im happy =)

i was late for work by an hour today =x
Eve gave me a shock at TAmp's MRT platform, i wasnt paying much attention to the passer-by and she was lucky to sneak up in me and gave me a shock of my life..hahas..that gurl..YOU LIED!!! says who that u put on weight !!!! Ur're still the same !!!..SKINNY!!!..and one thing for sure..she is getting PRETTIER!!! I SWEAR!!!
well, was kinda busy at work today, customers came in all at once, busy till it was time for me to knock off and head down town to meet my dear! =)

Well, i wasnt informed by my bf that they had gone to HMV, therefore..i gotta walk back to HMv from WIsma..oh wells..i should had called again upon nearing the destination. hahas..i aint blaming or anything..so yea.

Was kind of hungry as i didnt had lunch at work, was too busy though. Met up with bf,mas and kenn at HMV and we shopped around a while..Dear bought himself a pair of earrings. hahas..looks kinda small though..but oh wells, gotta do with it first =) hehe.All of them felt tired, as i was kind of hungry and being the fact that they cant really make decisions lol, i've decided to head to the nearest- Cine Leisure, to have my late lunch..hahas..i had Yoshinoya. yummy =)
Followed by KFC popcorn chicken wahahaha..so much for dieting =x

After all the resting and sheat, we made our way to PS. Just to play guitar freaks. I own my bf =x hahahs..well..he's good too..he own me at Drums..hahas..after the "jammin session" lol, we headed home. Sorry bout it MAs and Kenn..hahas..well..went over to dear's place..we talked about alot of stuff =)
i like the feeling of just lyking on dear's chest and just talk about everything and anything..our plannings..lol..
It felt so "future" =) hehe.
He's my 1st bf ever that could just talk out everything on how we felt..just anything..and i kinda liked that feeling =) chatted till bout 11.45pm when his mum came back..so we head of for supper at 85 hahahs! OMG..im gaining back the FATS..=x

alrights, i guess i gotta crash soon..meeting my p.sch frens tmr at 12pm..omg..its nearing 3 and im still so full of energy..must be the oyster omelette.
gonna take loads of pics tmr..hahahs..
alrights. good nite readers =)

[Dj still going strong =) ]

true or conincidence? for u to decide..

---------------JANUARY BABY--------------------
pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

------------JUNE BABY ------------- You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
utgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. ]________________________________________________________________________

life..

Most of the time people are contradicting themselves,
sometime people changes real fast that you aint sure if tt change is temporary or true..

How should people of my age be like?..
What's a lifestyle of a 19 to be?..
What will my future be like in a few years down the road?..would it be happily ever after?..
I guess that only happens in fairytales..
I guess im uttering nonsense of my own once again.

Aint sure of what im blogging these days, hahas..oh wells..

Met up with dear just now..no doubt its only for a while..just missed helding his hand..
missed his hugs too..hahas..= ) im afraid of falling deeper, till there's no return. Or is it, i've fallen into the pit of love. There's always some part of the past haunting me.
Afraid that history repeats itself once again. But i have the trust in him. It's only bad past experiences, that creates some form of phobia in me.
The more we dont get to see each other much, the more my feelings grew.
It's the absence that made me miss him even more than usual. =)
I hope its not a bad thing, i've fallen deeper in love with you.

"I LOVE YOU"

Aching

Was it meant to be?..

Finally its the weekends again. I can finally rest once again. MIssed entrepreneurship meeting once again, hahas..well it just slipped my mind =x

My whole body is aching due to the vball training yesterday. aRghs..Both arms swelled, due to the spiking of my coach. argh...my knees feels like its been locked, unable to bend them. Thus giving me lots of problem walking, especially climbing of the stairs, had cramps today, PAINFUL! Had accounts test, hope i can get 100 for this.

School overall was kinda slack today, working tmr morning...hope there wont be much customer?...feel like taking mc =x

Sometimes people wonders, what it would be like to be with so and so..
Up till now..people still wonders...
I wonder...haiis..
It's like u came the wrong time, wrong place...
At times it felt wrong, or is it most of the time for my case..
Believe it or not..i always feel like a 3rd party..stupid sheat..
Well you cant control what people are thinking, well..i just can't help thinking either, cus i was never in the league. Just a spare.

Well..getting my pay in like 3 days time? =x hahahs..yesh! finally..
What would you do if you were in my situation?..
Well, i guess no one does cus i aint saying anything about it..
Just keep it that way, short and sweet.
i dont have to say anything to you.
Deep down inside. kept within.

a day at Toy R' Us

Was a tiring day in school today. Felt real lethargic. Manage to push myself to complete my accounts. Wasnt really active in school today.

