looking forward to Saturday

Hopefully I'll be mad tired by the time I get home from work and just crash away. I'm looking forward for my off on Saturday. Hmm, but what can I do on Saturday... hopefully Cheryl has some crazy plans hahas! that woman will be back today returning to Pek only on the 10th of Oct. I hope her transit in HK gets delayed so that she'll reach SG around the same time as me later hahas! then I'll have dinner khaki already.

Went over to Nic's place yesterday. Bb Zaden is a PIG!! hahaha, sleeping so soundly no matter what we did to him. LOL. Don't expect much during confinement, the mum is in a bad state lol!! she can't bathe, can't sit under the fan, can't wash hair, can't drink this can't eat that..wahh I tell you.. I feel her pain man. It's not easy..so scary..I salute you. Woman body really work wonders, though I have friends around who gave birth and all, maybe cus I've never really visited them during their 1st week of discharge from hospital and all, it's not as easy as what I've remembered. There's more to it that meets the eye. I asked mummy how she felt when she's sleeping with bb Zaden beside her at night, does she feel the connection? you know those kinda stuff only mother feels..LOL and she told me " very tiring, you can't sleep at all.." any small movement by the small one, she'll wake up. She's totally exhausted. Both her hubby and herself looks so worn out. So much for bb Zaden..like woahh..

I don't know how to explain this feeling but, it's the first time I feel so different bout the whole situation. Maybe cus we hangout alot, and now that she's heading towards a different path now, that feeling feels weird. Then she was talking about when we're 27 and Zaden is 4 years old..WAHHH!! I feel even more fearful of the future. Like a panic attack button activated in me..LOL.

I feel the gap with the people around me these days, when they go on about BTO and all, it's like they sound like my parents. LOL!!

I'm really lost for words, it kept me awake for quite a while last night..

give up

I wrote a pretty long entry and it got deleted! Dang~ now my train of thoughts all gone. zZz

I woke up on the wrong side of bed today for sure, else my body is screaming out to me because I feel so won out right now, my limbs are feeling so weak, I feel as though I've not rested enough. It's like I cant lift up my arm, it'll just hang loosely, no strength at all. I feel so "jelly-like" LOL.

My weekend was spent working and shitloads of fun (:
If it aint for Fen, I wouldn't had gone for F1. Thankew so much woman, it was an experience of a lifetime.LOL. Though we know shit about what's going on. hahaha. Yes, ignorant fools, but we had our fun. Cheering for all the wrong things..LOL!! (: As long as we're enjoying it, who cares?!. ;)

Been having mad cravings for Thai Express's red tom yum seafood soup. It's so freaking addictive. Though my lips swell like sausage, and my tongue burnt like mad. It's too good to give it a miss!.

Not forgetting the pregnant mum Ms Nicole (: who gave birth to little handsome boy Zaden on the 20th of Sept. =) Cute to the max I would say, will be popping by her place later can't wait !

There'll be more happening stuffs lined up in the coming DAYS =) hehehe. CANT WAIT I TELL U!!! SO EXCITED!!!! October yow!! ;)

so much for that

So much for acting tough. Act as though Im not bothered. I was holding on to my phone everywhere I went today, hoping that it'll ring, to the extend that I thought my phone was ringing when it didnt. Crap. I thought bi wasn't going to call until just now when he called, and said that he left me a voicemail last night when I was on flight. =)

STUPID ME! I know he feels very awkward talking to himself. LOL, I can feel like he seems uneasy leaving a voicemail..LOL so funny =)

*wo cheng ren wo..kou shi xin fei..!*
It does matters. Even for a min. =)

Hmm..

Im back. Long night I would say.

Was reading the mind over body section and came across one of the article that was talking about thyroid or something like that couldn't remember the article, it affects one mood, and it can cause depression. Like getting emotional over nothing. Sounds like what I'm going through. Forgot to take down the help hotline for it. Anyone has thursday's straits times to spare me?.

Good nights. It's time for my bedtime.

Havent been myself of late. I'll just isolate myself. I don't even feel like heading out. No amount of shopping will make me any better. Drowning myself with work and sleep. Stupid monthly crisis. I hate this pms period. It makes me get so emotional till the extend whereby I don't even feel like asking anyone out, not even my sis. I just wish to be alone.

I woke up early today, hoping that I'll be called up for flight. I even had my uniform ironed, just waiting for them to activate me. Can someone explain to me why am I feeling this way?.

Gonna go catch a nap..

Refreshed

Feel so much better after a long night. =)

Good nights world.

uncomfortable

Up till now, I still get the uneasy feeling.
Stupid me.

