FINALLY!

I did it!! the wisdom tooth is gone! Im in another stage of agony, the pain was excruciating, cried like a baby. The after effect of the painkiller wearing off was horrible. It was too much for me to handle, I was crying away while I changed the gauze. Joleen couldn't take it when she saw me crying, I guess she felt helpless and not know what to do.. I still taste blood in my mouth now, hmmm, no more gauze though. I dare not squeeze the gauze into my mouth anymore, it makes me feel so uncomfortable, and it kinda sticks to my wound, so I dont wish to aggravate it any further. I dont wanna kill myself.

I hope this is the last time I have to visit the dentist to get my wisdom tooth removed. There's just too much things going on at the same time that I actually feel traumatized by the whole process. The dentist didn't really make me feel any much better, after extracting the front part of my wisdom tooth, the dentist seems to be struggling alot and it kinda worries me. True enough, with all the chiseling and all going on, my root doesn't seem to budge. So she had to make me walk out of the room to the xray room with my bloody wound, I was freaking out pretty bad. After the Xray, I had the urge to just run away, run home or something but that didnt happen of course, I obediently returned back to the room to continue with the surgery, that 1 hour seems to be the longest time I've ever had to endure. It's even worse than my root canal. I was literally shivering all over, like how coco will react when she sees the groomer or the vet, that scene should be hilarious, I really don't know how to react. I wanted to laugh at myself, as in my body was literally shivering, not as if I did it on purpose or what, but yea it came naturally, not within my control. LOL.

I had running images in my head as I lay there waiting impatiently for everything to be over and done with. I was scared stiff when I hear the chisel sound thingy it was in my mouth for a good whole 5 mins? I was so afraid that it'll cut my mouth open, like those gore scenes in SAW, my imagination was running wild I tell you. Then I imagine myself in one of those jackass scenes, which I almost choked myself, as I was too engross with my imagination that I forgot to swallow/breathe.. how dumb is that..hahas..

Mum says my face doesn't look swollen, which I beg to differ. If she say my face not swollen, that means IM FAT!! freaking hell.

That's alot of shit I've gone through for today. But I manage to finish my big bowl of porridge, 2 packets of pineapple tart and small slices of pear. Hmm, Im having cravings for bubble tea!!! kaoz.. this is crazy..

I miss you baby..

I wanna laugh so hard but I can't!!! TMD!!!! TOINK!!!
Joleen just said something dumb. Italics ( Ee-TAR-Licks) HAHAHAHAHA!!!! freaking hell!!! I cant laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haahahahahaha.. SHIT!!!!! OUCHHHH MY JAW!!! they purposely sia!!!! now my mum wanna join in the fun and create nonsense to see me suffer...SSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BBBBBBAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

STUPID

Im goddamn stupid. I could have just gone to this dental instead of returning to the same dental clinic. This one that I've just gone, could arrange for an operation for me at 330pm today. Phew~ a sigh of relief for me finally. Seriously, Im freaking stupid. So much for listening to my doctor to go here and there and what not when I can just go to other dental clinics and see what they can do for me.

STUPID DUMB ME.

AGAIN

I wonder how many entries I can come up with in a day. Since 3-ish in the morning till now, this should be like my 3rd post already?, I've edited my "Taiwan" entry, as in more visuals added in.

Im glad the ache is gone for the time being after taking the painkillers. I'll have to head down to the doctor and then to the polyclinic to hopefully get my referral letter from the gp. So much to go through. K A R M A. This is the result. Geng too much mc's in the past, now that I have real cases I fear of taking mc. K A R M A!!!.. now it's time I suffer. Like suffer big time, called up Raffles hospital..they have standby dentist, that will cost me $500 just to activate him that doesn't include gst and consultation fees and what not. Then I called SGH, they have dentist available, and I'll just have to pay $90 flat rate for consultation, charges for the removal of wisdom tooth and what not have to base on dentist to access my situation before they can charge accordingly. Then nget was telling me there's such thing as getting the hospital to send the bill to my place as in to pay later, which apparently made me see a glimpse of light, but then again.. after checking, there's no such condition. SAD right.

So people out there, heed old people's advise..save for the rainy days. So that when such things happen, you won't have to bother bout money matters.
Is there any dentist that's running a charity drive or something, like helping the needys to pluck out their wisdom tooth?.. UGH.. how else shitty can things get for me?.. IM AT THE LOWEST PIT.

Some pictures to make your day..
Laugh at my FUGLINESS..







I was contemplating whether to cut bangs or not, and when I ask this question, bi will reply" Do you need me to show you how you look like with bangs?" then images of the bowl like fringe appears in my head, the hair that went wrong, so bad that it sticks to me like a nightmare from elm street. FUGLY was the only word which I consider appropriate.

I looked god damn fugly, like a drag in this picture. GOODNESS!! *smacks forehead*

That's some fugly pictures of me to entertain your day.

Back to my toothache. FML totally.

Something to distract me

Silver's really cute in this video, the both of them actually.. at least it made me smile..

WORSE

Im fucking feeling at my worse. K A R M A.

In agony

Im wide awake right now, the toothache is seriously getting to me. Im running a temperature and I don't know what to do. I just popped 2 painkillers hopefully something happens, at least to numb the ache or something. I really cant take it.
I dont wish to take mc this is like the worse ever. To have all the nonsense all at once. It's like there's no quick relief for this. And this is it.

IN AGONY.

Devastated

To get a referral letter from the polyclinic, I'll have to wait till END OF DECEMBER before I can FIX AN APPOINTMENT with NDC. By then wouldn't I have died of hunger?. It's like Im force to go on strike with my tummy. It's growling so loudly for food, but I can't bite anything. The trip to my company doctor was redundant, she did filling for me which is totally irrelevant to my pain.

Though I've got a referral letter from my doctor, NDC will charge me under private which will cost up to 2K, and that for any other appointments with NDC in near future which I hope not, will be charged as private no subsidy no nothing. So I drop the idea of sending my referral letter from my company doctor. Now, I need to go to the polyclinic to see their dentist which is like..end of December for them to understand the situation before they can write a referral letter for me to make an appointment with NDC for wisdom tooth removal........

