Golden Bride

Been sick for 2 days now, with fever that's running at 38.3 degree celcius.Stucked at home so might as well watch something to let time pass faster.

Im currently stuck at Episode 35 waiting for it to load finish. It's so infuriating, it's so realistic. I know attractive people always attracts loads of attention.

Apparently this show is about a 21yr old Vietnamese girl who married a Korean man just by looking at his picture as she wanted to go over to Korea to find her father. Eventually she fell in love with her husband, who is handsome but down with a illness that's haunting him for 3 years. "Obsessive disorder". She- Vietnamese girl "Jin Joo" helped her husband " Kang Jun Woo" to overcome this sickness, and he was able to pull himself out of the nightmare.

Now the episode that I'm watching is all about "JEALOUSY". THe killer of all relationships. As Jun Woo is working in a company called " C&P " which his junior "Chan In Kung" is working in. They are sort of like team members at work, she did so much things that seriously made my blood boil. LOL.

ARGH! Im lazy to type out the things she did. But I can so relate to it. It's because of such woman that at times makes the victims lost confidence in themselves, thus doubting in their relationship and all. And the men, always clueless of what's happening. We woman, when faced with such problem, usually would be sensitive, we pick up signs fast but guys always push our signs aside and said we're overreacting.
Now I know. It really reminds me of alot of stuff. SO much. Too much.

Anyway, it's just a show. Im not saying Im facing anything now, it's just something I felt like sharing, hahas. Oh well, this kind of vicious woman, woman with BIG ambitions, to me I think that this woman "Chan In Kung" is nothing. So what if she's a uni grad. She is doing such ... how do I describe such person?! hmm, DESPICABLE!, pain in the ass! hahas, she is playing mind games with Jin Joo, hurting Jin Joo,UGH!

Okay the loading should be done now, back to the show =p

UGH. There goes Taiwan.

No doubt I dont get to alight and walk around, but at least Im going there. Now my anticipation for it is DASHED. They returned me my off day on my freaking Kao Shiong flight!!!! BOO!! =(( now I'll have to keep waiting once again. KHH flight is like so rare to me man. =( The only flight Im looking forward to! and now it's dashed. WTH! =(

APPLE STRUDEL!! Ease my anger!! HUMPH!

Ching!

There goes my $$. I've spent it on
-Biotherm Men's facial wash
-Biotherm traveler's set for combination skin. ( Wanna change brand =p )
-ZA's concealer
-Johnson Bb powder
-Lipbalm
-Cotton Wool from Watson
-Dove Bodywash

G!! no more shopping with you! lol. I thought it was just to get my toiletries and I'll be done, but I guess I overspent. =(

Was late for dinner =x met Sher at Tamp for some Sushi dinner =) Had sushi craving for the whole of today, and it felt great to satify my cravings. It was a major discussion today, which I enjoyed alot. Never ending discussions on what the future has to bring and what do you expect of it. We're expecting almost the same criteria's, just that Sher's are definately of higher standards.

Thoughts,lingers in my head.

Lately

There's been a lot of floating thoughts in my mind, will the plan we had work? Am I working it the right way, did I miscalculate anything. I'm like stuck at the junction once again, to turn left or to turn right? or worst still, U-turn?

My ring broke yesterday, so i got to head down Perlini Silver later, hopefully it could be repaired. It's so fragile. I know how I want my future to be like, but I don't see the improvement, or any effort that I've put in. WHy am I still that insensible, not understanding?..That's me is it?, why do I need so much attention hmm?. Am I stuck now? how to clear the obstacle?. Self-talks lately.

My memory is failing me drastically. Like it's so extreme. I can't even remember the conversation I had with Daryl over the phone, or what my mum just told me a few minutes ago. It's not registering into my head. " Bird Brain".

I was feeling unwell last night, I guess it's the apple juice. I vomitted out all the apple juice and my tummy still feels weird now. The outcome of being greedy, I drank the whole carton yesterday hahas. Was watching "Golden Bride" for the whole of yesterday after my flight. HA!
Kind of addictive when I start watching drama series, I just cant wait for the cable to show the next episode at night, I just chose to find it on crunchyroll. =p

There's one more carton of apple juice in the fridge, should I try it again? hmm. =p

Alright I got to go prepare, it's a long evening later =)
Byeee.

