Saturday, October 28, 2006

IN Town

Woke up real early today, bout 10plus? and received a msg from Audrey.
We went for free eyebrow shaping stuff. =))
I like the shape now, no doubt it's only trimming and stuff, it looks neater =))
Wasn't really into shopping mood today as I was having 'The Thing of The Month' so I was like very quiet. Sorry Audrey =(( but we're gonna have fun soon!!! ;)

Audrey helped me make-up woot'
We went to tried on clothes at Top-Shop,Zara..hahas..
Gossiped, took loads of pictures and I was literally staring at myself in the mirror whenever i get the chance to. =p

And now i can't upload the pictures!!
I went anal today. Must be 'that thing' that made me feel this way..
I grew so sensitive, not the way it's suppose to be.
Picked fights. Was sent home.
TOTALLY DUMB MOVE. MY lost. =(
It just wasn't my day. Wanted to meet him so badly, but no. I screwed it up once again. I just needed that attention. Dumb. It nearly ended once again.

Went home like some sore loser, crying her eyes out once again.
Fell asleep while crying and now im up blogging.
I just wanted to meet him, well he was right, he had a long day in school, would had been tiring for him. Sorry i wasn't understanding. I got too carried away as I wanted to let him look at my make-up, guess it was dumb.

I've got to change for the the better.
I've got to work on my attitude. It's driving Bf nuts. =(
I feel like i miss him alot all of a sudden, but the next thing i know, we'll be quarrelling.
Argh we're tired of fighting to the extend where the situation would be DRASTIC.

Bf called me just now, talked things out nicely.=) It's okay.
Changes and more changes, I'll try.

"It's not easy, but I'll WILL try cus of US."

Friday, October 27, 2006

im back =))

ALright how long have I not bothered bout my blog this time round?..hmmm

Well i'll start with the Sentosa Trip on erm..Tue 24 Oct 06

Meeting everyone at 10am. Met up with Ken and Jh at Tamp plat frist followed by Josh at Simei and Mas at Tana Merah. All alighted at Bedok plat as Mr Daryl was late once again.LOL
All were so excited about the trip as they expects to see LOADS of HOT CHICKS. Argh, don't understand them, they look like desperado's. What made it worst was my bf joining in the hunt. =(
We reached there around erm, 12plus?..We freaked out when we saw the humans at Harbour Front. The queue to the shuttle bus was way too long for us. Therefore we went for lunch first and took cab down to Sentosa.
We headed to Siloso Beach. Urgh, boring. I was left with nothing to do while the rest started hunting. Taking pictures, urgh horrible. =x
Was like acting SINGLE once again. Oh well, and they played soccer with my vball which landed high up on the tree together, resting nicely right between the coconuts. And the advance player was MR Daryl once again.
Didn't play much games, I guess their motive there was to LOOK AT GIRLS, so I just sat on the sand, look after our stuff and build my own sand castle. JH sat beside me so i chatted with him, hahas, or else there was really nothing for us to do. I grumbled alot to him both DAryl, bout how girls checked him out and how he smiled back and stuff, hahas.
In conclusion- The whole day was spent looking at girls, even BEns & Jerry's girls were unique to them.
Urgh!!! guys out there! where have all of you gone?!!! =(
I WANT ATTENTION TOO!!!! boohoooo`

And i didnt meet up with the girls..=( boohooo girls i miss u.
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25 Oct 06

Nothing much happened, or is it cus i couldn't remember?..hahas
Went to school per usual and went to work.
Was like a dead zombie, I need batteries, hahahs..

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26 Oct 06

Finished school at 4 yesterday and I had choosen my oral presentation for my BFS.-Credit Cards.- Wooohooo i've got to start with my slides omg, I've got to rush man =(
Met up with Bf and the rest for dinner at PRS central and went over to Paul's place to slack, and there we looked at our secondary school day's pictures and we laughed our heads off and DAryl has to LAUGH AT ME!!!! urgh..

I'm getting more and more ugly, hais.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Home

Spent my whole day at home.
Talked to Daryl on the phone this afternoon.
It was suppose to be one of those "teasing" each other conversation.
And to think that it turned out to be another fight.
The content was some what unreasonable and insulting.

Been having porblems going on these days.
Kind of big prob for me.I hope days get by soon.
I can turn to no one when i've got a problem.
I'll learn how to cope with it. It's not that im acting strong,
I don't need people to resolve my problem, just need someone there for me to lean on for a while.
I don't even feel like turning to you if i have problems.
I doubt you will view my blog either.

Kind of depressed lately, my own problems, fights that Daryl and I share almost everyday.
No comments further.

