Not in any mood.

Im nt in a happy mood at all.

Pissed

Where did my freaking 400 plus went man??..fuck. I thought I could fucking save, bt my account just shows decreasing numbers EACH DAY.
Fucked.

Spoiled.

My phone gave up on me, and I'm kinda lazy to head down to Cine to send my phone for repair. My camera is having some prob, the pictures have some extra lines to it..and the image looks kinda distorted, must be the way I handled it. =( Been dropping my bag on the floor quite alot lately with my phone in it, that explains, been too busy these days to do some decent blogging, hahas. Well well, will be having my SEP MCQ test tmr. Lately, been eating alot till mum says my thigh looks big.. oh no. No more snacking in class..

Was watching some korean drama last night, my favourite actor hmm, not sure of his name, but he's got the charms, mesmerized man. lol. Geez~
Will be heading down to Century Sq to collect my Samsung phone that was sent for repair and yet to collect for like 2 mths alr..I only remember of it after my V9 gave me problem lately.
Went for Nic's 21st last Friday, we spent most of our time gambling,eating and more eating. The usual pranks on the birthday fella, Nic was thrown into the swimming pool, followed by downing himself with a cup full of mixed liquors, he puked thereafter and his grandmother gave us a earful man. She was like saying "aiya ni men na li ke yi ze yang, peng you..blah blah," and I wondered why she brought up marriage? hmm?.. wasn't paying much attention to it though. And the rest of the night was spent at Daryl's place gambling once again, and the winner of the night was JZ and Mas..while Ken was on the com with Dota, Josh and Paul sleeping and Daryl on my DS.. while Jh,me,Mas and Jz continued the game of 21.

Nothing much for yesterday, met up with Shi hui for dinner and went to PINC for my mani and pedi.. spent my day sleeping =x
Wonder how the girls did for the interview?..hmm..

Alright gtg, my sis wanna use the com
Ciaoz

2nd Day SEP

I'm feeling extremely DEAD right now. Got home only like 5am in the morning?. Yea, and now Im awake. a mere 45mins of rest ONLY. Mum kept hitting my leg to wake me up today, everyone seems grouchy this morning, must be due to the inadequate rest. Came home this morning to see mum using the com, thus I conclude that she is not having adequate rest too. Which resulting in this clashing exchange of emotions. I feel so fucked up I felt like yelling, but I deserve this shit and blame no one. I've only got myself to blame, knowing that I got to wake early yet I still chose to slack out till the wee morning, but it can't be helped though, the topics we exchanged was simply fascinating but at some points I felt like killing myself. Then again, it's ME. Simple things of others brings me down real fast. I DONT WANNA GIVE A FLYING FUCK ANYMORE!!..whatever exchange of comments in future means nothing to me anymore. I've nearly forgotten what Vicky had thought, now that I reflect, I should have remain calmed. I am feeling fucking grouchy right now, I hope I dont slip on the slide man, I dont wanna be out of course. I hope the AXE OIL works, my head is giving me a splinting headache.

The slide was great!, it felt as though I was committing suicide.
You got me SUICIDAL.

Beginning of SEP Training.

Today would be my SEP Training. =) Feeling a little excited and at the same time nervous, as what we're told, there are loads of stuff for us to memorise, once again. No Air's- playing on 98.7 FM right now, hmm, changes everyday, do you remember what was the 1st most hurtful word you ever said to your mum or dad?.. was looking at my friends blog, and somehow or rather I kinda agree with her, and she's a total changed person as of back then. No longer being bullied, she stands for herself. I guess what breaks you makes you a stronger person. We used to be the best of friends back then in primary 4, I see the change in her..

Is there a change in me?..

Selective words these days.

FINALLY!!

Finally it's the weekends! =)
It was my last day of grooming lesson, no doubt it was merely a 2 1/2 days of training, Im missing Ms Vicky already, hmm, she's a very nice lady, she calls herself the bad mama, hahas. This woman is matured, tough and indepedant, maybe not physically tough, but she is mentally tough. The 1st impression she gave me was kinda strict, but as we went along with the lessons, I kinda like her. She's someone I respect alot. No doubt she had an injury, she still came to give her grooming lessons, but looking at her, I believe she's in her 50's already.

We learned social etiquettes, manners, etc. It was fun, seriously..was laughing away during the training.
Now that the lesson has ended, I kinda miss her..hahas! oh man, take good care..seriously, you seldom see me giving someone so much respect man. She's like the 4th or 5th person?..I hope I get to meet more of this kinda people, they are so interesting, and Im never bored when they're around.. =)

For the next 3 weeks, I'll be at STC for SEP lessons, woot. 3 weeks and after which a few more days of foundation and OJT starts. Time flies, and I got to keep up with the pace. TIME aint waiting for me at all, and some stuffs seems to be slipping away.

