Contradicts

May all those that got to work on CNY to gather around and congratulate each other on a good job well done that we are not going to take MC for it.

Hais, as contradicting as it may sound, Im quite affected that Im not going to gather with my family members to enjoy some steamboat and catching up session. To just sit around and hear the laughters in the hall. Looking at my aunts and uncle, taking group photos. Sit around to gamble and eating ba kwa. But on the other hand, I get to avoid answering questions avoid showing the fat side of me. Ha!. This year I didnt do much shopping. I bought only a red tube dress for my second day ( my only off day ), a simple black and white dress- not meant for CNY, 9 sets of new "DKNY" hahas.. if you know what I mean, ya that's about it. Kinda cost a bomb as well. Geez.

Hopefully I get to celebrate CNY next year..

Dont feel depress about it, not everything will go our way though. It's okay to not be around for CNY, just chill relax dont let it affect your working mood, put a smile on your face, these days will pass faster when you dont brood over it.

Cheer Up!! =)

Weekends =)

Your long days in camp, or long office days is finally ended and it's the weekends once again. =))
Time to sit back relax, play your PSP, watch some CSI series or just GO OUT!! well, Im heading for my "fun" now, back in the evening.. till then..

Xoxo
Jojo.

KRAZY!!!

This week is madness. Totally. My pay came in, but my bank statement now looks so disappointing, there's a hole in my account! my money's gone. And I dont see any new stuff on me. Damn those bloody food!! My freaking old school weight is back, it's so damn irritating!! New year's like next week and im looking like crap! =( Lucky Im working this year, so I kinda get to avoid alot of visitings. Lesser visitings = lesser income. Geez.

My new year shopping isnt complete. I've not got a single thingy yet!! Im planning to head down Haji Lane later, see if I could grab something from there. My shopping list is filled! but I wonder if the $$ is enough. Can someone drag me to the stadium to run or gym? Please?.. just drag me, keep reminding me of the fats i've accumulated. =( UGH! Damnit.

Crap.
Fats signing off`

Dream

I had this very weird dream once again, I guess in that dream I lost my job and went back to studies. Not a private school but, back to ITE. HA!. This time around it's not Simei ITE it was somewhere else, somewhere kinda run down. And my subject was some mechanical shit! hahas, geez. Then in the dream I totally regretted studying mechanical, cus I know nothing bout it, I joined only like second half of the semester or something, loads of things to catch up on.. then I was asking myself in the dream why wasn't I in Simei's Beauty therapy?.. hahaha. WTH right. Then my dream changed scene.

I was in this big hall, filled with students, then Wani was in my dream, like how she usually crack me up with her jokes, I was laughing so hard in my dreams I guess subconciously I felt myself laughing out loud. Luckily no one was home, else my sis would have given me a slap on my face. HAhas, then the scene jumped again, this time it was Shi hui, I dreamt that I was walking along the shop houses when I passby this cafe and saw her with the usuals, in the dream I was boiling, I literally screamed at her, I said something like.. " so that's how you wanna treat me la.." well, I don't know why I was that furious.. Geez.

And now..
I got to head back to the clinic to have my second round of drawing my blood once again, cus the doctor said the blood he drew wasn't sufficient........ I've already a blueblack for my first draw, now another one. UGH. So much for having obvious veins. Doctor said my veins are very fragile, the minute the needle went in, he said it punctured/burst..

I'm having second thoughts of getting a new phone. Yes I know I just bought LG ice cream, but....
I'll get slaughterd if I attempt to get a new one. =p SAVEEEEEEEEEEE...

more updates coming up soon, in the meantime I gotta go for my jab..

Toodles,
anne.

Ponders

I wonder what I'm actually doing. Been working, and stayed home, most of the time hogging the computer if Im home and only head out during the weekends, my life has turned mundane. Everyone around me has got their own stuffs to do. It's not easy to maintain friendships. I miss Ang Lin Lin, I wonder where the hell she went, the last contact no of her's cant even get through. Wonder how is she doing right now. It sounds like work has tied me down alot.



Im not really complaining about it, this is life. Some things come some things go. It's a give and take. Can't have the best of both worlds. My life is a little stagnant right now. THough it's only like 8 days into the brand new year, changes are catching up so fast, that Im breathless sometimes. To reach for the goal, you gotta go all in. And when you actually slowed down to take a look around, everything, everyone has slowly left you. Till the time when you actually slowed down to take a look, the people you've once known might just change into someone you dont know or understand anymore.



