Im 20.

Finally Im 20.
I'll remember the 19th's.

Spinning out of hand, I lost myself.

" I don't deserve it,.."

It felt like the past, when you called and yelled at me..
Ever felt like you're here but you're not really there?..
Im not making sense alr..

I just kept dragging.

You're like a tattoo..

This came real bad on me. I wonder if anyone bothers anymmore.
I seriously didnt realise what has become of me..
And I didnt even realise everyone was leaving.

Left alone, no one to turn to.
I dare not even call up anyone.
I realise I dont have anyone to fall back on too.
Dont despair..Im equally pathetic.

Yea fucking do something about it, better than fuck here fuck there.

This coming from someone who was "my best pal.."
Thanks alot.
I guess if you didnt chided me. I'm still being as,.. I cant find that suitable word to describe,
basically..
I've let people around that used to cared down..
and now..they're slowly drifting away from me..


why do i feel the ache so much?..
Maybe it's best that everyone leaves me.


Can i jus end this life....
I hate myself.

Sometimes I envy others that have really great pals around, remembering you.
Celebrations..etc etc.
Fun filled memories, long table filled with people, friends.
Filled with laughters and joys.

I dont remember any of mine like that.
Hahas. How awkward this feels, now I know why I dont want it to happen at all.
And Im not saying I dont have great pals around okay..hahas. =)
Im just feeling very "Emo-tic" this morning.

And I seriously cant recall...arrgh. My memories are failing me.


Im so not looking forward to it.

Tired.

Tired. Extremely tired.
Lethargic.
5 pills.

goodnight.

When you've got no faith, no confidence, no nothing, what will you tell yourself?..
It happened before, and I told myself, everythings gonna be okay, it's gonna be alright, yet, things still happened. Im holding back this time round, no longer having the courage to take another step forward.
It was nice sitting down talking bout the good old times, yet at the same time extremely depressing, sitting side by side with the once called "Love/Dear"..
Yes, memory lane, extreme killer.

I've cried myself to sleep once again.

"Now we've lost it all, nothing last forever..
I'm sorry, I can't be ..."

I've choosen not to say so much..
It's not within our control..
That piercing pain. I've not really gotten over it.

goodbye.

Holidays

Holidays are like just a day away , consider the fact that it's already 2.31am Friday.
In about another 4 hours time i should wake up and prepare for school..

Im seriously very lazy, but Im gonna try and push myself. I guess I've chose not to go for the photoshoot later on..
So i guess my plans for Friday would be to go to school and thereafter head home to nap a while before meeting Xinyi for gym, which I hope I'm DETERMINED. lol. Man, I needa lose weight.
I've gained another 2Kg just like that..BOOm..

shall continue later..
nites.

-----Edited----

Okay, so I've just WOKE UP. Fucking hell. =( I manage to give my friend a MORNING CALL at 6.30am, yet I SLEPT back. Damn fucked up. =(

Called the people regarding the photoshoot, hais. See, lack of determination, everything gone.

Hahas, I knoew what to wish for Christmas this year; to lose alot of weight. hahas. Damn.

Alright, alot of pictures to upload, shall start with yesterday, then followed by Mr Ryan's 21st Birthday. Lazy to bore you guys out, enjoy the pictures..

[ The Outing with the ladies yesterday ]

( The top I intend to get.. =) on Sat. )

Pictures from Ryan's Chalet...

[Jo & Andeline]

[ Andeline & Suzhen using my phone to camwhore!!! and even set as wallpaper!!]

[ Me and Bird Day Boy.. ]

[ Getting the BBQ started..]

[ I've forgotten what Ryan was talkin bout..hahas..]

[ I just look like some dumb fuck..hahas.]

[ I didnt realise Ed was tryin to steal the limelight. ]

[ I LOVE Sweetpotatoes.]

[ Makan Time! =) ]

[ Handsome Ed's " feng huang dian qui xiang" ]

[ Me and Jieying ]

The Attack..waaha.

Slow yet torturing

Okay, knowing that at the end of the month you will get at least a pretty sum of money, gets you going each day.
But as days goes by, the health is deteriorating.
I've lost appeal in food. Been a long time since I sat down had a nice dinner, and a good laugh.
It sounds so bloody pathetic as Im typing this out, man I need some entertaining shit man.
I'm losing myself, I've worked hard, yet I dont feel the accomplishments.
So difficult to comprehend aye?..

