rest

I'm just going to rest for the whole of today, feeling pretty uncomfortable..that nausea feeling, jet lag.

*yawns

Woke up pretty early this morning, waiting and waiting.. from 8 till 12 plus, before reluctantly leaving home to company Sheryl for her interview. Im feeling so tired now..*yawns..*
hmm, what is it?.. It's so nerve wrecking..

Mr Tan you're lucky you're away, else I would've bite you!

Back to work

Been a while since I looked forward to work. Being home the whole week wasn't really what I've planned to do. At least, I've rest enough and back on feet for work =) need to get my momentum back, since Im away for a week. 1st day of work, and it's a full load to and fro, hectic but manageable. Though there were those few that tries to get on our nerves once a while lol.

I must admit that I've put on weight. My uniform got so freaking tight that it gave way yesterday. Yes, laugh it out loud, what a freaking joke. I'm lucky it's only the thread ran off and not literally torn a big hole. I don't wish to know what will I do if that really happens. Hais, I've got to cut down on my intake, or maybe starve myself a little so that I'll get so hungry till the gastric actually eats off some fats from my butt.LOL. Me and my wishful thinking.I've got cravings for mangoes, hmm too bad there wasn't any for me to purchase yesterday because of the season. GOODNESS!!! speaking of which, I've forgotten all about my lapis that I've bought, which is still inside my cabin bag, LOL!! omg.

TTYL!

Ice SQUEAMMMMMMM!!!!

Woke up early this morning and headed for breakfast with Fen at Cartel, miss their french toast and ham. (: I like the golden brown look on the toast and the taste of it though it's easy to cook, reason being- my mum never likes to cook at home as the kitchen will be messed up, thus I had to dine out.

After which, I had to head down to the Singapore Flyer to register for "The Big Walk". I'm serious about it okay!, hehe. Im glad I signed up for it, though the queue was long and the weather was so hot. Thanks for the company Fen!!! (: I had to sign up for 4 other woman, which will be following me for the Big Walk. LOL!! Thanks ladies, especially Kiku because she'll be wearing HEELS for the big walk! LOL!!!
We took about an hour to queue. Imagine that, so many passionate Singaporeans enthusiastic about the walk. After settling with the registration, we cabbed down to Katong for our heavenly treat at Oblo (: which was coincidentally a few shops away from "Everything with Fries" (:

Ordered a platter each, which consist of 2 macroons of your choice, a slice of cake and an ice-cream. I fell head over heels for their mango passion sobert. It was delicious!! sweet,sour savory that lingers in your mouth. MMMMmmmm~ hahaha. Their ice cream is from Moven pick. (:

I enjoy the meetups with Fen, she'll always have something for me to think about, to ponder on. It got me so hyped up. It's indeed thought provoking. =)

Dont spend time pondering over matters that's redundant, conserve that energy and use it on matters that's more important to you. I gotta keep moving forward.

under the same sky

Been having too much free time on hand, I was bumming around at home the whole day, slept my day away, feels so awake right now that I cant go to bed.

Hey you, I miss having you around..irritate the hell out of me, if I continue being like this I'll go crazy very soon, Im so home bound now. Luckily Im heading out tomorrow, cant wait to get back to work, the leave is driving me crazy. Should have cancelled it earlier, I dont need a break at all, I feel so energized. Long flights here I come, Kathmandu, Chennai..Im gonna conquer you!

Wonder when school commences, can't wait.

Hey~ wo zhen de hao xiang ni..

Dream

When it was so far away I wanted it so bad, after a while it went away from sight, I thought I've let it down, but when it's thrown straight at me, I fumble and wants it so bad. Joanne, what do you really want?.

I remembered sitting at the emergency row when I started off still so fresh and green. I stared out of the window and saw this 737 waiting in line to take-off, in my head I told myself, give me 3 years, wait for me. I was so full of confidence, so determined to pass this transition period to move on to the ultimate goal. But as the environment sets in, and obstacles came by, I've forgotten bout the promise I made to myself and allowed myself to drop, to let go of what meant so much to me. I was literally knocked off my feet. Knocked down. 2 years has past, and here I am facing the same scenario once again. Staring at the crossroads in front of me, I see 2 different scenarios, a very big decision for me to make. I need to calm myself down, and think through what I really want for my future.