Is it so difficult to just write a referral letter for me so that I can make an appointment with NDC?..

FML TO THE MAX, now I can only rely on painkillers for god knows till when. The Xray I did is making me more worried. My wisdom tooth is growing horizontally, that's why my other tooth are feeling so much pain, so much so that Im running a temperature..

Any recommendations for extremely strong painkillers? apparently the panadol extra aint working for me.

FML.

Airy

Dear wisdom tooth, how are you now? I'm kinda missing you right now, it's a black hole on the left upper of my gum. If it's not for the lower widom that's causing the problem you wouldn't have to go.

It took me 1 hour to finish my bowl of shredded pork with mushroom rice. LOL thanks Fen for the company..lol, to watch the bo guay take her meals slow and steady. hahaha.

Now I've got 3 more wisdom tooth to go. Man, I wanna rid of all my agony. I look so rundown right now. So many red dots on my face, frizzy hair, bloated face and thunderous thighs. I'm looking at my WORST. Oh well..

Bleah..
Time to rest, feeling giddy already..

Not Okay..

The consumption of panadol is getting more intensive now. The fact that the dentist aint open on Sunday kills me. I shall wait till Monday. Dear toothache can you just spare me from the agony. It's pretty much irritating. I need to pop panadols to temporary numb the pain. With the headache and the earache, I guess it's the wisdom and that cracked molar pressing on my nerves.

Monday. Just 1 more day.

TAIWAN

Seriously, I wont mind going to Taiwan once again, because the time spent there was not enough..or should I say it'll never be enough? LOL I had tears forming in my eyes on the day we had to leave Taiwan. There's no culture shock, and it's not that complicated to get to places. There's just so much to see in Taiwan, they have the countryside and the modern era sites of Taiwan. I like those kind of feel. Unlike all the high rise buildings you see everywhere in Singapore. I mean it's nice to go away to places like this once a while. And also the fact that I have bi there with me. That means a whole lot to me. (: With bi around, I have no worries, it's like a sense of security, like I'll never have second thoughts like..ohh no will we be able to head back to the hotel, is he going the right way.. those thoughts didn't came to me at all. (:






I really enjoyed myself over there, though there were times when I tried to "la sai" lol. It's the first time I see bi angry okay.. lol. Pattern more than badminton! hahas, and I learned a new command from "san yi". LOL!! so funny!!.. Pictures are up, this time round in bi's album cus we're using his camera throughout the whole journey cus mine was of a lower quality..so yea. Hahaas.. I've missed out on quite a number of places, I hope I get to go there soon, this time round maybe I'll go for a week! hahaha, cus 5 days is really too little for us.

I miss the "cong yiu bing","qi li xiang",the family mart and the 7-11 and the ramen shop, and the "di gua qiu"..so many!! hahas..oh mann..




I've finally went on a vacation before the end of 2010. (:
I'll always remember the nonsense, laughters and fun thrills we had over in Taiwan.. (:

Bibi chen, wo ai ni. (:

finally!!!

Im finally in Taipei!!! I cant believe this, it's been so long since I've gone for a holiday, though it's raining outside now, nothing stops us from roaming around the place while we wait for Mich and the rest to meet up with us at the hotel.

Once again I behave like a mountain turtle, I bet I've got on bi's nerves. LOL!! what! I just cant help it right.. I've bought my oversize yakult, hopefully will be able to hit Shilin tonight, shop till we drop!!!!

Bibi..thanks for companying me here.. =)

I love the 7-11 and family mart!! lol so colourful!!!!!!!!!!

I'm like in a holiday mood for the longest period of time ever. Been missing so much from school, literally MIA-ed from the SIM-ers. Great. Wonderful. The grave has been dug and it's all ready for me to lie in and cover up with mud. Lost my priorities once again. In my own lala land. Bi calls me LG = Lazy girl. ): Hais.

My groupmates gonna shoot me down BIG TIME. It's already the 18th. Everything is in a mess.. my stuffs ain't packed, I've got a long flight tomorrow, the weather forecast aint showing very good weather though. I have to play tug of war at night, NO BLANKET!. I need to jot that down in my shopping list, my OWN BLANKET.

Complacency sets in once again.

I cant agree more..

Geek in progress.

For every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. -Quoted from Roz-

Dream come true

In a way, it's a huge relief for me. The ordeal is finally over. 4 months has past and keke is finally back. Safe and sound. It feels like a dream come true, when I see him again alighting from the stairs. That feeling-indescribable. I couldn't control my tears, thought I'll be brave enough, but my tears were circling in my eyes the moment his ship was in sight. Cried my eyes out balls.

Who said 4 months was easy to get by?..BULLSHIT!. LOL.

Shall update when I've got the time, gotta prepare for another big event. My sissy's graduation.

ciaoz`

last day

Okay just one more day, then it'll be my off day tomorrow. Just one more day. TAHAN!!!!!

But, the other half of me really dragging, the thought of having to head down to HQ after work.. =(
Weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

just ONE MORE DAY...

looking forward to Saturday

Hopefully I'll be mad tired by the time I get home from work and just crash away. I'm looking forward for my off on Saturday. Hmm, but what can I do on Saturday... hopefully Cheryl has some crazy plans hahas! that woman will be back today returning to Pek only on the 10th of Oct. I hope her transit in HK gets delayed so that she'll reach SG around the same time as me later hahas! then I'll have dinner khaki already.

Went over to Nic's place yesterday. Bb Zaden is a PIG!! hahaha, sleeping so soundly no matter what we did to him. LOL. Don't expect much during confinement, the mum is in a bad state lol!! she can't bathe, can't sit under the fan, can't wash hair, can't drink this can't eat that..wahh I tell you.. I feel her pain man. It's not easy..so scary..I salute you. Woman body really work wonders, though I have friends around who gave birth and all, maybe cus I've never really visited them during their 1st week of discharge from hospital and all, it's not as easy as what I've remembered. There's more to it that meets the eye. I asked mummy how she felt when she's sleeping with bb Zaden beside her at night, does she feel the connection? you know those kinda stuff only mother feels..LOL and she told me " very tiring, you can't sleep at all.." any small movement by the small one, she'll wake up. She's totally exhausted. Both her hubby and herself looks so worn out. So much for bb Zaden..like woahh..