Met up with Dear after school, as we had to return the Dvds we owed for like about a month plus? hahahs..
i wanted to renew my library book but i was lazy to go to the library..wait till tmr bahhs..hahas..

After returnin the Dvds, we went TM to walk around. Walkin aimlessy till we were exhausted looking for a place to sit down. The weather was so hot today, it's like the air-con have malfunctioned.
After walkin for so long, we went into our favourite shop Toy R' Us..
It was real hillarious!!! ahhahs.. we played soccer, Star wars returns LOL..i was laughing till my stomach can't take it. LOL..It was fun spending time in the shop. WE played soccer till we got scolded by the sales person..=x

Actually wanted to follow Dear to meet up with the usuals for dinner, but i was too tired so i went back hm first.

i guess tt's all abt it..
bleah =)
love u.

What A Day.

My mum didnt wake me up at 9 today as what i asked her to. Reason being, she was at work and her boss was around therefore unable to call me. Mr Tan said he would wake me up. But neither did he. i woke up on my own at 10. Was like a "gan jiong spider:" Rush ironin of my clothes,bathe and do a quick pack with stuffs i need and out i left the nest.

So now i've finally know my way of going to UBI. Either i take 65 or 22 from Tamp interchange and then alight at some stop and wait for 93. And "TADA!" im at UBI Driving centre. Well lame..alrights alrights. After the test, Dear came down, as he wanted to book for PDL. But eventually, lol we didnt book anything. After dear got his queue number. We went down for lunch, by the time we got back up, the counter was already CLOSED. ahahas and Dear went down for nothing...well....just treat it like u went there to pick up ur gf who just failed her FTT?..arghs..gotta rebook agains..

Went Suntec to watch "Pirates" not bad, preferred the first one though. Even though i've like forgotten the stroyline for the part 1. Looking forward to part 3 seems like more things would be revealed. SOrry Dear,, for making u watch it with me for the Second time. Had B&J lol..we shall buy one bowl each the next visit =x ahahs

Headed off after that..wasnt really a good day once again. My eyes feels heavy and itchy right now. Too much of getting back at each other. I can't help myself from going away from him..so i was the one doing all the walking up to him. Till a point where i just felt like staying stagnant. and Dear thinks tt i dont bother bout him. Well..i "layan" if tt's how its spelt. "Layan" me sometimes ar..=(
Im kinda sad though when it feels like this. and Dear is real stubborn..lol..stupid shit. If he doesnt wana move means he doesnt wana move. Nothing stops him. Not even me. I guess must be like some "powerful figure/person" has tt ability to bring him down?.. =x

Everyone changes everything changes. You wont expect this person to be the same 10yrs down the road. It's always the starting of the relationship tt is fun and sweet. After that, it's up to u to decide. Maybe i've caused him to change back to what he was sort of like in the past?
How do i help to make situations better? Are expectations too high here?..
I don't dare to think about the future..
I'm afraid the future freaks me out.
think about it.
Self-refelction.

Who am i?

wish me luck.

Having my FTT tmr..11:35-12:45 if im not wrong..well hope i'll pass this time round. Dear will be accompaning me dwn to UBI to do his PDL and hopefully mine too..
Considering whether to take auto or manual..haiis..Well b4 i get to tt..i've still gotta pass my FTT first..arghs..

Well lets recap what happened today..
Went to work as usual..was in a world of my own at work..because im working the mornin shift so i got the rest of the day to enjoy myself =) Didnt touch any homework today..OMg..School starting on MOnday..argggghhhh..i want a longer holiday man! arghs!
So far my project only has like 3 slides..and im still stuck there..lazy to continue man...

Alrights after finishing work..i went home straight..and Dear came over my place to slack..hahas..cus i was lazy to go over his place..poor thing sia..hahas..the initial plan was to watch "Pirates Of the Carribean.." but oh wells..preferred going out to meet the rest to slack..don't really have the "feel:" to watch Pirates..well..yupps..

