曹格 - Super Woman

was out with the fellas for some singing session at Cineleisure after Cec's wedding.. been a while since I've heard this song..

It's been raining of late, the weather's too good for any outdoor activities. I was literally rolling in bed today..it was partly due to the bad cramps as well. With CNY round the corner, in another 2 days time I hope I don't have to bring brolly out for visiting.

Went shopping for CNY clothes with boyfriend over the weekends. Not much loots as of yet.
It was raining kinda heavily and thus the increase number of accidents these days. Witnessed one while we were on our way to town. It happened just right beside us, and it made my heart skipped a beat. It consist of 4 vehicles and the last in line was a Taxi. Geez~ the amount the taxi driver got to come out for the compensations of the other vehicles in front of him..
Wanted to try "Itacho" at Ion, but the queue was kinda long, and there were too many hungry monkeys thus we chose "Aoba" instead, Ron recommended it for the ramen. It's fun hearing how they debate among each other, coming out with ridiculous yet hilarious nonsense.. it made me think of my group of friends, the ones that use to hang out so often in the past. The peeps that went through good and bad times. I miss that phase. Hardly hear from them anymore. Except for Fen. I'm glad we're still in contact.

Growing up sucks sometimes. This is life. It can't always be my way.

Was over at Cecilia's wedding, the fellas were all there it was a little heart wrenching. Shan't elaborate further. There were still laughters and all going on, but it just felt different...

Either ways, I'm glad to have seen them again.

Cecilia looked good at the wedding. I guess every woman looks her best during her wedding. Xiao kel and his gf were the emcees for the night. They looked cute together. It's the first time seeing Kel in his more matured and sweet side of him. LOL!

It made me think of my own bf. And I felt like strangling him when I think of him.LOL!!!!

I'm stubborn, needs lots of attention, loves going out, anywhere and everywhere. Needs to feel important, difficult to understand and emotional. These ain't the characteristic of a Saggitarius if one were to ask me.

xoxo

good nights.

BOO

For once, after I've touched down I turned on my phone and made a call out to bibi while I was still in the aircraft, the need to just hear him say "hello.." hahas! don't ask me why. Maybe cus I didn't have any khaki with me last night, and I would say it was a long and pretty much draggy night. With the usual "not rights" happening. I so wanted to call him and just blabber everything.

I miss my da bao! (:

Bedtime for me soon.. toodles

xoxo

jojo

Silly

The silly one said I've got traditional flower legs..LOL!! it's the way he says it to me.. ridiculously funny..

amaze me (:

standstill

I spent my morning fixing my nails, like proper. To remove the paint and re-coat it with new ones. It's the mundane cycle. Town doesn't excite me that much anymore. I used to love heading town, just to walk in the streets and be surrounded by pretty things and people. Need a change of scenery, I want to go to places like ; that little ramen shop at cuppage, or maybe like that place at Yishun..can't remember what it's called, the one Fen said she'll bring me there some day. I just wanna retreat to a place whereby I can getaway from the hectic life. Some serenity. The consecutive 2 days in town was enough to bore me out. I wasn't in the mood to shop, to sing.. and for today? well it's a really lazy Wednesday. No programs, but work. Checked my mails and there's no reply as of yet. I miss summer breeze.. anyone tonight? hahas.

I know Thursday will be a better day cus the weekends nearing. (:


*Reignite (:

disguise

I should be on flight right now, but due to the call up for overnight on Sunday they took me off today's flight. Lucky or what? (: but that doesn't mean I can enjoy the weather and sleep in. I've to head down management house to settle my school stuff and there after meeting the ladies down town AGAIN. The reason why I said AGAIN; I was in town yesterday. Walked like mad and I've only manage to get myself 2 tops for CNY. I'm still feeling mad tired right now, and that I can feel the headache. I've only got this much time to do "so much". At least I'll be able to do a little bit more CNY shopping on Sat with the boyfriend (hopefully). hahas!

I've been feeling very cranky lately, so much so that I tear so easily. I guess I've finally let out my grievances, and true enough I'm feeling that much better having it out than keeping it in. At least it's out of the system, I've said my share of thoughts. It might not mean any huge amount of significance, but it meant something to me. And to not have any response didn't make things any better. I might look as if I don't mind, but once a while it'll get to me.

