Monday blues

I feel so worn out.

Baby Alveena's a big girl now, she doesnt shy away from people, very bubbly and fun to play with (: poor thing, she had to wait for me till late, got scolding from her mum..LOL!!

Went ktv with Nic, it's the longest time since we went for some singing session, and I must say we've lost our standard..HAHAHA, I feel like a tone deaf now! my pitch is off, painful for my ears to hear..hahaha..

Sat at summer breeze for the longest period of time, talking about life. That was the longest night out after so long. The 3 crazy woman sat there till 5plus in the morning, and we walked out to the main road to hail for cab. Imagine that, 3 crazy bitches, laugh,crap and cried..this happens when woman gather together. We get the emotional energy reved up high.

I feel so sleepy this instance, yet I've still got assignments to be done.

Down. Period.

Fright night

I feel so wide awake right now, just got back home from flight. Reason being, I just went for a sprint in my uniform and someone else's cabin bag. LOL!! what a IDIOT!

Cus I was sharing cab with 2 other crews, so happily I was taking "my" cabin bag from the back and happily waving goodbye to my friends when I realise it wasn't my cabin bag, I made a clown out of myself, yelling and chasing the cab..LOL!!! omg, so horrible, imagine that scene, it's like a "just for laugh" LIVE. Luckily my friend turned back to look at me, and got the driver to reverse back. OMGoodness.........

zZZ so embarrassing.. UGH!! lol.

HAve you ever?

Ever woke up feeling like going back to sleep once again. It happened today and it's still happening right now. The hour just doesnt seem right. Im awake for an hour now, it feels as though it was 5 mins ago that I was on the phone, not realizing what I was saying. LOL!!

I went back, I miss being there surprisingly..

4 sectors 4 sectors 4 sectors!! Im thinking of what's gonna happen after the 4 sectors..hehe..SING SONG SING SONG SING SONG!!!! hahaha. Hopefully Im not dead beat exhausted..

I've got so many songs in my head that I wanna sing right now..hehe

Tomorrow would be Mes again, swiss roll and lapis!! HERE I COME!!!

Dear nails, can you dry already?..

Cranky.Period.

cold night..

Im shivering right now, so cold, though I'm wearing the thickest jacket right now..brrrr..

okay let's do a recap of what happened during the week..let's start with the most recent..

I've finally visited "Raindrops Cafe" not exactly what I've anticipated..BUT, I love the battered mushrooms (: yummylicious ;) had Kwak to accompany our food. We ordered 4 cheese pizza..hmmm =) Me LOVE! hahas then the not so nice fried soft shell crab..eeww..hahas!

Then it was walking ALL THE WAY!! not joking balls, it was literally walking from one end to the other and back! hahah, there was so many..TOO MANY.. from Lido to Cine, and then back to Far east, imagine the HOURS spent in one mall..hahahaha, I didn't know I could walk that long.. luckily im wearing flats..imagine that! my knees got busted for walking SO SO MUCH..

Eitherways, it's the company that matters..

Been hanging out pretty often with my sis, the most memorable day out was when we went for a shopping spree in town. My goodness!, brought back memories of my secondary school days, where we only do window shopping and NONSENSE!! tons of them, I was laughing like no one's business at ION, imagine that..how unglam that looked.. behaving like a 17, it feels good though, to let go and go crazy some times, or should I say CRAZIER..hahaah..

I couldn't remember what was it about, must be I said something wrong that made her punch me, there's a blue black okay! ouhh!! I remembered!! I did the stupid dance.."sorry sorry.." that stupid korean song..hahaha, we were laughing so loudly, then the next stunt she pulled was..when we were looking for directions, and she turned without looking with her fingers still up, she point straight into my face, and the passerbys were LAUGHING at me..but I burst out laughing as well..hahaha, laughing too much till Im bloated with air..geez~

Then it was the gift from baby. The huge chocolate bar..that kept my smile ongoing (: even talking about it makes me smile =) I took a peek at it again, =) hehe.

Close to you..

Baby, you're my wonderwall =)

That's the highlights for the week..pictures will be up later..

xoxo,

Jojo..

For you

Must be tonight's "Mooncake Resonnace" episode that made me miss him exceptionally much.

