Randomness

I've finally slept for a whole 10hours!! woots~ =) It feels so good.

What a lazy afternoon, what should I do today, since I'll definately be called up tomorrow for flight. Hmmm..

Some random shit happened yesterday, met Nic after I've seen the doc. Have an aching back recently, doc said was cus of my posture. It's slightly aching as Im typing away. Kind of lazy to go to the sinseh which is only 4 bus-stops away. Bought my favourite pineapple tart at Isetan yesterday, like it lots! :) though there's only 8 packets in that big box. Afterwhich to the KTV at Serangoon Gardens. Drama mama part happened. While I was alighting from the cab, there was another vehicle at the back sounding it's horn. So we were kinda rushing out. Jumped out of the cab as soon as possible and happily slammed the door assuming Nic had alighted from the other side.."BAM! the door slammed straight into her.." The moment she came out of the cab, she was laughing and laughing, the next moment tears trickle down. " WTF!! sorry!! is it painful??!!" and her bloody reply was.."it's not painful I'm crying cus I was shocked, and it's so funny!!" wtf right.. this SHA DA JIE!! Omg..
Then followed by the heartless fella who finally called after like 5days later..and the joker can still joke with me. I cried a river balls..LOL. Thanks ar Daryl.

I wanna watch "The Ugly Truth" and " Inglorious Basterds".
I'll never forget "The Proposal". The funny incident that happened.

Can someone plan an outing soon?!! Im rotting.

Im tired of life's struggle that permeates my life constantly.

Can I?

I felt better after the encouragements from those I've least expected. It was funny, sitting in front of the monitor and laughing away. Those were the days..

Can I get back those days, when nothing bothers me. Just enjoying all the time spent with friends, family, Dar.. this small little stone seems to be stucked to me. It made me stop in my track.

I needa get some laughing gas need it badly.

Town

Will be heading town later to do my nails. Apart from that, nothing else. AHHHh crap.
Tummy feels like crap now, it's the 4th time Im heading to the toilet. UGH!. No programs for today as well. Daryl will be going out with his friends for bingo night. And I forgotten about it! geez~

Not whinning or anything. Just nothing to say. Guess I'll just walk around in town hmm, maybe I'll bring a book with me, just chillout at starbucks or something and just read away...

gonna prepare now..

speechless.

literally.

This aint consequences that any of us will do.

Who really understands me?.

I just lost 2.

Dark Circles

My eyes looks as dead as a fish's eye. And surrounding it are dark dark circles. =( Insomnia is the result of it all. I feel like shit.

It's finally my 3rd day for today, cant wait for tomorrow.

Had a dream recently, that got me to open up my diary to read through. Warm tears trickle down as I flip through. Just rewinding, nothing else. It's like reading a novel, in Singapore's well-known "singlish" writings. There were so many grammar mistakes,those days; when I tried to indicate a "." after every word. Those were just early phases of my life, times when I was in my world, the "lala" lands. HAHAS!!

This world is full of unexpected changes, that sometimes it scares us or should I say ME to be exact. I feel disappointed that I cant stand firm on my grounds. Whatever that I say. I contradicts myself. Easily being stepped on, knocked down. But when I try to. I got overboard and people shun away from me.

UGH, just pms-ing again.

Shall open that longan bought from prime. Haha!

No surprise

Yeap, woke up by Daughtry's-No surprise. Im called up for a long flight ( Lombok ). Regretted not calling in earlier to report sick, I still feel the shivers and irritating cold sweat. But I've got no choice hopefully I'm functional today.

Feeling kind of hungry right now, but dont seem to have the appetite to eat anything not even the Redondo-Vanilla wafer sticks that never fails to keep me munching. :( this is so irritating. Will be back only about 10 tonight. Wonder if there's anything I'm able to get at Lombok?..hmm.

I guess I better go rest a while more before I prepare for work.