I tried texting, but the reply was cold. Hais.
Stupid me. STUPID.

Shock Labryinth

It really gave me a shock. Freaking hell, horror movie in 3D imagine that!. LOL. I was like jumping throughout the show, at least I didnt close my eyes but I covered my ears. The sound effect was horrible. Scare the shit out of me. And Jkss can still tell me the show was too boring and she fell asleep!!! whereas for YL she tried to scare me but failed..hahaha. And now they're more interested in the other horror movie, The Child's Eyes..OMGoodness........ my heart is getting weaker each time. LOL.

Went out to Bugis with Teressa on thursday, conquered Bugis st. Walked for a good whole 4 hrs! goodness!!! but it was time well spent, we managed to get quite a number of stuff, pocket one big hole again. CRAP and to think the horoscope said to "freeze my cards, keep it away from me" LOL!! crap. But it was really quite a number of stuff, and it's those topshop lookalikes for half the price. And it's solely Bugis St only! not even Illuma. Crazy shit.

I've had enough of the mooncake saga, no more snowskin for the time being. Had too much of it at the fair till I'm a little scared of it already.

Gotta go shower and sleep soon, needa rest my aching legs and shoulders. (:

xoxo

jo

Tired

Just woke up and Im feeling extremely grouchy.

I did have a good laugh today, so much so that I actually teared when I was laughing. Imagine how hard I laugh. That's really 1X good one.

There's no food at home, and I really feel like having ba chor mee.. hmmm, 85 market?..who's free now..UGH.

--- =)

My cravings have been met! just got back from 85 with my sis, had satay, ba chor mee and ah balling (:
Satisfied. =0)

Wednesday BLUES..

So much walking yesterday, my knees doesn't feel like they belong to me anymore. Aching like crap. I was laughing at the slightest nonsense yesterday, must be due to the tiredness that's kicking in. FML I'll be back at 2ish today. I need a full body massage BADLY. My shoulders are aching, you know those kind of feeling when you're totally exhausted and your back seems as though you're carrying like what, 5 tons of oil or something like you got to constantly stretch your back every few minutes, so much fidgeting and all. Thursday come quick. I've still got many things not done yet. Assignment is one of them.

FMLTTM. Can I just whine for today, I seriously feel like crying.. I wanna sleep!!!! :'(

Give me a random nonsense to laugh about today, please please please..just give me a 1X good laugh, and my day will swift pass faster..please please please..

Screwed body clock. =(

Im turning green very soon..

BLUEHh..

Monday blues..NOT

I've finally watched "Step Up 3" man it's good. So good. I like it alot. Those groovy dance steps, makes me so excited throughout the show. LOL!! where the hell my dance kahkis went..zZz Can we hit the club some time soon? go groove it out a little, miss dancing the night away..hahaha.

Love this part when Luke brought Nat up to the air vents area.. =) the storyline is simple, about people living their passion. Doing things that makes them feel alive. The dance moves are awesome (:

Apparently I watched it alone cus ps left me midway! she was feeling giddy after watching the movie as we're seated like 2nd row from the screen so she was seated at a very awkward position. She went shopping while I was left alone to watch the movie.

After which, we shopped a little at Vivo before we left for town. Strange things been happening lately, and today, a guy walked up to me and asked if we could be friends, my gawd it gave me a shock, we quickly walked away. I'm scared of such people..the last encounter of such weird people was at Simei's popular bookstore, the fella freaking stalked me..scary shit.

Ps and myself walked so much today, and I'm proud to say, I've spent only $20 today!! (: great achievement! hahas.. I guess all the walking is giving me knees the hard knocks again, it's kinda aching even now...man.. and my feet have been cramping on and off.. double crap!.

We've also checked out *Scape, nothing much though, there's a dance studio on the last floor (: looks damn cool with people waiting for classes and those that's practising their dance moves. So tempting....

got to rest now..

xoxo

Nights! jojo.

up and about

I'm too wide awake now to fall back asleep, especially when my phone is not beside me. Woke up to pee and realise that my phone died on me. So now it's charging and I just so happen to on the computer and now.. got myself stuck to the computer.

It's finally my off day today, what a long day yesterday. But all's good. =) At least it's over. Slept so early last night about 9 plus? ya, that explains why Im up like now.. hmm what should I do tomorrow..as in before I go for classes in the evening.

Ooo! there's so many stars tonight =) hehe, clear skies.. September, can you please get by soon. Ohh Im going for mooncake testing tomorrow..wahah. =) can't help it..
GAWD I feel so hungry right now! crap.. better head back to try and sleep..