I wonder where it's heading

Some say move on some say you're not ready to move on.
Im sticking to my own grounds, I cant help it at times.
I'm still stuck. I definately let a few people down. Some say, this is something only I can help myself with, some thinks it's a very small matter.

If all these "some says" made sense, am I too stubborn to understand that?.
I know Im trying to prove something here, but.
I dunno how to put it. Damnit.
This definately gonna affect people around me, be it one way or the other.
Im shutting myself up these days.
Shutting those thoughts, having sleepless nights, great.

Things Im suppose to use my brains- Accounts, studies, refuse to be in use.
Instead issues like the matter of the heart, the mind, me-myself, people around me.
I cant..just cant..
Okay maybe I can if I stop telling myself I cant..
But seriously Im contradicting what I belief and what Im thinking.

----Just now..
Was watching Heroes, now Im watching it again on StarWorld. Hahas, now Im stuck to this show which is not doing me any good, it's past bedtime, hahas! like I really sleep that early.
Now Im like a psycho talking to myself..damnit.
" Kiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll You! " hahas, Achmed something if Im not wrong, hahas.
Oh yea, "Brothers & Sisters " seems like a nice show to watch too, but my mum is kinda irritating while watching that show with me just now, she just cant stop commenting on how FAKE people could get, come to think of it..at times you seriously cant help it, dont you?..

Phew..this seems like a long entry or it isnt?..
There's just too many things on my mind man..

Like what I told peishi..
I've isloated myself. Hahas.

Transit

This is what actually happens when you insist on watching " Transit ".
It ended around 3 plus am. Thus, I overslept and missed out the first 2 hours lecture, just completed photocopying my stupid resume thingy for CDP.
Im dreading school alot.

My stupid printer is giving me tons of problems, my friend tried to help me the other time through MSN, it was seriously cool, watching others controlling your mouse and everytthing, which I'm not suppose to mention a word bout it..hahas. Anyway, the printer wasnt fixed. It can only scan/photocopy.

I feel so lazy now to even move my butt out of this chair. =(
Alright should head to school now, CDP at 12pm.

Ciaoz.

Been very tired, must be the hangover.
I literally dozed off the minute I sat down on the sofa.

This week seems to get by real fast.
36 months..
But humanly impossible. 23 Nov 2010.

Waiting.

36 months..

What will you do?.. 36months..
Let fate decide. Time will tell..

Fuuny how things have changed, now I'm slowly sliding back..
I hope I did the right thing, funny how my thinkings contradicts me.
Everytime I wanna hold you back, apart of me takes 2 steps back.

Someone please slap me awake.

I kept asking myself.. "why?.."

Hasnt been having adequate rest since dunno when, this week seems to be dragging.

It happened again, while I was at Suntec..
Entwinded memoirs.. tears streamed down..

That 6 page long message, I just felt like calling back..but I slipped my phone back.
Cus, I always remembered, in the past whenever I tried to call back/ replied, I'll get the same scolding.."Dont you understand English?!" hahas..
Funny..how things changed..

Im feeling so giddy now, not sure if I can pull through for work later..
2 days absent from school..alot to catch up.
Busy working next week, I need rest, plenty of rest.

I simply cant stop thinking for these few nights..
What have I done?..

I walk alone.

Burnout

My mood isnt that fantastic today, with people asking me for "...." early in the morning aint making my day any better.
I will remember to pay, my pay is coming in only on the 15th please bear with it. =( Damn.
At the rate im going, I guess I'll really burnout on Sunday, one more day to go. Perservere.

Today will be like "full shift" Clinique in the morning and rush down to Expo in the evening.
I feel so fucked up. I hate being threatened.
So I woke up feeling grouchy. FUCK THIS MAN. =(

AAAARGH.! Bear with it, I cant help but whine, fucked up shit, damnit.
Stress and nothing seems to go the right way, aaaaaaaargh.
Crap, just downright fucked up. It's all HER fucking doings man. argh, FUCKED UP SHIT.ARGHHHH..why she just cant let me take off!! ARGH! =(

Super Import Night

At first it was nervous, stressed out, standing very still like a block.
Waited and waited, my partner was late. I was left all alone to "stand around".
It was an eye opener, there were loads of pretty girls and awesome rides.