I don't know how to explain this feeling but, it's the first time I feel so different bout the whole situation. Maybe cus we hangout alot, and now that she's heading towards a different path now, that feeling feels weird. Then she was talking about when we're 27 and Zaden is 4 years old..WAHHH!! I feel even more fearful of the future. Like a panic attack button activated in me..LOL.

I feel the gap with the people around me these days, when they go on about BTO and all, it's like they sound like my parents. LOL!!

I'm really lost for words, it kept me awake for quite a while last night..

give up

I wrote a pretty long entry and it got deleted! Dang~ now my train of thoughts all gone. zZz

I woke up on the wrong side of bed today for sure, else my body is screaming out to me because I feel so won out right now, my limbs are feeling so weak, I feel as though I've not rested enough. It's like I cant lift up my arm, it'll just hang loosely, no strength at all. I feel so "jelly-like" LOL.

My weekend was spent working and shitloads of fun (:
If it aint for Fen, I wouldn't had gone for F1. Thankew so much woman, it was an experience of a lifetime.LOL. Though we know shit about what's going on. hahaha. Yes, ignorant fools, but we had our fun. Cheering for all the wrong things..LOL!! (: As long as we're enjoying it, who cares?!. ;)

Been having mad cravings for Thai Express's red tom yum seafood soup. It's so freaking addictive. Though my lips swell like sausage, and my tongue burnt like mad. It's too good to give it a miss!.

Not forgetting the pregnant mum Ms Nicole (: who gave birth to little handsome boy Zaden on the 20th of Sept. =) Cute to the max I would say, will be popping by her place later can't wait !

There'll be more happening stuffs lined up in the coming DAYS =) hehehe. CANT WAIT I TELL U!!! SO EXCITED!!!! October yow!! ;)

so much for that

So much for acting tough. Act as though Im not bothered. I was holding on to my phone everywhere I went today, hoping that it'll ring, to the extend that I thought my phone was ringing when it didnt. Crap. I thought bi wasn't going to call until just now when he called, and said that he left me a voicemail last night when I was on flight. =)

STUPID ME! I know he feels very awkward talking to himself. LOL, I can feel like he seems uneasy leaving a voicemail..LOL so funny =)

*wo cheng ren wo..kou shi xin fei..!*
It does matters. Even for a min. =)

Hmm..

Im back. Long night I would say.

Was reading the mind over body section and came across one of the article that was talking about thyroid or something like that couldn't remember the article, it affects one mood, and it can cause depression. Like getting emotional over nothing. Sounds like what I'm going through. Forgot to take down the help hotline for it. Anyone has thursday's straits times to spare me?.

Good nights. It's time for my bedtime.

Havent been myself of late. I'll just isolate myself. I don't even feel like heading out. No amount of shopping will make me any better. Drowning myself with work and sleep. Stupid monthly crisis. I hate this pms period. It makes me get so emotional till the extend whereby I don't even feel like asking anyone out, not even my sis. I just wish to be alone.

I woke up early today, hoping that I'll be called up for flight. I even had my uniform ironed, just waiting for them to activate me. Can someone explain to me why am I feeling this way?.

Gonna go catch a nap..

Refreshed

Feel so much better after a long night. =)

Good nights world.

uncomfortable

Up till now, I still get the uneasy feeling.
Stupid me.

I tried texting, but the reply was cold. Hais.
Stupid me. STUPID.

Shock Labryinth

It really gave me a shock. Freaking hell, horror movie in 3D imagine that!. LOL. I was like jumping throughout the show, at least I didnt close my eyes but I covered my ears. The sound effect was horrible. Scare the shit out of me. And Jkss can still tell me the show was too boring and she fell asleep!!! whereas for YL she tried to scare me but failed..hahaha. And now they're more interested in the other horror movie, The Child's Eyes..OMGoodness........ my heart is getting weaker each time. LOL.

Went out to Bugis with Teressa on thursday, conquered Bugis st. Walked for a good whole 4 hrs! goodness!!! but it was time well spent, we managed to get quite a number of stuff, pocket one big hole again. CRAP and to think the horoscope said to "freeze my cards, keep it away from me" LOL!! crap. But it was really quite a number of stuff, and it's those topshop lookalikes for half the price. And it's solely Bugis St only! not even Illuma. Crazy shit.

I've had enough of the mooncake saga, no more snowskin for the time being. Had too much of it at the fair till I'm a little scared of it already.

Gotta go shower and sleep soon, needa rest my aching legs and shoulders. (:

xoxo

jo

Tired

Just woke up and Im feeling extremely grouchy.

I did have a good laugh today, so much so that I actually teared when I was laughing. Imagine how hard I laugh. That's really 1X good one.

There's no food at home, and I really feel like having ba chor mee.. hmmm, 85 market?..who's free now..UGH.

--- =)

My cravings have been met! just got back from 85 with my sis, had satay, ba chor mee and ah balling (:
Satisfied. =0)

Wednesday BLUES..

So much walking yesterday, my knees doesn't feel like they belong to me anymore. Aching like crap. I was laughing at the slightest nonsense yesterday, must be due to the tiredness that's kicking in. FML I'll be back at 2ish today. I need a full body massage BADLY. My shoulders are aching, you know those kind of feeling when you're totally exhausted and your back seems as though you're carrying like what, 5 tons of oil or something like you got to constantly stretch your back every few minutes, so much fidgeting and all. Thursday come quick. I've still got many things not done yet. Assignment is one of them.

FMLTTM. Can I just whine for today, I seriously feel like crying.. I wanna sleep!!!! :'(

Give me a random nonsense to laugh about today, please please please..just give me a 1X good laugh, and my day will swift pass faster..please please please..

Screwed body clock. =(

Im turning green very soon..

BLUEHh..

