As per usual, when Im done with preparing and I've still got time to spare before I leave home for work. I'll surf the net, check out my horoscope, check out my facebook and maybe like now-blogging. Ugh, it's really a chore to wake up early. But nevertheless, I'll get to go home early. Can't wait to head back home. Hahas.
So many things going through my mind, be it the negative or the positives. I've got to weigh them correctly, cus my heart and my head doesnt seem to coincide with each other. Which I guess is ALWAYS the case. Gotta reach airport by 0530. Boo. Im lazy seriously. In fact, extremely lazy. Bummer. December is coming, confirmation for the seventy's is coming. Doubt I'll be getting mine.
I've got to start inviting. But who can I invite?. No one seems to be free, and some didnt reply me. But I cant blame them though, I know I've disappointed some, so I have no say on whether Im disappointed in them or not. But yea, this is how far my friendship with them have gone. Time really drifts everyone away from me. And to my own doings, it's getting worse. Somehow or rather I forsee bad premonitions. Blame it on my own doings. Call this K A R M A.
Im merely on this thin line. 21 aint my kind of fun no more.
Too many things, it's bringing me down.
Too many thoughts..
Too many IF's..
Too many doubts..
This little things are all pilling up. Will you catch me if I fall?..
Bleeding love..
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Down the slumps
My mood is definately not in the right state. Like as though I had a little too much to drink. Like as though I predict something.
And this time round, something bad. If you have something to say, can you just let me know?. I feel weird. This feeling is overwhelming me, and it's making me upset. Is this the season of falling into (emo-ness). It's like I dont know you anymore.
And this time round, something bad. If you have something to say, can you just let me know?. I feel weird. This feeling is overwhelming me, and it's making me upset. Is this the season of falling into (emo-ness). It's like I dont know you anymore.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Finally an end to my holidays. Back to work, gotta wake up at 4am for a morning flight.
Went on a spending spree. Burned a bigger hole in my pocket. Treat my mum to a classic mani and pedicure plus colouring of her hair. She's happier now, I've a little lesser to spend.
At least I've done my part on pampering her. At least something for her, so I guess once a while burning my pocket for my them is fine with me.
Im dreading. I dont like feeling this way.
I better tone down lately.
Goodnights.
Went on a spending spree. Burned a bigger hole in my pocket. Treat my mum to a classic mani and pedicure plus colouring of her hair. She's happier now, I've a little lesser to spend.
At least I've done my part on pampering her. At least something for her, so I guess once a while burning my pocket for my them is fine with me.
Im dreading. I dont like feeling this way.
I better tone down lately.
Goodnights.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
December
I hate December. Seriously, so many freaking problems. It's always a vicious cycle. I hate this kinda feeling. I HATE IT. I HATE YOU!! why must it always got to be YOU!!! Can't you just vanish?. Or maybe I should just vanish. Sometimes I really regret making this decision. Or am I just too narrow minded. One way or another, it's driving me up the walls. I can't express myself in words, it always ended up making me feel like im a control freak or something. Woman, sensitive creatures by nature. Or it's just Joanne's nature. Either you stick with it or get out of her life.
I've tried changing and Im glad I changed. No point sticking to the old me, when nothing I did was appreciated. Till it was gone that people learn to cherish. I'm going bonkers seriously. Is this KARMA on me already?.
Lately my sensitivity level has been increasing. I guess it's due to the lack of sleep. I hate feeling depress. It feels so stupid.
Especially when Im depress everything that goes through my mind seems like some mixed up jigsaw. My feelings and thoughts are all jumbled up like scrabble. I wish to make my point clear, but it always ended up with another meaning. I don't ask for alot, I just want the basic, the simplest. Yet, it all blew up. POOF!!.
I'm grumbling all my randoms, it's seriously driving me crazy. I can cry for hours over matters that dont mean a thing at all. How silly is this. I hate DECEMBER seriously. Give me a reason why I shouldnt or why am I behaving in such behaviour?. WHY!! Do I not know how to compromise?, am I really so irritating?, what am I suppose to do?. I feel so pist off so freaking pist off!!! It's not like someone triggered me, it's like the time bomb in me just exploded by itself.