My friend gave me a new name, Geok Sian..LOL!! damnit.
xoxo

ciaoz`

Thankful

Im thankful for whatever that has been happening around me lately. That I was able to brave it through with positivity. It feels so good when you know it was all worth it. Every small little thing that happens, means alot to me. =)

Thank you so much, you, you,you and yOu and YOU and you and so many of you!!
Especially my baby, my ku partner, ms Koh, the nqmm's, mantianal..my mates at work, and those who stood by me all these while.

Im lovin' it!

I enjoyed myself so much at Settlers, laughing my ass off, playing the game of "taboo" pictures will be up soon..

Stay tune =)

xoxo

Jo

wide awake

Slept too early, and now I cant get back to sleep. It's the first time we were on the phone for so long (:

Looking back, these past few months, the little things that we did sums up to quite an amount of stuffs, it's been a long time since I've sat down to literally do stuff for someone. It relieves those secondary school days, when I had so much passion for doing small little things that were never appreciated which made me stop .
This away trip made me learn quite a bit. I learned to manage stress, loneliness, time..Okay maybe my time management still needs some adjustments, at least I learn how to write things down before I proceed, or at least jot things down, so as to prevent myself from forgetting. It might seem like those basic/simple stuffs. But it's not that easy for me, because Im someone that lacks self-discipline. Comparing work to play, Im a person that will choose play any time any day. So yea, I'm trying to cut down on my unnecessary sick leaves..LOL.. and quit being lazy
Now I'm left with my studies, it's something which I lack motivation and enthusiasm for. It's a love hate situation. pfft`

Guess I'll go take a long warm bath..hopefully it'll make me feel sleepy..

Feelings warm the heart and soul..

good nights..

Tomorrow

One more day, and Im off! can't wait for it. =) so many things in my head I wanna do. And I want to meet the pregnant mum soon!! Shall meet up with her on Friday, hopefully she's free. 9 more days to Zaden's estimation of delivery date. Imagine the anxiety level. Goodness!!

I've finally received the postcard that baby sent. I was jumping around high and low when mum passed it to me. She was like saying.."finally right.." hahaha. =)

It's worth it, I thought to myself..

Alright back to preparation, need to reach airport by 6:10 am today's gonna be a lovely day (:

smile (^_^.)

xoxo
Jojo

drained

I couldn't wake up for class once again. Only woke up like 8 plus as I was feeling hungry. zZz

Feeling a little out of place, because another fellow member is leaving. Take care girl, you'll be missed. I never like such feelings, when someone has to go. We gave her a surprise, got her a card, and capt even got a perfume for her. We took lots of pictures, she broke into tears when she was reading the card, my tears rolled when I saw her crying.

Departures are always sad, nevertheless, it's for the better good. Wishing you all the best in your future endeavour. . =)

Always online

Though it's just a click away. Many times I wanted to. ...

It's finally the last day of the 7th month. It has came and left once again. It's nearing the mid of September, whereby assignments are due, lantern festival (mooncake) hahas and hmm what else, too many to list. It's gonna be a busy month. =) Which means October will be nearing me in no time. =) The ordeal will be over soon =)

Mum brought back a tub of pineapple tarts few days back, I told myself not to touch any of it, but today I failed. It's too freaking tempting, and it's like within range, hahaha. It wasn't kept away. HOW THOUGHTFUL of her..when I told her I've got a diet to watch.

MPO individual down, 3 more assignments to go. BUSY BUSY month..

I have so many things on my mind that I wish to get my hands on. But then again, I've got to sort them out, under the list of "needs" and "wants".. I guess at the end of the day, there'll be nothing that I actually "NEEDS".

Finally I've finished up some stuff that has been dragged for weeks. (: slow and steady.

Sleepy spells kicking in..

Time for bed..

Toodles!

much much love..

jo.

MUKE MAINTAIN!

Bi came up with this "muke maintain" thingy, after I told him I've been eating so much..LOL!!

Though he's not with me here and now, he's nonsense and his jokes just cracks me up wherever and whenever I think of it. Thank you baby =) you gave so much laughters to my bored out life..hahaha.

Headed to the jam packed Comex with my peking love, Cheryl Lee Pei Pei hahas, still as crappy as ever with her nonsense that never fails to make me wanna zap her. LOL. We had to queue like say half an hour to make payment but it was all worth while. =) Then headed to Thai Express, my die hard love of recent. I love the mango salad and the red tom yum seafood soup with my watermelon and lime freeze. IT'S THE BOMB!!! THE OMG FACTOR!! hehe. Gossip queens, and thereafter to her place at Park Royal hotel where we went camera crazy. Hahaha. She bought a selphy photo printer which I've been eyeing for the longest period of time. DAMNIT CHER!! she'd killed me if she were to read this entry..hahaha.

