The cycle

Each time when I'm back home, there's bound to be new stories heard. The anger and the disappointments. It has come to a point where it got so bad, everyone is giving up.

Oreo Cheesecake

I've finally used the recipe Sop got for me- Oreo cheesecake. Though it took 12 hours to complete, it was a satisfaction! as this was the first time attempting it, there was lots of things to be done through that 12 long hours. The effort, the patience, the correct ingredients, the heat. Best of all, we did everything without a CAKE MIXER. To whisk the egg whites till it turns into "foam" was extremely tiring! effort goes to Sher for that. All in all we baked about 10 cheesecakes. LOL~! the first 4 were burnt due to the adjustments of the time and temperature, we need to trial and error due to the size of my oven and that we couldn't follow the exact timing and temperature given on the recipe.

When we finally had our very first successful cheesecake done, that feeling of satisfaction and excitement was overwhelming..it felt good. (:

I'm definitely going to get a cake mixer soon before the next baking session, in the meantime, I'm gonna go to the fridge to grab more cheesecake as it's finishing soon!

xoxo

Jojo (:

It's interesting to know that, there's actually people reading my entries, and that your comments do make my day. Be it for your sarcasm or your thoughts that you think it'll kill you if you don't pen it down. I appreciate the feedback. Be it I'll taste my own medicine or not, it's not up to you to conform upon me. No one is saint, did I not say that I'm not here to be a clown to please all?. People do make mistakes, and learn from it, maybe you haven't learn from yours. Or that maybe you haven't realize you did fault as well? why not just learn from it and MOVE ON?. I know I've made mistakes in my life, and that there'll never come a second chance to change the facts. It'll take time to let it go, if I irks you that much.. you could jolly well not read my entries.

Don't torture yourself. Stop making yourself a living hell. Move on..

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Tonight I feel otherwise.

going "buck" to work

The 9 days of leave has finally come to an end. Though we've only spent our days in sunny island Singapore, it was more than enough for us to have the fun and rest we needed. (:

It seriously doesn't matter whether you'll be able to go overseas or not when you're on leave. It's the company that means the whole lot. As for now, I've to compose myself, and prepare for work tomorrow. Though there were times that we dread heading back to work, I guess we should strike a balance between work and play..not gonna whine anymore that I'm heading back to work.

Cheerios~

what goes around comes around

I'm not perfect no one is, I'm not saying that everyone has to like me neither am I here to be a clown to please all. After a while in this chaotic industry or should I say in every industry, you'll learn that you can't trust no one except yourself. If you're able to find a handful amongst the people, you should start counting your blessings.

I'm glad I know who got my back, so long as you do what you're suppose to do and not interfere in unnecessary 'stirs', you're more or less on safe grounds. I'm no master of the 'sa-ka' and do not bow down to them. I'm trying to learn the way of not being so judgmental of things/people unless necessary. It's a bad habit I picked up before and I'm trying to do away with it. After all, 'hear says' are pretty harmful, it hurts relations and other factors will subsequently snowball.

It's best to let bygones be bygones.
Be the bigger man..

Early morning

It's pretty sad that I can't continue to sleep further especially on my off day. I gave up trying to sleep after tossing and turning in bed for the longest time ever.

I've another dental appointment later at 9:30am with RMG. I'm bearing so much fear in me, I guess that's partly why I couldn't sleep in peace. The thought of the dentist trying to use those shiny equipments in my mouth..UGH. It's really a serious investment for me. The sufferings just got to end. I haven't been able to chew properly for the longest period of time and it seriously upsets me, as I'm a person that's fond of eating. It came to a point whereby I rather pop pills to kill the aches and not eat for the rest of the day, that's how bad the ache got to me. No more sweet tooth, it has finally taken a toll on my tooth. ) :

While these past few weeks that I'm away from here, I went ice-skating!! I enjoyed myself a lot though it was kind of tiring as I was trying to cope with the skates for the first hour, while the bf has to stick with me to ensure that I don't fall. So sweet of him, so bad of me. I kept pushing him away, as in I want him to go enjoy, instead of sticking to me when I needed support. LOL. It was pretty much a tiring day for him, as he was wearing skates that had slightly bended blades. I really enjoyed skating. At least I managed to skate better in the second hour. We bought volleyball as well. (: can't wait to get my hands on it (: There's so much that went on in the past weeks, caught a few movies, hung out with his friends. All in all I don't have much to complain about (: hahaha.


I enjoyed myself while bf did the back breaker (:

It's been a while since I've penned down a proper entry. Days been going by pretty fast. I've a feeling I didn't worked hard enough this month, and it's already coming to an end. May is approaching, and I can't foresee what's ahead. There'll definitely be lots of things going on but can't picture it as of yet but I can finally say TGIF tomorrow because I'll be off (:

It's been a while since I really dress up for an occasion/outing and the only group of people that makes me feel so stressful when I have to meet up with them-the primary school peeps. It's either I'll be overdressed or under,which in this case it's always UNDER. LOL I'll be meeting them tomorrow and now I've a huge headache on what to wear. The theme is "Casual". When questioned what's Fang's casual, she told me "either maxi dress or long skirt.." base on my understanding, my form of casual are :shorts, tees, tank tops,etc. LOL oh well.. I hope I'll figure something out by tonight.