This post is extremely random, I guess it's due to my PMS. It's really driving me up the walls.
I guess I need a sandbag, for me to release my anger, no one seem to be able to understand this. NO ONE. Not a single person, no one. How pathetic this is.
I've tried changing and Im glad I changed. No point sticking to the old me, when nothing I did was appreciated. Till it was gone that people learn to cherish. I'm going bonkers seriously. Is this KARMA on me already?.
Lately my sensitivity level has been increasing. I guess it's due to the lack of sleep. I hate feeling depress. It feels so stupid.
Especially when Im depress everything that goes through my mind seems like some mixed up jigsaw. My feelings and thoughts are all jumbled up like scrabble. I wish to make my point clear, but it always ended up with another meaning. I don't ask for alot, I just want the basic, the simplest. Yet, it all blew up. POOF!!.
I'm grumbling all my randoms, it's seriously driving me crazy. I can cry for hours over matters that dont mean a thing at all. How silly is this. I hate DECEMBER seriously. Give me a reason why I shouldnt or why am I behaving in such behaviour?. WHY!! Do I not know how to compromise?, am I really so irritating?, what am I suppose to do?. I feel so pist off so freaking pist off!!! It's not like someone triggered me, it's like the time bomb in me just exploded by itself.
This post is extremely random, I guess it's due to my PMS. It's really driving me up the walls.
I guess I need a sandbag, for me to release my anger, no one seem to be able to understand this. NO ONE. Not a single person, no one. How pathetic this is.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
2 more days
2 more days till Im officially back to work. Can't wait man.
Just woke up, imagine how screwed my body clock is working. I practically bummed around during my leave with nothing done. Becasue of money issues, I held back all my projects. My intention was to:
1- clear up my clothes, so that I can stock up with new ones
2- clear my study room so that my new bed can come in soon.
3- clear my dressing table ( currently a computer table.. with a huge mirror) so that I can get a proper one.
that's about it man. But sadly NONE accomplished.
Ran through my old albums back then in secondary school, I couldnt believe my eyes man. I looked freaking bloated but tanned. I miss the tan. With the weather like this, it aint helping much though. Hopefully I can get to do some decent tanning some time soon, Im sick of being fair. My veins looked freaking scary, like railway tracks all over my body. EEeeww.
December's coming, and I've got no plans but another 5 days leave. I don't know what to do with a 21st celebration, any ideas? my 1st intention was to hold it at my void deck, LOL. I find it pretty cool, but some of my friends objected to it. Then came the MacDonald thought, but I was thinking who will come man, not like I have alot of friends, and not everyone is free, they'll definately give me a " err..I dunno eh" answer, and I cant give a confirmed no. of people attending. ARGH, I hate planning for birthdays. Haven't seen Mantianal for quite a while now, the last was Cactus's birthday. Like in Aug...Geez, everyone's so busy. I'll be back with my busy life too. I have ran out of plans for my birthday, maybe from the 18-22th I'll just do small gatherings with all my friends that are free. A continuous 5 days celebration with different groups of people. UGH. Boring. Else to save everyone's trouble I'll just give you my account no. donate any amount as you wish. A donation drive to save Joanne. Hahas.
It's peanut butter jelly time!!!
Just woke up, imagine how screwed my body clock is working. I practically bummed around during my leave with nothing done. Becasue of money issues, I held back all my projects. My intention was to:
1- clear up my clothes, so that I can stock up with new ones
2- clear my study room so that my new bed can come in soon.
3- clear my dressing table ( currently a computer table.. with a huge mirror) so that I can get a proper one.
that's about it man. But sadly NONE accomplished.
Ran through my old albums back then in secondary school, I couldnt believe my eyes man. I looked freaking bloated but tanned. I miss the tan. With the weather like this, it aint helping much though. Hopefully I can get to do some decent tanning some time soon, Im sick of being fair. My veins looked freaking scary, like railway tracks all over my body. EEeeww.