Stress level up!..

Falling down in circles.

Work all the way till Sunday. Hope it tires me out.
Even if it couldnt be helped.

Missing out..

Been missing out on the good old days when I just sat infront of the com and gossiping, catching up and more gossiping with Ms Goh on Msn!! and a few others like Ms Heng that will irritate the shit out of me with her-"do you miss me?, do you love me?.." all her nonsense shit. Hahahs, damn, I'm outdated alr..
And I know I'll get bombarded back if I said " People let's meet up!!!" cus I'm always saying that and yet I'm always not free..how ironic is that.

And I still owe Ms Goh- Ikea, Hard Rock..etc Omg.
This month is an extremely BUSY month.With more work assignments, and school assignments pilling up, I'm dreading school once again. Damnit.

It's weird how sometimes, minor stuff can be triggered especially among friends. And the victim is innocent. AAAArghhhh, this is seriously CHILDISH.

Shopping!!

Extremely tired. EXHAUSTED!!. Finally I'm home, phew. For the first time I dread shopping, maybe I'm shopping for stuffs I dont really wanna get, if it's not for the job. Hais..

I've bought:
-Boots ( black ) $80
-Eye Liner $8
-Fake eye lash $4
-Eye lash glue $8
-Ball bearing- tongue. $5

All thanks to mummy, LOL. But!..I've got to pay her back when my pay comes in. =((
Finally found the boots at Far East, sign of relief, woot. =)
I had alot of stuff to blog about before I sign in, now it's all gone. DAMN!!.
Resting time!!!


[ Look at this Lambo.. ]


[ Just felt a lil koo koo... ]

[ ROUND FACE... ]

Pressure.

Went for extreme exercise just now. hahas.
Thanks for the "company" Xinyi.hahas.
2 rounds around the big field, followed by the back route to Poi Ching Primary and down to the stadium-6 rounds. Freaking 2.4km HAHAS. I realise my endurance level dropped alot. Man..

So the matter has been resolved, Sharon has allowed me to work morning shift on Sat, 10-5pm.
I didnt like the way she threatened me. No, nope. But it's not her fault to use this on me, since I used to "runaway" when I was suppose to work.
But when she told me to return my uniform in one of the msgs, I felt very down. Way down. Not sure why, maybe it's due to the pms. Ha.. It actually affected me. Im always disappointing others. Why am I feeling extremely down now?..ha. But the matter has been resolved.. okay..im tired alr..
Most likely I'll be heading out later..

Sorry Paul didnt reply your msg.

School.

-School-

Alright so school was kinda slack. I woke up real late this morning, I woke up around 7am. We-Aud,Van,F Word and myself gave Audit a miss and headed to level 3 cafetaria for breakfast. F Word was trying his "black magic" on us once again, this time round I've got his trick and it made me feel kinda dumb. LOL.It's actually very simple. =x
After breakfast, we headed for the next lesson- Accounting.
HAHAHA, I was having hell of a time taking pictures of everyone, laughing at every single nonsense.
So this is what happens to me on every Friday. I go berserk doing extremely nonsense stuffs..hahas!
Here goes.....

[ The joker of the day, F Word Our Man-Nigger. LOL ]
[ Got home in the pouring rain... ]
[ When lesson was stressing the hell out of us.... lol!!! ]
[ I cant help but to NAP a while.. ]
[ Cash Flow statements..AHHHHHHHH ]

[ When extremely tall people are asked to write on the board......]
[ This is what happens..YOU HEAD BANG, HAHAHA! ]

[ And this is one smart fella..LOL tryin to write as high up as possible.. ]

=)

Okay time to change a new template, I kinda like this one alot.. =)

Some Random Pictures..

[ Aint this lil one so ADORABLE!!! Omg omgomg!!!! ]

[ Audrey and F Word- Nonsense Hot-Key! ] lol..
[ We're just posing..lol ]

[ The men in action.. ]

These Days..

Got to head back to my Audits..having some test tomorrow, pardon me man, I seriously dislike the Audit lecturer. Maybe I'm just not flexible enough, but I get pist off easily, especially during her case-study. Her information is so vague, she doesnt do a proper introduction on Auditing, just goes ahead with it. Hmmm, how?..Damn, just try my best to digest her "informations" .