Monday blues..NOT

I've finally watched "Step Up 3" man it's good. So good. I like it alot. Those groovy dance steps, makes me so excited throughout the show. LOL!! where the hell my dance kahkis went..zZz Can we hit the club some time soon? go groove it out a little, miss dancing the night away..hahaha.

Love this part when Luke brought Nat up to the air vents area.. =) the storyline is simple, about people living their passion. Doing things that makes them feel alive. The dance moves are awesome (:

Apparently I watched it alone cus ps left me midway! she was feeling giddy after watching the movie as we're seated like 2nd row from the screen so she was seated at a very awkward position. She went shopping while I was left alone to watch the movie.

After which, we shopped a little at Vivo before we left for town. Strange things been happening lately, and today, a guy walked up to me and asked if we could be friends, my gawd it gave me a shock, we quickly walked away. I'm scared of such people..the last encounter of such weird people was at Simei's popular bookstore, the fella freaking stalked me..scary shit.

Ps and myself walked so much today, and I'm proud to say, I've spent only $20 today!! (: great achievement! hahas.. I guess all the walking is giving me knees the hard knocks again, it's kinda aching even now...man.. and my feet have been cramping on and off.. double crap!.

We've also checked out *Scape, nothing much though, there's a dance studio on the last floor (: looks damn cool with people waiting for classes and those that's practising their dance moves. So tempting....

got to rest now..

xoxo

Nights! jojo.

up and about

I'm too wide awake now to fall back asleep, especially when my phone is not beside me. Woke up to pee and realise that my phone died on me. So now it's charging and I just so happen to on the computer and now.. got myself stuck to the computer.

It's finally my off day today, what a long day yesterday. But all's good. =) At least it's over. Slept so early last night about 9 plus? ya, that explains why Im up like now.. hmm what should I do tomorrow..as in before I go for classes in the evening.

Ooo! there's so many stars tonight =) hehe, clear skies.. September, can you please get by soon. Ohh Im going for mooncake testing tomorrow..wahah. =) can't help it..
GAWD I feel so hungry right now! crap.. better head back to try and sleep..

My friend gave me a new name, Geok Sian..LOL!! damnit.
xoxo

ciaoz`

Thankful

Im thankful for whatever that has been happening around me lately. That I was able to brave it through with positivity. It feels so good when you know it was all worth it. Every small little thing that happens, means alot to me. =)

Thank you so much, you, you,you and yOu and YOU and you and so many of you!!
Especially my baby, my ku partner, ms Koh, the nqmm's, mantianal..my mates at work, and those who stood by me all these while.

Im lovin' it!

I enjoyed myself so much at Settlers, laughing my ass off, playing the game of "taboo" pictures will be up soon..

Stay tune =)

xoxo

Jo

wide awake

Slept too early, and now I cant get back to sleep. It's the first time we were on the phone for so long (:

Looking back, these past few months, the little things that we did sums up to quite an amount of stuffs, it's been a long time since I've sat down to literally do stuff for someone. It relieves those secondary school days, when I had so much passion for doing small little things that were never appreciated which made me stop .
This away trip made me learn quite a bit. I learned to manage stress, loneliness, time..Okay maybe my time management still needs some adjustments, at least I learn how to write things down before I proceed, or at least jot things down, so as to prevent myself from forgetting. It might seem like those basic/simple stuffs. But it's not that easy for me, because Im someone that lacks self-discipline. Comparing work to play, Im a person that will choose play any time any day. So yea, I'm trying to cut down on my unnecessary sick leaves..LOL.. and quit being lazy
Now I'm left with my studies, it's something which I lack motivation and enthusiasm for. It's a love hate situation. pfft`

Guess I'll go take a long warm bath..hopefully it'll make me feel sleepy..

Feelings warm the heart and soul..

good nights..

Tomorrow

One more day, and Im off! can't wait for it. =) so many things in my head I wanna do. And I want to meet the pregnant mum soon!! Shall meet up with her on Friday, hopefully she's free. 9 more days to Zaden's estimation of delivery date. Imagine the anxiety level. Goodness!!

I've finally received the postcard that baby sent. I was jumping around high and low when mum passed it to me. She was like saying.."finally right.." hahaha. =)

It's worth it, I thought to myself..

Alright back to preparation, need to reach airport by 6:10 am today's gonna be a lovely day (:

smile (^_^.)

xoxo
Jojo

drained

I couldn't wake up for class once again. Only woke up like 8 plus as I was feeling hungry. zZz

Feeling a little out of place, because another fellow member is leaving. Take care girl, you'll be missed. I never like such feelings, when someone has to go. We gave her a surprise, got her a card, and capt even got a perfume for her. We took lots of pictures, she broke into tears when she was reading the card, my tears rolled when I saw her crying.

Departures are always sad, nevertheless, it's for the better good. Wishing you all the best in your future endeavour. . =)

Always online

Though it's just a click away. Many times I wanted to. ...

It's finally the last day of the 7th month. It has came and left once again. It's nearing the mid of September, whereby assignments are due, lantern festival (mooncake) hahas and hmm what else, too many to list. It's gonna be a busy month. =) Which means October will be nearing me in no time. =) The ordeal will be over soon =)

Mum brought back a tub of pineapple tarts few days back, I told myself not to touch any of it, but today I failed. It's too freaking tempting, and it's like within range, hahaha. It wasn't kept away. HOW THOUGHTFUL of her..when I told her I've got a diet to watch.

MPO individual down, 3 more assignments to go. BUSY BUSY month..

I have so many things on my mind that I wish to get my hands on. But then again, I've got to sort them out, under the list of "needs" and "wants".. I guess at the end of the day, there'll be nothing that I actually "NEEDS".

Finally I've finished up some stuff that has been dragged for weeks. (: slow and steady.

Sleepy spells kicking in..

Time for bed..

Toodles!

much much love..

jo.

MUKE MAINTAIN!

Bi came up with this "muke maintain" thingy, after I told him I've been eating so much..LOL!!

Though he's not with me here and now, he's nonsense and his jokes just cracks me up wherever and whenever I think of it. Thank you baby =) you gave so much laughters to my bored out life..hahaha.