Dear has been asking me all these weird questions lately..like "Will be angry if i looked at other girls?"..well dear..i'll use back the same example u gave me today..put urself in my shoes.
Well...actually it depends..just watching doesnt really mean anything. Unless u went to continus fantasizing over it..and talk on and on abt it and all..well u noe...Dats kinda too much los..=x i mean "IF"...
Stupid Dear smacked my head real hard today...idiot..it HURTS! u stupid shit..hahhas..i didnt ask for much did i? i just wana bite ur face..=x hahahas..dun ask me why but i always feel like biting him..=x
In a way just holdin hands with Dear made me feel love =) dunno wad tt shit head tinks?
hahahas oOopps =x
tt's jus how i love to call him..lol..but u noe i love u dear =)
feeling real tired now..i guess i'll read through one more round on my FTT book before i crash..
as promised..

good niites people..wish me luck
peace out.
Dj still going on strong.

gaming and free meals

Yeap no doubt, i said FREE meals..hahah..shall not go into detail bout tt =x

Well..let's see, i woke up abt 11plus today? and yea was online all the way till about 4plus in the noon..doing my project and at the same time changing my blogskin..hahas..i liked this blogskin better than my previous..wanted to search back my older one but cant be found.

Dear called asking if wana go play lan game..hahas..got kinda addicted to "Battlefield" intro by dear and the rest..hahas.. bleahs..
Well, imagine tt even while gaming we could quarrel! arghs! felt bad though cus i use parent's name for my character name..and ya you should know who's i used... I tried changing it..but i don't understand why my changed name wasnt appeared on the rest of the guys screen..and well..i was kinda pist off myself..so i quit the game and went into maple..hahas..and i saw ms heng shi hui inside..lol..sorry gal..i use those "code words" lol..

I saw my ex at katong..omg.He looked lyk bangla man..ahahs..but tt wasnt the main point..so yeap.

eh i have a secret to tell u..smoking is bad for health..hahas =x

well i guess being in a relationship..you gotta let go of quite a number of things. Things like hanging out late into the night with friends..you know just hang out, chilling..nothing bad alrites..well..i still hang out with friends and all..but i wont miss out my bf =) dont want him to feel insecure..
you just gotta put urself in ur partners point of view of what they think of how he/she feels with the what you are doing and stuff like that..im bad to a certain extend cus i tend to be selfish at times only to pity myself when i find that the things he did hurt me...But actually im doing things that hurts him..tt's y we got into quarrells and stuff..Well..is it due to the ego? hahahah =x
Well both of us are bad! =x after reading through his blog..i do see a chnange in him..in myself too..Both changing for sort of the worst! lol..but we're sweeter than the past =) Cus the complicated love of ours is growing fonder for each other? LOL..what am i talking about man?!!! LOL..readers sorry for the "hard to digest fact of mine?" LOL bleahs! alrights alrights! i'll try to stop my nonsense with the parents name shit..and me being kind of vulgar..i must say its through the influence of you! Mr Daryl!!! hahaha..i dont use horrible vulgarities before if u realise..=x i think its cus of the gaming too..OH NO!!! urgh! uncivilise =x..

enough of my nonsense...gotta go slp now..tiired man..
nittes =)
love u (",)

shutting down.

My eyes can barely open man, feeling real tired. Keeping myself awake by reading my superman's blogs.hahahas..im calling him right now for the 3rd time. 'ring....'
Hahahs that pig! should had bet with him! he COULD NOT WAKE UP TO DO HIS ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!!! arghs!..oh wells..what should i do?!!! arghs..he's definately sleepin throughout man...

Was working 2 places today once again..
There were bout 13 people today for lunch..one was the usual people..the Aranda staff and the other was just some walk-in customer...
arghs i'm lazy to blog the whole shift man..oh wells..the gist was that i liked the ballons meant as a gift for that lady's birthday.very nice =)
knocked off at 2 and headed down to haagen dazs. At first i was kinda lazy to start work..But after a while..i just crapped along with cecilia and monster..hahas..and kept myself busy..
Times passes real fast today, i realise i didnt had the time to even look at the clock today, or should i say i could not be bothered? ahahas..was thinkin of my guy today at work and i cant help it but msged him..i miss u alot today da =) ALOT!! arghs..

im dead tired now...'yawns'
nites people
sweet dreams..