Ciaoz.

down

Eventually Im on MC for today but tomorrow standby. I cant sleep!! that's the irritating part! I cant fall asleep.. =(
I feel as though Im floating when I walk and my head weighs more than a ton. This is unbearable. SO IRRITATING!!!!

I've gulped down like 2litres of water already. I feel so bloated and green. LOL.

Nights.

SICK =(

Im seeing stars, Im running a temperature. This feels like shit.

simple minded?

What have I done?.

It's crumbling me inside.
Why things got to be so complicated?.
I dont wanna choose sides.

Everything I had, is slipping away..

Just merely a week, so much had happened.

" There are things we can't see eye to eye with, things that are of different perspectives. Maybe it's just a mere week, I sensed a whole different feeling all over."

stucked.

Judgemental

As much as I tried not to be one. I failed. I was judging.
Someone made me realise it while working today. I realise I fumbled, blurred out. Total knockout when I was working. Reason being.. " cus you've heard too much and judged, before you gave it a chance..". I was guilty of it. It got me so nervous and everything, I kept reminding myself to be precise in my service and all, but it made it all worse because I was too concentrated on my performance, I didnt wanted to be picked on. When everything tenses up, everything I did screwed up. Given the benefit of the doubt, I would have been killed on the spot but I faced it.

Aint gonna make this blunder again.
Aint judging no more. Just treating people the way, I want people to treat me back.

I've faced my fears.

Bad weather

Though it has been wonderful nights for everyone. People that have got to work above land, 30 000 feet above at night got to go through bad turbulence. I've had my fair share and it was rather bad last night. Do take care people!

My head feels very heavy right now. Fever is on it's way.

I see red skies, lightings and thunder right now. It's gonna last for the whole of 7th month.. pros can cons.. hais.

Borrowed my sister's Renoir for a day tomorrow. hehe :) hope it kills my temptations.
Got to get rest now.

Good nights.
=) Jojo.

ooohh chilly morning.

Good morning people! this is absolutely due to the new games in the DS that made me wake up so early in the morning. Im having an evening flight later so yea. Got to reach briefing room only like 7:30pm? it's an overnight flight, will be back only the early morning of tomorrow. Hopefully by then, my emails have been replied!, I've been waiting and waiting for the reply, it got me so impatient seriously.

I want a change of phone. I want LG Renoir. =( yes, this IS base on impulse. Therefore I'm waiting to see if this temptation is gonna die off any time soon. Hopefully by this week, else Im gonna get it. I'm trying to quit this habit of changing phone so regularly. I dont remember any phone that stick to me more than a year. That was the past I hope and that Im able to stick to this for a longer period even if problems had surfaced. It was due to my own carelessness. I've forgotten to turn off my phone onboard for the 3rd time this month, and everything is going haywired. It either stays in a particular page for a long period of time or everything appears in reverse dual screen.

Another news has been heard. Though it doesnt really affect me, it just make me feel that 2009 isn't a great year for all. Like literally. It's been affecting me in a way or another, but Im trying my best to remain positive. I believe you should too. I pray that everything will go smoothly for you.

Back to my ds..

unexpected.

Life has many unexpected changes.

Please pull through..

problem stacko

YES!. Tons of problems.

Grandpa is in hospital now. But I wont be able to visit him. Due to the H1N1 and what nots. My name is not reflected on the visitors list. So I wont be able to visit. So now hospitals restrict the amount of visitors visiting patients.
He had a fall, his hand was badly scalded. He fell in the toilet, scalded himself while he tried to grab hold of something. Mum said he was crying badly when she went to visit. He couldnt make out his words, mum said was kinda slurring and he has to see a speech therapist. I hope it's not stroke again. The new place doesnt seem "clean". Hope you get well soon grandpa.

I just dont know how to bring myself to face you.
It's just something that can never be erased from my heart.

understand?

I just need a listening ear/ a shoulder to lean on.

3rd Day

It's my 3rd day of work today, going to get prepared for work after this entry.