Mr Siew is back! hahas, met him after school and headed for lunch, received my goodies! which I'm not gonna disclose, it's P&C! hahas..Oh! we caught "Superbad" too, hahas! but..it was a lil disappointing. I was expecting it to be a lil more hilarious. Oh well..

Ended class real early today, and we headed to C1 for lunch per usual. Had loads of stuff to eat today..Banana prata with choc sauce, Chicken Mutabuk and Karrage Chicken- whatever it is spelt..hahas.

Sorry for the indecisiveness Ms Chua.. x) saw your upset face..-SCARE-ED!!- We still love you!!

The weekends are nearing once again!! woots! =)

Damn, I'm working this Sunday! Booooooooo..so farrrrrrrrr awayyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

At least I've got Van as company. =) *Phewwww*

- Omg..I cant make up my mind, one cant have the best of both worlds..and it's freaking stressing me out.-

Changes..

Help!..Im having sleeping disorders. Damn.

Was having a "mass communication" with the usuals..hahas. Not bad not bad, no doubt you dont know what we're talking about but you could blend in with us, as though you know who and what we're talking about. Amazed. LOL.
So everyone was talking bout their own random shit.

It's pouring outside, the cold air blowing against my cheeks that icy feeling..wooooooo COLD.Bbrrrr..
Im currently wearing my oversize jacket and Im still shivering, my nose feels icy cold..fyi I dont have aircon at home cept for the master bedroom, which I will never have access to in the day cus my mum tends to lock the door when she heads out to work.

In a few hours time, the NSF isit? lol..I dont even noe their positions..the TANKEES..are coming back..
Mr BS and Mr Siew. LOL.
Definately loads of stories from them..which also means NOVEMBER is nearing..headache, headahce, headahce.

Time for bed..
Nites. :)

Missed.

So i gave Cafe Del Mar a miss. Had the red alert.
Hais, miss a good opportunity for good food once again.

Some random pictures I took lately..

[ The contrasting colours. F word and Ed ]
[ The 1st Day Liying Drove =) ]
[ I was extremely bored at work ]
[ Nearing closing ]
[ What we sancked.. =x ]
[ View from the 6th storey ]

Been blog hopping, and I envy people born in a well-to-do family.
She is young, doing private in SIM and her baby girl is just so cute..
It's like a dream come true, to have a family-loving husband and cute lil rascal.

Just had a dream that I was pregnant, LOL. I was so happy in the dream, but it seems like I was a single mum cus I dont remember a husband by my side in it. Hahas. But, I seem to have a miscarriage. The pain was excruciating and I woke up feeling sad and hurt. The hurt was from the cramps, lol.
I must be thinking too much of kids, OMG. Hahas, so I guess child care centre would be one of my part time job after I grad from ITE.

Received an unexpected call today, it was auntie. She invited me to join her for a trip to China during CNY next year, I was kinda shock. But I declined, cus I'll be very busy next year around that month, preparations for final exams.

It feels so awkward, and I dont know how to react to it..

HIM

It hit me bad. Man I thought tears wont roll.

"This yr was the worst birthday I ever had, I hated it so much that I dont remember it..."

You killed me mister.
Im so sorry it actually happened.

YOU fucking killed me.

Just when you feel so emo-fied. H.I.M's songs just felt so ever in place so ever in the right time.
"Play Dead" is currently on the repeat track.
Simply those few words. It pierced straight into my heart.
I thought I grew numb of it.
It didnt took me long to cry.
I nearly forgotten the feeling of having tears rolling down my cheeks.
Now that im reminded.

My Bitter Sweet.
Like what you said, whats done is done. whats over is over.

Pins and needles, intense hurt.

Im home.

Ellos, just came back from school. Was extremely lethargic in school today, not my usual self. Hahas.

Realise I didnt blog bout the accident that I encountered last Friday.
HAhas, now Im kinda phobia of Toyota Crowns. MY FIRST encouter, kissing the ass of that toyota's bumper. HAHAS. Luckily we didnt had to compansate anything, but I felt real guilty cus there was a dent by the sides of Han's Caddy. Guilty guilty.

