Happy valentine Day

Morning!! yes at this hour..well I've just finished watching "Valentine Day" on the laptop so yea, nice movie, should have caught it in the theaters though. Pretty much I got the whole idea of this heart warming show. Though Im here all ALONE watching it cus Mr Tan has to leave early to be the "AHMAD" for the day. He looked like a clown...HAHAHAHA!! I know I'm gonna get it from him. I DONT CARE!!! hahaha.

The time is just nice for me to go prepare now, I'll be wearing a weird looking top which I've bought like when I was in secondary 2? and never wore it till like NOW?!. ZzZ

OKay, back to TREASURE HUNTING!! =p

Umpteen times

Many times I've been telling myself that I want a better life. A life that I can throw my laziness away and be able to accomplish more freaking things in life. Testing of my own determination once again.
Wake up your freaking idea..JO!

At the end of the line, I've only got me,myself and I. PLEASE!! I needa freaking CHANGE ALREADY!!

BYE.

Breakfast

I must admit, mamo is a wonder woman, it took me one hour to get back home from the market and I've only bought like bread, beancurd, 2 packets of mee pok, and some hum jing peng, I swear I wanna cry for help already. My arms feels as though they dont belong to me anymore. LOL. Now I know why mamo rides the piyo piyo to the market. Not an easy job.

The way people stare at me at the market makes me feel so out of place. It made me feel so AUNTIE!! no more next time!! LOL.

Phuket with love

My parents have left for Phuket, leaving their offspring's behind in this sunny little tiny dot. So loving at such an old age. LOL!! Enjoy your trip over there, please keep your arguments to the lowest I hope.
Can't believe my folks actually beat me to Phuket first! damnit. I can so imagine their excited faces. Hahas, especially Daddy, behaves like a kid. LOL.

Wonder what they'll be up to over there. Phuket!! hmm just you wait.

Alrights, heading out for marketing now since the 2 young ones were up so early today to send the folks off. Shall get them some breakfast..

Ciaoz~

HAppy Birthday Mamo!! Enjoy your Phuket trip (:

Subjective

Quoted from a blog..

" It takes guts to change your life like you did.. U always have a choice.."

I've chose mine, and I'm sticking to it. I know what I'll have to face, I don't blame those that couldn't understand my decision.( I finally understand that feeling ).

At first it felt like total lost, cus people shun away from me. I'm standing there alone to fend for myself. I chose selective listening, and to face my consequences. It was difficult at first, like a mental struggle to go through, peeps that used to msg me everyday disappeared. I was actually affected by all these small little actions. Though there were some that told me it was okay, nothing wrong for me to choose this way. It's just in me, that I will feel so otherwise.

It didnt take me long to figure things out, to talk things out and to get it out of my system.

I've to learn to grow up, to move on.

Im really sorry to those that I've hurt, and I know sorry doesnt help the least bit in this context, nothing does. I don't seek for people's understanding for what I've chose.

Im thankful to those that still stood by me.

I ain't losing faith, because there's you. (:

fingers crossed.

Considering gettin a blue contacts.. it's the freaking GSS once again!!!

First out

Can I dont go tonight?. Seriously. Thinking of it feels so fucked up.
This sucks.

miss you.

Deserve it

Im struggling with my revision..GG

The Last Song

Headed out to town like after so many months away from it. Walked around Far East, Ion, Cine.. and I've got myself a skirt. Caught "The Last Song" and had Applebees for dinner. Not that fantastic though, maybe cus I didn't had the steak as I got myself spicy prawn arabiatta (if I didnt remember wrongly..)

My eyes feels kinda sore right now after the crying session from the movie kinda thought provoking..and the lifestyle there!! the weather, the beach, the house.....DANG!

People make mistakes, even your love ones.

I like Miley's hair, wavy and nice (:

Im dreading tomorrow or should I say later, it's my first BLR flight. Oh the mighty one up there, spare me more patience and understanding, I need it ALOT.

awake

I'm wide awake right now to fall asleep, thus I was blog hopping. Many went away for holiday, be it a short trip or a 2 weeks getaway. Everyone got their share of rest and relaxation! When is it my turn! YES IM JEALOUS!! VERY JEALOUS!! so what if I get to fly to so many different destinations? I dont see NOTHING!. LOL.UGH. My last ever trip by plane was Bangkok in 07, 3 years back balls! I've been seeing so much Taiwan, Japan, Hong Kong, Malaysia, Siem Reap etc.. pictures on FB, everyone's been going on long holidays! so nice.. I will work extra hard to save up the money for a well spent trip! Else I'll feel so unbalanced LOL!!

TIO BAO!!!

I was happily collecting my winning tiles in hope that I was able to break even at the end of the game. But, I proved myself otherwise. Who games a "chow ping hor with an ANG TIONG as eyes!!" UGH. Joke of the night.

I guess I need more training from viwawa. Pfffft`

Note to self: Never ever drool on the arm again! x_x"

You've got this loving feeling.. (:

=)

I'm not gonna hold on to the cup no more.
I'm glad there was you. :)

HABIT

I've got this bad habit of mine which is stuck to me for a long time. I tend to read my past entries whenever I feel lousy. It's like a reality check for me to see if I've improved or got worse, and apparently I'm like slipping back. This IS BAD. I've been staring into space too often than not lately. Motivation span for studies is dropping at an alarming rate.

I've been thinking of the meet up I had with Fang and Na the other day. And the future; still freaks me out. I can see changes in them, the way they talk about their future, how they have set their path/goals and moving forward. Whereas for myself, I see myself growing roots to the ground/ "hen-tak-kaki". I'm proud of my ladies, as in they have worked out their path well. Why I don't seem to have that spark in me?. I tend to focus on negativity than seeing things as an opportunity. I want to learn from my mistakes!

I used to give up on myself easily, get myself all crushed and hurt, as though the world owes me. I have tendency to indulge myself in pessimism, which Im dying to get rid of. Self-pity is pathetic. Live for yourself and not for others, for they are not the one that breathes life into you. Don't live with regrets, never allow anyone to bring you down.

Enough said, back to studies.

DMS

2 more lessons to go, and we're gonna sit for our very 1st paper. 10-1pm. GG. All the best people!