one more day

One more day to my off day, can't wait. I'm still feeling so tired after such a long sleep. Anything more than 6 hours is considered long for me already. Didn't manage to watch "love in the cab" on channel U yesterday due to flight. And, my nightmare is back! having horrible toothaches, and now the left side of my face looks a little swollen AGAIN!!! what's happening!!! ):

Anyways, last week was crazy. I drove for 2 consecutive days, had mad loads of Japanese food (: , got myself a skirt FINALLY, hangout with bi's friends for dinner,bowling and 1/2 hr game of Citidale. Though I'm slow with such strategic games, the nonsense they did, and Chelsea's facial expressions was superb funny!.. not forgetting the last minute BBQ at Nel's. NO LIGHT!!! lol. Though I hate preparing the food because of the weird smell and all, at least at the end of it, it tastes and looks good (: now I know how to prepare the bacon with golden mushroom. Nonetheless, I love the spicy white button mushroom bi made, makes my tummy rumble at the thought of it, though it burnt my tongue cus it was too hot, and I was too eager to eat. LOL.
Had "surprise attack", that made me feel so embarrass up till now.. LOL!! FARK! UGHHHHH!!!!!..oh well..

Either ways, the weekend was madness to the maximo!! (:

wo ge ni yi ge _|_ zai ge ni yi ge "tui!"

ciaoz~

xoxo

Jo (:

Early morning

The weathers' so nice this morning. =) I like this kinda weather, cooling not chilly. Slept like a log after my flight yesterday. It feels so good! but I wasn't able to sleep further at night, I woke up about 4 in the morning toss and turn till bout 6 plus before I fell back asleep and shortly after woke up again. My body clock just refuse to sleep after 3ish. UGH.

I used to think patience is one of the quality I have in me, but as the years gone by, I realise I'm slowly losing it. I lost my patience to the slightest things and my temper is getting from bad to worse. These are the bad habits that slowly crept into me.

Needa get a hang of it..

Cant think of a title for my entry, I'll just leave it blank first. I'm still feeling lethargic and what not. I should be able to sleep last night, as I was dead beat. Literally walked for the whole day, but apparently I woke up at 2:40. Tossed and turned till now. CRAP. And my crewlink is down yet AGAIN, so I won't know who's working with me today. zZz Mum didn't wake me up 4:40 hmm, guess she didn't set the alarm. This is not funny, 2 days of insomnia. There isn't much festive feel this year, though the lighting and all are up. It looks pretty dull though, mixture of blue and purple it didn't brighten up rather made it look so sleepy.. or was it cus we were exhausted from all the walking. I've finally tried "happy lemon" and I like my blueberry kanten plus agar. =) taste like yakult with jellies. LOL.

I've also decided not to perm my hair, after trying the temporary curls. I don't like how it looks on me. It just made my already big face look BIGGER pictures will be up maybe later. I've finally got myself a pair of skirt and to think that it's been a while now since I've wore my jeans, which I have no idea where has it gone to... enough of rantings..

Needa prepare for work now..

xoxo

to be continued..

serve the consequences

Being complacent, living the days of "I'll do it tomorrow", seriously, for the convenience of now that you leave things till the day after tomorrow, and end up having difficulties later on. Sadly, as much as I hate this, I'm actually one of the culprits, making things so inconvenient. Small little things like, dropping of MCs that could have been done like early in the morning just now, rather than having to wait till after lunch to head back to office to do it, just these small little things, whereby I could have just be a little more hardworking and head up to office from work yesterday. I'm outright lazy.

I never liked going to the office, cus I sense the aura, hahah I mean it's like when you're in school, would you like to go into the principal office as and when?.. I have those kind of fear whenever I have to step into the office. I make sure that if I were to go in, I'll just do my stuff, chop chop and leave. It's just me.

So after ranting here, I'll go prepare then head out to office and slowly make my way down town. See the inconvenice done Joanne..TSK. =(

-LG.

Driveeeee

After more than half a year of NOT DRIVING, I've got the chance to drive again today (:
Though the weather condition outside wasn't exceptionally great, I had my fair share of fun. Went over to Nic's place to hangout and visit bb Zaden. Since we were hungry and no one was using the car, we took it out for a spin. And I must admit, I'm one of those many hazard drivers. =( If it weren't for mummy being persistent of driving, I would have chose to cab down.