Headed to the jam packed Comex with my peking love, Cheryl Lee Pei Pei hahas, still as crappy as ever with her nonsense that never fails to make me wanna zap her. LOL. We had to queue like say half an hour to make payment but it was all worth while. =) Then headed to Thai Express, my die hard love of recent. I love the mango salad and the red tom yum seafood soup with my watermelon and lime freeze. IT'S THE BOMB!!! THE OMG FACTOR!! hehe. Gossip queens, and thereafter to her place at Park Royal hotel where we went camera crazy. Hahaha. She bought a selphy photo printer which I've been eyeing for the longest period of time. DAMNIT CHER!! she'd killed me if she were to read this entry..hahaha.

Then baby called me, it's like FINALLY!! NO MORE DISTORTION!! just good reception =) I can finally raise my voice and speak like a bullet train =) so much love so faraway. My crazy Mr Tan =)

After which it was the 10:30pm XLB madness, I'm telling you, there was so much food that I'm abstaining from PORK maybe till baby is back. I didn't dare count the number of xLb I've had, but I threw up eventually, due to too much stuffing, and laughters..everything came out..hahas.

We laughed so hard till my tummy gave up.

Lesson learnt,

no more madness over XLB anymore!

PUKE!

ass-signments

HELP!!!!!! I'm only half-way through my assignments. Been too distracted with EVERYTHING. Be it food, tv, music,toilet,food, and MORE FOOD. hahahaha. UGH!!!! HEN FAN ARRR!!!!!!

Side track..
Where can I get my hands on a horoscope gadget .. hmm =)
counting down makes me so excited. The days are getting so much nearer each day. =) Can the time zoom faster this time round?. I'll be more than glad to COMPLY!.

Been having insomnia lately, besides that 15hours of sleep I had the other day, the rest of the time I'm tossing and turning SO SO MUCH! thinking of so many things. What I want to eat when bi's back, where to bring me, the big BEAR HUG!, hahas, soft and comfortable comforter..pillows!! and so much more..I'm gonna make him my butler when he comes back. muahaha. Can the days get FASTER PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!! can't wait.

I've never longed for someone so so long before. 4 freaking gawd damn months. So much sufferings, longings, missings, laughters, cryings..MY GAWD CRYINGS. hahaha, I still remember that fateful night, when I hugged him and cried so bad. But it's okay, after so much that has happened, I have no other thoughts but to see him real in front of me. I'll see you soon..

Many chances slipped from me from time to time, it's either "chi yi bu" or feelings were never said. I hope I do learnt from these lessons, and that I should learn to grasp them from now on.
Lighting doesn't hit the same place twice.

Living life in my own colourful ways.. I have so much random thoughts in my head. Thinking of it makes me smile so foolishly to myself. It's a beautiful Saturday (:

Smile..

xoxo

Jo.

SLeeping in

It's been such a long time since I had such a long SLEEP. I went to bed at say 11-ish last night and woke up only like now?!. LOL. Okay I did woke up a while at 7plus this morning to answer baby's call. He loves to disturb me when Im sleeping, said things like "cook maggie for me ehh.." then I was like " okayy.." HAHAHAHA.. when Im sleeping and you wake me up, I'll just simply comply to your request. LOL!! just so that I can get back to sleep. I miss his nonsense, it's been a while now since I've met a talk cock competitor that can out win me. Apparently he's the only one who can do that. I wonder why.. hmm is it cus I give in to you?.. LOL!!

Will be meeting my primary school mates for dinner at Nandos tonight. wahaha, better finish up my assignments first before I head out for some fun. I've decided not to change my article and complete it, cus time is running out and I can't seem to relate to the other articles. If only Collin Tan is here right now, at least I can throw my assignment to him..HAHAHAHA.

Speaking of him, while I was on the train home yesterday, I was staring into space thinking about him, then I smiled to myself, only to realise after a while that the fella sitting opposite me was smiling back to me! gosh! imagine how embarrassing that was..zZz but ouh well, Im use to such gestures..

Can't wait for his return..it's driving me up the lorry! lol..

back to my assignment..

xoxo

jo.

After a while..I realise I just grew out of it..

It's one of those reflection nights that I sit here in front of the monitor and stare into space once again. Take a little walk back into memory lane. The craziest and funniest things I've encountered in my life, how I accept things and reciprocate to it. The unending bumps that occurs once a while, the crazy people that came into my life. How people around me, changed my perceptions of everything that's happening in my life.

How wilful I was back then, to a relatively more ladylike individual now. I hope. hahas..

Another of my friend would be leaving for Shanghai soon to work there, in a way I'm envious of their courage, to take up such offers, away from your close ones, away from your comfort zone. To be out there to fend for yourself, to learn independence. Can I do that too?..hahas..

I do wish to go for bag packing some day. Hopefully before I hit 30s. At least to be able to see what's it's really like out there, I've heard so much about other countries, like say Cambodia, Vietnam..etc. to have a taste of what it's like to live a life out of Singapore. A life exchanging experience I would say..

good nights..
xoxo

Jo.

power ge de gahhh'

Been a long time since Im so dead tired. I'm going to crash any moment.

I need a massage badly.. superb.

30 letters in 30 days

Today's the 1st of SEPTEMBER! (: finally..so many running thoughts in my head it's all over the place, cant wait cant wait!!!

As promised shall start on my letters soon..

back to write later`

Off to work now..ciaoz

xoxo

jo

fingers crossed

Please be a sunny day today. =)
Del ma! wo lai le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha

Feel so bad

Did I overreacted?. Was that even necessary, but at that moment in time, I did felt uncomfortable, I just reported accordingly. I can't seem to agree with myself. Must be cursing and swearing at me so much.

I just woke up, it's a bad day for me..UGH
Diarrhoea, flt delayed, and now Im feeling so extremely hungry..

UGH

It felt like 5mins ago that I fell asleep..

This is not very good, to start off the day with a stomache. I'm experiencing it RIGHT NOW. ouhh no.
Must have been the tom yum soup and manog salad I had yesterday. AAhhhh!.