My tears are circling in my eyes this instance. It looks as though Im looking at my own playback. Especially the scene when Su qiu was late for the appointment with guan jia gong. So sweet.. the things she said to him and how he replied her, with a peck on the forehead.

I miss you Mr Tan..

you and your silliness..

Subjective

I told myself, just let it be.

depress

Mum says I look fat and ugly..like a puffer fish Im puffed up..

MAJOR PMS

Feeling very grumpy right now, ugh.

If words could kill, I've been dead eons ago..

SWING

Swing swing from the tangles of..my heart, it's just another freaking month..

The freaking swing is here again. And it's making me a horrible woman..

STEER CLEAR!!! WOMAN IN MAJOR PMS!

colourful sprinkles

Baked again today =) this time round it's over at Nic's place. We started at 4pm and we're still baking..HAHAHA!!! shall upload the pictures later ;)

what hurts the most

Sometimes "what hurts the most" comes from the people that's the closest to you. It could be your parents, siblings. Was yakking away on the phone with Nic, about how our siblings have treated us. Remembered the times when I was so piss with my sisters that I just word vomit on them, throwing them with very hurtful words, that I believed was unbearable. Thinking back now, I've been mindful of my words these days, so in any point in time, when wrong choice of words are exchanged, it dampens my mood pretty much.

Im not saying that Im all prefect and great, at least try to keep your cool. Im trying my best not to get angry these days, trying to control my temper, and be as patient as possible..

I miss the "buka" timing again! ugh..

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Korean dramas are ever so disheartening..they always make me cry a lot. So much..

Dead log

Came back around 10plus just now and I drop dead on the sofa. I merely sat there to rest my feet, the next thing I know, 4 hours had past. LOL! so embarrassing. Overlooked my roster once again, was suppose to reach briefing room at 0510 instead of 0550, lucky I checked my roster once again after talking to baby on the phone. I still told him confidently that I only need to prepare at 0350 LOL when actual fact I had to prepare by 0310, so yea, it was morning madness once again. There was a freak accident towards terminal 2 looks quite freaky though, the taxi hit a motorcycle, from the look of it, the cab's boot was pretty much dented but the surprising thing was, the motorcycle was in it's upright position but the seat badly damaged, it's believed that the rider has flown quite a distance, because his helmet or something was found quite a distance away.

cab drivers, in the early morning, especially on their way to the airport are the most reckless. It's not the first time such accidents happened.

Feeling pretty hungry right now, but there's nothing at home for me except for instant noodles, hopefully Joleen comes home early today, so she can get me the economic rice =X yes, I'm very lazy, I admit that. And I don't really like to head out whenever I'm home especially during the 7th month.

My eyes are pretty much swelled up right now, because I was watching "Mooncake Resonnace" and I cried my eyes out. Today's episode was how xiao yue was being framed, by Sha jie and Camie.. so hurtful. Ouhh well, now Im feeling sleepy again..

Nap time!

ps: missing you so so much..

Baked

Managed to get the lazy bones out of me and baked. And for a first timer I would say I've done well. =) At least it made me happy, though the first few attempts were burnt. They were still my effort alright.

Was suppose to fast today, but I was so pist over the oven, so it's considered day 1 fasting failed. hmm..

I love the cutie face I made, reminds me of my sotplug. LOL!

coincidental meet up

Was on flight last night, and bumped into Bonnie on my returning sector. It was nice to see familiar faces on flight. She was doing a 6 months internship in Bangalore, imagine that (: it must have been an eye-opener for her. =)

6 months away from home, to a faraway place. If she can do it, so can I =) I've only got 2 more months to go =) hehe.

Didnt manage to catch up with her, and the time ain't right either, it was like 4 plus am in the morning, too tired, and I feel so uncomfortable to be catching up with my friends in my uniform. LOL.

Should have took a picture with her..ugh.