THoughts are running in my head once again, people that use to have so much nonsense to talk with like PS,SH, the 5N2 ladies and gentlemen. Wow, if I've got to write down everything, I doubt one entry is enough.



Im becoming someone I dont know anymore, I hate being so serious. Why does everything got to be so serious?. I miss having fun and loads and loads of nonsense. Like times when me, Van, Aud, Zara.. just laugh at the toilet bowl that was flushing continuously like a tornado, or just laughing at some random shit be it from Aud, Van or myself. Im more quiet these days, and by writing this entry it's making me emo. Ewwwwww



On a lighter note, I've got myself a LG Ice Cream =) it's white in colour. Love it =) simple and sweet.

It's a love/hate situation with my career. It's like a relationship. Hahas, anyways I just miss having big group of friends having lunch/dinner, walking around the malls, having somethings in common to do..just hang out.



Things I feel like doing..



-Picnic
-Sentosa Beach Vball
-Shopping
-Singing
-Spa/Massage
-Club
-Prawning
-** secret

Alright Im feeling sleepy already..Toodles =)

Drop dead like a BOMB

Finally my off day once again. Im exhausted, running up and down the aisle. Anyways it's over. I still get to see the sunlight and only half a day gone, I've still got 1 and 1/2 days more to R&R =))

My nails are in a very horrible state now. Even typing kinda kills me. MS G please call me soon. I need an appointment!!.

Considering the feedbacks that I've got for G900, I've changed my target to LG Ice cream =) just a simple phone will satisfy me. Need no sophiscated ones.

Im pretty exhausted now..shall continue some other time.

Time to crash!.
Nites everyone =)

New Year 2009.

Another year has past and it's year 2009. Alot of changes in my life looking back from 2008 till now.. finally some accomplishments . A stepping stone. New year eve this year was a quiet one. Not like crazy parties I use to love back then. Eitherways it's a brand new year all over again, and Im 21. Geez, tell me more about things a grown up need to know and handle.

A new year a new start, hopefully a better person. My resolutions are simple.

Welcoming 2009:

-Save more money.
-Stop taking MC's
-Be more hardworking
-Stay positive
-STOP SNACKING
-Jog more often
-Hopefully my jeans can down 2 sizes.
-More meetups with friends..

Pink of health for my family and friends.

Morning Angels

Long time since I had my randoms on my blog. Been kinda busy lately, most of the time catching up with the sleep that I've missed out on. Well, been busy catching movies and companying the silly monkey. It's like a long holiday for me.

Updates on my daily life would be back on track I guess...

First and foremost, IM OFFICIALLY TEWNTY-ONE!! Legal!! hahas..looking forward to movies at Yang Ze, or something. Hahas, I dont know the actual spelling for that specific theatre. Well, Im just glad that people I've miss have turned up my celebration, a small one. Disappointed with some, but I shall keep the comments to myself. Im glad for those that turned up and made my day a better one. Thanks for all the wishes =) Special thanks to Pei Shi, Mantianal- Lily, Cactus, Kiku, Lavender, Sheryl, Jun, Dennis, Kelvin, Wei Jie, Feng Chang, SOP-Sherry, Nicole, Ying, Chantelle, Jason, Jeff, Nel ( Bday boy as well ), Mark, Reuben, Terrence, Cong, Lao Da, Collin,.. My ITE mates- Ah zek, Lion, F word, Handsome Ed, Minghan.. HD peeps-Andy,Ym,Daphne..5N2 gentlemen-Josh, Kenneth,JH,Nicolas,Willkie,Mas,Irvin.. Seniors-Cher, Kuan and post celebration by HD peeps-Fen,Ym,Andy,Hannah,Mingwei,Cecilia,Qiaofen,Clark thank you everyone, appreciate it alot, my family, Gynn and her bf, and most importantly Bi-Daryl.


Without his persistance, I wouldn't had initiated any birthday celebrations. Thank you so much bi. It ended off well..

Thank you my ladies for being with me the whole day..Mantianal. Sherry,Jason,Nicole and Jeff. Thank you so much..

And so, I've finally attended Midnight Mass, and finally gone down town to see the Christmas lightings.
This year came and gone so fast, I never caught a good glimpse of everything that past me.