Like a dream

Everything just seems like a bubble, a dream.
It stopped.

This emo state is crap, why am I fucking emo-ing about?.
Fuck.

Grooming

Touchdown at 1920hrs yesterday, the flight attendants were very friendly, we had lunch and dinner on board, very filling =) so I guess the 2 sector flight was fun, took a few pictures =p shall upload it when I have my cam back.

Today will be our grooming lesson, we're suppose to bring our own hairdryer..LOL..lucky mum manage to get me one in time. Im feeling so sleepy..argh.

Somehow or rather, I'm afraid of making sacrifices.

This is so random once again, I guess people can't figure out what Im saying too. I prefer 48hrs a day than a mere 24 cus it's really not enough, I'm missing my friends, love one, family like alot lately, sinking into the emo state once again. I spent most of my time at work, and once Im back, Im too tired for anything. But I'm pushing myself to have lil meet ups here and there. Back to isolation.

Taking a bigger step out of my comfort zone.

That much stronger?..

So the 4 days 3 nights shit is over. Bon Apetite'! =) I just felt like talking nonsense since I still feel a lil sleepy, hahas.
Somebod's back from Thai!! I look like some impatient mum waiting for her son's arrival at the arrival hall..before that I was there at the budget terminal like 10? freaking hell, I was freaking early, lucky I had my DS to company me all the way till touchdown. I was playing Mario Party, lol. That sure took me a freaking long time to play. Received loads of items! WOOTS! Filmsover Tees =))) muahaha, now I've got new tees, save me from shopping, should look at the amount of Cigs brought back man, lol!!! Lucky bastard. Bloody hell, went RED LIGHT DISTRICT, what an ass.

Today's my turn to go on flight.. =) to Balikpapan. Some "divers paradise", in Indonesia if I didn't get my notes wrongly. Will be doing my familirisation flight today, hope I dont fall asleep on board. zZz Else, I'm gonna die!. I need some starbucks session, missing my Green Tea Frap like ALOT.
Alright gotta go.
;)

Thai COCK

3.04.2008

As I'm blogging away some fag going to Thai to have a sex change. LOL..okay not funny, some fella is leaving at 4am for Bangkok, and I did the most horrible shit, I keyed the address of the unit wrongly for some AIG travel insurance shit. GG Joanne.

4th day of training was quite fun cus I got to learn the terminology for almost everything. So much information loaded at one go. My adaptability is kinda slow, everyone is talking to everyone, everyone has something to talk about, I'm like the "try so hard" to fit in catergory, not opening up myself to the others, and I guess they don't have much to talk to me too, I realise most of the time when Im in class, I dont really smile, and Im digging my own grave, cus this wont reflect good on my trainer. Many times I tried to be initiative and all, but it's still not good enough, so I guess I've got to try and try and TRY HARDER. Some aint making lives any easier for you, they simply wont acknowledge. So there you go, just greet and don't try to think that it's silly and etc.

4.04.2008

Just received the overseas call like 20mins ago, at 2320 hrs. Now, it's like so army style, time will be changed to 24hrs, no more convenience of 12 hrs clock. Time check now is 0009 hrs. So gong!..zZz Finally it's the weekends, which means I can SLEEP IN!! ;) I dont have to wake up at 0530hrs =)

Today was the 5th lesson, I was extremely tired, was dozing off here and there, trying very hard to keep myself awake. Phew~ the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Today's lesson was real DRY, till I seriously couldn't keep my eyes open man, it was more on F&B, the types of tongs you will come across, the Biz class and the Economy class..etc. But lucky my batch was able to leave earlier, to head down to STC to make our pass =p. My face looked extremely fat, ARGH.

Was hoping to see familiar faces at STC, but nah, there wasn't any.

Sometimes, changes takes place so fast, I wasn't ready to accept, it all went crumbling. Never ever the same anymore, I wasn't expecting it to turn out so cold, but eventually it did.

April Fools

Not much pranks this year, hahas. Maybe everyone has grown tired of it after all, today's my second day of training, is this my second time blogging?..as Im typing, I feel my eyelids slowly shutting down. TIRED. EXHAUSTED, will be the words you'll see frequently on my blog I guess.. ;)
Almost finishing the Admin & Ops book, next up will be the foundation manual which will be THICKER, zZz STRESSED. My SEP is coming!! LAGI STRESS!!!!
I need a massage badly, I feel my body draining, been a good girl lately, and I made it a point that I sleep before 12mn, yet I still feel sleepy..BOO! =(
Missing out on social life soon, and I feel a little out of place in class once again. OUT CAST. Am I not sociable?..hmm, hais. Or is it cus it's only like the start?..where I got to start all over again, making frens from the start..