Recalled what my BCM lecturer Mr Hari told us.
It's actually a joke.
He told us that his progression students have some problems with their command of english, maybe it's due to the frequent use of abbreviations that they grew used to it.
Well the student was suppose to hand in his project to Mr Hari, as the student could not locate Mr Hari, he texted Mr Hari a message and it goes like this.

"Mr Hari, I've stuffed the thing in your hole..it was difficult"

Maybe by plainly reading it through my entry the effect won't be there.
But i was laughing like mad when Mr HAri told us that.
Me and Audrey, we laughed like mad.

The student was actually saying that he has left his project in Mr Hari's pigeon hole and he had a difficult time putting the project into his pigeon hole as there were too many things in it.

Oh ya! We actually have a MEDAL!!!
We came in 3rd!!!
And we got a MEDAL!!!!
=)
i'm happy bout that.
JUst that i left earlier that's why i didn't got the medal.
It's with Melissa now, gonna get it from her on Monday =))

Seems like i've blabber enoughed.

Gone'

Whole Day

I slept my whole day away yesterday.
Daryl was out fishing with the usual gang, and I was sleeping all the way.Hahas.
Went for singing club yesterday, hmmm, i'm not sure how if I would turn up for the next session because the lesson was a little dry on the theory part.Hais, see how it goes.

I hope things would be better for us.
I always thought I wanted it that way, but no.
I believe we could be better to each other.

misses'

Friday, October 20, 2006

tired life

School has started and i'm like very tired lately. Falling asleep real easily.
Many things to blabber about but nahhs..
Had too much things happening all at once that i nearly did something real foolish.

Went for competition yesterday with my eyes barely able to open. I didn't had rest the previous night. That feeling of losing someone. I was like some sore loser crying my eyes out. I went berserk. My parents thought what happened to me. I was shocked with myself too. I think i really can't handle my emotion well, that feeling was scaryt it's like i'm literally going crazy. But all is fine now. =)

We lost the match, was pist with myself. I wasn't performing at all. NOT AT ALL.
Now it's all over. No more competition. Until next year. Hais.

After match i went to meet Daryl.
Went over to his place.Fell asleep at his place.
Met up with the usuals for dinner at 85.
As we ended our dinner early around 9 plus, we decided to head to Daryl's place for a round of Mahjong.
They played their Mahjong while i happily fall asleep as soon as i hit the bed.
Only to wake up every 10-15 mins? When they have finish one set and Daryl would pull off my blanket waking me up. Trying to make me cry huh! hahas, because the other time at the chalet, I was feeling real tired so i fell asleep but he came to disturb me and I CRIED. hahas
We left Daryl's place exactly 12 MN and wanted to take cab. But since the cab could not take 5 persons, we companied him walked back to his place and we took cab from there, thereafter. People involved in sharing cab was JH,Ken,Paul and myself.

I still feel very tired. Argh. Feel like skipping school today. BUt NO!
Meeting the girls at the interchange later.

No doubt sh wants to JUE JIAO with me. LOL
Thanks girl for being there for me yesterday =)
Your're sweet! (Not kidding)

Alrights got to go prepare already.
Bye'

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

First Day of School

Alright alright, it's the first day of school yesterday. Which marks the start of Sem2!
First day of school and we're late.LOL =x
There are 2 classes for IAC woot' and i'm with Audrey in Ms Belinda Ng's class.
Hmm, the format for the Trading, Profit and Loss which i USED to know is TOTALLY DIFFERENT! hmm, and i've got COMPETITION today and will not be ablt to turn up for lesson! oh no!!!! and to think that lesson proper starts today argh!!
And for my elective, i am in BFS (Banking and Finance) different for Audrey and the rest, DK was BAD!! real BAD! HUMPH!

Got to reach school by 7am later, that's the reason why i woke up so early.
Going Bukit Batok to play match.
WOOT'!

I hope everything turns out well today. (wishes real badly)

Bf CUT HIS HAIR!
He went to cut morahwk, comp0naied him back to the salon yesterday to trim his hair, layered. Nice.
Now he thinks i love him for what he is not who he is. =(

I hope things could get better.
Now that school has started.

i got to go get ready already.
ciaoz!

WISH ME LUCK!

Sunday, October 15, 2006

JUST FUCK IT.
LOATHE IT.
WE ARE ALWAYS LIKE THIS.
HATE MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU.
IGNORE ME FURTHER.
MAYBE I DESERVE IT.