Today it's the start of my 3 days shift, get it over and done with!.
Will be using the new products today, for my face. It kinds of worries me, the dosage and all.. man the ache better go away soon, it's not those, whereby you can settle it in the toilet kind, it's like I don't know, say a big mixture inside.

Alright, enough of rantings..
need to go prepare now..

can the days get faster..please..

Can't think of a title for today's entry. Been meeting up with Myat and K pretty often lately, yesterday met up with them at Cartel and headed over their place to chill. I always learn something new from K..gonna go get the essential oils hahaha! =X

We were so excited when we were talking about the different religion and cultures, it's like so interesting, to understand a little bit more about the different types of festivals and stuff.. I mean, I've always been interested in this kind of stuffs, which I believe some doesn't. I've always been fascinated about the little aspects of life from different ethnic groups. Hearing K's experience in Mumbai makes me laugh so much. She showed me pictures on the net of how certain part of India, hmm can't remember if it's southern part of India, it looks like paradise!! so relaxing and all, and it's not very expensive to go India. I don't know, but yea, I just felt like visiting these places, though I know I will be whining so much when I'm actually there. I bet it's going to be a culture shock, but it's an experience you will never get to see in Singapore. Maybe I could be a tour guide or something. LOL!!

The flickering lights at the corridor freaks me, it cast huge shadow from my neighbour's plants. Even mum feels uncomfortable. LOL. She was like struggling to open the door last night.

K's been showing me places in India that looks freaking awesome. They have their own "Bali" that's such a scenic place! I would like to go Goa if given a chance, but bi said to think twice..LOL!!

Randomness kicks in..

Will be going to the dermatologist today..hopefully the doctor can give me some hope.

Cooking mama

Feel quite accomplished to be able to cook lunch for myself (:

Nothing spectacular, just tofu with minced pork and some sweet potatoes. I was so hungry that I gobbled up the food..HAHAHAHA.. so ashame of my greediness..LOL hmm though the tofu meat still doesnt taste like mummy's, I will try again (:

Eitherways, I'm still happy that I cooked lunch for myself cus Im too lazy to do that most of the time.

Now Im waiting patiently for my sweet potatoes.. it's taking a very long time to steam... :(

It's like the 3rd time, that Im tasting hard sweet potatoes, ugh.

RAH..

On mc for today, the nose block and the period and the cramps, and the what not. I admit Im not functional today, so I do not wish to endanger the lives on board.

Today Im very grouchy. Extremely.
Dont come near me, I'll bite!

RRRRRRAAAHHHHHHHHH..

Monday blues

I feel so worn out.

Baby Alveena's a big girl now, she doesnt shy away from people, very bubbly and fun to play with (: poor thing, she had to wait for me till late, got scolding from her mum..LOL!!

Went ktv with Nic, it's the longest time since we went for some singing session, and I must say we've lost our standard..HAHAHA, I feel like a tone deaf now! my pitch is off, painful for my ears to hear..hahaha..

Sat at summer breeze for the longest period of time, talking about life. That was the longest night out after so long. The 3 crazy woman sat there till 5plus in the morning, and we walked out to the main road to hail for cab. Imagine that, 3 crazy bitches, laugh,crap and cried..this happens when woman gather together. We get the emotional energy reved up high.

I feel so sleepy this instance, yet I've still got assignments to be done.

Down. Period.

Fright night

I feel so wide awake right now, just got back home from flight. Reason being, I just went for a sprint in my uniform and someone else's cabin bag. LOL!! what a IDIOT!

Cus I was sharing cab with 2 other crews, so happily I was taking "my" cabin bag from the back and happily waving goodbye to my friends when I realise it wasn't my cabin bag, I made a clown out of myself, yelling and chasing the cab..LOL!!! omg, so horrible, imagine that scene, it's like a "just for laugh" LIVE. Luckily my friend turned back to look at me, and got the driver to reverse back. OMGoodness.........

zZZ so embarrassing.. UGH!! lol.

HAve you ever?

Ever woke up feeling like going back to sleep once again. It happened today and it's still happening right now. The hour just doesnt seem right. Im awake for an hour now, it feels as though it was 5 mins ago that I was on the phone, not realizing what I was saying. LOL!!

I went back, I miss being there surprisingly..

4 sectors 4 sectors 4 sectors!! Im thinking of what's gonna happen after the 4 sectors..hehe..SING SONG SING SONG SING SONG!!!! hahaha. Hopefully Im not dead beat exhausted..

I've got so many songs in my head that I wanna sing right now..hehe

Tomorrow would be Mes again, swiss roll and lapis!! HERE I COME!!!

Dear nails, can you dry already?..

Cranky.Period.

cold night..

Im shivering right now, so cold, though I'm wearing the thickest jacket right now..brrrr..

okay let's do a recap of what happened during the week..let's start with the most recent..

I've finally visited "Raindrops Cafe" not exactly what I've anticipated..BUT, I love the battered mushrooms (: yummylicious ;) had Kwak to accompany our food. We ordered 4 cheese pizza..hmmm =) Me LOVE! hahas then the not so nice fried soft shell crab..eeww..hahas!

Then it was walking ALL THE WAY!! not joking balls, it was literally walking from one end to the other and back! hahah, there was so many..TOO MANY.. from Lido to Cine, and then back to Far east, imagine the HOURS spent in one mall..hahahaha, I didn't know I could walk that long.. luckily im wearing flats..imagine that! my knees got busted for walking SO SO MUCH..

Eitherways, it's the company that matters..

Been hanging out pretty often with my sis, the most memorable day out was when we went for a shopping spree in town. My goodness!, brought back memories of my secondary school days, where we only do window shopping and NONSENSE!! tons of them, I was laughing like no one's business at ION, imagine that..how unglam that looked.. behaving like a 17, it feels good though, to let go and go crazy some times, or should I say CRAZIER..hahaah..

I couldn't remember what was it about, must be I said something wrong that made her punch me, there's a blue black okay! ouhh!! I remembered!! I did the stupid dance.."sorry sorry.." that stupid korean song..hahaha, we were laughing so loudly, then the next stunt she pulled was..when we were looking for directions, and she turned without looking with her fingers still up, she point straight into my face, and the passerbys were LAUGHING at me..but I burst out laughing as well..hahaha, laughing too much till Im bloated with air..geez~

Then it was the gift from baby. The huge chocolate bar..that kept my smile ongoing (: even talking about it makes me smile =) I took a peek at it again, =) hehe.