My schedule is so pack, time is precious. I don't wanna waste it.
Some people's holiday to Bangkok on the 4th. Hmmm, 4 days 3 nights. =(

Anyone sweet enough to brighten up my day?..hahas.
Nites.

Sad

Today will be my second day of training, I was totally drained out when I got home yesterday. I slept throughout the day, skipping my dinner, which I seldom would.
Had 2 consecutive nightmares when I slept yesterday, both were kinda horrid, one was I cant remember what,..SHIT, and the next one was I killed/confronted someone's dad. The dream felt so real, maybe I should check up wikipedia and see what has my dream has to tell me..am I feeling stress or something? lol.

The saddest of all, I got to take out my tongue stud. =( Goodbye for good. =( I feel so handicapped without it, like as though my tongue is short of something, lol, making my speech a lil weird, as though short tongue. LOL.
Alright gottta prepare le..

Im back!

Im finally back from the 2 days trip from Malaysia!. LOL. I swear this was uncalled for, everyone was so spontaneous man!.. At first it was purely just a gambling session at Daryl's place with only me and jh, short of one player, but still we played " shan jiao mah jiang ", and it was JH that initiated it, lol, cus people seldom play 3 leg mahjong. The game didn't lasted for long, a phone call came and it was JZ, the first thing he said was " wanna slack? " so I told him to come over to Daryl's place, then the next thing he said was " wanna go malaysia?" time check was bout 11.20pm on the 27th night. LOL!! I swear everyone was damn steady that night, so he drove me and JH back to get our passport and off we went JB!! hahas, JZ went in to pump petrol and thereafter was supper at some store at the ah gua lane, hahas, the bloody king size Ramily burger was like RM6? lol!! it's DIRT CHEAP MAN!!, then we went to the convenient store, and JZ got a 5L cooking oil!! LOL!! omg, and I got myself a loaf of bread that cost bout RM1.50? LOL!!! went back to Daryl's place for mahjong, then the sudden idea of going Sunway Lagoon came into my mind, so I just said it out.." Aye, go Sunway Lagoon la! " I was expecting answers like " Siao Arh.." but instead the reply was " OK los.." I was like WTF!!!!! hahahahaha, then we started calling people asking them if they wanna join us to Sunway..so first we called Sh it was bout 6am, she thought we were joking, zZz =(



So we came to a conclusion that no one wanted to follow so we set off, on the 28th morning, sending JH home to pack his bag and thereafter to my place, packed our stuff and left for Malaysia..I thought the journey was going to be a fast one, to go Sunway Lagoon to have some fun and head back to Sg. But my calculations went wrong, and I wasn;t able to meet the ladies for dinner.. =(

Jz was travelling like 175 km/hr, on the highway, had our lunch at A&W which freaking taste like crap and continued the journey to KL..

We got lost on our way to KL, turning at wrong junctions, having to pay extrra TOL which is damn hilarious yet irritating. Eventually after some help from other vehicles, we manage to get to SUnway, but it was too late when we got ther, so we decided to stay at the hotel for a day before proceeding to Sunway for fun..hahas!

The hotel was freaking ULU!! it was called Sun Inn Hotel, it was located opposite Sunway Lagoon, Rm 110 per night for 4 person, DIRT CHEAP right?..hahas.

Alright, enough of my nonsense, time for BED.
nITES.

Rotting

Now that I'm temporary jobless, I've nothing much to do. Instead of resting more often, I seem to be heading out more, staying up late and sleep only like 5 or 6 plus in the morning and waking up in the late evening, yesterday was the first time I attempt sleep at 10.30pm. It was difficult, I woke up at 3.30am and I was freaking awake, but I force myself to sleep instead of using the com.

And now I'm bloody hell wide awake, I just feel like sleeping in more, I feel so tired yet I can't continue sleeping. =(
Today's the 27th. 4 more days to go.
Someone asked about me yesterday, it's not like you dont have my no. you know?.. instead of asking me, you chose to ask my mum. But I don't think you're that concern either, isn't it great that I've left the place already?, so why bother to ask my whereabouts now?..

I don't feel happy at all this morning, kinda moodfuckingswing again. Yesterday was bad, don't wish to go into details, it's like a cycle, it'll come back round to me.


Sometimes I just sat there and stared blankly into my future.

So wanted to

Susan msg me early this morning, OCS needed typist for tmr, but I rejected. Not now.

Today will be my last day at Clinique. Picture taking session today! I hope... hmm..
Alright, gotta prepare now.

To That Person

Stop ASSUMING. I wasn't talking about you in my blog.