Im very tired, shall continue bloggin later..
nites..

Last Night at Cosy Bay

Time passes kinda slow yesterday, and the sales wasnt that great. Everyone was waiting impatiently for closing. When the music for closing started, everyone was seen packing up real fast..HAHAS! =)

Rushed to change and prepare for the nights' programme. =)
Sher and Jason came to pick me up, Mr Boon borrowed a RED Toyota IST!! for ying to drive, SO SWEET!!. After picking me up, we went to fetch the birthday girl, Ying took over and we head down to "XIng Hai Shan" at Katong. There was a BIG GROUP of people there, even Nico was there. H Ahas. Man, I sat at the wrong table and felt so awkward, after which it was time to go COSY BAY!

Sher and I drove the IST fer a few rounds, hahas. I suck at driving man!
More practice needed, LOL.

Gotta prepare for work le..
Byeee


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING!! =)

In School

Since it's printing session for today's AccPacc, I've decided to blog =)

Everyone's playing this game to winh a laptop, lol. I cant really bother bout that man. Im too tired, =x

Yesterday was fun! lol. It's such an isolated place, but I made full use of my presence there. Hahas!
After which was Seletar Dam and dim sum. The highest peak was the last part, when I was controlling the steering wheels on the highway!!!!

Man, lesson starting..ARgh.
gtg.

Jojo signing out`

=)

Im finally joggin =)

Met up with Sher at 8pm to jog. Woot! and we did alright! around her area for 2 rounds, a good start I guess? the distance was just nice. lol. We're gonna increase our rounds as time goes by. It's only the first jogging session, more to come, more to come. =))
So after the jogging, I sprinted home, stretched and did some extras- 30 cruches, 10 push-ups, 1 min leg raise.
And I just had Koko Krunch in the middle of the night, half effort gone. LOL. And some people is trying to tempt me with SATAY AND HUM!! lol. No..resist TEMPTATIONS.
Was browsing through my folder and found pictures of me and random people partying. OOOOOOOOOO, that feeling is kicking in once again. Hahas, gotta resist man.
Maybe once in a while, needa relax and have some fun!..lol. Man, I miss dancing, lol.
Audrey, Zara! Cheryl! people!! it's time to PARRTTTEEEEHHHHHHH lol, next month. Next month, teehee.. =x

Dont ask me why, but the urge just suddenly came to me. Must be the pictures..lol.

HELLO! =)

Been a good girl lately, returning home straight after school. =)
And it's like a routine now for me to have my precious NAP which will last more than 4 hours. LOL.
Let's say I take a nap at 4 I'll most likely wake up at 10pm. LOL! Yet, I can still continue with my sleep at 1.30am

Alright so I feel a little less stressed up with school work, since I've completed my part for AA2 and Audit. =)
The weather looks fine now =) after so many days of pouring rain. It's finally the warm sunshine =))
Been in some sort of confusion lately, but I seem to figure out some stuff already, but.. Im not very sure bout it as of YET. So yea, not yet.

Fell in love with this new song-"Soulmate" by Natasha Beddingfield, and I kinda like the part
" who doesnt long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told.."

Oh! Im not working tomorrow, so I guess I'll be sleeping in for tomorrow too =))

alrite gtg..

Freaking hungry right now, yet there's nothing at home for me to eat, should i make that milo? wahaha.
My tummy dont feel right, must be the combo I had today.
Chili Kuay tiao mixed with a lil of thousand island chicken, guava juice and coit tower.
Woot. Plus last night's-Milo Dinosaur.
This combination has left my tummy feeling upside down.

Gonna go lie down now..
Nites.

It came back

Didnt meant for that to happen, it has happened before and now it happens again.
My bad. Guess, that's why I always pist people off.
My stubborness.
It killed me again.

Cold

Guess I've been hanging out too much, Im gonna quit fer a while.
UGH. Hate this kinda feeling, I just prefer to manage on my own.

ANNOYED

It gets annoyin at times when I wanna use the com and so does my sis.
But most of the time I get to use it.
At times like this, I CANT wait to earn that money to get a bloody lappy or com of my own.
Seriously, those stupid faces that lil one is showing me these days is getting on my nerves.
I dont bug her when she uses, but there's a limit to it doesnt it? since it's a SHARED com.
When she's using the com early in the mornin till late noon, I DIDNT DISTURBED.
So yea, when I wanna use, why you show me that face.