December's coming, and I've got no plans but another 5 days leave. I don't know what to do with a 21st celebration, any ideas? my 1st intention was to hold it at my void deck, LOL. I find it pretty cool, but some of my friends objected to it. Then came the MacDonald thought, but I was thinking who will come man, not like I have alot of friends, and not everyone is free, they'll definately give me a " err..I dunno eh" answer, and I cant give a confirmed no. of people attending. ARGH, I hate planning for birthdays. Haven't seen Mantianal for quite a while now, the last was Cactus's birthday. Like in Aug...Geez, everyone's so busy. I'll be back with my busy life too. I have ran out of plans for my birthday, maybe from the 18-22th I'll just do small gatherings with all my friends that are free. A continuous 5 days celebration with different groups of people. UGH. Boring. Else to save everyone's trouble I'll just give you my account no. donate any amount as you wish. A donation drive to save Joanne. Hahas.
It's peanut butter jelly time!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Bummer
Been bumming around for 4 days now, if inclusive of the weekends it would have been 6 days already since I last did any flights. The last was an overnight to CKG, which was also when I got my 3rd check. Geez.
3 more days for me or should I say 2 1/2 days before I hit back to flights. I kinda miss the hectic life once a while, it feels a little boring when Im home doing nothing and no income coming in. It feels horrible.
My sis came back from Taipei yesterday, she bought a wallet for me =) brown in colour..AWESOME!! =) It doesn't have to be expensive though, I love the compartments it has inside, it's brown, and it's unique. =) Jealousy boiling inside of me..I wanna go there too. PATIENCE. I'll wait for April'09. PATIENCE.
Confirmation in Dec. Ugh. I wonder how long I'll be extended. =( Geez.
FAT.FATTER.FATTEST.
3 more days for me or should I say 2 1/2 days before I hit back to flights. I kinda miss the hectic life once a while, it feels a little boring when Im home doing nothing and no income coming in. It feels horrible.
My sis came back from Taipei yesterday, she bought a wallet for me =) brown in colour..AWESOME!! =) It doesn't have to be expensive though, I love the compartments it has inside, it's brown, and it's unique. =) Jealousy boiling inside of me..I wanna go there too. PATIENCE. I'll wait for April'09. PATIENCE.
Confirmation in Dec. Ugh. I wonder how long I'll be extended. =( Geez.
FAT.FATTER.FATTEST.
Monday, November 17, 2008
I wanted you by Ina
Since everyone's been uploading mtv's onto their blog, I find this song kinda nice. Introduced by Joleen.
Couldn't find the MV .. the base a little overpowered too..
Just the beginning..
Couldn't find the MV .. the base a little overpowered too..
Just the beginning..
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Unbelievable
Read 2 sets of newspaper on board, the flight was too draggy with too many details which Im too lazy to go into details with.
Thoughts and feelings for what had happened to be in the headlines. Questions surfaced.. same reactions. Why so silly? It was considered quite a detailed description of the whole incident, apart of me was thinking, Damn why wasnt I there..geez.
Tired.Shag.HEADACHE.
Toodles.
Thoughts and feelings for what had happened to be in the headlines. Questions surfaced.. same reactions. Why so silly? It was considered quite a detailed description of the whole incident, apart of me was thinking, Damn why wasnt I there..geez.
Tired.Shag.HEADACHE.
Toodles.
Friday, November 14, 2008
All to myself
Jo's leaving for Taiwan tonight, the room will then be only mine all the way till the 19th. Woots`
I'll be going to Chongqing tonight, back only tomorrow morning bout 0525hrs.
Pictures will be uploaded soon into my multiply for Qiaofen's birthday celebration. Stay tuned.
Got to go now.
It's misses.
I'll be going to Chongqing tonight, back only tomorrow morning bout 0525hrs.
Pictures will be uploaded soon into my multiply for Qiaofen's birthday celebration. Stay tuned.
Got to go now.
It's misses.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Gain back what I lost
The carbs are all running back to me all at one go. Im back to my original FATNESS!.
