Judgemental

As much as I tried not to be one. I failed. I was judging.
Someone made me realise it while working today. I realise I fumbled, blurred out. Total knockout when I was working. Reason being.. " cus you've heard too much and judged, before you gave it a chance..". I was guilty of it. It got me so nervous and everything, I kept reminding myself to be precise in my service and all, but it made it all worse because I was too concentrated on my performance, I didnt wanted to be picked on. When everything tenses up, everything I did screwed up. Given the benefit of the doubt, I would have been killed on the spot but I faced it.

Aint gonna make this blunder again.
Aint judging no more. Just treating people the way, I want people to treat me back.

I've faced my fears.

Bad weather

Though it has been wonderful nights for everyone. People that have got to work above land, 30 000 feet above at night got to go through bad turbulence. I've had my fair share and it was rather bad last night. Do take care people!

My head feels very heavy right now. Fever is on it's way.

I see red skies, lightings and thunder right now. It's gonna last for the whole of 7th month.. pros can cons.. hais.

Borrowed my sister's Renoir for a day tomorrow. hehe :) hope it kills my temptations.
Got to get rest now.

Good nights.
=) Jojo.

ooohh chilly morning.

Good morning people! this is absolutely due to the new games in the DS that made me wake up so early in the morning. Im having an evening flight later so yea. Got to reach briefing room only like 7:30pm? it's an overnight flight, will be back only the early morning of tomorrow. Hopefully by then, my emails have been replied!, I've been waiting and waiting for the reply, it got me so impatient seriously.

I want a change of phone. I want LG Renoir. =( yes, this IS base on impulse. Therefore I'm waiting to see if this temptation is gonna die off any time soon. Hopefully by this week, else Im gonna get it. I'm trying to quit this habit of changing phone so regularly. I dont remember any phone that stick to me more than a year. That was the past I hope and that Im able to stick to this for a longer period even if problems had surfaced. It was due to my own carelessness. I've forgotten to turn off my phone onboard for the 3rd time this month, and everything is going haywired. It either stays in a particular page for a long period of time or everything appears in reverse dual screen.

Another news has been heard. Though it doesnt really affect me, it just make me feel that 2009 isn't a great year for all. Like literally. It's been affecting me in a way or another, but Im trying my best to remain positive. I believe you should too. I pray that everything will go smoothly for you.

Back to my ds..

unexpected.

Life has many unexpected changes.

Please pull through..

problem stacko

YES!. Tons of problems.

Grandpa is in hospital now. But I wont be able to visit him. Due to the H1N1 and what nots. My name is not reflected on the visitors list. So I wont be able to visit. So now hospitals restrict the amount of visitors visiting patients.
He had a fall, his hand was badly scalded. He fell in the toilet, scalded himself while he tried to grab hold of something. Mum said he was crying badly when she went to visit. He couldnt make out his words, mum said was kinda slurring and he has to see a speech therapist. I hope it's not stroke again. The new place doesnt seem "clean". Hope you get well soon grandpa.

I just dont know how to bring myself to face you.
It's just something that can never be erased from my heart.

understand?

I just need a listening ear/ a shoulder to lean on.

3rd Day

It's my 3rd day of work today, going to get prepared for work after this entry.

Went over to Adelina's wedding last night after my flight, all the way at Woodlands okay. Hahas, rushed down after work. The freaking cab cost me a bomb! could have bought a top with that money! lol. It cost me about $35! cus the taxi driver aint familiar with Woodlands as well. Geez~

Ade looked real pretty in her white kebaya. It's been extremely long since I last met her. She's still the same, still as crappy. LOL!! Missed her so much, so much to catch up. Hopefully I'll be able to meet her while she's back at Pasir Ris. So happy for her. Congratulations girl =) Joc was there as well, I miss playing vball with them. Time flies, we're all 22 and moving on.




















My bond is coming to an end real soon, I got to decide now. =(
Feeling so hungry right now. Today will be off to Lombok back only bout 10 tonight hopefully earlier =P

I had so much on my head to think for these past few days, happy ones, sad ones, basically I'm in a dilemma now. Work is definately important for me at this point in time. Studies got to come along. I need that but I lack the capital. UGH, crap. Hadn't the time to talk to Daryl, since most of the time we clash, as in I come back from work; tired, or maybe he's asleep and all, so didnt have the time to talk about my studies. HUM BIN!!!!! ~

got to go.
Jojo.

Blue

I woke up feeling refreshed as though the storm is over. Looking out of my window, looking up onto the clear blue sky as I leaned back and have a good stretch, this feels good. My own space. I love this kind of afternoon and the flow of wind that sweeps past my face as I lay down on my sofa, a moment of serenity. I love this =)