SINFUL!!!!

This sinful little thing made me gained 2kg!! =( Feaking disappointed. So much for a strict diet, Im still a sucker for chocolates eventually.






Cherish whatever you have..

another day

It feels apart. When did it felt like that.
Losing it.

Lazy Saturday

It's a lazy Saturday for me, no call ups =)
Im gonna take a nap now, ate loads of nonsense in the morning, and it feels horrible. FAT ALERT! Too much sweet indulgence lately, so much so that, it's gone beyond limits. Daily dosage of chocolates. Makes me a happy person and the extra calories!!!!

It feels good to be able to cheer friends up =)

Nap time!!

sometimes

I feel so exhausted though I've slept like half a day away. I feel so SICK. My throat is killing, my headache is pounding, my heart is fuming and my nails are chipped. Ha! that's random.
Weekends are here and it feels like crap. I wonder what else is there to be said. Sometimes I wish to be nice, sometimes I choose to remain silent. Sometimes I just hate being forced, sometimes I'm all game for it. Apparently for today, I feel like a murderer. Or maybe, I wish, "we" didnt exist.

Too many thoughts in my head, some kept lingering, some just floats away.

Some says:
When love and hate collide.

Emotional wreck

Friendship.
Any one that enters your life, made an impact.

WOAH!

MY HEAD FEELS LIKE A FREAKING YAGERBOMB!! CHAOTIC!!

Moody

I've got no mood for work today, I have a feeling Im gonna fall sick soon, but the thermometer shows 35 degree celcius. Damnit. Aint human. Hahas, back to back Phuket followed by off on Monday. I'm gonna be very busy on Monday, to do some collection of stuffs and some other errands for myself.

I feel so lazy right now. =( BOO!. At least this is a chop chop flt.

Ignorance is bliss.

Nothing's fair.

I can blame no one but my own doings. For landing myself in this half fucked situation. Now that Im so freaking motivated to give my best shot. It just kills me on the spot. Like a freaking headshot. No chance given. No mercy. This stupid system. My stupid brain. It's freaking driving me nuts.
Not that there is no hope for me, but, it's more like something I dread doing. And I dont wish to see myself slogging my life for that. I've chose the wrong path once and I dont wish to go on it again.
Now that I've finally made up my mind, the door just shuts on me. I need to know, but Im afraid of rejection. Im ready for it, but is it gonna give me a chance? CRAP.

I dont have the upperhand.

Stressed out.
Wo yao du shu.. =(
Without that stupid 5 O's credit..

Where's that chocolate bar...

Gastric Reaction^10

There's some reaction in my tummy now, and I kept burping. I can taste that sour,awful feeling. It's horrible. I guess the gastric is reacting, time to take that medicine, I've neglected after seeing the doctor the other day. Im trying not to FORGO my meals, but it doesnt seem to work. After abstaining from food for like 2 hours, the growling dies off and I just feel fatigue. I've been replacing meals with sleep these days.

I'll definately suffer on the weekends, being stuffed with loads of FOOD.
OMG. Pukes at the thought of it.

Ps: There will be moments when you start to doubt your worth, but it's all just a thought and coincidence that things happened. Be it for a reason/not. You shouldn't be brooding over it, instead look at it from a different perspective. Take it like a pinch of salt/ a motivation drive to kick you up where you've left yourself.

I gotta crash, this freaking gastric shit is killing me.

bueno-ing

Im bored to death right now, woke up too early like 6 plus 7?. Received a morning call from Daryl and afterwhich I got up and started using the com. Was feeling damn hungry thus went on a food rage and found Kinder Bueno =) I'm kinda craving for chocolates these few days, had like Kit kat chunky's yesterday and the day before was Hershey's cookies and cream. I tell you, my best friend definately wont be showing me very nice numbers. ( Runs to the weighing machine... )




Okay, so both aint telling the truth, both are SPREWED!!! =( I guess I needa head down to Ikea to get a new one. Anyone up for some Ikea shopping?, I feel so bored RIGHT NOW!!! and the fact that Im on standby is not going to make anything better for me. Boo!

Maybe I'll just head back to sleep a little longer...

