I wonder where it's heading

Some say move on some say you're not ready to move on.
Im sticking to my own grounds, I cant help it at times.
I'm still stuck. I definately let a few people down. Some say, this is something only I can help myself with, some thinks it's a very small matter.

If all these "some says" made sense, am I too stubborn to understand that?.
I know Im trying to prove something here, but.
I dunno how to put it. Damnit.
This definately gonna affect people around me, be it one way or the other.
Im shutting myself up these days.
Shutting those thoughts, having sleepless nights, great.

Things Im suppose to use my brains- Accounts, studies, refuse to be in use.
Instead issues like the matter of the heart, the mind, me-myself, people around me.
I cant..just cant..
Okay maybe I can if I stop telling myself I cant..
But seriously Im contradicting what I belief and what Im thinking.

----Just now..
Was watching Heroes, now Im watching it again on StarWorld. Hahas, now Im stuck to this show which is not doing me any good, it's past bedtime, hahas! like I really sleep that early.
Now Im like a psycho talking to myself..damnit.
" Kiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll You! " hahas, Achmed something if Im not wrong, hahas.
Oh yea, "Brothers & Sisters " seems like a nice show to watch too, but my mum is kinda irritating while watching that show with me just now, she just cant stop commenting on how FAKE people could get, come to think of it..at times you seriously cant help it, dont you?..

Phew..this seems like a long entry or it isnt?..
There's just too many things on my mind man..

Like what I told peishi..
I've isloated myself. Hahas.