Departure..Not

My khaki is leaving, both sad and happy. More of the sad though.

Happy that at least she's not stressed up anymore.

1 thing I learn from drifting. It drifts further. Im afraid this would be another drifting friendship. Hais. It's always like this. When Im really comfortable with this person, some reasons have to happen and people starts drifting.

True we can plan something and maybe meet up and all. But I've heard it too many times. I'm one person that cant stick to the plans, always having something coming up at the very last minute. I've lost touch with my secondary school babes. Even that handful is difficult to meet up with them. I've tried planning to meet up, but same thing goes again, something crops up. Or I went awol without any msgs.

Independent loner I guess.

Got appointment for my nails. Got to go prepare already.

Ciaoz.

The call

Received an unexpected call. But I didn't answer, no point.

Last night Chelsea vs Man Utd.
It was so exciting! Chelsea nearly lost! whew, close shave luckily Chelsea scored else the botak would be so upset bout it. He wore his camo helmet running around the living room, it was so hilarious, he's abck in camp :( come back soon.

Tomorrow would be our J class training, batchgirls!!! :)
Picture taking session. GOssips!! hahas. Can't wait.

Prepare for work now.

Ciaoz =)

My Best Friend's Girl

I love it! =) I like this show alot. Dane Cook is good. He fits the role perfectly. Anyways, I just love slacking out on Saturday Nights. Though the initial plan was clubbing but we were kinda lazy so Movie was decided. And Im glad I chose to watch it. Because it was worth it.

Not too much of details here, I ain't no spoiler. Go catch it. =)

Im still eating alot, but surprisingly I couldn't finish the popcorns for once! for people who knows me well enough, will know that at the end of the movie, Im always left with popcorn all over my seat and myself. LOL. I don't know why, but yea. =p

Edited.--
Im changing my daily routine =) see how it goes.

Alright good nights people.
Have a good rest Joanne. Let your god damn mind rest for once.
Peace out.
xoxo,
Jo.

Pain

It's hurting so much! Crap. The tummyache is killing. =(

Para

I fucking hate it. I cant stop thinking bout it. No point yelling either.
Fucking why must what they say be true. What the fuck am I suppose to do now?

Thanks for playing this over me over and over again GOD.
Why put me in such situation. If Im gonna lose it, Im not gonna fucking brood over it anymore.
It's not te same anymore. I knew we lost it.

Weight issues

Seriously, it's getting on my nerves, the munching just goes on. Is this a problem or it's just me that is having problems controlling myself. Im binging man. ALOT. Till it's pretty bad. I've gained so much since he POP-ed. Im not trying to put the blame on someone but yea. Im eating alot, maybe cus my stress level has gone down like way and alot and Im more optimistic lately, that everything I do got to do with food. It's been such a freaking long time since I had weight problems, and now it's back to HAUNT ME again! Freaking crap man, where's my gym sessions and all gone to! PRocrastinations, blame the weather, blame the mood Im in. Everything boils down to me. Why am I popping food into my mouth! is there any alternatives?! Im gonna goggle and see the reasons to why Im binging.



Just last night, I bought black pepper seafood pasta from Swensen's to Dar's place. 2 set. 1 for him and 1 for myself. I ate more than him! ARGH!
He looks freaking slim right now, I wonder where that belly went. UGH!
This is so irritating, the tummy is bulging out already yet I still cant stop EATING!!
This is the side effect of quitting from........but if you wanna live a healthy lifestyle you got to quit that. CRAP THIS SHIT MAN!

LOL. Omg, Im going on and on bout my weight problems..haha.
Oh yea, watched that " Forgetting Sarah Marshall " movie at his place



seriously they are motivating me to work out like real soon, okay i believe people that knows me know the fact that when I say it motivates me, last for maybe the most 3 days, and Im back to square one.



FAT CHUBS is back, I hate it when he calls me CHUBS. Like I rather people say Im slim and all.
Stupid. Nothing will work when Im just ranting.

Fuckomofo.

BORED!

Today I feel a little tired, a little lazy. What a week, this week is bad. On a lighter note =) POP LO! hahas.

Shall upload the pictures soon.

Happy belated birthday GIRL =)

Goh Pei Shi.

PS: This is your 20th birthday.

Sorry wasn't able to celebrate ur 21st this yr, but nonetheless, hopefully there's a meetup soon. =(

Tired

Basically I just feel a little tired today. A little less motivated to work today. =p
But eitherways, Im leaving home soon, be back in the evening.

That's all folks. Im BEAT.

Random

Been reading her blog for quite some time now. Each time I read it, my heart aches, everyone's supporting you girl please don't give up. It seriously tears me apart whenever I read her entries, she is so brave to pull it through till now, if it were to ever happen to me, seriously I wont be able to continue. Hang on girl, the rainbow will reappear soon, dont despair, we're all here for you.

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Went for a haircut at Gatomore today. Hahas, cute name and a cute hairdresser.HAhas. =x
Im like so excited, will be doing my nails tomrrow. Needed a little pampering for myself lately. I need to stand up for myself, these words kept repeating itself in my mind. Enough of people worrying for me. I need to be firm, no more Ms Nice.

Had my long gossip session with Nic today, awesome. My bottled up thoughts all unleashed. hahas. Man it feels good.
Another off day tomorrow, then followed by a Kuching flight.

This week is coming to an end, as in the weekends are approaching. =) and the weekend getaway. It feels good to be alone for a while some time.
These are just some random thoughts, nothing much.

Suicide is not chosen;
it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.

quoted from her.