Im not alone

I'm leaving tonight once again for another overnight, will be back tmr morning. I hope tonight will be a smooth one. No troubles for any of us. Imagining what's gonna happen later tonight freaks me out. But I've got go through it, to overcome my fears. To do it once and do it right. To proof myself wrong.



Woke up early this morning despite sleeping only at 5am just to watch the news about the solar eclispe thingy. It might sound a little dumb to some people, but in a way Im more or less very interested in such phenomenon. It would have been the greatest gift for me if I were in India,Japan or China to watch this spectacular event which will never happen in our lifetime till another 100 odd plus years later?. I wonder if they have the meteor rain thingy happening ever again?, since I stupidly missed it back then when I was like Sec 2? cant really remember but I know I was at Pasir Ris Park, hoping so badly to see it, but it started raining thus I headed back home. I only managed to see one shooting star when I gaze up at my window before I slept that night. When my friend actually called and told me she saw the whole astonishing moment right outside her balcony. Like wth....oh well.



Im invited to go back to HSC to play vball tomorrow, but it's during the boys training. Which I dont feel comfortable with. Unless I can find khakis to go with me tomorrow.. any takers?, any itchy backsides feel like playing vball tomorrow?, msg me!! I'll try to reply asap once I've touchdown tomorrow. It'll be about noon time around 3 plus?..will see about that. I just miss playing vball. It brings back lots of funny memories.



Off for my power nap now.

ciaoz.

Survivor hardcore.

Try going for an overnight with a mere 3 hours rest. HIOUGHZ to the MAX!.
Freaking bulls wasnt helping. I was like a souless fella walking in the cabin, plus the peeling from the sunburnt aint helping much, I had to freaking spray the moisture surge thingy on my face like thousand and one times when I looked at myself in the mirror, it looks as though there were saliva stains all around my mouth. Imagine that. Yucks to the core. And I had to touch up like thousand and one times. So all in all it was thousand and one to the power of ten balls. Yeap, Im yeak-ke-dy-del-dy with all the what nots. Hahahha. Literally TOH!

I panic for like 5 mins outside my house just now. Fearing that my keys wasnt with me. For a moment I really wished Coco could open the door for me. LOL!. I had to like fumble with my bag to find the keys. I was on the verge of tears balls. The thought of sleeping outside my house was like so gonna happen. IMAGINE THAT!!! LOL. CRISPY TO THE MAX!!!

This is my most HARDCORE ever time taken awake balls.
The cold water is calling out to me now, ciaoz!

Who stole the cookie jar?..

Step down for 4 days

Received a msg from my cabin crew manager after my flight yesterday that, I've got to be taken off from my flights until the 7th of July. I was extremely happy at first cus Im more of a slacker. =X but then again, the sad part came. I've got to stay home to rest and avoid going out to crowded places. So yea, my weekends are still burnt. Worse of all, I cant meet people, as I've got to be responsible on my part. In case anything were to happen to me, at least I was responsible enough to keep away.

Daryl was real sweet this afternoon, he surprised me with a box of duck rice for my lunch =) when I was actually angry with him for not calling me or even leave me a msg. He didnt came into my house, just passed me my meals and left for home. I cried. It was his thoughts that touched me. Thankew so much sweets =)

I guess I'll be blogging quite frequently these days. Maybe I'll just slack today, then maybe tmr or something I'll start clearing my stuff, sorting out my cupboards and all. Or maybe do some online shopping, hahas.

I need a proper holiday. =(

Sometimes it's just a thin line.
Sometimes the tension is so strong, but when I tried to bring it back it let go.
Now it's back to the past.


Priorities fails.

My all time favourite. [ You are not alone ]

Rest in peace.

Sweet Bitterness.

Firstly Happy Birthday to my baby sister JOLEEN TAN HWEE SAN, finally her sweet 16th birthday. Sadly, it's also my 1st day of work after 1 week of leave. I feel so half hearted suddenly.

It's been a long time since Im talking to my sister on our bed, side by side. Been missing out quite a bit, but I've caught up with her. =) It feels good, like someone you're really comfortable with to relate everything ...cus we're blood sisters. Like DUH~
Im glad the bond is still as strong as ever. Feeling a little emotional right here right now.

Although people admires my family, I feel that it's all surface. Yes, there's time when I really felt the warmth, but lately, I guess cus of my absence from home, it felt cold. I love my family alot I really do, but can you believe it?, it's the hardest to express your feelings to them. Especially me. I'm a very emotional fella these days. When I talked to my sister, my tears just literally rolled down.

[FAMILY= Father and Mother I love you. ]

This is freaking corny I know, but it's really what Im feeling. Although there were times when I got irritated, times when I just wanna scream my lungs out. But the thought of them, when they get older and when they have to leave us one day. Im scared. Really.

Sometimes some stuffs are really too late, though I always encourage people to do something for their family, dont neglect and all....

Apparently, I'm the one that lacks the courage to shower my love to my family. Because we have neglected it for so long, that it became so foreign to me, that I feel so uncomfortable. Like we're strangers living under the same roof, I miss the times when I just sat down with my family watching some nonsense show on the tv, and laughing it out.I miss that warmth.

There's so much more to say, but nah.
Every family has their little secrets. This is something I need to overcome and put in more effort.


I love my family.



People, please dont neglect your family members because they are the ones that sticks to you till the end.

Dont misunderstand me. I dont hate any of you.