Waiting patiently for the phone call now.. (: while Im watching the mooncake show on cable again. (:

Chance upon a 30 days' 30 letters' project. It's getting me pretty excited. To write a letter everyday to the people mentioned in the list. Sounds pretty interesting and at the same time keep myself occupied. I shall start this project in September. =) so that October reaches me pretty soon. =)

1. Your Best Friend
2. Your Crush
3. Your parents
4. Your sibling (or closest relative)
5. Your dreams
6. A stranger
7. Your lover
8. Your favourite internet friend
9. Someone you wish you could meet
10. Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
11. A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
12. The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
13. Someone you wish could forgive you
14. Someone you’ve drifted away from
15. The person you miss the most
16. Someone that’s not in your state/country
17. Someone from your childhood
18. The person that you wish you could be
19. Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
20. The one that broke your heart the hardest
21. Someone you judged by their first impression
22. Someone you want to give a second chance to
23. The last person you kissed
24. The person that gave you your favorite memory
25. The person you know that is going through the worst of times
26. The last person you made a pinky promise to
27. The friendliest person you knew for only one day
28. Someone that changed your life
29. The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
30. Your reflection in the mirror

SUPER IMPROMTU!!

Was suppose to be sleeping soundly right now, but I was up and about. Followed mummy down to pray for the start of the 7th month, followed by my crazy idea of getting an oven..which I've finally did it!! =) on top of it, I've got my ingredients for cookies session today. I'm so damn happy =) finally my own oven =)

But I do feel pretty drained right now, ouh ouh ouh!! and I've collected my specs! =) DOUBLY HAPPY!! and I've done your errands baby =) don't worry.

I can sleep peacefully now, I feel my shoulders aching badly already.

Good nights for real..
=)

Reader Digest

I want to get copies of Reader's Digest, it's pretty entertaining and easy for me to digest. =)
I love the stories and jokes shared in it, it did made my night so so much better. And for now, it's time for bed. Good night world (:

BANGS..

I CUT BANGS!!!! hahaha, chui to the max..so sad. Kao! this aint the outcome Im looking for..

Been playing around with my hair last night, been thinking of ways to make it look less awkward..hahaha.. Be prepared for lots of nonsense pictures..

=)

I've got my specs done as promised, and stock up the fridge =)

I'm a happy girl. hehe.

Xoxo,

JO

cloudy saturday

The weather is so nice to me once again, it's making me so lazy, but I'm not going to just sit in and rot at home today, Im going out. Walk around. Out with non other than my sissy once again. Need to clear my head a little. It's gonna be "make a specs" day. Been dying to get my hands on a new pair of specs for myself. Aint changing the colour though. It's going to be black..

Been like a turtle for a while now, didnt realise there's a few new eateries at Century Sq, what a doink. Ain't having the crave to have sweet food today, but I would love to have a decaf caramel frap ;) ouhh, speaking of it makes me feel so perked up and excited already. :)

It would have been better if you were here with me....

Distance makes the heart grew fonder..why aint Dubai just one stop away from Tampines?.. at least I wont hear so much echo from my heart..

Okay, let's see I've got a few errands on hand to run, and I've to settle lunch, or should I just have that packet of bee hoon that has been lying there since 8 in the morning? Okay better not go on with the food ramblings, I feel the churning..hahas!

Sasa is having "buy 1 get 1 free.." I'm loving it ;) can anyone be a kind soul and let me know when does the strawberry hair curls at Sasa will come in?, it's been OOS for a long time now..UGH.

Alrights got to go now,

XOXO

J.CO

cold

Where has everyone gone?, I see tons of breakfast in the kitchen, but no one's in sight. It was merely a long island tea last night, but it made me feel like crap inside. It's been a while since I puked. UGH.

Stupid Jo.

comfy & lazy

My eyes are are half open right now as I typed away, Im actually looing at the keyboard than the screen, so I wonder if there'll be any mistakes in the words, but I dont care, I just felt like typing away since I've been sseating here after the phone call from baby. LOL!! It's been a while since I missed his calls, LOL. As he has some particular ringing tone assigned for him, so whenever that song starts I'll be able to jump up and answer his call, apparently lazy bone today almost coulnd't hear it. hahahaha. And for that I got reminded, a STERN WARNING, NO MORE TAKING MC HOR..TOO MANY ALREADY..LOL orhh yes bi..

My eyes are getting smaller as I sit on my rattan chair, or whatever chair is this, it's making me feel so comfortable with my legs crossed I just feel like sleeping back once again. Lucky Im feeling hungry right now, I'll have MacDonald after I finish bathing, it was bought from mum last night, as my hunger died off last night, so I kept it for now, which I guess was a right choic. At least it makes me move my butt out of the chair for FOOD. lol.
K gotta go prepare now, wonder how many error in this entry..LOL!!!!

Ouhh, note to self..not to open the door anymore. There is no ice-cream outside. LOL.. dang..