She's getting out of hand. Im in no position to say that, since she's the youngest, priority all to hers.
Okay, maybe at times, I just wanna use the com and expects her to stop playin her game.
Maybe I should give her more allowance on gaming.
AAARRGH.
Stupid shit. yes, she's young and everything. And Im suppose to be the old and understanding.
I'll get my own com.
Yes, my next target-A COM/LAPPY


-Childish anger of mine.

SCAM!!

School started! =)
First day of school, finally get to see the ladies!, yet that Zara didnt came to school again. GENDENG!!

First day of school and lecture started..

No doubt this sem only has 2 modules, man, it's freaking stressful. The last lap.

Auditing and Advance Accounting.


After school went back home to prepare for work.

Met up with Sh at Pasir Ris and headed to 400plus to have our dinner first. Saw Tm's mum and sis on the bus 358.

Shihui just kept reminding me, THE WORLD STILL REVOLVES WITHOUT YOU.

And bout the work..argh! It's like a scam sian. But not very difficult too, just that I dont really like door-to-door thingy. But nvm, gonna try again this Wed, cus it's kinda easy to close a deal..

Today's my off day! off from work and school =)

Im gonna rest =)

Lost track of Time

Been sleeping late and waking up even later than usual these days. If I'm not working, most likely you'll be able to find me home sleeping all the way till bout 2 plus before I actually woke up..
Today's the latest cus I slept at 1plus last nite?..LOL

I slept well, till I feel that my face is a lil swelled up alr..lol.
Today will be the last day I enjoy..
Tomorrow till next week, would be a tormenting one.
But to earn that extra income, I'm gonna go for it..
Tomorrow and Sunday will be working at Clinique, but tomorrow would be at Parkway. SIAN los!!
Sunday at Tamp Clinique, noon shift also.. =(

Mon-Fri BUKIT PANJIANG!!!! crazy, but the pay is attractive, 6-9.30pm

I hope I survive.

It's bringin back..

That song..Im sinking into it..
It's as though relating..



Crying.

Butterflies

It's been a long LONG time, since I felt this kinda feeling.
And it's giving me that very uneasy feeling.
It states " Leave everything you're bothering about behind for today.."
I better find more stuff to do at work today..

The Gaaylord Party

As per usual we were all late even though we were told to meet 12.15pm at Bedok Inter..hahas.
I took my time on the computer, and only left to prepare bout 11.30am. HAHAS.
Didnt know what to wear, so I just randomly picked a top and a shorts and off I left my place at 12.13pm HAHA!!

Saw Senget and his friends at the bus-stop, hahas. All were late! lol. And to think I was kinda late, I rushed a cab down..and the next thing I know, Senget called to say that he saw Kiku on the bus with Kel! lol. Damn.
I wasted my $5.10!! hahaa. After meeting up with Lily, Kiku and Kel at inter, we went to get the drinks and stuff Fang instructed..hahas. We thought time was running out, so we rushed a cab down to "Butterworth 8".
Upon reaching, I saw this big group of people outside the gate, must be Senget's group. LOL, true enough, it was. hahas.

Mr Dennis's surprise party was held in the function room, very nice I must say, cus it's sort of like surrounded by the pool. =) Very nice indeed.
We crapped around, took pictures, Cactus and Jun was late and Sher didnt appear.
And soon it was time. LOL. Fang went to pick the "Shou Xin", who appeared in a WHITE OCS shorts and a taekwando tee. HAHAHA. I just cant help but to laugh.. =x
He entered with a " ahhhhhhhh!! " JAW-DROPPING kinda look, LOL!!
That look was PRICELESS man..hahas!!

So the birthday song started and it was time for Dennis to receive his 21st BOMBS. HAHAS.
He had to pull of with what was requested of him before he could receive his present.
First it was the kisses from his friends, followed by the pumpin with the heaviest person on him which kinda had a retaliation of "WO HEN FEI MEH?"..LOL hmmm, moccha advert, (D)rain imposter, swiimming, and the writings of "Happy Birthday" using his arse.