Went over to Adelina's wedding last night after my flight, all the way at Woodlands okay. Hahas, rushed down after work. The freaking cab cost me a bomb! could have bought a top with that money! lol. It cost me about $35! cus the taxi driver aint familiar with Woodlands as well. Geez~

Ade looked real pretty in her white kebaya. It's been extremely long since I last met her. She's still the same, still as crappy. LOL!! Missed her so much, so much to catch up. Hopefully I'll be able to meet her while she's back at Pasir Ris. So happy for her. Congratulations girl =) Joc was there as well, I miss playing vball with them. Time flies, we're all 22 and moving on.




















My bond is coming to an end real soon, I got to decide now. =(
Feeling so hungry right now. Today will be off to Lombok back only bout 10 tonight hopefully earlier =P

I had so much on my head to think for these past few days, happy ones, sad ones, basically I'm in a dilemma now. Work is definately important for me at this point in time. Studies got to come along. I need that but I lack the capital. UGH, crap. Hadn't the time to talk to Daryl, since most of the time we clash, as in I come back from work; tired, or maybe he's asleep and all, so didnt have the time to talk about my studies. HUM BIN!!!!! ~

got to go.
Jojo.

Blue

I woke up feeling refreshed as though the storm is over. Looking out of my window, looking up onto the clear blue sky as I leaned back and have a good stretch, this feels good. My own space. I love this kind of afternoon and the flow of wind that sweeps past my face as I lay down on my sofa, a moment of serenity. I love this =)

Im not alone

I'm leaving tonight once again for another overnight, will be back tmr morning. I hope tonight will be a smooth one. No troubles for any of us. Imagining what's gonna happen later tonight freaks me out. But I've got go through it, to overcome my fears. To do it once and do it right. To proof myself wrong.



Woke up early this morning despite sleeping only at 5am just to watch the news about the solar eclispe thingy. It might sound a little dumb to some people, but in a way Im more or less very interested in such phenomenon. It would have been the greatest gift for me if I were in India,Japan or China to watch this spectacular event which will never happen in our lifetime till another 100 odd plus years later?. I wonder if they have the meteor rain thingy happening ever again?, since I stupidly missed it back then when I was like Sec 2? cant really remember but I know I was at Pasir Ris Park, hoping so badly to see it, but it started raining thus I headed back home. I only managed to see one shooting star when I gaze up at my window before I slept that night. When my friend actually called and told me she saw the whole astonishing moment right outside her balcony. Like wth....oh well.



Im invited to go back to HSC to play vball tomorrow, but it's during the boys training. Which I dont feel comfortable with. Unless I can find khakis to go with me tomorrow.. any takers?, any itchy backsides feel like playing vball tomorrow?, msg me!! I'll try to reply asap once I've touchdown tomorrow. It'll be about noon time around 3 plus?..will see about that. I just miss playing vball. It brings back lots of funny memories.



Off for my power nap now.

ciaoz.

Survivor hardcore.

Try going for an overnight with a mere 3 hours rest. HIOUGHZ to the MAX!.
Freaking bulls wasnt helping. I was like a souless fella walking in the cabin, plus the peeling from the sunburnt aint helping much, I had to freaking spray the moisture surge thingy on my face like thousand and one times when I looked at myself in the mirror, it looks as though there were saliva stains all around my mouth. Imagine that. Yucks to the core. And I had to touch up like thousand and one times. So all in all it was thousand and one to the power of ten balls. Yeap, Im yeak-ke-dy-del-dy with all the what nots. Hahahha. Literally TOH!

I panic for like 5 mins outside my house just now. Fearing that my keys wasnt with me. For a moment I really wished Coco could open the door for me. LOL!. I had to like fumble with my bag to find the keys. I was on the verge of tears balls. The thought of sleeping outside my house was like so gonna happen. IMAGINE THAT!!! LOL. CRISPY TO THE MAX!!!

This is my most HARDCORE ever time taken awake balls.
The cold water is calling out to me now, ciaoz!

Who stole the cookie jar?..