Random pictures for this morning including my little sunshine.



[ Random stuff I've been drawing lately...]

[ The new road which I'm not sure where it's gonna lead to..]


[ Jo preparing for school.. and my useless weighing machine]






















XOXO,

Gastric

Finally went to the doctor this morning, and it's said that it was due to my gastric. Been skipping too much meals, thus it has caused to much stomach acid that eventually led to the shortness of breath. Somethin like " hot air rises?.." those kinda theory. So it explains why I've been feeling so breathless lately.

Half of the day is almost gone, this is usually the time when I just woke up but for today I woke up at 0615 hrs. Body clock screwed. And the time that I slept was like 2am? geez. Freaking unhealthy. Doc gave me an advise, to quit ... I was like... Ermm.. I try my best. Hahas.

Wth, I feel exhausted right now, will be heading down to KTM with my mum later on, back to meet those old fellas hahas, and also to help out a little since they're short of typist today.

Gotta crash now~
Ciaoz

PS: J.Co's donuts and ice chocolate are my LOVES for now.. =))

Take a deep breath

Been having shortness of breath lately, feeling better to do. Felt that it was a lil troublesome to head to the doctor's maybe tomorrow or something. Went out with Daryl to celebrate his friend's 21st at Tapas located near Dunlop St-Little India. Very nice chill out place, just that the weather was killing. Extremely humid.

Happy 21st birthday Marcus!

Headed over to Daryl's place after the mini gathering and had a few rounds of snake and ladder and Dynasty Warriors. LOL. I'm literally STUCKED to that game. =)

I've got to prepare for work now, most junior today =(

Back at 2200 hrs.

Injury Prone

Too efficient I guess, LOL. Burnt my stupid hand while I was rushing for that "special order" - Vege C noodles. The burning sensation is still there, my poor right hand ; pretty colourful.

My fringe is so difficult to handle these days. =( Clip it upwards was my only solution at work.

Alright the tv is attracting my attention already..
Shall continue other time.. =)

Ciaoz~

Breathless

Cramps was reacting real badly and I didn't have medications to curb the pain. Rolling in bed for like 3-5 hours, cant really remember, didn't have much rest due to the pain. Luckily I had chocolates to curb it.

I feel so bad today, like I've did a crime.
My head is feeling so weird right now, it feels like migraine but then again it feels as though someone used a brick and literally hitting on my head, even to the extend of vomitting. Everything came at once, like a time bomb.

I never liked the feeling of hurting people. Yes, some might say it's BULLSHIT. Or maybe most of the readers that reads my blog. hahas.
I cant seem to afford to cry anymore these days, the after effect feels fucked, like 10x worse than a hangover.

Im feeling giddy as I'm typing away.

Anyways I've finally tried L4D, it was fun. Now I know why Daryl got stuck to it for a while. Hahas.

It's good night and out for me,
too much thinking, too many thoughts, I need a big secret chest to store all these, to unload from my head.

Good Nites.

Leave coming to an end..

7 days of leave sure is fast. It's coming to an end in another 2 days time. =( Sadded.

Been lazing around, meeting up with the KU's done some shoppings, meeting ups and getting some errands done. Went for a dance class yesterday, and it kinda got me addicted, but sadly, due to my working schedule, I might have to miss some lessons. =(

Now both the Ku's are in Huttons-Property agents, both earning like triple or more than that of my pay. I'm so lucky hahaha, to have 2 sugar mummies with me. WAHAHA. Waiting for my treats to come along.. hiak hiak hiak.

Getting a lil sleepy already..*yawns*

Tsunami?

Saw the news on Yahoo page, bout Singapore might meet with the Tusnami on the 22nd of July, which happens on the same day as the solar eclispe. Sounds scary, like if we're able to pass the eclispe everything will be fine. Like such a news on a Tuesday morning, though it's said that even if Singapore were to meet with one, it'll only be about 1m high. But Hong Kong will meet with one that is 10-15m high. Imagine that! omg. That's like scary shit balls. Deep!! 5 levels?

Finally curb my cravings for CHoco Pops. But cant seem to stop thinking about it, all thanks to Daryl for recommending that ice cream from Swensen to me. Now Im stuck to it. Damnit.

