36 months..

What will you do?.. 36months..
Let fate decide. Time will tell..

Fuuny how things have changed, now I'm slowly sliding back..
I hope I did the right thing, funny how my thinkings contradicts me.
Everytime I wanna hold you back, apart of me takes 2 steps back.

Someone please slap me awake.

I kept asking myself.. "why?.."

Hasnt been having adequate rest since dunno when, this week seems to be dragging.

It happened again, while I was at Suntec..
Entwinded memoirs.. tears streamed down..

That 6 page long message, I just felt like calling back..but I slipped my phone back.
Cus, I always remembered, in the past whenever I tried to call back/ replied, I'll get the same scolding.."Dont you understand English?!" hahas..
Funny..how things changed..

Im feeling so giddy now, not sure if I can pull through for work later..
2 days absent from school..alot to catch up.
Busy working next week, I need rest, plenty of rest.

I simply cant stop thinking for these few nights..
What have I done?..

I walk alone.

Burnout

My mood isnt that fantastic today, with people asking me for "...." early in the morning aint making my day any better.
I will remember to pay, my pay is coming in only on the 15th please bear with it. =( Damn.
At the rate im going, I guess I'll really burnout on Sunday, one more day to go. Perservere.

Today will be like "full shift" Clinique in the morning and rush down to Expo in the evening.
I feel so fucked up. I hate being threatened.
So I woke up feeling grouchy. FUCK THIS MAN. =(

AAAARGH.! Bear with it, I cant help but whine, fucked up shit, damnit.
Stress and nothing seems to go the right way, aaaaaaaargh.
Crap, just downright fucked up. It's all HER fucking doings man. argh, FUCKED UP SHIT.ARGHHHH..why she just cant let me take off!! ARGH! =(

Super Import Night

At first it was nervous, stressed out, standing very still like a block.
Waited and waited, my partner was late. I was left all alone to "stand around".
It was an eye opener, there were loads of pretty girls and awesome rides.

Stress level up!..

Falling down in circles.

Work all the way till Sunday. Hope it tires me out.
Even if it couldnt be helped.

Missing out..

Been missing out on the good old days when I just sat infront of the com and gossiping, catching up and more gossiping with Ms Goh on Msn!! and a few others like Ms Heng that will irritate the shit out of me with her-"do you miss me?, do you love me?.." all her nonsense shit. Hahahs, damn, I'm outdated alr..
And I know I'll get bombarded back if I said " People let's meet up!!!" cus I'm always saying that and yet I'm always not free..how ironic is that.

And I still owe Ms Goh- Ikea, Hard Rock..etc Omg.
This month is an extremely BUSY month.With more work assignments, and school assignments pilling up, I'm dreading school once again. Damnit.

It's weird how sometimes, minor stuff can be triggered especially among friends. And the victim is innocent. AAAArghhhh, this is seriously CHILDISH.

Shopping!!

Extremely tired. EXHAUSTED!!. Finally I'm home, phew. For the first time I dread shopping, maybe I'm shopping for stuffs I dont really wanna get, if it's not for the job. Hais..

I've bought:
-Boots ( black ) $80
-Eye Liner $8
-Fake eye lash $4
-Eye lash glue $8
-Ball bearing- tongue. $5

All thanks to mummy, LOL. But!..I've got to pay her back when my pay comes in. =((
Finally found the boots at Far East, sign of relief, woot. =)
I had alot of stuff to blog about before I sign in, now it's all gone. DAMN!!.
Resting time!!!


[ Look at this Lambo.. ]


[ Just felt a lil koo koo... ]

[ ROUND FACE... ]

Pressure.

Went for extreme exercise just now. hahas.
Thanks for the "company" Xinyi.hahas.
2 rounds around the big field, followed by the back route to Poi Ching Primary and down to the stadium-6 rounds. Freaking 2.4km HAHAS. I realise my endurance level dropped alot. Man..