I wonder how I've actually got myself a license, where did I find time to head down diligently for classes when I don't even do that for my classes now?. That phase seems a blur. From the very first lesson till the day I've actually got my license to hazardous driving and the fact is, I do miss driving (: I'm still trying to brake slowly as in no jerks at all, apparently it's still not to perfect YET.
Ohh well..

Monday is finally over =)

Time to get some rest, this post took me half an hour to write, too many running thoughts, but my words doesn't seem to be flowing today.

Tired..

goodnights
xoxo

jojo.

Just like a drug

I wished the weekends could have lasted longer. I get lovesick everytime it hits weekdays. As much as I hate to admit this, I feel a little out of place without his presence.

As much as I try not to cling like a koala, the more Im so attached to him.
This is only half an hour ago, I feel a little uncomfortable already. Geez~

Kay, gtg hate it when I got to rant here.

Blweah

Till my next weekend getaway...

Rain check

Just like the pouring rain, it's like a down period for people around me.
Just like the weather, my mood has been swaying pretty much in very big waves. Just like the wave, my mood goes on and off.

Lull period.

With the rain pouring outside, I can't go for my jog.

Hello testing!

My voice is back!! (: mummy's remedy is amazing hahas! I can finally hear myself once again, though it hasn't fully restore back to it's original, at least I won't run out of pitch anymore. I'll try to speak as little as possible to conserve it for my brace command, I feel so much better now! (: I don't have to use so much strength to talk.

Another round of water parade before I hit the showers.

Have a great day y'all! =)

Shineeeeeeeeeeeyy

Over the weekend we spent the WHOLE afternoon washing and polishing the car, from late noon till evening, till the sun has set..imagine that. That was plenty of work DONE. Feeling kinda proud though most of the job wasn't done by me..LOL. At least you see your own reflection clearly when you look at the car, nice and shiny =)

It's not easy polishing a car, imagine how much work those working at the car wash got to go through..hmm so much hard work. geez.. But it helps your arm lose some fats though. At least for me, LOL. At least it makes me feel better for a while..

-Edited-

As though he works like a remedy for me that I became well when he came back..now I'm back to square one. Down with the stupid flu..I thought the flu vaccination should be able to keep me away from such. ):

Had lots of first time encounter over the weekends, be it work or otherwise.

I've officially lost my voice, all I can make out are distorted sounds that's irritating to the ears, which apparently serves as an entertainment to the rest. BOO!

Even bi had his share of fun, when I told him I've lost my voice when I came back from my overnight flight, he'll still try his luck and call me, "hello?..testing testing.." hahaha. That was funny I swear! but I couldn't make out much noise even my thunderous laughter was lost. I have to use lots of strength to speak, which I feel is pretty tiring besides this, my nose ain't giving me a good time as well, I have to blow my nose every now and then when I feel that it's blocked, but there's nothing inside..imagine how irritating that can be, and because of the constant hard blows.. my ears are blocked. Very sickening. I wonder how do I go for my SEP recurrent tomorrow in such state. =(

Please let me recover already.

wasted another sem.

thoughts

I'm at my worst I would say. This isn't the first time I've gone through these, yet again, nothing is going right. I've lost motivation for school, but yet I keep telling myself I need the cert, yes it works as a backup for me in the near future. But apparently I've not change a single bit, I'm still as lazy as ever, not working anything out. I'm still living the days when nothing seems to matter.

Now everything is piling up and I feel so sick and tired. I tell myself from time to time that I will be better. Who am I cheating? I'm in a big self-denial. I can't solve my own problem, I can't weigh my pros and cons what I want for myself. What have I been doing?

Useless.

Down down down...

I'm going down down down down down. The fever is back yet again. I'm feeling really horrible now. This is like the worst combo ever that'll happen to me. It's not as if I've been taking lots of heaty stuffs, in fact I've been taking things that's considered "cooling".

It seriously sucks to have the combo coming all at once, my nose is blocked and I cant breathe..there's nothing in my nose, no mucus or what not, so I couldn't clear it, it's just BLOCKED. So I have to sit upright. Then the headache is back again, I can feel my forehead reheat once again. Damnit. =( I feel damn sick and pist off. i can feel myself floating again. Which is equally irritating, cus that means I have no energy to walk around. =( AAAAAAARgh~

And my freaking throat is killing me!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! =(

My unique family traits

See, when I cannot get back to sleep I would think of plenty of random what nots that keeps me so freaking active that I will tend to do a second entry like what Im doing right now. This is going out to my sis.