Close to you..

Baby, you're my wonderwall =)

That's the highlights for the week..pictures will be up later..

xoxo,

Jojo..

For you

Must be tonight's "Mooncake Resonnace" episode that made me miss him exceptionally much.

My tears are circling in my eyes this instance. It looks as though Im looking at my own playback. Especially the scene when Su qiu was late for the appointment with guan jia gong. So sweet.. the things she said to him and how he replied her, with a peck on the forehead.

I miss you Mr Tan..

you and your silliness..

Subjective

I told myself, just let it be.

depress

Mum says I look fat and ugly..like a puffer fish Im puffed up..

MAJOR PMS

Feeling very grumpy right now, ugh.

If words could kill, I've been dead eons ago..

SWING

Swing swing from the tangles of..my heart, it's just another freaking month..

The freaking swing is here again. And it's making me a horrible woman..

STEER CLEAR!!! WOMAN IN MAJOR PMS!

colourful sprinkles

Baked again today =) this time round it's over at Nic's place. We started at 4pm and we're still baking..HAHAHA!!! shall upload the pictures later ;)

what hurts the most

Sometimes "what hurts the most" comes from the people that's the closest to you. It could be your parents, siblings. Was yakking away on the phone with Nic, about how our siblings have treated us. Remembered the times when I was so piss with my sisters that I just word vomit on them, throwing them with very hurtful words, that I believed was unbearable. Thinking back now, I've been mindful of my words these days, so in any point in time, when wrong choice of words are exchanged, it dampens my mood pretty much.

Im not saying that Im all prefect and great, at least try to keep your cool. Im trying my best not to get angry these days, trying to control my temper, and be as patient as possible..

I miss the "buka" timing again! ugh..

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Korean dramas are ever so disheartening..they always make me cry a lot. So much..

Dead log

Came back around 10plus just now and I drop dead on the sofa. I merely sat there to rest my feet, the next thing I know, 4 hours had past. LOL! so embarrassing. Overlooked my roster once again, was suppose to reach briefing room at 0510 instead of 0550, lucky I checked my roster once again after talking to baby on the phone. I still told him confidently that I only need to prepare at 0350 LOL when actual fact I had to prepare by 0310, so yea, it was morning madness once again. There was a freak accident towards terminal 2 looks quite freaky though, the taxi hit a motorcycle, from the look of it, the cab's boot was pretty much dented but the surprising thing was, the motorcycle was in it's upright position but the seat badly damaged, it's believed that the rider has flown quite a distance, because his helmet or something was found quite a distance away.

cab drivers, in the early morning, especially on their way to the airport are the most reckless. It's not the first time such accidents happened.

Feeling pretty hungry right now, but there's nothing at home for me except for instant noodles, hopefully Joleen comes home early today, so she can get me the economic rice =X yes, I'm very lazy, I admit that. And I don't really like to head out whenever I'm home especially during the 7th month.

My eyes are pretty much swelled up right now, because I was watching "Mooncake Resonnace" and I cried my eyes out. Today's episode was how xiao yue was being framed, by Sha jie and Camie.. so hurtful. Ouhh well, now Im feeling sleepy again..

Nap time!

ps: missing you so so much..

Baked

Managed to get the lazy bones out of me and baked. And for a first timer I would say I've done well. =) At least it made me happy, though the first few attempts were burnt. They were still my effort alright.

Was suppose to fast today, but I was so pist over the oven, so it's considered day 1 fasting failed. hmm..

I love the cutie face I made, reminds me of my sotplug. LOL!

coincidental meet up

Was on flight last night, and bumped into Bonnie on my returning sector. It was nice to see familiar faces on flight. She was doing a 6 months internship in Bangalore, imagine that (: it must have been an eye-opener for her. =)

6 months away from home, to a faraway place. If she can do it, so can I =) I've only got 2 more months to go =) hehe.

Didnt manage to catch up with her, and the time ain't right either, it was like 4 plus am in the morning, too tired, and I feel so uncomfortable to be catching up with my friends in my uniform. LOL.

Should have took a picture with her..ugh.

Waiting patiently for the phone call now.. (: while Im watching the mooncake show on cable again. (:

Chance upon a 30 days' 30 letters' project. It's getting me pretty excited. To write a letter everyday to the people mentioned in the list. Sounds pretty interesting and at the same time keep myself occupied. I shall start this project in September. =) so that October reaches me pretty soon. =)

1. Your Best Friend
2. Your Crush
3. Your parents
4. Your sibling (or closest relative)
5. Your dreams
6. A stranger
7. Your lover
8. Your favourite internet friend
9. Someone you wish you could meet
10. Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
11. A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
12. The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
13. Someone you wish could forgive you
14. Someone you’ve drifted away from
15. The person you miss the most
16. Someone that’s not in your state/country
17. Someone from your childhood
18. The person that you wish you could be
19. Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
20. The one that broke your heart the hardest
21. Someone you judged by their first impression
22. Someone you want to give a second chance to
23. The last person you kissed
24. The person that gave you your favorite memory
25. The person you know that is going through the worst of times
26. The last person you made a pinky promise to
27. The friendliest person you knew for only one day
28. Someone that changed your life
29. The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
30. Your reflection in the mirror

SUPER IMPROMTU!!

Was suppose to be sleeping soundly right now, but I was up and about. Followed mummy down to pray for the start of the 7th month, followed by my crazy idea of getting an oven..which I've finally did it!! =) on top of it, I've got my ingredients for cookies session today. I'm so damn happy =) finally my own oven =)

But I do feel pretty drained right now, ouh ouh ouh!! and I've collected my specs! =) DOUBLY HAPPY!! and I've done your errands baby =) don't worry.

I can sleep peacefully now, I feel my shoulders aching badly already.