eye sore

My eyes feels heavy, and are smaller than usual. Suppose to wake up at 5 to do my hw but i drag till now. Thanks for ur kind testi Ms Heng. I'll remember that. hahas..well the other day meeting at Simpang sure was fun and me ordering a second serving of "Tissue" oh man..sinful indulgence..LOL..
I went to view everyone's profile on friendster to kill time lately. Hahahs, bad rites? Well i find it alrights..=x just anyone and everyone. Be it in my friend list or not, i just view view view. =x Well am i considered kaypo-in? well im sorry if you think i am. No offence ya? But i've just got nth better to do. Do add me as friends ya? hahas..i dont mind making more friends though. But im attached ya? hahas..
A long day at work ytd, but the total cover was only 11. hahas..
First time slpin at Aranda, and i had nightmares alr. i dreamt that Dar was being attacked by something..i guess it was snake or smth?..i've forgotten once i woke up. I jumped up immediately from that dream. Was scary though.
i tried to remain as my usual self at work, but was in the toilet for a while. Returning back to work with swollen eyes.Peep at work like Yan xian, asked me what happened... i just tried to divert away the question. I made myself hot milk with sugar and a little cocoa powder. It taste real nice =)
Yes i know it sounds a little weird but ya i don't drink milk..i wanted hot chocolate. So i tried my luck =x LOL
I close cashier fast and went home straight after. Logged onto the net for a while and headed for bed. Chatted with him for a while on the phone and i doze off fast after we hung up. Not able to think much, because of my splinting headache.
I scribbled on a paper at work, and it turned to be like of some song lyrics. A sad one. I dump it away after scribbling for a while.
sigh~ Enough of me blabbering nonsense..
i'm heading back to complete my accounts. Having lessons later.. ciaoz.

day went by.

was real bored at home today. intended to meet up wif sh earlier to bake cookies. a surprise for dear. But dragged the whole day as i wasnt really in the right mood to like go out and all..
Eventually..made up my mind and meetin sh at 5.
it was kinda fun baking and cookin..lol i helped out in cookin as i have not touched cookin for a real long time. Packed a little of the food and the cookies for Dear..
well i guess there's room for improvement?..
Met up with dear and the usual people for yet another slacking session. After which was joy ride to Jalan Kayu. Felt kinda bad cus jz wasn't able to follow us there cus the car was packed.
Some things happened at jalan kayu. But it was over soon..nothing much.
feeling tired now..
wana slp.. good nites.
i love u dear, im sorry for not being myself lately, i promise it'll go away.
i love u.

miseries.

people tend to self-pity when they are alone suffering.
it's so stupid.cus at tis point in time. one tends to think of oneself, discarding the feelings of others.
i am one of them. its so fucking stupid.
go away. don't come near me.
im selfish.

awake

Had weird dreams last nite. hahas it's like im in a fantasy world. Was like saving the world with bears,and some other cartoon animals..lol..omg..dumb dream it was..
The first thing i did when i woke up was to check my hp.there was a miss call i was hopin it was bf.But it wasnt, just my fren.
Didnt went out with sh this mornin as planned, cus my cramps was hurting alot..wonder if it's necessary to see a doc? =(
im feeling better now after the long rest. Wonder if there's any plans today?
Wonder where is bf...
I hate wondering so much..arghs. i guess i'll go do my hw now..
bye.

miss

i miss u.

haiis

arghz..i've been slpin for tooooo long!!!!!!! whole day gone just like tt..just cus of the cramps..ah!!!!!
=( i guess he's asleep alr..didnt answer his phone.

a lonely night for me i guess..time when i start to let my imagination run wild.once again.
beeen thinking too much lately. What if it really happens? DO i know how to handle it? arghs..
missing bf alot now..

He's been real nice to me lately..for the past 2 days..hahas..i miss him alot now =(
Feel like calling him a few more times..but what if he's aslp? i don't want him to be grumpy though..hahs..
Never really go out with bf much lately..and my situation now..i doubt i wana go out either..
the bloody cramps!!!!! arghs!!!! =(
currently doing nothing jus online chattin with frens..

i miss u like crazy..
niites.

wrong.

it was a bad move.

alone to myself

finally a whole day of work off loaded. =)
all by myself me and com. At times i would think to myself about things..........
seriously, what would it be like without u?
that thought that just pop up in our conversation. Would u continue with ur pursue? hahas..well just can't help thinking and there's something weird about me, i'll usually encourage my bf to go for tt girl..hahas..guess i'm weird? I'll think it's not worth if my bf were to like give up on someone he really likes alot. This always happens. In all of my relationship.It's not about comparing or whatever. But i can't help it just thinkin of stuff like- what if i didnt appear in his life? i would have been a nobody till today. Just work, friends and maybe more work.
Don't ask me why but i seriously look down on myself.
Low self-esteem.