Moment

For a moment I just felt like giving up everything. This is crappy.
What means the most now?, what is it that is causing me to falter. When some stuff diminishes.

I need that holiday so freaking soon.

Understand me please..

Thinking cap

Been a down period lately, like a landslide that came so abruptly, that there's no escape. It has covered up everything. Life brings many unpredictable changes, how have you managed? Is it suffocating you already?, has everything bottled up till it's brim already?..

Hang on, this tidal wave is gonna die down soon. For the meantime, hold on tight.

Im having a whirlwind inside me now, and Im so tired now, yawning away. Hahas.

Good nites people =)
Xoxo,
Jojo.

* A tiny wish for everyones trouble to slowly fade away, and that the happiness could be felt again..




Chuck Norris doesnt sleeps, he waits.

Heartfelt condolence

As more bodies were found, my heart sank, been reading about the news, hoping for a miracle. It was a devastating news. Since the day it went missing till the sightings of debris of the plane, till bodies now found. No matter how slim the chances are, I hope the people that manage to survive held on. When the report came out that there were babies on board. It killed me.

Imagine a full flight, filled with happy holiday goers.. geez.

I WANT!!

There were so many I wants when I headed to town today.

The list goes on. Be it mentally noted or spoken out loud.

-MacBook Air
-Addidas Jacket
-New Bag!!
-Slippers
-Fred Perry shoes
-PSP!!!!!!!!! ( Can someone just give it to me please, best in Ver.2000 )
-A good tan
-Slimming machine ( unrealistic) freaking ex.
-Tour around Europe.

My mental notes for GSS.
It's too wth.. I doubt any would be accomplished.

I'M FREAKING BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!! =(


Kimgary is my new love! <3

PS: Thankew lazybones for bringing my stuffs over to my place ;)
hahaha.

Low

Down period. The red alert is getting nearer. Affecting so many stuff, was all positive when I was at work today although I was tired. I was extremely polite. And was even complimented on my good service. =) reason being, Im off as of today!! 04/06/2009. HAHAS. =))

Had an arguement after my flight, now Im in a more stable state, time for my brains to process, but apparently, Im physically tired. Exhausted, I'll think about it after my good night's rest. Met up with the usuals for a while, my ku partner has finally passed her FTT =))) CONGRATULATIONS!! =) her 1st attempt. Now Im waiting for her to drive me around! hahas. Dont worry, Im very patient. HAHAHA.

I hope it rains heavily tonight, so that I get to sleep peacefully. =) Currently Im wide awake cus I've just bathed in cold water. The freaking weather is driving me NUTS.

Im cutting down on sweets and chocolate for the time being. LIM BEI TOOTHACHE IS BACK!!! %#@%!^$ hahaha. And my bloody big sweep TIO JIA!!!! =( damnit. No luck siol.

Enough said,
I'm gonna turn in soon..

I will overcome my weakness.

Sweet memories

It's good to know that no one is forgotten or left behind..

The kitchen madness..











I chose the consequences. Feel the pain.

SINFUL!!!!

This sinful little thing made me gained 2kg!! =( Feaking disappointed. So much for a strict diet, Im still a sucker for chocolates eventually.






Cherish whatever you have..

another day

It feels apart. When did it felt like that.
Losing it.

Lazy Saturday

It's a lazy Saturday for me, no call ups =)
Im gonna take a nap now, ate loads of nonsense in the morning, and it feels horrible. FAT ALERT! Too much sweet indulgence lately, so much so that, it's gone beyond limits. Daily dosage of chocolates. Makes me a happy person and the extra calories!!!!

It feels good to be able to cheer friends up =)

Nap time!!

sometimes

I feel so exhausted though I've slept like half a day away. I feel so SICK. My throat is killing, my headache is pounding, my heart is fuming and my nails are chipped. Ha! that's random.
Weekends are here and it feels like crap. I wonder what else is there to be said. Sometimes I wish to be nice, sometimes I choose to remain silent. Sometimes I just hate being forced, sometimes I'm all game for it. Apparently for today, I feel like a murderer. Or maybe, I wish, "we" didnt exist.

Too many thoughts in my head, some kept lingering, some just floats away.

Some says:
When love and hate collide.

Emotional wreck

Friendship.
Any one that enters your life, made an impact.

WOAH!

MY HEAD FEELS LIKE A FREAKING YAGERBOMB!! CHAOTIC!!

Moody

I've got no mood for work today, I have a feeling Im gonna fall sick soon, but the thermometer shows 35 degree celcius. Damnit. Aint human. Hahas, back to back Phuket followed by off on Monday. I'm gonna be very busy on Monday, to do some collection of stuffs and some other errands for myself.

I feel so lazy right now. =( BOO!. At least this is a chop chop flt.

Ignorance is bliss.

Nothing's fair.

I can blame no one but my own doings. For landing myself in this half fucked situation. Now that Im so freaking motivated to give my best shot. It just kills me on the spot. Like a freaking headshot. No chance given. No mercy. This stupid system. My stupid brain. It's freaking driving me nuts.
Not that there is no hope for me, but, it's more like something I dread doing. And I dont wish to see myself slogging my life for that. I've chose the wrong path once and I dont wish to go on it again.
Now that I've finally made up my mind, the door just shuts on me. I need to know, but Im afraid of rejection. Im ready for it, but is it gonna give me a chance? CRAP.

I dont have the upperhand.

Stressed out.
Wo yao du shu.. =(
Without that stupid 5 O's credit..

Where's that chocolate bar...