WHAT'S LOVE.

pouts'

Woke up real early today. Reason being, Daryl called me.Hahas.
Was wondering if i was angry and stuff for not meeting up yesterday. Nah im not.
Talked so much about his "hair". So promises could be broken with fingers crossed.
That's something i just learned.Ha.=(
Ranted,shouted,laughed, giving me reasons and excuses for not cutting his hair.Hahaha.
Oh wells, up to you to decide, i ain't going to nag any further.
Since i was up so early, i did some uploading of pictures to my yahoo photos and i've linked it to my blog. Check it out under my "Museum".
Arguments surfaced when the conversation went on.
"Love me for who i am"
Hmmm..okay.

After uploading my pictures and nothing to do, decided to call him. But he didnt pick up my call, guess he fell back to sleep or just doing his stuffs.
So i went blog hopping once again. One of my friends blog hit me.
It's bout relationship once again. Which i found was applicable for going on a long term r/s.

When you,me and everyone would be thinking if they were with the 'right' one.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, it would be all sweet lovey dovey aka 'Honeymoon Period'. Anticipating their phone calls, their touch, and everything of them.

It's easy to fall in love, when the feeling is there, when you tend to crave for more of the person. Even simple messages received would send us up to cloud No.9

But, after a few mths/yrs feelings fade.
The natural cycle of every relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls becomes a bother, touch is not always welcomed, and everything about your partner becomes a nuisance to you.

HOWEVER TO MAINTAIN A LONG TERM R/S, IT IS NOT FINDING THE 'RIGHT' PERSON. BUT "IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND"

Sustaining love is not an experience. It'll NEVER just happen like that.
"Lasting Love" can't be found just like that.
You have to put in effort.
That's why there's an expression called "The Labour Of Love".

Intriuging is it?..well i copied and paste, didn't really rephrased this entry.
But in a way, i kinda understands it.
Well, there's differnet opinions i guess?..

off'

Saturday, October 14, 2006

3D2N

Im back! after the 3D2N chalet.

The first day of the chalet didn't do much, because i had to go back school for training.
So by the time i got back to the chalet i was kinda tired already.
Played MJ and some PS2 games.Hmmm, yups that's all that happened the first night.
As all crammed up the sec level, i slept downstairs on the mattress with dar.
The people upstairs complained about the air-con the next morning because they were freezing upstaris, espically Paul hahaha.No doubt i was tired but i didnt really sleep well cus bf was snoring, and before he could really sleep, i was disturbing him like crazy, hahas, i kept singing songs to him, irritating him.LOL, but we quarrelled after that and it was quite bad, he wanted to hit my phone on the wall. Argh.

The next moring, all woke up real early, around 7plus 8?
As jz got to leave for his driving at 11am. He was kinda furious as Josh didnt came back as promised to return jz's bicycle.
Evening came, and it was time for BBQ.
Little crop ups happened. But all was fine after Dar,Irvin and Mas went to Josh's place to get the foods.
People did turn up. No doubt it was little, but still appreciated that the came =)
For those that didnt, it's alright as they had valid reasons.
EVe and LW,Pei Shi,Irvin,Andrew,Jerald,Willkie,Wee Siong,Nicholas and gf,ShiLin,Keng Sian,Joan..hmmm..yeap thanks people for turning up =)
Took pictures with Eve and PS, hahas was nice seeing them.
Had drinking sessions thereafter, and i guess all were drunk and high.
Woke up with splinting headaches and not remembering much of what happened.
I better not drink so much in future. Woke up to and empty chalet, with only Paul,Andrew, Dar and me left. I remembered Kenneth was saying he felt fucked up..LOL..the rest can't really remember.

Overall, the chalet was okay i guess?..

Oh wells, working at 5.
The PSI level is up once again.116 [yucks] bad air.
enough said.

-Out-
First night..Dar and JH playing PS2.
Me playing MJ with Mas,Ken and JH
2nd Night BBQ =) [ps,eve and me]
Me and Eve
Me and PS

Thursday, October 12, 2006

argh.

Just when i thought i could have some peace at home.
SHE has to bring her bunch of friends home, it's nto that i don't welcome them.It's just that my place is in a TOTAL MESS.TOTALLY.
I just dont like the feeling of having guests at my place when my place looks like CRAP.
And now that they are either in the study room or bedroom makes me feel more unhappy bout it.
I would get real mad if their in my room, hogging on my BED!
I'm trying to control my temper now.

And if they're in the study room, my stuff is all over the table!..
argh. Hate this.

Going to bf's chalet later, waiting for him to pick me up.
Been a while since i've been to chalet's or anything that gets me packing my bag.
I guess it would be nice, away from home for a while.
Will be back to work on Sunday, so within this 3 days i HOPE i have FUN, and enjoy myself.
Not much people going, not sure bout tmr, hope ppl do turn up.