It'll make me think even more sometimes, stirring thoughts = "la sai". Who the hell loves to indulge in such thoughts, I'm not that sadistic. It's just some many actions, that makes me think a little bit more. Either ways, it might have been me all along.

I'm going back to my old ways. I don't like being Ms Nice. LOL I never was.

I love my bunny (:




*trying isn't gonna work if it's only a one way situation..

3 hours

I was up since 4 till now. Im still feeling wide awake. Gonna go catch some rest before I wake up for work later, in another 2 hours time?.
I've tried cutting down on the whining but it doesn't seem to be the case.

Gonna get some rest.

nights.

Crossroads

Standing at the crossroads not knowing which way to go.
I was lost from there on, and I chose a path to follow.
Now I'm stuck in it, not sure of where to go.
It's neither here nor there, and I'm hanging in the air.
Looking out into the sky tonight, it looks so gloomy, and the stars are out of sight.
Where's the light to guide me out of this tunnel?, to show me the way...
out of this struggle.

Up till now, I'm still thinking of what I wanna do after my 5 years. Time is wasted, and I'm still thinking of my future. Can someone please show me the light?. I don't wanna do "Fish or Chicken?" for the rest of my life. Some point in this career, I need to go. The conversations I had with my friends today, all gave me the same look, "I don't know what's next.." I'm left with only another 2 and half years. This is really freaking me out real bad. Who can I seek to help me out with these?. I need advises, and I need directions. geez`

The weather looks so threatening right now. Wasted my morning snoozing 5 mins away each time my alarm goes off. Left with another hour before I prepare for work. Standby on Sunday wasn't activated \m/, more like I cheated. =X

Need to head down HQ this week, before the course resumes.

And for the time being, Im mad broke. Like BROKE!!! I've to think twice before I head out. So besides work and the weekends, I consider the rest of the days HELL. Really, it's getting to me freaking bad. What have I been doing with my money man. Guess I'll start my little cashbook from..TODAY. Damnit, when I ask myself where has all the $$ gone?, I haven't been dining at expensive places, or party out..and the funny thing is, my $$ GONE!. Mad broke, drives all the negativity to it's best. Everyone's getting my ill treatments, my emotions getting all screwed up. 5 more days. Bear with it.

L.O.V.E

This 4 letter word means a whole lot to a person. It can make you or break you. It triggers your feelings, stirs up great mess. If you're in love, then everything works like miracle, even the slightest things will make you feel as though you're flying without wings. When love leaves you, your whole world crumbles, anything and everything brings you down, straight to hell.

Through these experiences, one either learns from it, or turns it into hatred. It's how one thinks of it, and their perspective. The leaving part, is one that always creates the most impact, so much greater than when love first started. Following the hurt process, will be stages of relentless cursing, cries and sometimes hatred.....

I'm feeling sleepy already..shall continue when I've got the time..

Sometimes revenge just doesn't work. It's just another stab to your heart.

nuff said..

jo

Rain check

Rain as much as you can, so that the weekends wouldn't be affected..

WAS planning to head down HQ, but look at the weather ): guess I'll just head down to TM in the evening. Can't wait for my XMN tomorrow, with ah lam!! hahaha, we had so much of grievances to whine about lol, goodness.

For the first half of this year:

-Clear all the rubbish on my table
-Dump the old clothes
-Clear the pile of letters
-START SAVING for NZ!!!!

As of the time being, these are the few goals that I've set for myself, I don't wish to disappoint myself once again for setting up too much stuffs to accomplish. It'll be more like spring cleaning for me before CNY. Apart from that, saving has always been a problem for me, since I spend most of what I earn. Which indeed got me into various problems.

And the things that I've to cut down on...

-STOP SHOPPING SO OFTEN (spend within my means)
-MCs

Though it isn't of great significance, it's a way for me to kick away the lazy bones.

I'm finally off today and I've catch up on the sleeping that I've lost for the past 2 days. Feeling pretty much refreshed (:

Met up with the ladies yesterday at Ehub with little Alvena, had dinner over at Magic wok and there after dessert at Gelare (:
Baby Alvena was so cheeky, smiling to every guy that walked past us..LOL goodness!!
We had so much fun catching up (: so much to talk about.

I'm still feeling a little tired.. nap time a while more..LOL