This is crazy, I thought changing a new job would bring my weight down. Apparently, I forgotten the fact that Im a food lover. OH GEEZ~
Freaking 51.2kg GONE! =( It's back to 53 LAGI SAD!!!!!!!!! Like to the extreme. =(
Gotta cut down on supper, CHOCOLATES, SWEETS, POTATO, FAST FOOD. The list just bloody goes on. =( Just today's flight, for the 4 sector, I ate all the way man. CRAP!
Met nice people at work today, enjoyed myself though it's really tiring. Like I feel the ache on my shoulders man. UGH. Seriously I hate the 3rd sector, like to the CORE MAN! But I've got no choice do I? hais. It was a freaking tiring flight, not the crew bt otherwise.
Drive me up the walls balls.
Geez.
I'll be back with post bout my uncle's wedding.. another day. Cus people say Im FAT. So I dont wish to be reminded. HUMPH!~
This is crazy, I thought changing a new job would bring my weight down. Apparently, I forgotten the fact that Im a food lover. OH GEEZ~
Freaking 51.2kg GONE! =( It's back to 53 LAGI SAD!!!!!!!!! Like to the extreme. =(
Gotta cut down on supper, CHOCOLATES, SWEETS, POTATO, FAST FOOD. The list just bloody goes on. =( Just today's flight, for the 4 sector, I ate all the way man. CRAP!
Met nice people at work today, enjoyed myself though it's really tiring. Like I feel the ache on my shoulders man. UGH. Seriously I hate the 3rd sector, like to the CORE MAN! But I've got no choice do I? hais. It was a freaking tiring flight, not the crew bt otherwise.
Drive me up the walls balls.
Geez.
I'll be back with post bout my uncle's wedding.. another day. Cus people say Im FAT. So I dont wish to be reminded. HUMPH!~
Saturday, November 08, 2008
MOF
Just a short post before I head to bed, went to MOF for dinner. Laugh my ass of man..
Let the pictures do the talking.
Babe if there's anything, be it good or bad,anytime of the day. I'm just a call away.
Dont worry..
[ Premium New Zeland Beef.. ]
[ My claypot Ebi Udon ]
[ The tea..apparently I didn't ask for ice water..]
Let the pictures do the talking.
Babe if there's anything, be it good or bad,anytime of the day. I'm just a call away.
Dont worry..
[ Premium New Zeland Beef.. ]
[ My claypot Ebi Udon ]
[ The tea..apparently I didn't ask for ice water..]
[ Trying out ways to clip my dull hair..]
Toodles. =)
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Nonsense
10 Worst Company Domains
Everyone knows that if you are going to operate a business in today’s world you need a domain name. It is advisable to look at the domain name selected as other see it and not just as you think it looks. Failure to do this may result in situations such as the following (legitimate) companies who deal in everyday humdrum products and services but clearly didn’t give their domain names enough consideration:
1. A site called ‘Who Represents‘ where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity. Their domain name… wait for it… is www.whorepresents.com
2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views at www.expertsexchange.com
3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island at www.penisland.net
4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder at www.therapistfinder.com
5. Then of course, there’s the Italian Power Generator company… www.powergenitalia.com
6. And now, we have the Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales: www.molestationnursery.com
7. If you’re looking for computer software, there’s always www.ipanywhere.com
8. Welcome to the First Cumming Methodist Church. Their website is www.cummingfirst.com
9. Then, of course, there’s these brainless art designers, and their whacky website: www.speedofart.com
10. Want to holiday in Lake Tahoe? Try their brochure website at www.gotahoe.com
Everyone knows that if you are going to operate a business in today’s world you need a domain name. It is advisable to look at the domain name selected as other see it and not just as you think it looks. Failure to do this may result in situations such as the following (legitimate) companies who deal in everyday humdrum products and services but clearly didn’t give their domain names enough consideration:
1. A site called ‘Who Represents‘ where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity. Their domain name… wait for it… is www.whorepresents.com
2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views at www.expertsexchange.com
3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island at www.penisland.net
4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder at www.therapistfinder.com
5. Then of course, there’s the Italian Power Generator company… www.powergenitalia.com
6. And now, we have the Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales: www.molestationnursery.com
7. If you’re looking for computer software, there’s always www.ipanywhere.com
8. Welcome to the First Cumming Methodist Church. Their website is www.cummingfirst.com
9. Then, of course, there’s these brainless art designers, and their whacky website: www.speedofart.com
10. Want to holiday in Lake Tahoe? Try their brochure website at www.gotahoe.com
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Alone
It feels empty when everyone's asleep. Stupid EMO shit. hahas.
