One more day to my off..

M-o-R-n-i-N-g

Dragged myself to work, KMG was a long day. Just glad that it was over. This should be the longest flight for the month. I'm a little less motivated today, to work. At least it makes my day past faster. My legs looks pretty horrible right now, it's going to take a very long time for the scars to recover. I wonder how did I collect these marks. Please go away. I've had enough things to fret. The freaking bruise on my left thumb seems to be getting bigger and darker. LOL. Freaking ugly..

DRAGGGGGGGG...

Out-

Can someone just freaking drag me out of the house?.
Misery at it's best.

Bruise

Dear bruise,

can you disappear soon?, you're making me look as though I've been abused.. =(


Wasn't able to search for the music video for "Love the way you lie-Rihanna feat Eminem" but manage to get the song from Shi, it's like a must to listen to these few songs these days, it's on repeat in my play list. In a way it does speaks of how some stuff happens in a relationship..the brutal love.

"Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em "

LOL

I couldn't recall I've ever done the same pose many years back, LOL. Till Fen found the pictures and posted it up.


Present 2010 Farmway

Past 2006 Punggol End

Finally it's my 3rd day, need to get it done and over.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars...I could really use a wish right now...

Take a break

I'm not a very complicated person, I indulge in simple things, small yet brings contentment to me. Just little things like sitting there beside me when I'm down, not having to utter a word, or a cup of longan water when I'm not feeling well. I'll be overjoyed. =)

Happen to chance upon this song- Never too far away by Mariah Carey. A very nice song, lots of emotion in it.

People change, there will be a point in time when it just hits you and you have to move on. It might be hard and lots of obstacles, times so bad when you feel like giving up because no one was there and it all seems so helpless. Swallow that sour feeling and hang on. Don't give up just yet, no matter if people left you, be it if you're left all alone standing there. Hang on.. just push on a little more, with that every little step, at the end of the other side, when you've finally see the light, you'll realise that those small little steps that you took have actually became a small little path, that has brought you where you are now.. just a little bit more. Go for it..

Wipe out

Negativity has been slowly eating me up. I let myself slipped into the emotional roller coaster and let it lead me on for a very long time. It made me feel like shit, and it made me so depressed. It's not as if someone died or something. But this is all bullshit. Im sick of it, yes I've banged the wall. Now I'm leaving this emotional baggage for good.

Been suppressing all these emotions all by myself, wondered how it actually triggered. Either ways, I don't wanna bother no more.No one can help me cept for myself. Though I'm concern about it, I wont be able to do anything. So,
I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!!! I've been praying that everyone leaves their emotional baggage, that happiness will reach them and let the bad times be forgotten, but apparently mine didnt. Now that I'm really sick of it, I'm letting it go, yes I know I should have done that like long time ago, WHAT TO DO!! Jo is ALWAYS LIKE THIS.

Goodbye emotional baggage,
pessimism gets you no where..NO WHERE. I don't wanna jog on the spot no more..why bother?..
Let the memories rest..at the end of the day, we aint in the memory no more, it's NOW that matters.
Had enough of the nuisance..

I got your point B. For what I want to think of stuffs that's not necessary at all. My numb skull needs a little time to process.. :)

so long`

Xoxo

RAH RAH RAH!!

My freaking tears rolled like free, I feel so exhausted..why am I so tired today?. I sat outside the arrival hall for a good 15mins. I just literally sat there, staring into space. I need smecta, seriously. My motion sickness is getting from bad to worse. It got so bad that I had no appetite at all, couldnt even finish my favourite cheesecake. I guess that's why I'm so tired and feeling so emotional. I get even more frustrated when I cant stomach any food down.

Met K at the bus terminal and we took the same bus home. Took a stroll back and it made me feel better.

gonna crash now, tomorrow's my 3rd day..one more day Jo, and it's your off day =)

Nights..

rest

I'm just going to rest for the whole of today, feeling pretty uncomfortable..that nausea feeling, jet lag.

*yawns

Woke up pretty early this morning, waiting and waiting.. from 8 till 12 plus, before reluctantly leaving home to company Sheryl for her interview. Im feeling so tired now..*yawns..*
hmm, what is it?.. It's so nerve wrecking..

Mr Tan you're lucky you're away, else I would've bite you!

Back to work

Been a while since I looked forward to work. Being home the whole week wasn't really what I've planned to do. At least, I've rest enough and back on feet for work =) need to get my momentum back, since Im away for a week. 1st day of work, and it's a full load to and fro, hectic but manageable. Though there were those few that tries to get on our nerves once a while lol.

I must admit that I've put on weight. My uniform got so freaking tight that it gave way yesterday. Yes, laugh it out loud, what a freaking joke. I'm lucky it's only the thread ran off and not literally torn a big hole. I don't wish to know what will I do if that really happens. Hais, I've got to cut down on my intake, or maybe starve myself a little so that I'll get so hungry till the gastric actually eats off some fats from my butt.LOL. Me and my wishful thinking.I've got cravings for mangoes, hmm too bad there wasn't any for me to purchase yesterday because of the season. GOODNESS!!! speaking of which, I've forgotten all about my lapis that I've bought, which is still inside my cabin bag, LOL!! omg.

TTYL!

Ice SQUEAMMMMMMM!!!!

Woke up early this morning and headed for breakfast with Fen at Cartel, miss their french toast and ham. (: I like the golden brown look on the toast and the taste of it though it's easy to cook, reason being- my mum never likes to cook at home as the kitchen will be messed up, thus I had to dine out.