I wish everyone best of health, happiness and fortune for the coming 2009.
Cheers~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! =)

HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! PEACE YO!!

Untimely

I woke up at this untimely hour cus Im feeling a little hungry and I've got some cravings for CHOCOLATES!!!!! UGH!! I miss the hot chocolate!!

Gonna search my fridge later, this craving is kinda strong, feel like going to the 7-11 to get a bar of it. UGH. Curb this temptation... Boo.

I'm actually home on a Friday, no Saturday early morning already. But it felt good to be able to sleep in. My Xiamen flight was tiring though. Like to the extreme, not sure if it's due to lack of sleep or something, but when I touched down, I felt so drained. Exhausted.

Yipee!! Chocolate is on the way =))
TWIRL!!!!

Tv time..

Tired of explaining.

I've come to a point where I grew tired of explaining. I know that's not healthy, but I guess not everything I do got to be accounted for?. I HATE people yelling at me, showing their anger on me. How great are you?.

For instance, I was filling in some form. Which to me, is kind of personal so, Mr KC came out from the room, immediately my first reaction was to flip the form over. Puzzled, he asked what was it, so I said nothing and straight into his face I said I dont like it. For that he went into a rage flaring up slamming the door and everything. Now I know how that feels. I do need my own privacy, I aint small kid no more. Give me my own space. Maybe I should choose my words these days, it's been quite offensive.

Finally I went for circuit driving today, it was horrible. I was kind of impatient cus I was so used to driving on the road, that when I went into the circuit, it felt so unbearable!! I couldnt drive more than 20km/hr!! the place was too packed. Geez. Saw Uncle Gordon today, hahas, ah pa! I miss your teaching!!..not that my current instructor is bad alright. Just my own preference. Impatient in the sense that everything be it to stop here, or to turn here, etc.. everything was like so last minute, made me so angry. Should have like told me, for circuit you need to drive slow, there will be lots of turnings to do, you will have to pass through .... so on and so forth. At least PREPARE me.. Hais. But it went well after a few rounds, plenty of roll backs today..hahas.

After which, headed down to the stadium for a 2.4km jog, tired now.
Bedtime.

Classroom

I miss a classroom filled with familiar faces, people that brightens up your day be it the skies of grey.. I miss those moments man, be it ITE days or Sec sch days.. I miss being that wilful brat, talking nonsense and laughing so hard.. till our stomach couldn't take it..

Down

I can't feel my stomach cramped up with laughters these days. Cloudy skies are here to stay, and it's been quite a while. My mood fluctuates with the colour of the skies. It's gloomy skies these days.
Buckle up Jo, a storm is coming this month. Monsoon season.

I need more haunted inn clips or something..

Earful

Hearing the same things but harsher. Im at the edge right now. Either ways it's death.
I seem to be a little confuse and it's not really helping with the weekly war.
"Through" has been a frequent word used. Like it has lost it's meaning, instead it became more like a threat to a kid.

How does hate and love coincide?.
I can't rant no more, cus it'll just create more negative vibes..
Now Im tired. I lost the struggle, it only lasted for 2 days and I picked it up again.

Waiting

As per usual, when Im done with preparing and I've still got time to spare before I leave home for work. I'll surf the net, check out my horoscope, check out my facebook and maybe like now-blogging. Ugh, it's really a chore to wake up early. But nevertheless, I'll get to go home early. Can't wait to head back home. Hahas.

So many things going through my mind, be it the negative or the positives. I've got to weigh them correctly, cus my heart and my head doesnt seem to coincide with each other. Which I guess is ALWAYS the case. Gotta reach airport by 0530. Boo. Im lazy seriously. In fact, extremely lazy. Bummer. December is coming, confirmation for the seventy's is coming. Doubt I'll be getting mine.

I've got to start inviting. But who can I invite?. No one seems to be free, and some didnt reply me. But I cant blame them though, I know I've disappointed some, so I have no say on whether Im disappointed in them or not. But yea, this is how far my friendship with them have gone. Time really drifts everyone away from me. And to my own doings, it's getting worse. Somehow or rather I forsee bad premonitions. Blame it on my own doings. Call this K A R M A.
Im merely on this thin line. 21 aint my kind of fun no more.

Too many things, it's bringing me down.
Too many thoughts..
Too many IF's..
Too many doubts..

This little things are all pilling up. Will you catch me if I fall?..

Bleeding love..