There's this part when Fang and Dennis were made to kiss for 10 secs, and cameras were all on them man..Dennis even took out his own LOL!!..Very sweet I must say, it's as though it was their wedding or smth..hahas!!..

Fang did a good job. LOL. To have Dennis with that TOTALLY STUNned look. HAHAHA.
CONGRATS!!!

Pictures waiting to be uploaded..
Fang please upload fast..hahas!

Put the Blame On me

As life goes on
I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for
I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go

This is CRAZY

Im still wide awake!! Alright I went to read my past entries again. Ha. Just got to remind myself of some stuff.
Was online for a while, chatting to all the weird people up at that hour.

So some people invited me for wakeboarding next month! =) Will inform you again!

Argh, I guess I'll be missing the application again this time round. =( Oh wells.
Now I feel a lil sleepy, gonna head to bed soon.

Maybe you should listen to advises people give bout me.
Afterall you dont know me that well either.
Im just sick and tired of knowing that people have so much to say about me.
Ha, oh well.
Time to rest.

Early morning once again..

Look at this untimely hour, where it's suppose to be sleeping time. I just woke up. Damn. Thus, Im sitting here using the com in the dark. So I've got 29 unique visitors today =) Ha! Welcome to Nuff Nang.hahas..

Nothing much happened today, just work. Back to my working life, next week would be more hectic. Oh yea, Eddy msg me this afternoon while I was having lunch, like so unexpected, but I kind guessed what he wanna ask , cus next week would be the last week of our hols before the new sem starts..so Eddy asked for "Mambooo LOL. Shall see bout that, shall see bout that. hahas.

So fast, this week has came and left, it's already considered Friday morning..woot. The weekends are nearing =) gatherings and many more.

Kay..
Nites =)

CLEARED!!!

Finally the results are out. I've CLEARED my sem! but it wasnt of good grades. Yea, it's all my fault that I got such grades, but I'm not gonna let that mistake repeat itself once again.
Im going to put in MORE effort this time round, and I make sure I do it. Nothing should affect me this time round, one last sem to go.

Been a long time since my last milo dinosaur =) AWESOME!! =))

Schoool is starting like on 15 Oct. Cant wait! =) I miss ZARA!!.
Met up with the ladies ytd, woot! =)
See ya guys real soon!! =))

This feeling is seriously giving me the headache.
Suffocated.

New Account

I've created a new account on friendster cus my old one screwed up..

dazemelancholy@gmail.com is the new link..hahas.

Im lazy of adding people alr..hahas.
Gone.

Heart Attack

Minor stuffs are giving me the heart attack, on and off my ears will have that " eeeeeee.." sound which makes it a lil irritaing.
Just dyed my hair ON MY OWN just now. The outcome of it is kinda bad, no comments on it.
Meeting the girls tmr =)
Currently im HUNGRY so I guess I'll sleep after blogging, just dont wanna eat man. This is the most sinful hour. Supper will OWN me. And the scales will start increasing. No i dont want that. Hahas. Im being so random here. Just felt random today.
My mind is fucked. LOL. A new phrase I learned.
Exhausted is the word.

I choose to remain where I am now, I dont want no nothing.
Nites.

Warning

TODAY'S THE DAY!!!!

Sleeping Disorders

Morneng!! gotta prepare before I head out for the meeting which is gonna be held at DTE later at 9.45am " Sweet Escape" is playing on my phone once again. ARGH. Damn that song is irritaing. LOL. Okay, I've forgot to turn off my alarm. Slept at 5 plus and now Im up already. My bloody throat.Damn.
Mum woke me up this morning at 7.30am "Aye, this should be yours.." - a box of strepsils, once again. Hahas. Thankew.

So I guess I gotta sleep early, no more late nights for the time being. Work starting on Tuesday, which I kinda dread. Which means, ... eeek!
Oh wells, it's better than staying home sleeping my days away. =x Which I kinda got used to already..hahas.
Kay, time is running out I better get ready, continue later.. =)

Morning =)

The rain has kicked in. It's pouring outside, and the time is 4.22am on my computer's clock.
4 in the morning..hahas..Gwen's song playing in my head.
Im tryin out this quiz on my fren's bloggy. Aye, why is the answer somewhat alike to your's? hahas.


My answer to the "Personality Test"

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Hmmm, is that describing me? hahas..oh well.