I was randomly blog hopping, so yea. Since it's been a while now since I've read her blog, I thought it's time for me to "invade" once again. I wonder if she reads mine, since mine is like so prominent. It's like on my favourites list. So yea, here goes. To my dear sissy, just to let you know, you have the biggest heart I've ever seen, as in always sparing a thought for others out there, unless on your lull period, where you get all cranked up and SELFISH. hahaas, ouhh well that I've got to understand cus that's what happens to me sometimes too, I guess in a way we're the same, we give when we can, and when we're running dry, we'll tend to me a little "stingy". Hmm, a good listener, always ready to lend a listening ear whenever possible, especially when I need one before I go to bed sometimes, just for me to whine my day away, or gossip bout that and what nots..you have a unique personality my dear sissy. Please don't look at yourself that way, you have a great personality, and your laughter is freaking contagious, cus when you laugh I can't see your eyes!! hahahaha. Though I love to attack your egos sometimes, cus I'm having that inferior thingy going on with myself too. So I'll tend to be a bully at home =) but you guys are catching up as well, bullying me, wearing my clothes and Im left with nothing nice to wear when I need to go out. Please arhhh!! dont treat me like that ehhhhhh... hahahs...

Hmmm, and for Joey.. though you're 9 years younger than me, at least Im proud to say that you know how to take care of yourself and behave like a young lady. Whereby we dont have to worry bout you getting astray and all. Though you get on my nerves most of the time, when you were younger, but no more for now, at least the 3 of us don't behave like enemies no more.

Im proud to have these 2 monsters as my sisters though they get on my nerves sometimes, but we've only got this chance in our lifetime to be sisters, this lifetime to make life difficult for each other, to share the sorrow, the joy and the laughters be it at our parents or anything else. Though we don't show it to our family members how much they matter, we show it in ways that we feel comfortable with. Like mum, shouting at the top of her voice whenever she's back home from work, I take that as a form of love from her to us, to show her utmost care and concern in the loudest way, and Dad, bringing back his smell from work, the sandwiches, his presence, his slamming of doors..LOL as a form of showing that he cares..it's these small little details, I believe every family has their own unique way of showing how their love for the family. My family does it the loud way, which I'll sometimes laugh to when I think about it.

It may be irritating when it happen there and then, but whenever the family gets to sit down and watch tv, someone bound to bring out these unique ways of us showing care and concern, and we'll all die laughing at our nonsense, trying to imitate one another and irritate the shit out of us.

=)

XOXO

here I am

What happens when I can't fall asleep at night? especially under such unbearable weather. I will head here to rant about my day.

I would say my day was well spent, screaming and what nots, at least it got my mind off stuffs. So happily after my flight, I rushed down to Bishan to meet the kahkis for our prawning session and fish spa. I thought I was going to be on time but apparently they were EARLY. So I've got to help them "PEK"/peel the shell of the prawns. GGGrr~

I was screaming so badly when we went for the fish spa, money well spent for them, to watch me in such a dire state. I was screaming at the top of my voice, I didn't care bout my image, luckily my vulgarities didn't come out but I was in a very state when I tried the fish spa, excuse me if you're laughing at me now, you should try it for yourself!! The fish are as long as your fingers and it's like a whole school of them will crowd rounnd your helpless pair of feet, there was a video when each of us place our feet in, but Im just too lazy to load that up, cus it'll take like donkey years to get loaded.

Then it was prawning session. Mw, caught the least for the day! lol. As per usual there will be someone to offer prawns to Fen, lucky woman, always attracting people.hahaha! Her bf will ban her from Bishan as well if he were to find out about this. LOL!!.. And as for myself, there were many times when my rod hit the "tiang" LOL!! wasn't on form today to catch the prawns, as I was feeling kind of tired from flight, and also not enough rest. I was pretty much drained out after the 30mins of fish spa, therefore I was a little retarded with my movements when it came to prawning. I wasn't my usual self, didn't help much when the fellas were "peng-ing"/BBQ-ing the prawns, I was literally standing there waiting for instructions for me to do things. Else I was like an obstruction.

Fen bought gong cha for all of us =) hehe, slurps!.. I was mad hungry by the time we finished prawning. And up till now, I still wouldn't allow myself to touch the prawn. So it's either fen or mw will have to help me get the prawn out of my hook when I were to catch one.

Okay, my entry is a little jumble up, maybe I'll do the editing the day after or something. It's a fun experience though, Bibi!! we shall go there again!!.. I wanna see how you handle the fish spa..LOL!!..

