Not in any mood.

Im nt in a happy mood at all.

Pissed

Where did my freaking 400 plus went man??..fuck. I thought I could fucking save, bt my account just shows decreasing numbers EACH DAY.
Fucked.

Spoiled.

My phone gave up on me, and I'm kinda lazy to head down to Cine to send my phone for repair. My camera is having some prob, the pictures have some extra lines to it..and the image looks kinda distorted, must be the way I handled it. =( Been dropping my bag on the floor quite alot lately with my phone in it, that explains, been too busy these days to do some decent blogging, hahas. Well well, will be having my SEP MCQ test tmr. Lately, been eating alot till mum says my thigh looks big.. oh no. No more snacking in class..

Was watching some korean drama last night, my favourite actor hmm, not sure of his name, but he's got the charms, mesmerized man. lol. Geez~
Will be heading down to Century Sq to collect my Samsung phone that was sent for repair and yet to collect for like 2 mths alr..I only remember of it after my V9 gave me problem lately.
Went for Nic's 21st last Friday, we spent most of our time gambling,eating and more eating. The usual pranks on the birthday fella, Nic was thrown into the swimming pool, followed by downing himself with a cup full of mixed liquors, he puked thereafter and his grandmother gave us a earful man. She was like saying "aiya ni men na li ke yi ze yang, peng you..blah blah," and I wondered why she brought up marriage? hmm?.. wasn't paying much attention to it though. And the rest of the night was spent at Daryl's place gambling once again, and the winner of the night was JZ and Mas..while Ken was on the com with Dota, Josh and Paul sleeping and Daryl on my DS.. while Jh,me,Mas and Jz continued the game of 21.

Nothing much for yesterday, met up with Shi hui for dinner and went to PINC for my mani and pedi.. spent my day sleeping =x
Wonder how the girls did for the interview?..hmm..

Alright gtg, my sis wanna use the com
Ciaoz

2nd Day SEP

I'm feeling extremely DEAD right now. Got home only like 5am in the morning?. Yea, and now Im awake. a mere 45mins of rest ONLY. Mum kept hitting my leg to wake me up today, everyone seems grouchy this morning, must be due to the inadequate rest. Came home this morning to see mum using the com, thus I conclude that she is not having adequate rest too. Which resulting in this clashing exchange of emotions. I feel so fucked up I felt like yelling, but I deserve this shit and blame no one. I've only got myself to blame, knowing that I got to wake early yet I still chose to slack out till the wee morning, but it can't be helped though, the topics we exchanged was simply fascinating but at some points I felt like killing myself. Then again, it's ME. Simple things of others brings me down real fast. I DONT WANNA GIVE A FLYING FUCK ANYMORE!!..whatever exchange of comments in future means nothing to me anymore. I've nearly forgotten what Vicky had thought, now that I reflect, I should have remain calmed. I am feeling fucking grouchy right now, I hope I dont slip on the slide man, I dont wanna be out of course. I hope the AXE OIL works, my head is giving me a splinting headache.

The slide was great!, it felt as though I was committing suicide.
You got me SUICIDAL.

Beginning of SEP Training.

Today would be my SEP Training. =) Feeling a little excited and at the same time nervous, as what we're told, there are loads of stuff for us to memorise, once again. No Air's- playing on 98.7 FM right now, hmm, changes everyday, do you remember what was the 1st most hurtful word you ever said to your mum or dad?.. was looking at my friends blog, and somehow or rather I kinda agree with her, and she's a total changed person as of back then. No longer being bullied, she stands for herself. I guess what breaks you makes you a stronger person. We used to be the best of friends back then in primary 4, I see the change in her..

Is there a change in me?..

Selective words these days.

FINALLY!!

Finally it's the weekends! =)
It was my last day of grooming lesson, no doubt it was merely a 2 1/2 days of training, Im missing Ms Vicky already, hmm, she's a very nice lady, she calls herself the bad mama, hahas. This woman is matured, tough and indepedant, maybe not physically tough, but she is mentally tough. The 1st impression she gave me was kinda strict, but as we went along with the lessons, I kinda like her. She's someone I respect alot. No doubt she had an injury, she still came to give her grooming lessons, but looking at her, I believe she's in her 50's already.

We learned social etiquettes, manners, etc. It was fun, seriously..was laughing away during the training.
Now that the lesson has ended, I kinda miss her..hahas! oh man, take good care..seriously, you seldom see me giving someone so much respect man. She's like the 4th or 5th person?..I hope I get to meet more of this kinda people, they are so interesting, and Im never bored when they're around.. =)

For the next 3 weeks, I'll be at STC for SEP lessons, woot. 3 weeks and after which a few more days of foundation and OJT starts. Time flies, and I got to keep up with the pace. TIME aint waiting for me at all, and some stuffs seems to be slipping away.

Like a dream

Everything just seems like a bubble, a dream.
It stopped.

This emo state is crap, why am I fucking emo-ing about?.
Fuck.

Grooming

Touchdown at 1920hrs yesterday, the flight attendants were very friendly, we had lunch and dinner on board, very filling =) so I guess the 2 sector flight was fun, took a few pictures =p shall upload it when I have my cam back.