Not gonna go much into details le..

I HATE YOU!

Sunday, October 08, 2006

nowadays.

It's more of just a few minutes of phone conversation.
Haven been seeing much of each other.
Called me last night, but i was way tired. He was tired too.
He didn't had dinner nor lunch.
Wonder if he's up already.
Was his last day of work yesterday. Got "tekan" real bad.

Many thoughts ran through my mind.
Good and bad.
What's the feeling like right now?..
Wonder if your're up already?..


Yesterday, went to school late. LOL as per usual.
First it was training, and then it was the friendly match against NYP.
woot`
it was nice though. The communication was there, had so much fun, we dived for the ball, i wasn't really on form to do the spiking but other than that, we ahd fun =)
Though we didnt win, but the morale and all were there, that feeling that was lost for quite a while all came back to me. It was like back to sec sch days man.Nice =)

After everything, went over to my cousin's birthday party, at first it felt kind of outta place, cus there were lots of her classmates there. But after that my uncle and all came hahas, so yea.
Ate alot, till my stomach can't take it.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Should i or should i not?..
not sure.
I guess things are better off kept to myself.
Making so much comments and chats just won't help eventually.
Because people won't understand what im trying to tell.
I guess its better i shut-up.

Not sure what im saying,ha.
That's the idea.

vball! woot!

As per usual, went to work today, nothing much happened.
After work, went for training, wahaha, that's where all the stuff began.
Was having loads of fun, playing sets, 3 on 3 and stuffs..blah blah blah..
hahas, had a last minute friendly match at Bedok erm..the Khaki Bukit there.
And something which you only get to watch on tv happened.
A ROBBERY!..
A real life robbery, hahas 3 guys went to chase the robber, brave people huhs..trainin their stamina.But none of us really paid much attention to it cus we were starting the match.
I was so nervous, as per usual..haiis..
But overcomed it after a few games.

It's kinda down the drain yesterday.
Because of small little things and the matter blew up.
Don't wish to continue further, but..
I was real touched by what he did.Serious.Aint kidding.

But right now, he is having fun.
So yea, i shall go sleep.
Because i believe calling wont help a shit.
He didnt pick up my call just now.
Blardy shit!
i'll go sleep alr.

SHIT.

Monday, October 02, 2006

woot-

yeap im back about my life. haha =p

Phew it's nice to have a long hot bath after a long dayyyyyy at work. hehe.
Well, have I been missing for quite a while?..
Well, my tag still seems active.hahas..
Alright people, for this whole week, im gonna be busy with work and training. Will be working 6 days this week. I'm going to earn $$ to keep my survival on-going. hahas,crap.
Alrights, work was kinda BUSY for me, and i MEAN IT!
Reason being, Roland came down. Yes sh laugh at me. I bet you would when u read this entry. =p
I kept myself busy packing pints, giving my ever best service to customers?..hahas..hmmmm, and er..had bad stomache. LOL
There you have it. A BUSY day. LOL. I'm lazy to go into details. hahas.
Alright, yesterday was worse! =( but luckily, IT'S OVER! =))

As I was saying, yesterday was worse, because I was working at the restaurant and there was HUGE function going on. A wedding banquet.
Luckily i wasn't on the banquet side, bleah. But i aint having a good time on the restaurant side boohoo.We were running like a blardy full house at the start of the night shift.
Tons of customer flocked into the restaurant. In a funny way or other, Willkie came with his family for dinner!!! what a day! hahas, lucky him i don't know his parents name. Wahaha..Sorry im kinda lame, just kidding, but his mum sure wasnt nice to mess with i guess?..LOL..
I was literally on the ball man, BALL!! hahaha, Had so much to do, serve menu,serve bread,fil the CUPS with drinks, Wine, Customer, and blah blah blah.Whew, typing everything out sure would kill my poor fingers. So im not gonna continue. LOL.

I'm working 10-6 tomorrow, people do visit me if ya free?..hahas..
Hmm, Mr Daryl is out with Mas and Co. not gonna mumble anything to him, hahas, Im fine alone at home enjoying the tv =)) serious!
He was mentioning that he saw some hot chicks today, and my reaction was like, Oh..okay good for you, AND HE BLARDY WENT BERSERK..hahahaha..well, not really berserk, he just wants me to flare up but i just feels that it wasnt necessary, he sees hot chicks i see hunks..wahahah..
Does it really kills to literally SEE people?..wahaha, I don't know.
The mysteries lies in the eyes of the beholder...wahahah..
Sounds familiar?..well it's from the "No Fear" tee-shirt.
Aint sure why i can still remember that quote that well..hahahs..

Alright im off
-Out-