So the matter has been resolved, Sharon has allowed me to work morning shift on Sat, 10-5pm.
I didnt like the way she threatened me. No, nope. But it's not her fault to use this on me, since I used to "runaway" when I was suppose to work.
But when she told me to return my uniform in one of the msgs, I felt very down. Way down. Not sure why, maybe it's due to the pms. Ha.. It actually affected me. Im always disappointing others. Why am I feeling extremely down now?..ha. But the matter has been resolved.. okay..im tired alr..
Most likely I'll be heading out later..

Sorry Paul didnt reply your msg.

School.

-School-

Alright so school was kinda slack. I woke up real late this morning, I woke up around 7am. We-Aud,Van,F Word and myself gave Audit a miss and headed to level 3 cafetaria for breakfast. F Word was trying his "black magic" on us once again, this time round I've got his trick and it made me feel kinda dumb. LOL.It's actually very simple. =x
After breakfast, we headed for the next lesson- Accounting.
HAHAHA, I was having hell of a time taking pictures of everyone, laughing at every single nonsense.
So this is what happens to me on every Friday. I go berserk doing extremely nonsense stuffs..hahas!
Here goes.....

[ The joker of the day, F Word Our Man-Nigger. LOL ]
[ Got home in the pouring rain... ]
[ When lesson was stressing the hell out of us.... lol!!! ]
[ I cant help but to NAP a while.. ]
[ Cash Flow statements..AHHHHHHHH ]

[ When extremely tall people are asked to write on the board......]
[ This is what happens..YOU HEAD BANG, HAHAHA! ]

[ And this is one smart fella..LOL tryin to write as high up as possible.. ]

=)

Okay time to change a new template, I kinda like this one alot.. =)

Some Random Pictures..

[ Aint this lil one so ADORABLE!!! Omg omgomg!!!! ]

[ Audrey and F Word- Nonsense Hot-Key! ] lol..
[ We're just posing..lol ]

[ The men in action.. ]

These Days..

Got to head back to my Audits..having some test tomorrow, pardon me man, I seriously dislike the Audit lecturer. Maybe I'm just not flexible enough, but I get pist off easily, especially during her case-study. Her information is so vague, she doesnt do a proper introduction on Auditing, just goes ahead with it. Hmmm, how?..Damn, just try my best to digest her "informations" .

Mr Siew is back! hahas, met him after school and headed for lunch, received my goodies! which I'm not gonna disclose, it's P&C! hahas..Oh! we caught "Superbad" too, hahas! but..it was a lil disappointing. I was expecting it to be a lil more hilarious. Oh well..

Ended class real early today, and we headed to C1 for lunch per usual. Had loads of stuff to eat today..Banana prata with choc sauce, Chicken Mutabuk and Karrage Chicken- whatever it is spelt..hahas.

Sorry for the indecisiveness Ms Chua.. x) saw your upset face..-SCARE-ED!!- We still love you!!

The weekends are nearing once again!! woots! =)

Damn, I'm working this Sunday! Booooooooo..so farrrrrrrrr awayyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

At least I've got Van as company. =) *Phewwww*

- Omg..I cant make up my mind, one cant have the best of both worlds..and it's freaking stressing me out.-

Changes..

Help!..Im having sleeping disorders. Damn.

Was having a "mass communication" with the usuals..hahas. Not bad not bad, no doubt you dont know what we're talking about but you could blend in with us, as though you know who and what we're talking about. Amazed. LOL.
So everyone was talking bout their own random shit.

It's pouring outside, the cold air blowing against my cheeks that icy feeling..wooooooo COLD.Bbrrrr..
Im currently wearing my oversize jacket and Im still shivering, my nose feels icy cold..fyi I dont have aircon at home cept for the master bedroom, which I will never have access to in the day cus my mum tends to lock the door when she heads out to work.