After which, I had to head down to the Singapore Flyer to register for "The Big Walk". I'm serious about it okay!, hehe. Im glad I signed up for it, though the queue was long and the weather was so hot. Thanks for the company Fen!!! (: I had to sign up for 4 other woman, which will be following me for the Big Walk. LOL!! Thanks ladies, especially Kiku because she'll be wearing HEELS for the big walk! LOL!!!
We took about an hour to queue. Imagine that, so many passionate Singaporeans enthusiastic about the walk. After settling with the registration, we cabbed down to Katong for our heavenly treat at Oblo (: which was coincidentally a few shops away from "Everything with Fries" (:

Ordered a platter each, which consist of 2 macroons of your choice, a slice of cake and an ice-cream. I fell head over heels for their mango passion sobert. It was delicious!! sweet,sour savory that lingers in your mouth. MMMMmmmm~ hahaha. Their ice cream is from Moven pick. (:

I enjoy the meetups with Fen, she'll always have something for me to think about, to ponder on. It got me so hyped up. It's indeed thought provoking. =)

Dont spend time pondering over matters that's redundant, conserve that energy and use it on matters that's more important to you. I gotta keep moving forward.

under the same sky

Been having too much free time on hand, I was bumming around at home the whole day, slept my day away, feels so awake right now that I cant go to bed.

Hey you, I miss having you around..irritate the hell out of me, if I continue being like this I'll go crazy very soon, Im so home bound now. Luckily Im heading out tomorrow, cant wait to get back to work, the leave is driving me crazy. Should have cancelled it earlier, I dont need a break at all, I feel so energized. Long flights here I come, Kathmandu, Chennai..Im gonna conquer you!

Wonder when school commences, can't wait.

Hey~ wo zhen de hao xiang ni..

Dream

When it was so far away I wanted it so bad, after a while it went away from sight, I thought I've let it down, but when it's thrown straight at me, I fumble and wants it so bad. Joanne, what do you really want?.

I remembered sitting at the emergency row when I started off still so fresh and green. I stared out of the window and saw this 737 waiting in line to take-off, in my head I told myself, give me 3 years, wait for me. I was so full of confidence, so determined to pass this transition period to move on to the ultimate goal. But as the environment sets in, and obstacles came by, I've forgotten bout the promise I made to myself and allowed myself to drop, to let go of what meant so much to me. I was literally knocked off my feet. Knocked down. 2 years has past, and here I am facing the same scenario once again. Staring at the crossroads in front of me, I see 2 different scenarios, a very big decision for me to make. I need to calm myself down, and think through what I really want for my future.

I miss sitting by the breakwaters staring into the unwinding sea..East Coast anyone?..

She's out of my league..

Awesome show, I'll give it 4 popcorns out of 5. I was literally laughing throughout. This show is so real, it displays the life of one that is pretty inferior of himself..not gonna say much of it.

Guys like Chuck doesnt seem to exist no more, it's very hard to find such people around these days. It's not something complicated, neither is it impossible, yet it's so hard to come by.

I admire funny,witty and truthful people be it the ladies or the dudes. I find people with such character fun to be with, they wont bore you out, and they're truthful, aint no beating round the bush, just sincere, fun-loving and easy-going. I don't see much of such people around no more, where have you humans gone?

One way or other, I could really relate to Chuck, it felt so real. I admit I have pretty low self-esteem so yea, that's me. If you have pretty high self-esteem then good for you.

Good nights..

Day 1

Standing under the scorching sun, while we wait patiently for our love ones to fall out and be with us for one last time before sailing off. My tears didnt start till the very last moments when I see his ship move further away from us, and his face became so ever tiny till I cant see his features no more. My tears welled up, but I held them back. I miss that monkey already. Please let these 4 months move faster, let me be as busy as possible so as to keep my mind off the missing.

It's my longest goodbye, especially the moment he waved goodbye and the ship moving further away from bay. It feels as though I've not held enough of his hands and hugs.

Dear God, I pray for good weather and that Collin will come back safe and sound.

4 months..
I'll wait!

As much as I try not to show my resentment, I can't. Man, I cant imagine without him around to disturb / remind me stuff.... this is pretty sickening. I cant believe it's already the 18th. Crap.

before I forget

Before I actually forgotten that I've to make a trip down to the airport to get the tickets fix, my head is gonna roll balls. -.-"

It's stay home Sunday for me today, wanna catch "The Break Up" which I never got to watch. Some ridiculous scenes that actually reminds me of ME!. DAMN, LOL, it's so freaking true. Do things willingly and pro actively, take initiative then being asked to do so, like saying sorry not for the sake of saying only. It's true we dont do mind reading, sometimes it's because we're too close to the person, we forgotten about the basic respect, basic courtesy which slowly progresses to "cant be bothered". The grey areas that most have met with from time to time. It's pretty funny when you look at how people are handling it and give them the advise, while you cant solve your own crap. It states that such situations gets you stitches because your emotions are so involved/engaged that you cannot think rationally. Thus childish acts appear, I know I fall into that category. Which in turn have accumulated myself a great number of vocabulary of what not..hahas, this show is so REAL. LOL! GOODNESS!!..

Either ways, I just got to have this here. BABY...Never ever do a sharp turn when my belt aint on, because now I cant get that headbutt moment out of my head!! LOL there's a tiny red bump on his lips. Im sorry! ;p

Received my favourite hotcake meal breakfast from baby. (: Sweetest ever!! Breakfast delivery though he's worn out from work last night.

Gan jue dao yi si de xiao xin fu.. (:

Smiling away while having my hotcake. kuang kuang kuang <3

Approaching

As the date draws nearer, the more I fear the unforeseen. It's no longer weeks away but DAYS.

"Dang yang guang zai ci hui dao na piao zhe yun de guo zing zhi nan.."