I miss sitting by the breakwaters staring into the unwinding sea..East Coast anyone?..

She's out of my league..

Awesome show, I'll give it 4 popcorns out of 5. I was literally laughing throughout. This show is so real, it displays the life of one that is pretty inferior of himself..not gonna say much of it.

Guys like Chuck doesnt seem to exist no more, it's very hard to find such people around these days. It's not something complicated, neither is it impossible, yet it's so hard to come by.

I admire funny,witty and truthful people be it the ladies or the dudes. I find people with such character fun to be with, they wont bore you out, and they're truthful, aint no beating round the bush, just sincere, fun-loving and easy-going. I don't see much of such people around no more, where have you humans gone?

One way or other, I could really relate to Chuck, it felt so real. I admit I have pretty low self-esteem so yea, that's me. If you have pretty high self-esteem then good for you.

Good nights..

Day 1

Standing under the scorching sun, while we wait patiently for our love ones to fall out and be with us for one last time before sailing off. My tears didnt start till the very last moments when I see his ship move further away from us, and his face became so ever tiny till I cant see his features no more. My tears welled up, but I held them back. I miss that monkey already. Please let these 4 months move faster, let me be as busy as possible so as to keep my mind off the missing.

It's my longest goodbye, especially the moment he waved goodbye and the ship moving further away from bay. It feels as though I've not held enough of his hands and hugs.

Dear God, I pray for good weather and that Collin will come back safe and sound.

4 months..
I'll wait!

As much as I try not to show my resentment, I can't. Man, I cant imagine without him around to disturb / remind me stuff.... this is pretty sickening. I cant believe it's already the 18th. Crap.

before I forget

Before I actually forgotten that I've to make a trip down to the airport to get the tickets fix, my head is gonna roll balls. -.-"

It's stay home Sunday for me today, wanna catch "The Break Up" which I never got to watch. Some ridiculous scenes that actually reminds me of ME!. DAMN, LOL, it's so freaking true. Do things willingly and pro actively, take initiative then being asked to do so, like saying sorry not for the sake of saying only. It's true we dont do mind reading, sometimes it's because we're too close to the person, we forgotten about the basic respect, basic courtesy which slowly progresses to "cant be bothered". The grey areas that most have met with from time to time. It's pretty funny when you look at how people are handling it and give them the advise, while you cant solve your own crap. It states that such situations gets you stitches because your emotions are so involved/engaged that you cannot think rationally. Thus childish acts appear, I know I fall into that category. Which in turn have accumulated myself a great number of vocabulary of what not..hahas, this show is so REAL. LOL! GOODNESS!!..

Either ways, I just got to have this here. BABY...Never ever do a sharp turn when my belt aint on, because now I cant get that headbutt moment out of my head!! LOL there's a tiny red bump on his lips. Im sorry! ;p

Received my favourite hotcake meal breakfast from baby. (: Sweetest ever!! Breakfast delivery though he's worn out from work last night.

Gan jue dao yi si de xiao xin fu.. (:

Smiling away while having my hotcake. kuang kuang kuang <3

Approaching

As the date draws nearer, the more I fear the unforeseen. It's no longer weeks away but DAYS.

"Dang yang guang zai ci hui dao na piao zhe yun de guo zing zhi nan.."

Friends

Friends play a part in your everyday life, be it in big or small ways. I would say friends spend more time with you more than anyone else, sometimes even more than your partner.

Friends are always there for you to share your sorrow,joy and NONSENSE. For people that knows me, knows that Im FOS.

Sometimes, I'll try to msg some to check out on them, it's like part of my memory remains there, times when it was a table full of the "gossipers". But when I feel the feedback ain't that receptive, I hold back. Im glad keke is around, but I cant possibly throw everything to him, he aint superman though.
It aches me sometimes to see him so worn out after he returns from duty, especially today.

blood hound

The 2 monkeys in my life are growing up so fast, it's like I don't know them anymore. They look so different now, so grown up, which means Im aging!! Looking at my second sis reminds me of me back then, the exact scenario, the exact situation. The love lorn period. LOL.