Good nights for real..
=)

Reader Digest

I want to get copies of Reader's Digest, it's pretty entertaining and easy for me to digest. =)
I love the stories and jokes shared in it, it did made my night so so much better. And for now, it's time for bed. Good night world (:

BANGS..

I CUT BANGS!!!! hahaha, chui to the max..so sad. Kao! this aint the outcome Im looking for..

Been playing around with my hair last night, been thinking of ways to make it look less awkward..hahaha.. Be prepared for lots of nonsense pictures..

=)

I've got my specs done as promised, and stock up the fridge =)

I'm a happy girl. hehe.

Xoxo,

JO

cloudy saturday

The weather is so nice to me once again, it's making me so lazy, but I'm not going to just sit in and rot at home today, Im going out. Walk around. Out with non other than my sissy once again. Need to clear my head a little. It's gonna be "make a specs" day. Been dying to get my hands on a new pair of specs for myself. Aint changing the colour though. It's going to be black..

Been like a turtle for a while now, didnt realise there's a few new eateries at Century Sq, what a doink. Ain't having the crave to have sweet food today, but I would love to have a decaf caramel frap ;) ouhh, speaking of it makes me feel so perked up and excited already. :)

It would have been better if you were here with me....

Distance makes the heart grew fonder..why aint Dubai just one stop away from Tampines?.. at least I wont hear so much echo from my heart..

Okay, let's see I've got a few errands on hand to run, and I've to settle lunch, or should I just have that packet of bee hoon that has been lying there since 8 in the morning? Okay better not go on with the food ramblings, I feel the churning..hahas!

Sasa is having "buy 1 get 1 free.." I'm loving it ;) can anyone be a kind soul and let me know when does the strawberry hair curls at Sasa will come in?, it's been OOS for a long time now..UGH.

Alrights got to go now,

XOXO

J.CO

cold

Where has everyone gone?, I see tons of breakfast in the kitchen, but no one's in sight. It was merely a long island tea last night, but it made me feel like crap inside. It's been a while since I puked. UGH.

Stupid Jo.

comfy & lazy

My eyes are are half open right now as I typed away, Im actually looing at the keyboard than the screen, so I wonder if there'll be any mistakes in the words, but I dont care, I just felt like typing away since I've been sseating here after the phone call from baby. LOL!! It's been a while since I missed his calls, LOL. As he has some particular ringing tone assigned for him, so whenever that song starts I'll be able to jump up and answer his call, apparently lazy bone today almost coulnd't hear it. hahahaha. And for that I got reminded, a STERN WARNING, NO MORE TAKING MC HOR..TOO MANY ALREADY..LOL orhh yes bi..

My eyes are getting smaller as I sit on my rattan chair, or whatever chair is this, it's making me feel so comfortable with my legs crossed I just feel like sleeping back once again. Lucky Im feeling hungry right now, I'll have MacDonald after I finish bathing, it was bought from mum last night, as my hunger died off last night, so I kept it for now, which I guess was a right choic. At least it makes me move my butt out of the chair for FOOD. lol.
K gotta go prepare now, wonder how many error in this entry..LOL!!!!

Ouhh, note to self..not to open the door anymore. There is no ice-cream outside. LOL.. dang..

Xoxo,
sleepy eyes...with itchy throat that is giving me hell, if only I can use something to scrape that throat of mine.

BLAH!

I remember what love said..

Kill me I cried..when love said-No.

It's difficult to explain everything when it's regrading matters of the heart. We gain some we lose some. We gain love we gain hatred, it depends.. LOVE is quite deadly I would say. It makes you and breaks you. I believe certain point in life, everyone has been through this love hate situation where it left you feeling so helpless/so blissful. 2 sides of everything. I've been in both situations, I understand how it actually feels, the irony of it.. I chose to listen to my heart.

Overnight

Gonna stay up tonight to company Jo. She's having her Art prelim's tomorrow,so she's doing some prep work.. hmm they've got 2 prelims before the O levels, so much better off than my time. Wonder how's the school system like these days. Damn, Im hungry right now, and Im having cravings!!! apparently Im craving for mooncake now. LOL superbly random.

2 months down, 2 more to go!! =)

=(

I dont like what I hear. Not a single thing of it. Now I'm so worried =(

Please, I pray that nothing happens. I can't take this kind of joke, I have a weak heart.

sometimes

Sometimes it gets to me when I'm not able to get my point across to others because what I've said to them, might cause a reverse effect, or maybe even backfire at me.

It has happen to me so many times, I just shut down. I just chose not to explain further anymore. If you know me well enough, I will try means and ways to let you understand my point, because I myself feel that communication is so freaking important, it's like the freaking basic foundation.
I have this overwhelming feeling that, people needs to understand my point, and not jump into their own conclusion of what I'm thinking or have to say.

I don't like to be misunderstood, but after certain incidence of the past.. I realise I grew out of it. If they wish to misunderstand me the way they perceive it, then I'll let it be. It shows how much you understand me. If you have uncertainties, clear it with me, trash it out. But if you think it's pointless, or have your own perception of me that you strongly believe in, then shouldn't I save my breath?..because you have already judged me, and gave me the death sentence.

NDP Preview

Nothing beats the actual performance, but I'm glad I was able to see the preview live at Padang. I miss those kind of atmosphere, where I've lost it like, when I was in Primary 5?. I remembered being so excited over NDP when I was young, my family never failed to gather together and watch the parade live on tv. That happened back then when all my uncle and aunt's were living together at my grandmother's place. It was fun, I miss those family bonding. Those were the days, when I will never be home alone. There's bound to be someone home, to company me, have dinner with me, and watch tv with.

Or it could have been that I was still young, thus I enjoyed everyone's presence..well times has change so does everyone else. I remembered having my mum make jellies in the fridge before the telecast on tv, so that we'll be able to enjoy the chilled jellies while all of us glue our eyes to the tv and having the non-interruption period for snacks or what nots.

Today, while my sis and myself were waiting for the parade to start, all this small little images came back to me, as though it happened yesterday. Im not saying that Im being patriotic or what so ever, I just miss having so much fun with my family..

There's way too much pictures to handle..LOL, gotta sort them out now.. =)