It's been the longest time since I've seen the ladies, work has really tied them down, having to meet with deadlines and all. I wonder what I'll be like if I were in their "mess" hahaha. Sitting in the office cramping the accounts, the audits, reports and more reports. Generating brain cells every single day. Sometimes, I do feel like changing my job to work in the office, to experience those "OL's" lifestyle and also to work my rusty braincells a little...

Time will tell, I'm giving myself 2 years to figure it out..

Thoughts lingers~

Drop that bomb

Im weighing at 56kg as of 18 April 2011. FAT PIG IS BACK!!!

Failed Model LOL

Went for a photo shoot today. It was crazy, hmm not much of a fun experience for me as I was clad in outfits that I wasn't comfortable with. Oh well, guess I'm not cut out to be a model after all. Hopefully I'll look okay?. LOL. At least I've the experience of how life's like in the office of a magazine company. It looks pretty interesting..hmm (:

All in all it's the experience ;) thanks Nget lol.

Met up with Sher for lunch after the photo shoot, as I looked pretty horrendous, I got myself shades that's kinda expensive. Finally had my dessert at Bugis. Had the longest conversation on the "Hello Kitty". Having lots of fun making fun of it, Sher actually searched the web for Kitty's surname, twin sisters name..LOL.. I had my fair share of fun laughing my ass off.. (:

good night world..
xoxo

jojo.

Supper?

Supper sessions never leaves me with only undigested food and water retentions, in fact it's times like this when we sit down and talk about life, anything and everything. It works like a reminder sometimes, to make you reflect on yourself a little, and realise that actually there's changes in yourself that you didn't feel. Sometimes changes are good, if it helps you grow.. if it doesn't, and your perceptions and all gets confused and mixed up, it'll be nice to have someone to trigger you.

The topic that we touched on and all, it shows how much I've pulled myself away from all these, and how comfortable I'm in my tiny box.. talks like these that makes me get back on track. I enjoy hearing people talking about life and all, especially when they've got lots of encounters of weird and funny things..

Do I even make sense?.. hmm..

Don't wanna be in the default category, I wanna learn more things!

funny shit!

April FOOLS

I seriously feel like a fool right now preparing for flight..it's so freaking early!! waking at 2am when I got home only like 11plus last night..Doubly shitty..

It's not "where" that gets to me..maybe I just bother too much..

I miss Taiwan but...

Monday that has blue written all over my forehead

This morning I woke up dreading for work. I feel mentally sick, like literally trying to psycho myself to fall sick this instance so that I won't have to feign any illness. I was feeling lethargic, it's morning like this that makes me wanna change my job. Mornings' like this that makes me wanna do something outrageous like calling some random figure waking them up to pee or just to company me on the phone while I make my way to work. It's times like this that I've to remind myself, STOP BEING LAZY.

Let's think of happy things to make me feel a little tad un-blue.

-My toothache is gone! (: (touch wood)
-I've got myself Laniege's powder (:
-My nails ain't chipped
-My Sunday with my family was amazingly FUN (:
-Fell asleep while reading
-Ice cream chef =))
-Changed my seat, it feels so comfy as though someone's hugging me.. (:
-Tamagochi! =) haha..

Alrights I'm ready for work! (:

xoxo
Jojo

Happy 1 year anniversary (:

To the little one

I've still the habit when Im home whenever I walk past the kitchen, I'll still turn my head to look at the place where you used to be..

I miss you little one..

In loving memories.. 26 Feb 2011

Coco left me, in my arms..
I'll miss you..


Heart aching..

done

Finally fell into a deep sleep at 8 plus this morning, woke up at 12 plus. Packed my cabin bag, cleared some stuffs, ironed my uniform,vacuumed the place and had my nails painted. Everything done within 2 hours (: It felt good. Will take a rest, wait for my nails to dry and there after to TM to get lunch.

Will be back to work tomorrow, the thought of having to head to office tomorrow makes me a lil uncomfortable. Shall continue later.. back to tv (:

Addicted

Facebook is addictive, it's becoming a daily routine for people to log on to it.
And times like this when I CANT FALL ASLEEP AGAIN!!! that I'll end up going online. This is crappy. =(

I'm sleepy but I can't fall back asleep again. My nose is blocked and the mood swing is bad. The worse of all, IM HAVING MAJOR OUTBREAKS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Clicked on my past entries, went all the way back to "2006" and the first entry that appears with the header "INSOMIA!!" greeted me.LOL, it's been with me so many years..

Was out with Sheryl and Teressa to town yesterday, curb my wanton mee cravings at Graffiti Cafe once again before heading for another singing session at Kbox. They were having this promotion $57.50 for 3 hours so I kept within my budget range for yesterday spending less than $40. I was literally hogging the mic, and Teressa had to search for songs for us.. but the amount of screaming wasn't enough for me..












I hate mood swings, it makes me all so emotional..negative at it's best..
I need happy pills..