one thing you can't see
If you put your faith in me
How beautiful you and I would be
Do you know I exist
Just to promise you this
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you answer my prayer
I'd cross my heart and I'd swear
Endlessly to be true to you
And if you'd only see
How beautiful you and I would be
Endlessly