Today will be our grooming lesson, we're suppose to bring our own hairdryer..LOL..lucky mum manage to get me one in time. Im feeling so sleepy..argh.

Somehow or rather, I'm afraid of making sacrifices.

This is so random once again, I guess people can't figure out what Im saying too. I prefer 48hrs a day than a mere 24 cus it's really not enough, I'm missing my friends, love one, family like alot lately, sinking into the emo state once again. I spent most of my time at work, and once Im back, Im too tired for anything. But I'm pushing myself to have lil meet ups here and there. Back to isolation.

Taking a bigger step out of my comfort zone.

That much stronger?..

So the 4 days 3 nights shit is over. Bon Apetite'! =) I just felt like talking nonsense since I still feel a lil sleepy, hahas.
Somebod's back from Thai!! I look like some impatient mum waiting for her son's arrival at the arrival hall..before that I was there at the budget terminal like 10? freaking hell, I was freaking early, lucky I had my DS to company me all the way till touchdown. I was playing Mario Party, lol. That sure took me a freaking long time to play. Received loads of items! WOOTS! Filmsover Tees =))) muahaha, now I've got new tees, save me from shopping, should look at the amount of Cigs brought back man, lol!!! Lucky bastard. Bloody hell, went RED LIGHT DISTRICT, what an ass.

Today's my turn to go on flight.. =) to Balikpapan. Some "divers paradise", in Indonesia if I didn't get my notes wrongly. Will be doing my familirisation flight today, hope I dont fall asleep on board. zZz Else, I'm gonna die!. I need some starbucks session, missing my Green Tea Frap like ALOT.
Alright gotta go.
;)

Thai COCK

3.04.2008

As I'm blogging away some fag going to Thai to have a sex change. LOL..okay not funny, some fella is leaving at 4am for Bangkok, and I did the most horrible shit, I keyed the address of the unit wrongly for some AIG travel insurance shit. GG Joanne.

4th day of training was quite fun cus I got to learn the terminology for almost everything. So much information loaded at one go. My adaptability is kinda slow, everyone is talking to everyone, everyone has something to talk about, I'm like the "try so hard" to fit in catergory, not opening up myself to the others, and I guess they don't have much to talk to me too, I realise most of the time when Im in class, I dont really smile, and Im digging my own grave, cus this wont reflect good on my trainer. Many times I tried to be initiative and all, but it's still not good enough, so I guess I've got to try and try and TRY HARDER. Some aint making lives any easier for you, they simply wont acknowledge. So there you go, just greet and don't try to think that it's silly and etc.

4.04.2008

Just received the overseas call like 20mins ago, at 2320 hrs. Now, it's like so army style, time will be changed to 24hrs, no more convenience of 12 hrs clock. Time check now is 0009 hrs. So gong!..zZz Finally it's the weekends, which means I can SLEEP IN!! ;) I dont have to wake up at 0530hrs =)

Today was the 5th lesson, I was extremely tired, was dozing off here and there, trying very hard to keep myself awake. Phew~ the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Today's lesson was real DRY, till I seriously couldn't keep my eyes open man, it was more on F&B, the types of tongs you will come across, the Biz class and the Economy class..etc. But lucky my batch was able to leave earlier, to head down to STC to make our pass =p. My face looked extremely fat, ARGH.

Was hoping to see familiar faces at STC, but nah, there wasn't any.

Sometimes, changes takes place so fast, I wasn't ready to accept, it all went crumbling. Never ever the same anymore, I wasn't expecting it to turn out so cold, but eventually it did.

April Fools

Not much pranks this year, hahas. Maybe everyone has grown tired of it after all, today's my second day of training, is this my second time blogging?..as Im typing, I feel my eyelids slowly shutting down. TIRED. EXHAUSTED, will be the words you'll see frequently on my blog I guess.. ;)
Almost finishing the Admin & Ops book, next up will be the foundation manual which will be THICKER, zZz STRESSED. My SEP is coming!! LAGI STRESS!!!!
I need a massage badly, I feel my body draining, been a good girl lately, and I made it a point that I sleep before 12mn, yet I still feel sleepy..BOO! =(
Missing out on social life soon, and I feel a little out of place in class once again. OUT CAST. Am I not sociable?..hmm, hais. Or is it cus it's only like the start?..where I got to start all over again, making frens from the start..

My schedule is so pack, time is precious. I don't wanna waste it.
Some people's holiday to Bangkok on the 4th. Hmmm, 4 days 3 nights. =(

Anyone sweet enough to brighten up my day?..hahas.
Nites.

Sad

Today will be my second day of training, I was totally drained out when I got home yesterday. I slept throughout the day, skipping my dinner, which I seldom would.
Had 2 consecutive nightmares when I slept yesterday, both were kinda horrid, one was I cant remember what,..SHIT, and the next one was I killed/confronted someone's dad. The dream felt so real, maybe I should check up wikipedia and see what has my dream has to tell me..am I feeling stress or something? lol.

The saddest of all, I got to take out my tongue stud. =( Goodbye for good. =( I feel so handicapped without it, like as though my tongue is short of something, lol, making my speech a lil weird, as though short tongue. LOL.
Alright gottta prepare le..