Good Friday

[ 2nd Entry ]

Time check: 3.08am on my computer

For the past 30 mins or so, I was blog hopping, reading my past archives. Hahas, I have a habit to read back my past entries, and still laugh bout the silly things I've used to wrote, be it angry, sad, happy or confused. I see a standard pattern in my blog entries whereby I just whine and whine and whine. So basically, I just love whinning. That is one thing that didn't change. hahas. Feel like waking up early to go for a tan later, but I guess I'll be lazy. Was suppose to meet The Usuals later on, but I didn't reconfirmed with them, so I guess the meeting up will be called off?.. hmm, so I predict I'll most likely be rotting at home. :) Which I guess I'll need it? since I haven had much sleep lately, besides yesterday =p

Somebody must be watching CSI now, said to complete season 4. So I guess there's loads more of episodes. Was talking to my friend on msn, and I realise that guys tend not to solve problems. They just prefer to remain silent, even when questioned, they'll DENY everything and just let it be, though they know that they feel upset bout it and everything, they still chose to remain as it is. This is one thing I can never tolerate I guess?.. If you have doubt or anything? just clarify?! I prefer straight in my face then keeping it to yourself and making things all so miserable. Having the other party wondering what actually went wrong and having so mnay thoughts..not knowing exactly where went wrong, and the other party doesn't voice it out and just LET IT BE. Best scenario, this fella just disappears! wahh, crap. Anyways, not my problem, if you can just let it be and let go then good for you dude.

Enough of complaining..

[ 1st Entry ]
So I woke up only like ermm, 3 plus today? =x kekeke.
Lazy ass is finally surfacing. ;)
9 more days! can't wait can't wait!! :))

So I had the runs today, like this would be my 5th visit to the too-let. LOL!!! =p It was massive..LOL!! okay details skipped. So "Bekunis" is working real good that it fucking makes me feel like I'm in labour. So, if you wanna risk your life like me and try the pills, be my guest.

There after the bomination..cabbed down to " Holy Trinity" went to crash the chruch for some Good Friday fun =x Oops, just curiosity. Had to like "fast" for the day, but I skipped the "no meat" thingy. So I guess I can't live without MEAT. Be it PORK,BEEF,CHICKEN..MEAT MEAT MEAT!!!!
So after the service/mass, headed down to TM, by then I was freaking wobbly, an angry monster. I wanted FOOD. hahas, VienThai was where I had my feast, a mini one considering the fact that Im on DIE-T. Had Green Mango Salad and Pad Thai. Yummilicious I must say, sadly it has all been flushed down the toilet bowl. Had some arcade fun and caught " Be Kind Rewind ". Seriously, it was kinda boring at the start with very irrelavant scenes, you will only understand the show more like nearing the ending, when I don't feel that sleepy anymore. Did I make any sense?.. Nope I guess.

PEISHI...
Joanne seriously wanna catch " The Leap Years" with you. HOW HOW HOW!!!! :(

WHINE.WHINE.WHINE.
Boo!

New Day

Enough of those rantings, my second last day of work at Clinique. This Sunday would be my last. And next week would be a FREE WEEK for me, to sleep in all I want and just rot for a bit.

There's so many package I see online, like Batam/Bintan package, but Im too broke to go. Today's the eve of Good Friday. Was contemplating whether to club or not, but I guess I don't feel like going anymore, don't wish to bump into some people there. So tonight would be a quiet night. Am addicted to CSI New York, damn cool, was like stuck to it. I bet if I'm not working today, I'll be stuck to my com the whole day.

My hair extension is geting irritating, feel like taking it out real soon, but then again. $140. Maybe one more week..
Check out my friend's blog!! http://cassis-room.blogspot.com/ new bags launched!, my god my spelling sucks man, I cant spell the words these days..DAMN.

That's all for me now.

Not like anyone bothers.

Though I left, still, I was curious to know bout what's happening around. So I was kinda asking alot of questions, but the reply wasn't much. I can't possibly kept pestering when the person refuse to speak up. Come to think of it, there's no point either. Not everything needs an explaination.

Counting down..11 more days to go. Why do I feel that it's kinda vague?..
Almost a week now, and I've still not got over it. This can't go on. Like what the horoscope said, just MOVE ON, it's pointless to remain where I am.
Blabbering too much..

Had Botak once again, this time round I took the Cajun Chicken, hmmm, I'll still prefer the western near the prime mart. Just my personal preference, but I dont think Botak is as nice as what I had expected, or was it cus I expected too much from it?..

I left with a bad impression.

Ended

It ended earlier than what I had expected it to be. I dont wish to get involve with OCS anymore.
End of phase one. So long. This is it.
Too much so much, it hurts.
This happens too often, call it KARMA.

Learn it well and don't trip on it again.