Down the slumps

My mood is definately not in the right state. Like as though I had a little too much to drink. Like as though I predict something.

And this time round, something bad. If you have something to say, can you just let me know?. I feel weird. This feeling is overwhelming me, and it's making me upset. Is this the season of falling into (emo-ness). It's like I dont know you anymore.

Finally an end to my holidays. Back to work, gotta wake up at 4am for a morning flight.
Went on a spending spree. Burned a bigger hole in my pocket. Treat my mum to a classic mani and pedicure plus colouring of her hair. She's happier now, I've a little lesser to spend.
At least I've done my part on pampering her. At least something for her, so I guess once a while burning my pocket for my them is fine with me.

Im dreading. I dont like feeling this way.

I better tone down lately.

Goodnights.

December

I hate December. Seriously, so many freaking problems. It's always a vicious cycle. I hate this kinda feeling. I HATE IT. I HATE YOU!! why must it always got to be YOU!!! Can't you just vanish?. Or maybe I should just vanish. Sometimes I really regret making this decision. Or am I just too narrow minded. One way or another, it's driving me up the walls. I can't express myself in words, it always ended up making me feel like im a control freak or something. Woman, sensitive creatures by nature. Or it's just Joanne's nature. Either you stick with it or get out of her life.

I've tried changing and Im glad I changed. No point sticking to the old me, when nothing I did was appreciated. Till it was gone that people learn to cherish. I'm going bonkers seriously. Is this KARMA on me already?.

Lately my sensitivity level has been increasing. I guess it's due to the lack of sleep. I hate feeling depress. It feels so stupid.
Especially when Im depress everything that goes through my mind seems like some mixed up jigsaw. My feelings and thoughts are all jumbled up like scrabble. I wish to make my point clear, but it always ended up with another meaning. I don't ask for alot, I just want the basic, the simplest. Yet, it all blew up. POOF!!.

I'm grumbling all my randoms, it's seriously driving me crazy. I can cry for hours over matters that dont mean a thing at all. How silly is this. I hate DECEMBER seriously. Give me a reason why I shouldnt or why am I behaving in such behaviour?. WHY!! Do I not know how to compromise?, am I really so irritating?, what am I suppose to do?. I feel so pist off so freaking pist off!!! It's not like someone triggered me, it's like the time bomb in me just exploded by itself.

This post is extremely random, I guess it's due to my PMS. It's really driving me up the walls.
I guess I need a sandbag, for me to release my anger, no one seem to be able to understand this. NO ONE. Not a single person, no one. How pathetic this is.

My eyes look like a pair of goldfish. Still no calls.

The cramps are killing me. Nothing seems to be going smoothly.

Im giving up on myself.

Useless.

2 more days

2 more days till Im officially back to work. Can't wait man.
Just woke up, imagine how screwed my body clock is working. I practically bummed around during my leave with nothing done. Becasue of money issues, I held back all my projects. My intention was to:
1- clear up my clothes, so that I can stock up with new ones
2- clear my study room so that my new bed can come in soon.
3- clear my dressing table ( currently a computer table.. with a huge mirror) so that I can get a proper one.

that's about it man. But sadly NONE accomplished.

Ran through my old albums back then in secondary school, I couldnt believe my eyes man. I looked freaking bloated but tanned. I miss the tan. With the weather like this, it aint helping much though. Hopefully I can get to do some decent tanning some time soon, Im sick of being fair. My veins looked freaking scary, like railway tracks all over my body. EEeeww.


December's coming, and I've got no plans but another 5 days leave. I don't know what to do with a 21st celebration, any ideas? my 1st intention was to hold it at my void deck, LOL. I find it pretty cool, but some of my friends objected to it. Then came the MacDonald thought, but I was thinking who will come man, not like I have alot of friends, and not everyone is free, they'll definately give me a " err..I dunno eh" answer, and I cant give a confirmed no. of people attending. ARGH, I hate planning for birthdays. Haven't seen Mantianal for quite a while now, the last was Cactus's birthday. Like in Aug...Geez, everyone's so busy. I'll be back with my busy life too. I have ran out of plans for my birthday, maybe from the 18-22th I'll just do small gatherings with all my friends that are free. A continuous 5 days celebration with different groups of people. UGH. Boring. Else to save everyone's trouble I'll just give you my account no. donate any amount as you wish. A donation drive to save Joanne. Hahas.

It's peanut butter jelly time!!!