MAX

Totally exhausted to the MAX. Just came back from Cochi not long ago. Freaking tired I must say. I didn't sleep at all throughout the flight, but it was a good flight. The crew were very funny =)

Update later, resting now. Drop it like it's hot!
Madness overwhelms me when Im freaking @!$%#@ TIRED.

Adios suckers.
LOL.
Nites.

Oh ya..I'll end with a joke of the day..

" if an egg takes 5 mins to boil, how long will 5 eggs takes to boil? "
Please tag your answer ya.. =))

Monday

It's Monday once again.
Weekends was madness. After the flight from Friday 15 Aug.

Friday was supper at 126's Dim sum and DURIAN!! omg. Believe it or not, did I mention in my previous entry?, yeap I had DURIAN's! lol. Mum and sis liked the durians alot. Freaking cost $46.80 for 3Kg. Hmm.





















16Aug.
After the flight from Yangon. Met up with Dar for dinner at NYDC and movie at PS. =)



































17Aug.
Woke up late, wasn't able to go for our breakfast. Headed down to Siglap for some Javanese Massage and lunch at Cartel. =)

After which it was driving lesson down at Ubi. =)) It was extremely fun! can't wait for the next lesson. I've stalled my car once, but it was funny. =) The instructor was so noisy! he made so much noise during driving, trying to distract me aye..HAHAS. Back to Dar's place after driving, had dinner and it's his book in time. =(

18Aug. Today.
I'll be on flight to India again. Back tomorrow morning, 0615 hrs. BOO!!

Got to prepare now..
Byee~

Xray/MRI

Went to RMG yesterday to find out what's happening to my knees but to no avail. All they did was referred me to do an xray which shows no problem, and thereafter they insisted on A&E. Doing an MRI scan that freaking cost a BOMB. I guess I'll just continue taking the medication first and see how it'll go. The MRI is not worth it, 900 plus ain't no joke. Where the hell to fork out that amount man. =(

Thanks Nic for companying me to the Doctor yesterday.

Had 126 for dinner, and believe it or not I had DURIAN after. LOL.
I only had 2 and that's it. Hahas, too creamy. I couldn't take it. It tasted horrible, slightly bitter. Not sweet.
We're feeling very tired, thus the temper was kinda bad.

It's another working day for me, please don't let me be S2, I can't bear the pain.
GMT +6 1/2 =( what am I gonna do. Lucky Sheila's working with me today. =))

I'm feeling down. Can someone cheer me up/ crack some joke?

What I want?
What do I see?

I wont back down.

I will never this time around. So what if your name appears again. I want to face you. And see what's up your sleeve this time around. Might be cus I'm lack of sleep that Im cranky right now, but I won't be afraid to face you straight in your face.

We shall see who has the final laugh. I wont back down. Not with you.
You made me feel like shit. Like what they say. Make friends not enemies.

I WONT BACK DOWN.

Edited.
Shit Im having dizzy spells. Leaving for work in 15mins time.
I feel weird like im blacking out soon.

Roster Check

I'm gonna make sure I check my roster before I do a flight from now on. Now I know what it means by after doing an evening flight, you can't operate a morning flight unless you have alot of energy. I touchdown at bout 2035hr yesterday, and I'm suppose to operate Manado which departs at 0925 hrs today. I only slept at 12 yesterday, cus I washed my hair, and I was watching tv. =p
Now I know why Dad drinks red wine before he sleeps, it's so COMFORTABLE!, like you won't have to toss and turn till eventually you fall asleep. Red wine's like an instant sleeping pill, you feel warm and cosy, so all you wanna do is just fall in. LOL.