The REAL You


You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

No wonder...... =(

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

I know.

Sorry for the troubles given to those that tolerated me so much.
I'll just vanish from now on. I wont waste anyone's time or anything.
I'll move on.

Im sorry to people that treated me so nice, yet I took it for granted. Im sorry.
This is hurting people around you that cares for you and I dont wish to be the cause of it.
Im fine on my own.I can handle from here.
Sorry to have wasted everyone's time.

Back to Singapore!!

Sawardee Karr!! =) Jojo is back in Singapore.


Arrived at 3pm ytd. Man, I kinda miss Thailand, the land of 1000 smiles..lol.Was very angry, but cant blame the couples either. I was waiting for more than half an hour for my 2nd baggage, felt a lil worried, so I walked further up, and saw this couples with my baggage, they were like as though looking for something else, so without sec thought I just walked up to them and said " is that my luggage? " then they were like " er, er, er,..." so I just open up the luggage and true enough, it was mine my god! the bloody locker, it''s like so common. His key could open up my lock!!!! damn.

A mixture of feelings within. Happy that Im back to my clean and fresh country, sad that I've got to be back to square one, when I can no longer spend as and when I like.5D4N sure passes real fast.

[20 Sept]
Day 1 at Thailand.
Bored the plane, and it was window seat =) the view was awesome. I liked the view 10000 m of the ground, where only clouds enveloped us. =) The flight was only bout 2 hours, felt a lil turbulance here and there, but we reached Thailand safely =). We took a cab to Cher's uncle place, Prama Sam-SV City. A very nice condo, but not accescible to the city. We unpacked our stuff and off we headed to Siam =) walked around Paragon, MBK, bought our toothpaste,toothbrush, DKNY. lol, and headed back to the condo, changed and off to ParrrtttteeeeeHHHHHHH lol. It was raining that day, argh. Crap, but we still headed down. First it was Bedsupperclub located at Nana, but they were kinda strrict. I wasnt 20 so they didnt allowed me to enter. Damn, so we headed to RCA-Route66 the bouncer was kind enough, they let me entered. Oh ya! we saw this 2 Russian chics at Bedsupper, but they were kinda tipsy, Dumb blonds, lol..Okay, back to Route66. The crowd was just nice, not too packed like MOS, and the people there are more gentlemen, no itchy hands, LOL. They had a few rooms with different themes, like - Live band, trance, RnB. The layout of the rooms, are way better than Singapore. Their toilet!!!! omg, they have singers inside the toilet whereby you can seat down and listen to them sing. IN THE TOILET, hahas. And we headed back to the condo- Knock out.



[ Can I just Stay up here?.. ]




[21 Sept]
Day 2.
Woke up real early though we clubbed the night before. Kuan took real long to prepare!!! A guy!!! takes bout 30mins to prepare!!!!! DAMN!! hahas, longer than me man! I wonder why, maybe cus it's not my own home, so I took lesser time to bathe. We headed down to Paragon first for breakfast, lol..followed by SuamLom. If im not wrong, freaking complicating. You can never recognise the route, cus they've got so many ways to one place.We had Dairy Queen, 19 baht!!!! not even a dollar!! hahas, mind you their standard is some what like Orange Julius..hmmm yummy.
We shopped and shopped and shopped till I cant take it. Ate loads of nonsense, hmmm, mango, watermelon, drink coconut juice, cant remember what I ate though, ate too much. LOL.


Bascially, it's the same routine everyday, eat, shop, party. But time is always never enough. Cus from one place to another, takes a very long time. Very time consuming. Chatuchak was very, VERY packed. ARGH, couldn't stand the crowd and the people, but the sight of the puppies melted my heart. I wanted to stay a lil longer, but Cher said they were dirty, =( so we left..

Im kinda lazy to further blog, lol. Let the pictures do the talkings. =)

[ Food! yummy!! ]
[ Dairy Queen 19 Baht!! ]
[ Shopping!! =) ]
[ Sala Deng-Nana-RCA ]
[ On the Tuk Tuk ]
[ My New Love ]
[ We lost our way!! walkin in circles]
[ On the BTS]
[Chatuchak]
[ Cher, Tom,Wang,Jo]
[ ge tio..lol ]