Gotta go prepare now, heading out to run some errands.

Ciaoz.

Black Friday

I cant freaking remember my pw for my blogger. It's merely a few weeks back. GAWD.
Nothing surprising/significant has happened to my life, so I wasnt that intertested/bothered to blog about it. I just felt like writing randoms since Im still awake for god knows why, when I feel so tired, Im screening my eyes while Im typing this entry. Ms Wai Mun has finally passed her TP and I got to sit her car! hahas, what a waste ying couldnt join us, else it would have been a blast!! We drove to places so far away, that I myself never drove to, okay Marina Barrage, that was Sherry's virgin visit to that place. HAhas! =P Congratulations!! You have higher points than me! BOO! =( hahas..

I've been talking alot to myself lately, not literally, more like questioning myself in my head, and sometimes, unaware of it, I answered myself aloud. Geez, freaky. I grew extremely quiet. I speak only to selective people. And Im slowly shuttting people out.

I feel mentally exhausted, and physically weak. I feel my body aging each day,feel so lifeless each day. I've lost enthusiasm. If that's how you spell it.

Family aint making anything better, not that there's any changes, but Im starting to feel the hatred growing, like I never belonged. This is depressing, maybe cus I've lost alot, so much so that, everything is turned into hatred. So yeap, dont bother being nice to me. It's not working. I dont feel anything cept hatred.

Nights`

3rd Day

It's the 3rd day today, I'm heading to work today after 2 days of off. No one was free to head out, or maybe I just wanted to stay home. 11 more days I guess. Haven been having much appetite for food. Didn't have the mood to do anything. Even work. Im like dragging myself to work each time. I need some slacking session, but I dont seem to be asking anyone out. Contradicting shit.

Tomorrow would be another working day, then followed by an off. At least there's something for me to do on Saturday. Then after which it'll be work again. Weekends....... what am I suppose to do?. Anyone has craving to head down to the theme park for those freaking rides or something?. I just felt like going there. Or maybe Haw Pa Villa or something. LOL. Damn.

Lately, I just love the silence.

Start of the Trip

Just sent Daryl off, he's going to Brunei for a 2 weeks training. It's not even counted as Day 1 yet and Im dreading already.
Luckily his friends were around, so the atmosphere was lightened. Else I would have felt real awkward with only his family. It was jokes throughout that 2 hours before he entered the gate. =( I managed to put on a smile throughout, I know how crappy that feels. To be away, not for holiday but training. Let this 2 weeks past fast. And that he comes back safe and sound.

It's also a time for me, myself and I to reflect once again..

I will never fall.

Cleanup!

Bathed Coco Baby today, she smells nice now okay, will be sending her for grooming on Sunday. And I make sure it happens! She is currently lying on her smelly green pillow, her favourite instead of the bed Daddy bought for her from Ikea. Hahas. Silly piglet.

Have been having nightmares lately, bad ones. Last night was the worst!
I dreamt that I was doing a flight, not sure where it's to but it got screwed. It was a coming back sector, then I was doing some stuff in the galley and one of my collegues was checking the toilet when suddenly I heard a loud burst then Cap came on the PA. "Ladies and Gentlemen... he didnt finish his announcement then the windows burst, everyone was suppose to bend down cause it was a crash landing. I dont know why but it landed at Pasir Ris. I couldnt bend down in time, I only manage to run to the last row, and squat between passengers. The next thing I know, everyone was running out of the aircraft. I was badly injured, the glass sunk deep into my right arm, I felt the excruciating pain. It felt so real, my legs were all injured. Then the next scene I was in the hospital, waiting for people to treat my injuries. Then the next moment, my friend just pull out the broken glasses from my arm, it was a freaking long one. The cut was deep, till blood was gushing out.

I woke up in cold sweat. It felt too real. And it happens that I'm sleeping with the comforter again. Hais, mum said it wasnt a good sign, and that she has to wash the comforter. She felt uncomfortable with my new comforter. Hais, I chose not to believe such nonsense, but it has been giving me lots of nightmare, eversince I bought it..

Will be heading out to get my Coco baby's food.