Then baby called me, it's like FINALLY!! NO MORE DISTORTION!! just good reception =) I can finally raise my voice and speak like a bullet train =) so much love so faraway. My crazy Mr Tan =)

After which it was the 10:30pm XLB madness, I'm telling you, there was so much food that I'm abstaining from PORK maybe till baby is back. I didn't dare count the number of xLb I've had, but I threw up eventually, due to too much stuffing, and laughters..everything came out..hahas.

We laughed so hard till my tummy gave up.

Lesson learnt,

no more madness over XLB anymore!

PUKE!

ass-signments

HELP!!!!!! I'm only half-way through my assignments. Been too distracted with EVERYTHING. Be it food, tv, music,toilet,food, and MORE FOOD. hahahaha. UGH!!!! HEN FAN ARRR!!!!!!

Side track..
Where can I get my hands on a horoscope gadget .. hmm =)
counting down makes me so excited. The days are getting so much nearer each day. =) Can the time zoom faster this time round?. I'll be more than glad to COMPLY!.

Been having insomnia lately, besides that 15hours of sleep I had the other day, the rest of the time I'm tossing and turning SO SO MUCH! thinking of so many things. What I want to eat when bi's back, where to bring me, the big BEAR HUG!, hahas, soft and comfortable comforter..pillows!! and so much more..I'm gonna make him my butler when he comes back. muahaha. Can the days get FASTER PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!! can't wait.

I've never longed for someone so so long before. 4 freaking gawd damn months. So much sufferings, longings, missings, laughters, cryings..MY GAWD CRYINGS. hahaha, I still remember that fateful night, when I hugged him and cried so bad. But it's okay, after so much that has happened, I have no other thoughts but to see him real in front of me. I'll see you soon..

Many chances slipped from me from time to time, it's either "chi yi bu" or feelings were never said. I hope I do learnt from these lessons, and that I should learn to grasp them from now on.
Lighting doesn't hit the same place twice.

Living life in my own colourful ways.. I have so much random thoughts in my head. Thinking of it makes me smile so foolishly to myself. It's a beautiful Saturday (:

Smile..

xoxo

Jo.

SLeeping in

It's been such a long time since I had such a long SLEEP. I went to bed at say 11-ish last night and woke up only like now?!. LOL. Okay I did woke up a while at 7plus this morning to answer baby's call. He loves to disturb me when Im sleeping, said things like "cook maggie for me ehh.." then I was like " okayy.." HAHAHAHA.. when Im sleeping and you wake me up, I'll just simply comply to your request. LOL!! just so that I can get back to sleep. I miss his nonsense, it's been a while now since I've met a talk cock competitor that can out win me. Apparently he's the only one who can do that. I wonder why.. hmm is it cus I give in to you?.. LOL!!

Will be meeting my primary school mates for dinner at Nandos tonight. wahaha, better finish up my assignments first before I head out for some fun. I've decided not to change my article and complete it, cus time is running out and I can't seem to relate to the other articles. If only Collin Tan is here right now, at least I can throw my assignment to him..HAHAHAHA.

Speaking of him, while I was on the train home yesterday, I was staring into space thinking about him, then I smiled to myself, only to realise after a while that the fella sitting opposite me was smiling back to me! gosh! imagine how embarrassing that was..zZz but ouh well, Im use to such gestures..

Can't wait for his return..it's driving me up the lorry! lol..

back to my assignment..

xoxo

jo.

After a while..I realise I just grew out of it..

It's one of those reflection nights that I sit here in front of the monitor and stare into space once again. Take a little walk back into memory lane. The craziest and funniest things I've encountered in my life, how I accept things and reciprocate to it. The unending bumps that occurs once a while, the crazy people that came into my life. How people around me, changed my perceptions of everything that's happening in my life.

How wilful I was back then, to a relatively more ladylike individual now. I hope. hahas..

Another of my friend would be leaving for Shanghai soon to work there, in a way I'm envious of their courage, to take up such offers, away from your close ones, away from your comfort zone. To be out there to fend for yourself, to learn independence. Can I do that too?..hahas..

I do wish to go for bag packing some day. Hopefully before I hit 30s. At least to be able to see what's it's really like out there, I've heard so much about other countries, like say Cambodia, Vietnam..etc. to have a taste of what it's like to live a life out of Singapore. A life exchanging experience I would say..

good nights..
xoxo

Jo.

power ge de gahhh'

Been a long time since Im so dead tired. I'm going to crash any moment.

I need a massage badly.. superb.