My "off" days are coming to an end. Back to the real world, been escaping from it time and again. Something which I should be facing head on with. Work. Adulthood.
Adulthood,
It's nearing me. Catching up with me real fast. How did my freaking 20/21 years of life just left me like that?. Geez.
My uncle's wedding coming up next this Sunday, Fatty hasn't shed a single weight man. UGH. Hate this, they're going to say Im fat again. UGH. With more questions to dig out from me. Please make me busy that day.
Bored.Bored.Bored.
My "off" days are coming to an end. Back to the real world, been escaping from it time and again. Something which I should be facing head on with. Work. Adulthood.
Adulthood,
It's nearing me. Catching up with me real fast. How did my freaking 20/21 years of life just left me like that?. Geez.
My uncle's wedding coming up next this Sunday, Fatty hasn't shed a single weight man. UGH. Hate this, they're going to say Im fat again. UGH. With more questions to dig out from me. Please make me busy that day.
Bored.Bored.Bored.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Ponder on it
This was another big row.
For the benefit of the doubt it was my fault. The last minute me heading to the airport clinic. But besides that. I don't wish to say further. It's another row that's all.
From now on, no more last minute, I'll go solo.
I hope even it's your last minute, at least I know what's going on. Even if it's an attempt.
For the benefit of the doubt it was my fault. The last minute me heading to the airport clinic. But besides that. I don't wish to say further. It's another row that's all.
From now on, no more last minute, I'll go solo.
I hope even it's your last minute, at least I know what's going on. Even if it's an attempt.
Monday, November 03, 2008
Gastric Flu
Went to watch High School Musical 3 at PS. LOL. Daryl was literally keeping his eyes focus on the screen cus he was like dozing off quite a bit. Yea, I agree it was bad. Still preferred the first one. Then dinner at Hunky Tori.. Erm.. I guess Tori Q would be of a better choice.
Met Nic later on for dinner/dessert at Hougang Mall. Slacked around some void deck, and we left bout 11 plus. On my way back , I felt like vomitting cus I thought the cab driver drove badly. In total I puked 8 times at home and 1 time at the airport. It seriously felt like crap. Geez. Doc said it was gastric flu and he gave me a jab to prevent me from vomitting. 2 days MC. GREAT. Now I'm defiantely down for extending of my probation. =( SHIT.
Met Nic later on for dinner/dessert at Hougang Mall. Slacked around some void deck, and we left bout 11 plus. On my way back , I felt like vomitting cus I thought the cab driver drove badly. In total I puked 8 times at home and 1 time at the airport. It seriously felt like crap. Geez. Doc said it was gastric flu and he gave me a jab to prevent me from vomitting. 2 days MC. GREAT. Now I'm defiantely down for extending of my probation. =( SHIT.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Crashed
Eventually I headed down with Nic to Dbl O.
The crowd was crazy, I saw one of my friend posed as Catwoman. Nonetheless, her figure fits well to it. I saw Van and Janet, Eric, Nic's friends, Terry, Ros!! and alot more..
I guess I'll just sink back to seclusion. I feel best there. No more asking for company anymore.
Enough.
The crowd was crazy, I saw one of my friend posed as Catwoman. Nonetheless, her figure fits well to it. I saw Van and Janet, Eric, Nic's friends, Terry, Ros!! and alot more..
I guess I'll just sink back to seclusion. I feel best there. No more asking for company anymore.
Enough.
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