thoughts

I'm at my worst I would say. This isn't the first time I've gone through these, yet again, nothing is going right. I've lost motivation for school, but yet I keep telling myself I need the cert, yes it works as a backup for me in the near future. But apparently I've not change a single bit, I'm still as lazy as ever, not working anything out. I'm still living the days when nothing seems to matter.

Now everything is piling up and I feel so sick and tired. I tell myself from time to time that I will be better. Who am I cheating? I'm in a big self-denial. I can't solve my own problem, I can't weigh my pros and cons what I want for myself. What have I been doing?

Useless.