I feel so exhausted now. Today's my 3rd day of work, I MUST PERSERVERE!!!!!.
I'll operate another 10 hrs, that including me returning home and bathed and everything. I will knock out till maybe bout 2200 hrs?, and wait for my 2230 hrs show, and then it would be THURSDAY!!!!!! GOSSIP DAY!! lol. Can't wait. Nic's meeting me for Cartel's Breakfast. YOu bettter not fly kite alright! HUMPH! hahas.
Okay I feel so much better now, prepare for work! =)

Lucky day

Sher's says Im super lucky today, and I believe it too! hahas. Cus SB's on MC today!! WAHAH! And I was so prepared for the flight, like what I'll expect from it, then it came out fine. =) The crews were VERY NICE =) all was good. There happened to be a birthday crew on board today, and I wasn't aware of it till she told me herself. Anyways, Happy birthday to you girl =) At least today's flight was a good one. =)

Waiting for the call, and the 10.30pm show!! woots! tomorrow's my 3rd day of work followed by an off day. Can't wait can't wait!
It'll be gossip day on Thursday!! =))

TOmorrow would be Manado back bout 1710 hrs. I'll be back with more updates.
Cheers ;)

Red wine, my love. =)

Choices, Changes, Expectations.

People make choices everyday, but not every choice we make are the right ones. Changes nontheless, comes along. As you grow, your mentality changes, follow suit your expectations. Adaptibility comes into place, it's either you adapt to the changes or it'll take you a long time to digress it. All these takes time, it's whether long or short?.

Habit- is a killer to me. I've got loads of bad habits that are difficult to change, but it's possible, I'll just take a longer time. A change for the better I would say.

Attitude- mine has been quite bad lately. Very negative. But it doesn't last long, it happens mostly when I'm preparing for work, I'll release tension like what Dar said. I'll just curse and swear, hahas. This is me, I aint no dainty girl caring bout what's glam or unglam, I'm at HOME, so I'll just be myself, and do what's BEST for me. Scream and shout. hahas. At least I feel better at work =) . It's not that I've got bad crew or what, it's just those you know, days when you just feel like running away from everything?, yea. I'm a bummer, a bummer that prefers working for 3 days and have one month's rest. LOL!. I'll definately be working for nothing if that happens. Hahas.

Forgetful- I've a tendency to be forgetful. So I tend to jot down stuffs be it on a tissue, or anything I can find, as in at work. Just so that I dont screw up my side orders or anything. Maybe it has it pros and cons. The positive one would definately be that I wont be angry with that particular person for long. No matter how angry I could be. After a while I'll forget why I was angry. LOL. Blessing in disguise?, hahas. Here comes the negative, some stuff people taught me, I tend to FORGET too!!, oh my.. hahas. Any idea how to improve on my memory?.. it's not absorbing much.



Expectations- I expect alot from myself, but at the same time disappoints myself alot. So I start off with small expectations like cleaning of my dressing table, vacuum the floor once a while, go for jogs, etc. Small expectations, and slowly move up from there, at least it's at a comfort level for me to improve, because I'm a procrastinator too, so if it's small stuff, I'll be able to push myself to complete it.



Changes- I believe that from years of trying to understand myself, I do see a change in me. I'm somewhat stronger, fatter HAHAS!, more conscious of what I say to people, but to people that know me, I wont bother to think before I speak =p My patience level has slightly increased?, my sleeping hours decreased, hahas. My expenditure increase, so does my commitments. Come what may, it's part and parcel of life. Learn to overcome it, not skip it.



So the morale of the story is..
I'll not take MC today! hahas. It's a secret =))




Just for laugh, me when I was in Sec 3. LOL.

Bad things comes in 3

Watched "Love Guru" after my Friday's flight with Daryl. The show was so-so not as hilarious as I thought it would be. Had Shokudo Pasta before the movie, it was delicious! I had the prawn and eel pasta, while Dar had the cabonara bacon. Mine was better off than his. Hahas, had Macha ice cream!! =)) hmm, what else, hmm, had the mashed potato pizza which wasn't that appealing. Should had tried the prawn,scallop and squid pizza instead..the clam chowder tasted like MISO SOUP hahas. And it was arcade thereafter. The basketball game, we scored 225 ptns thus wasn't able to hit stage 3. We were so close!! 25 ptns away only! Argh! hahas.