It's like a flashback of my own "TEEN" days. I can't believe this, it feels so yesterday that I was feeling so ever lost and clueless of where my future is bringing me, which apparently is still a bother to me. Going through Sec 5, the O'levels and what not. I miss that phase (: it's the bitter sweet days, or should I say the last moments of me in that unsightly uniform. I read her blog, I feel her pain. When things aint working, and you;ve lost the will to fight for it no more, when letting go was the only way out of this misery. It takes 2 to tango, which I believe she gave all she could, waiting and waiting. That fella is in for a rude awakening to lose a girl like my sis. That's the problem with the "Tan sisters" we love with all we got. So much so that, sometimes, we just stop. Stop in our track, fear the next step we're gonna make.

One thing Im proud of, she's able to stand up from her setbacks and not let people bring her down. Though it's killing her inside, she puts up a brave front and move on. You go girl. Keep these distractions aside, and focus on your upcoming exams. Though the road is still as windy and long, keep moving on for you will never know what's going to show up next at the other end of it. I've got your back sissy, just so you know. (:

Rainy morning

Im lucky to have forgetfulness as memory.. (:

Pictures speaks a thousand words, love this natural shot, I can't help it, it's the smile and that candid shot.

Home alone

Im done with the "cleaning up" not sure if it's considered cleaned up. LOL

Shall laze a while more before I head out to get the bills done.

-Edited-

Back from whitesands. Settled the bills and waiting for the jellies to be done. Wonder if it'll taste nice, I've added aloe vera pulps in it, cant help it (:

So fast my off day is coming to an end, back to work tomorrow UGH. Can I take another 2 weeks leave?..

Insomnia

I cant fall back asleep after mum woke me up while I was lying on the sofa. Can't believe I've actually sat for 2 papers, one more to go later and Im done for Sem 1. The peeps will be heading down to Changi V tomorrow after the paper, final class gathering before the sem resumes. All the best everyone. Im not having high hopes for Maths. I was pretty surprise to see the number of familiar faces that's with DMS. The only difference between us is they're full time DMS students.

My paper today for English was okay. I was feeling a little tired at first so I took about 10mins of rest while I was doing the paper. I had many crazy ideas in my mind when I was doing my essay writings. Hopefully Im not out of point though. It's quite depressing to see my friend not in the hall to sit for the exam, she chose to opt out for this sem. Wonder how is she now. These past 2 days was a special bonding time for us 104th people. Everyone was so concern for one another. I was quite surprised with how everyone was helping one another out. It feels so secondary school, that weird familiarity. That close bond. Why does this always happens only when you've got like so little time left to spend with your mates?.

All the best to all of you 104th! get this last paper out! over and done with! and CHILLLLLLAX!!!! :)

Your thoughts control your feelings.

Inevitable

Some stuffs are just inevitable like the red shirt protesters that went on and on in BKK for the past few weeks, and eventually I've dropout from the trip. At first there was an alternative for me to head Japan with Cher as she was able to claim free tic for me through her mileage thingy from JAL but not for the month of June due to peak season, argh crap. Tell me, should I cancel away my June leave and save it for later part of the year? because I have no place to go in June already, the ticket to go PEK is too expensive, definitely not in June. Whereby air fares goes sky high. Hmmm, anyone got no plans in later part of June?, maybe Bintan or somewhere nearby?.

I've got tons of places I wanna go like Universal, MBS, RWS, Keppel Bay, Zoo, Museums, Malaysia-JUSCO and Holiday Inn Plaza, the firefly tour..etc the list just goes on. Hmm, where to find such ever ready khaki for a getaway?. Anywhere but BKK. Crap.

Gonna go on a date with Collin ( see,I've bold your name in your favourite colour ;p ) later in the day (: can't wait for him to come back. It's merely a day, and Im missing his presence..

how do I survive my mid-crisis?..October please reach me soon....