In a few hours time, the NSF isit? lol..I dont even noe their positions..the TANKEES..are coming back..
Mr BS and Mr Siew. LOL.
Definately loads of stories from them..which also means NOVEMBER is nearing..headache, headahce, headahce.

Time for bed..
Nites. :)

Missed.

So i gave Cafe Del Mar a miss. Had the red alert.
Hais, miss a good opportunity for good food once again.

Some random pictures I took lately..

[ The contrasting colours. F word and Ed ]
[ The 1st Day Liying Drove =) ]
[ I was extremely bored at work ]
[ Nearing closing ]
[ What we sancked.. =x ]
[ View from the 6th storey ]

Been blog hopping, and I envy people born in a well-to-do family.
She is young, doing private in SIM and her baby girl is just so cute..
It's like a dream come true, to have a family-loving husband and cute lil rascal.

Just had a dream that I was pregnant, LOL. I was so happy in the dream, but it seems like I was a single mum cus I dont remember a husband by my side in it. Hahas. But, I seem to have a miscarriage. The pain was excruciating and I woke up feeling sad and hurt. The hurt was from the cramps, lol.
I must be thinking too much of kids, OMG. Hahas, so I guess child care centre would be one of my part time job after I grad from ITE.

Received an unexpected call today, it was auntie. She invited me to join her for a trip to China during CNY next year, I was kinda shock. But I declined, cus I'll be very busy next year around that month, preparations for final exams.

It feels so awkward, and I dont know how to react to it..

HIM

It hit me bad. Man I thought tears wont roll.

"This yr was the worst birthday I ever had, I hated it so much that I dont remember it..."

You killed me mister.
Im so sorry it actually happened.

YOU fucking killed me.

Just when you feel so emo-fied. H.I.M's songs just felt so ever in place so ever in the right time.
"Play Dead" is currently on the repeat track.
Simply those few words. It pierced straight into my heart.
I thought I grew numb of it.
It didnt took me long to cry.
I nearly forgotten the feeling of having tears rolling down my cheeks.
Now that im reminded.

My Bitter Sweet.
Like what you said, whats done is done. whats over is over.

Pins and needles, intense hurt.

Im home.

Ellos, just came back from school. Was extremely lethargic in school today, not my usual self. Hahas.

Realise I didnt blog bout the accident that I encountered last Friday.
HAhas, now Im kinda phobia of Toyota Crowns. MY FIRST encouter, kissing the ass of that toyota's bumper. HAHAS. Luckily we didnt had to compansate anything, but I felt real guilty cus there was a dent by the sides of Han's Caddy. Guilty guilty.

Im very tired, shall continue bloggin later..
nites..

Last Night at Cosy Bay

Time passes kinda slow yesterday, and the sales wasnt that great. Everyone was waiting impatiently for closing. When the music for closing started, everyone was seen packing up real fast..HAHAS! =)

Rushed to change and prepare for the nights' programme. =)
Sher and Jason came to pick me up, Mr Boon borrowed a RED Toyota IST!! for ying to drive, SO SWEET!!. After picking me up, we went to fetch the birthday girl, Ying took over and we head down to "XIng Hai Shan" at Katong. There was a BIG GROUP of people there, even Nico was there. H Ahas. Man, I sat at the wrong table and felt so awkward, after which it was time to go COSY BAY!

Sher and I drove the IST fer a few rounds, hahas. I suck at driving man!
More practice needed, LOL.

Gotta prepare for work le..
Byeee


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING!! =)

In School

Since it's printing session for today's AccPacc, I've decided to blog =)

Everyone's playing this game to winh a laptop, lol. I cant really bother bout that man. Im too tired, =x

Yesterday was fun! lol. It's such an isolated place, but I made full use of my presence there. Hahas!
After which was Seletar Dam and dim sum. The highest peak was the last part, when I was controlling the steering wheels on the highway!!!!

Man, lesson starting..ARgh.
gtg.

Jojo signing out`