After which it was sinful dinner for us. We had katong laksa followed by dessert at Haagen Dazs Springvale. WOOT! Punch me in the eye man! FAT LIKE FARK!!!!

yes, I know here I am whining that Im fat and all and there I am happily gobbling down any kind of food within my range. I guess if I don't maintain my figure, my bf is gonna runaway. Im gonna weigh more than him very soon!!!! =(

Stupid mouth, mind over matter!!! mind over matter!!!!! I MUST TAHAN!!!! Cant fit into my clothes very soon!!!.. =( dont wanna be fat and even more ugly.. =(

LOSE WEIGHT I MUST!!!!!!!! GET LOST FROM FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got to go catch some rest now, another long day tomorrow...

XOXO

Jojo

Jogged

It feels good, went for a jog at the pineapple park alone after work. It felt great. Though I was dead beat the time I came back from flight, but I still push on, need to get some steam off.
It kept my mind off stuffs, at least it didn't stick to me like glue anymore. Guess I didn't stretched enough that I'm feeling the cramps on my left calf.
It's nice jogging on your own pace, just the music the scenery and nothing on your mind.

Gonna go bathe now and then time to do my mask! (:

untitled

Back to the weekdays once again. Geez`

Play around with words

With the wrong body language and tone, words that you say will make the other party feel pressurized. I take myself for instance, for a few occasions I recalled back, I realize I'm always too eager to get my point across not realizing that people might misinterpret it into another meaning and eventually get hurt/ think otherwise of what I'm trying to put across.

I was given a few simple examples, and true enough, it's like a subconscious effect after taking information we hear, and unknowingly project it out in a manner that you will never expect yourself to fall into.

The simple example bi showed me, not once but twice and in my head I was reacting exactly the same..

Am I too simple/stupid to use my head to think sometimes?.. must have been playing too much that I've forgotten bout human relation.. subconsciously doing things my way which I believe has caused those around me to start thinking.

For those that knows me well enough, have I changed? I really don't realize it myself till someone voice it out to me..

Just some running thoughts.. (:

A star for myself

Give a round of an applause for myself =) *claps* I didn't show attitude at work today, I feel that I was carrying out my duties professionally..LOL.. serious. I didn't flare up, no temper, just genuinely from the heart. It feels good at the end of the day. It's like an accomplishment. There were a few situations but it was all handled carefully. It's the teamwork I guess =)

I really don't wish to be reliant on the painkillers, but the headache won't budge, I'm trying not to take painkillers now, but the throbbing pain is irritating me plenty. Tried using my palm to clamp my head, like read hard, it only ease the pain for a moment, then when I release it, it'll go on again. People at work tells me all sorts of stuff like not enough rest, not enough water, the weather.. but it all doesn't seem valid to me because I never had such problems before.

GGGGgrrr...

period

Sometimes, it's just our own wishful thinking that things will work out in a better manner.

Scars will remain as scars no matter how much you try to make it recover, once the fragile vase has been broken, no matter how much you try to piece it back, it will never look the same again. This applies to everything.

I lie awake at night, having those running thoughts flashbacks that hits me one by one. Life ain't like a whiteboard where things could be erased and forgotten.


The headache is back..it ain't subsiding!! =(

Bought the star curlers and I love how the curls look there after.. =) but my ponytail is still too long for work, so I've still got to bun it up.. pfft`

What's wrong with me..

Series of shit has been happening to me. First it was the wisdom tooth saga and now it's the headache that refuses to budge. It's considered the third day now since it has pestered me. It's really frustrating..and after reading up on google.. I feel that I fall into the "rebound headache" category. I remembered overdosing myself with the panadol extras when I had my bad toothache..and now it's like causing a rebound..it states:

Rebound Headaches

These are headaches as a result of overuse of pain relieving medication. It is a vicious cycle as the sufferer tends to use analgesics in order to relieve the headache thereby perpetuating the pain. Other drugs like ergotamine which is used for migraines may also be responsible for rebound headaches.

Any chronic use of analgesics that is stopped for up to a week will often lead to improvment of the headache in a case of rebound headaches. The easy availability of OTC and scheduled analgesics plays a significant role in the increase of these type of headaches as the sufferer is often unable to understand the benefits of stopping analgesics or cannot tolerate the pain (headache) and has to use an analgesic."

I've just popped 2 pandol extra. The headache seems dull but can be irritating at times..as it feels like it's getting more intense each time.. can these nonsense stop already.. =(

My bad habit

I remember this feeling when one has to "book-in" how you'll long for your special someone's return. It's the effort that's put in that touches me lots, really.

You're my bad habit sweets.. (: