Hello ?

This feels so way off.
Why do people held high hopes on me?..
You see people around me, having a goal in life, striving for that something.
On the other hand, I just felt like throwing away all these miseries, studies..
And maybe just work. Work and earn that pathetic sum of money.

There were some motivational talks by Ms Chan, that kinda made me stop in my track.
Realising how I'm wasting my life away.
I dont seem to have that motivation- to push myself to work hard, strive for something.
What do I want in life?
What are/is my goal/goals?
ITE has made me realise some cruel facts which I knew long ago which I just chose to ignore.

Her words. Only this person. Whenever she talks to me. She just wakes me up.
I've seriously let her down. No doubt she isnt that close to me.
But I'm not sure why, but EVERYTIME. I will definately break down in front of her.

It felt nice to receive a lil hug from my younger sister when I got home.

Hurt.

Late entry

This entry came a little late.

In this world, you can't trust just anyone around you.
Especially people you deemed as "FRIENDS"
It might take month/week to make a friend, but it takes seconds to ruin one.
Once bitten twice shy.
I've learned it well. [ YLSX ]
You should know who you are.
I'm too lazy to type out your full name.

You treat us as though you are a GENUINE FRIEND. But behind our backs, you stabbed like mad.
If you werent happy bout something, voice it out. Why used such underhand means.
Put aside that.
Do you remember who offered to give that free gift?..
To think you used the pitiful STORY. Please mend your ways, and STOP YOUR NONSENSE.
Wake up girl. Doesnt mean that when I kept quiet, I'm deemed as such person.
I've heard what you said about me.
If I were to see you on the street, I wont walk away and ignore your presence.
I would like to sit down and hear what you have to say.
This is not how "FRIENDS" treat one another.
You dont seem evil, but it kills to know you have hidden agendas.
You said too much about almost everyone.
You hate the fact that people disallowed their friends to change working venue with you.
At least that person confessed/told you. We heard your stories, we stood by you.
Now that you have made a grave mistake, you turned back to that person.
Please search your conscience.

You may/ may not see this entry. I dont care.
It's no point not turning up for school.
Do what you do best.
Save your own ass.

IT'S TIME TO SUMO.

DONT YOU DARE.

Dont you dare try anything funny.
That's all I can say.
No one will know what I'm saying, but that culprit. YOU BETTER WATCH YOUR BACK.

I hate to say this. But what is there for you to look forward to huh?..
GET OUT THE WAY. If it aint yours' please FUCK OFF.
Yes, I am a very angry woman now. NOW!.
I hate you!, why is your presence everywhere. Cant you just DISAPPEAR!.

ARGH. I'm so angry for the wrong reasons.

Went for combine school selection today, must say the training is kinda different from sec school days.
It feels like soccer training to me..hahas..oh well at least I get to play with balls..LOL that sounded SO WRONG.
I mean at least I get to play volleyball. Hmmm, people do have different views, and I must say I'm impressed in a way. hmmm, wonder if I'll turn up for school later..I wonder.. hmmm..
So, after training, we went to have our dinner, I was VERY HUNGRY..hahas, but I gobbled down my chicken rice..
No further comments on that..[ My lips are sealed ]

Slacked further at TM mac, lol..gossips and more gossips.. muahahas..
You young lil thing sure is attractive aye..hahaha..

It's like 1.29 am on my computer clock and some faggot are still singing Karaoke ..
I hope the man in blue gets to you man..

This entry is definately SSOOOOOOO RANDOM.
But I like. =)

Sorry for not turning up at the Chalet, my apologies-

The idiot is back..

A very long time since I've last logged in to write something that happened on a particular day of my life.
Well, I did something new for the first time yesterday.. I put on fake lashes..hahas..it's VERY DIFFICULT TO PUT ON!..
Well, the comments given were kinda bad, they told me to TAKE IT OFF!!..wahahas..
Went over to study at Van's place..well.. =p as expected, we did everything cept studying..LOL
Gotta go prepare for work later..BOO =(

COLLEGE EAST GOT CHAMPION FOR 2007!! yea!!!!! =))
It's like 7 years of playing volleyball, FINALLY A GOLD MEDAL!!!!! =))

I'll be joining the combine team, going for the first training tomorrow =)
And maybe, chalet after that.

I've recovered from the bad fever, and now I'm back eating ALOT. =(

Cant remember what to write anymore..
Off to prepare for work..

Feeling so frustrated right now!!..UGH
With the fever and the "time of the month", it's seriously getting on my nerves.
Did nothing at all for the whole day.
I just slept my day away..
Got my sis to sponge me..
At least it helps to bring down the fever.
Now, it's the cramps that is killing me.
Slight depression on my tummy and the pain would be worsened.

Sick and cramps! WOAH`
Combo hit. =(

Still Sick

It's like I'm FINALLY SICK! =)
At first I was like, yea! I'm sick! hahas, kinda sick of me to think that but yea..
I just want to be sick!..
But after being sick for so long, it's kinda getting on my nerves..
Waking up every other morning, feeling like shit.
This morning was bad. =(
Been coughing alot too, not sure why but my throat is VERY ITCHY!..
And now blogger saves my drafts automatically..hahas, so cool.
No more fried food/ fast foods for me.
NOT EVEN CLUBBIN =( ARGH!
Been watching MTV almost the whole day..not really in the right condition to do a proper entry.
Wait till I get better, then I'll come back to continue..

Sick

Not sure what virus hit me but I was coughing non-stop.
I was literally coughing throughout the night, and was having difficulties falling asleep.
Woke up this morning to realise that I had fever.
Thus, skipped school once again.

My neck was killing me, cant seem to tilt it upwards else it'll be very painful..
Got to force myself out of bed this morning. UGH.
Feeling real weak now, not sure why the fever hit me..

Though I'm sitting in front of the com, and the fan is blowing at me..
I still feel very irritated, my neck is giving me problems..

Anyway, was suppose to head down to Art friends today..UGH :(
And I was suppose to attend Clark's birthday party at Aloha..my god..Sorry Clark.

Maybe I'll go back and lie down..
Not feeling very good.
Gone for now..

Painted my nails black,while watching "Mars Versus Venus"..
This kinda shows always relates to my feelings.
The killer part was Huang Bi Ren's part..
When both parties are stubborn and refuses to say any further..
Communication Breakdown Syndrome.

Hais, she did so much for her husband.
Knowing that he is facing some financial problem and it so happened that she gets to take part in some tv game show competition to win some cash prize to help him tide over..
She didnt explain her intentions, and misunderstandings happened.
The mother-in-law was fucked up.
I'm kinda lazy to write out the whole show. But the gist is that, the husband misunderstood her.
And it killed me on the spot. I teared kinda badly at the ending.
Because they broadcasted her on tv. She telling her viewers how much she loved her husband..and the best husband she ever had..My god..and to think the husband wanted a divorce.

Nothing much for me to blabber anymore,
nites.

Gathering =)

Met up with my favourites this morning for breakfast at Cartel..
I was as usual VERY LATE..hahas..
But they ordered a ermm..not sure what it's called..it consists of 2 sunny side up, a few bacons, 2 sausages
and ermm egg toast bread and a muffin. SHIOK. That was my meal of the day..
We were planning..I hope this plan works.. =)
Saw Senget queing outside Cartel with his family..hahas..
Heard some news that was quite shocking to us.
Girl..you still have us..

Alright, after breakfast and a lil of aimless shopping, it was time for me to punch-in.
UGH. But I manage to hit target for today..hmmm..I hope I can hit all..
I kept looking at my phone in hope of some people to msg me or call the counter to disturb me,,
But there was none.
Sorry for giving you headaches..I'm fine =))

I was literally in a daze when I had no customers to serve, flashbacks..they are the deadliest..
Slowly tears formed..but I didnt let it flow..cus I aint no crybaby. I'm gonna PROVE YOU WRONG.
But that was not the worst that hit me badly..
I saw my friend. For 5 years we hadn't met up only happened to talk in MSN..
A friend who chose to delete me away from the contact list..
I still regard you as a friend.
We were walking the opposing direction, I guess you were heading home..
I was heading for my bus..
We exchanged glances, I held your arm..
Yet you just walked away, like what your last msg said...
"Forget that you knew me.."
You literally ignored me, as though some stranger bumped into you..
Tears dropped..
I wanted to msg you, but I held back.I ruined the friendship.

Met up the usuals for supper..
He came..but..
the feeling is just not there anymore..
despair is the word for me now I guess?..

Dont wish to think any further..
nites.

Didnt had much sleep last night.
That "sour feeling" kicked in once again.
My heart felt real painful.
I dont wish to bother anymore.
I'm gonna change back to my normal self.
I wont make you feel as though I'm controlling you.
I'll leave you on your own.

Just when I thought things were going smoothly..there comes that little bump.
Just when I thought everything fits into the picture..
Just when I thought, I've changed.
Reality just slaps me back on my face.
Things aint working smoothly for people around me lately either..
Disappointments..
Bullshits..
Just so you know..
I'm crumbling once again..
I hate this.

Pictures! =)

Random pictures I feel like uploadin..Fang!!! I cant find ur pic..needa get the rest from cactus!..hahas

Was out last night to meet up with the Tembeling people.
Had fun at Kbox, sang to my heart content and headed to Hong Kong Cafe for supper.
Had fun sharing ghost stories, my favourite, especially when Marcus and Weizheng are around.
They updated a few ghost stories that made me stop and think for a while.
Life after death..wooo..

Not much people was there, Kbox was with Yufeng, her friend and Marcus.
Marcus didnt sing!!!!!..hahas, I was kinda like hoggin the mic.. =x

Ali came with his gf, but not sure y, he didnt look for us..BAD!!..
There was Jasmine,Lloyd,Eric,Feng,ME,and Marcus.
So it was just a lil get together.
But it was nice hanging out, chilling. Talking rubbish, hahas..

Shall upload some pics later..
toodles.

meeting Ms popcorn =)

The weekends are here once again, been slacking alot lately.
And this is only like my 3rd week of school is it?..or is it more than that already??..hahas.
Hmm, might be crashing NYP tmr, not sure though, see how first.
Tembeling gathering tmr, wahahas, been a long time since I've seen those ppl.. =)

Nothing much for me to do now..
Went to some places that I wish I do not have to set foot there anymore.

Good nites.