3 consecutive days, 3 bad flights. 3 spillage. =(

Dar went back to camp on Saturday. =( So I'm left alone for Sunday. But it was a very tiring day for me. Had facial early in the morning, wasn't able to meet fang and the rest for the BW. hahas. And thereafter facial, I headed back home to rest till evening. Off day wasted!.. Facial yesterday was weird, Auntie Anna had this tool that sounds like those "mosquito killers", hmm you know? those look like a racket which is actually meant to kill the mosquito. Well, aunt Anna had this that looks like a highlighter, but produces that noise!, that going onto my pimples!!! The feeling was so .. I can't explain that feeling. But I felt the little jolt of electricity when she dots it onto my pimples. Hahas. It was said to prevent the pimples from coming out that easily..hmmmm.

Driving lesson was cancelled yesterday, like what Sherry mentioned; Human Error. =(

The instructor thought it was 6pm when his initial message that he sent me was 7pm. =( BOO! and I was so looking forward to it.

Met up with liying a few days back with Sher, and we headed for Swensen at Bugis. Ahahs, and thereafter Keppel Bay is it?, where you get to see nice yatch and stuff. Very cosy area, better than cosy bay. =)

And now, I've got to prepare for flight again. To PHUKET once again. Tomorrow would be Kota Kinabalu. I'll be flying with SB tomorrow! wow, scary shit.

[ Friday night out ]
[ Sher, Myself and Ying ]

=)

I'm so glad you're here once again. =) But it's gonna be a short one. Back there on Sat. =( BOO!

Phuket. I'm loving it. Back to back. 3 days roster. How great. My weekends are ruined. They use to give me so good rosters. Man, what happened. I'm looking forward to Nov/Dec, hopefully something more delightful will happen to me. Maybe for now I still dont fall under the catergory of " Shower Joanne with all your love, bring her joy and chase away her tears. " LOL. What bulls. I'm stilll a troublemaker at work, lol. Still so clumsy, but enough is enough, enough of me with my stupid lack of confidence. Be it right or wrong, I'm gonna voice out. Enough is enough.

TGIF.

I'm a happy girl this weekend. =)

Preparing for work.

Just finish preparing and I'm good to go. But I'm just too stubborn to be early for work. I feel so lonely suddenly. Must be my PMS once again. My temper has been very bad lately. Everyone got it from me. Hahas, I felt bad about it. And what Nic said made me think a lil harder.
"Reflect on yourself first, think through if this person deserves being scolded/hurt by you." So now I'm trying to control my temper, and try to talk nicely to my family members. '

It's been so long and I'm lost without you..
What am I gonna do..

Off to work.
Ciaoz.

Looking forward to tomorrow..It's an OFF DAY! =)

Nightmare-Genting

I believe my nightmare happened at Genting. I guess it's a holiday/tour thingy. Cus I dont see familiar faces with me on this trip. I witnessed the faulty tracks of the mini roller coaster, hearing a weird screeching sound and when the cart was doing the upside down turn, the whole cart which consists bout 6 people dropped down instantly like those you see in cartoon. It happened straight infront of me. And the next one happened on the viking. I guess it's either the viking went out of control or something that people started jumping out of the viking. 2 mens survived, they manage to swim away. Oh ya the viking was somewhat in the water. And a few others followed. It was fucking freaky. I hate this nightmare.

Crap.
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2 more days and counting. I'm going bersek.

Miss you like crazy.

3 more days to be exact. Im waiting patiently.
It would be disastarous if they call me later. Cus I'm still awake. Standby for the whole of 4 Aug.
Please don't hit the jackpot. NOOO =(

Time waits for no one

Last night, the ladies met up and headed down to Central Mall for Fang's Bday dinner. I forgot the name of the restaurant! lol. Azibo Shabo is it?, hahas. Anyways it's at level #1. The food was okay. The serving was just nice. I didn't know bout the bento set, but mine was adequate. Been spending my days/nights out all day. As long as I've got time to spare, I'll just head out. Till I feel so tired. Exhausted. Even cactus said I looked "qiao cui" = shagged. LOL. Oh no..not a very good sign. I need sleep already. Woke up late as per usual today. Damnit, I still couldn't find the gloves that I've lost. Crap. Is it that difficult to search for one?..hmm. Anyone have any idea where to get one?..It looks like this just that I want it to be in yellow colour.







I'll upload more pics when I've got the time, as for now, I'll lie down a while more. LOL.

Patiently waiting, 4 more days to go..

Tired.

I am contemplating. Tired. ROAR!!