What would it be like in the near future?
no one knows a clue about it. neither u nor me?
What would u do if a teleporter existed?
What does true love means?
What am i talking about?
It just felt weird. Suddenly.

when im with u.

doesnt matter what we do just as long as im with u =)

we've been on the rocks lately, ending up in bad situations. But its always sunshine after the rain. =)
being able to see u, just chase away my sadness. It's raining outside right now.
wanted to go over to his sch to meet up with him but well as per usual, im late =p hahahs..tt's nth new man. Always happens hahas.
So i just meet him at Clementi control. Well guess where we headed? right back from where i left. Tampines!!!! argh! i was thinking we might be having dinner at IKEA or smth =x arghz! but oh wells. missed him =) cant wait to see ya! hhahas..
Bf was real irritating! arghz! disturbed me all the way throughout the trip..but poor thing though..he gotta stand all the way back to Tampines =( sorry dear..didnt offer u my seat.
We're up for Pasta! craving fer pasta hahas! =)
so we headed straight fer Pasta Mania. And i guess that's where Dear grew kinda upset.Cant wait to leave the place? hahas..cus we saw TM. Actually if he didn't approach us. we wouldnt even noe he was outside. I can see Dear wasnt really happy bout it. Understood that. But we still stayed on to have our pasta.
That feeling of awkwardness. MY bf and my ex. But i don't feel anything. Cus my feelings fer bf is way much more =)
NO DOUBT.LOTSA TRUST. BF i LOVE U!

vexed.

Call me a noob. i seriously can't find any relevant pictures for my project. and thus i've yet started on it. I hope i don't waste my time like this.

Feeling moodless lately, might be due to the lack of sleep i got. But i woke up quite early today. Woke up bout 11 plus. My only off day. I'm working 2 places tmr once again. =( Kinda sick of working. I've like locked myself up from my social life. It's now only me and work. Even the time spend with bf is little. Just phone conversations. Friends are worst. Not contacted at all =(

Seems like the little exposure from people, i grew more sensitive of things. Feeling lonely in a way =(
It's like no one understands me. More of just going with the flow. Working seems to pull me down alot. It's hard to act strong anymore. Breaking down real easily lately. I don't wana cry so much. I hate that " sour feeling "

vexed.

work

Been working lately, and have yet started on my project. Didn't really have the time to sit down in front of my com and blog about my life.

Went to my class chalet lately. Almost whole class was there. Had BBQ and slacked around. Played cards and took lots of photos with Audrey,Zhen,Von,Zara ahahs..wacky pics we took. Didnt stayed long.

Lately, i've been drowning myself with work. Feel kind of tired. Wanted to quit that job. But NO! i wont. Gonna Prove u wrong. It's like im immune to the "tidious" workload. i've learnt how to cope with it. School's starting soon. Homeworks yet completed. I'm so dead. I need some awakening!. I wana have fun than just work! arghz. NO $ how can i have fun? stupid contradicting shit. =(

And with mums ranting. Arghz! i just can't afford to be jobless.
i'm uttering nonsense once again. Gotta go prepare already. Working at HD @ 5pm.
byeeee.

i failed.

i failed in my promises.
i made u pist off once again.
i feel so useless.
the way things said ... i was seriously hurt, but i guess i made u felt worse. because i've been hurting u all along.
if ever to come a day, when we will never see each other again. please. hate me to the core.
At times i really felt like im not worth any bit.
im tempremental, unreasonable, insensible. It was already a blessing in disguise when we fell in love.

recall the past.
When we were at Bedok Reservoir talking bout everything. WHat was that feeling can u recall?
can u recall the times when u were ill and i tried buying luo han guo for u to drink?
a holiday over at genting & KL
the Dvd marathons.


Mayb the past is a bad thing to recall.
i love u.
seriously i do.

Yes its all just words. But if u felt with ur heart.
...
it's how u and i collide.


im still loving u.

all clashed together..
having class chalet today and goin out with nite cyclin clan..for u know what.

I guess I'm lacking of sleep, feeling so tired right now. Been lazy to blog lately, won't be pleasant either if i were to blog it down. It was me and Dar's 4th month together and we went Hard Rock to celebrate =) yummy!
Had Nachos, very huge serving! lol Dar had the honey-pork chop and i had hmm..i've forgotten the name for it..lol but it's with marcoroni cheese ultra DELICIOUS!!!!! i feel like uploading the pictures we took at Toy R' Us but i guess i better keep my promise of not showing to people how funny the both of us looked when we had those plastic wigs? lol on our head =p i can't stop laughin man! =x

After having so much fun we went back to tamp to meet up with the usual ppl for soccer cause it's screening on the Big Screen at the big field beside Tamp Mall..the atmosphere was there. It was so cool, and we were all shouting like crazy hahas =p

oh ya! and Dar cycled me back home after England's match to change to shorts and refilled their bottles. hehe
Tompang me a few mre times ah! go get a bicycle! =p

alright i'm too lazy to blog further..lol..byeee..