Xoxo,
sleepy eyes...with itchy throat that is giving me hell, if only I can use something to scrape that throat of mine.

BLAH!

I remember what love said..

Kill me I cried..when love said-No.

It's difficult to explain everything when it's regrading matters of the heart. We gain some we lose some. We gain love we gain hatred, it depends.. LOVE is quite deadly I would say. It makes you and breaks you. I believe certain point in life, everyone has been through this love hate situation where it left you feeling so helpless/so blissful. 2 sides of everything. I've been in both situations, I understand how it actually feels, the irony of it.. I chose to listen to my heart.

Overnight

Gonna stay up tonight to company Jo. She's having her Art prelim's tomorrow,so she's doing some prep work.. hmm they've got 2 prelims before the O levels, so much better off than my time. Wonder how's the school system like these days. Damn, Im hungry right now, and Im having cravings!!! apparently Im craving for mooncake now. LOL superbly random.

2 months down, 2 more to go!! =)

=(

I dont like what I hear. Not a single thing of it. Now I'm so worried =(

Please, I pray that nothing happens. I can't take this kind of joke, I have a weak heart.

sometimes

Sometimes it gets to me when I'm not able to get my point across to others because what I've said to them, might cause a reverse effect, or maybe even backfire at me.

It has happen to me so many times, I just shut down. I just chose not to explain further anymore. If you know me well enough, I will try means and ways to let you understand my point, because I myself feel that communication is so freaking important, it's like the freaking basic foundation.
I have this overwhelming feeling that, people needs to understand my point, and not jump into their own conclusion of what I'm thinking or have to say.

I don't like to be misunderstood, but after certain incidence of the past.. I realise I grew out of it. If they wish to misunderstand me the way they perceive it, then I'll let it be. It shows how much you understand me. If you have uncertainties, clear it with me, trash it out. But if you think it's pointless, or have your own perception of me that you strongly believe in, then shouldn't I save my breath?..because you have already judged me, and gave me the death sentence.

NDP Preview

Nothing beats the actual performance, but I'm glad I was able to see the preview live at Padang. I miss those kind of atmosphere, where I've lost it like, when I was in Primary 5?. I remembered being so excited over NDP when I was young, my family never failed to gather together and watch the parade live on tv. That happened back then when all my uncle and aunt's were living together at my grandmother's place. It was fun, I miss those family bonding. Those were the days, when I will never be home alone. There's bound to be someone home, to company me, have dinner with me, and watch tv with.

Or it could have been that I was still young, thus I enjoyed everyone's presence..well times has change so does everyone else. I remembered having my mum make jellies in the fridge before the telecast on tv, so that we'll be able to enjoy the chilled jellies while all of us glue our eyes to the tv and having the non-interruption period for snacks or what nots.

Today, while my sis and myself were waiting for the parade to start, all this small little images came back to me, as though it happened yesterday. Im not saying that Im being patriotic or what so ever, I just miss having so much fun with my family..

There's way too much pictures to handle..LOL, gotta sort them out now.. =)

emotions overwhelmed

Have I told you how much I miss you?..
I miss you dearly..so so sososososososo MUCH!!

I miss you my bed..LOL!!!

and of course you =)
I miss you chen keke =)


After my flight last night, it just made me miss you even more..
come home soon..

Me love, me soul sister..LOL!!!

Chilly

Off days gets by faster than I've expected. Will be doing an overnight tomorrow, then I'll have my weekends off!! =) can't wait!!

Mr Tan had so much fun last night when he called me like 2:50am? singing the maggie instant noodle song!!!! hahaha wth?! been locked up for too long, the people in the ship are going bonkers already. =) It's nice to hear his laughter though, laughing is contagious as well. =)

I had my fair share of fun in class, thanks to Mr Cass Singh and my hokkien beng, Ng Si Bei!! hahaha, Cass's nonsense are one of a kind that simply makes all of us burst out laughing for no apparent reason, one example was Cass trying to get back his notes from FQ..cus FQ brought the wrong notes for lecture yesterday so she borrowed Cass's and forgotten all about it, so when Cass needs it back he just looks and FQ, unknowing what Cass needs FQ gave Cass the blur look then Cass played along by asking " How are you FQ?" like so loud and random, I just burst out laughing, the scene was hilarious, even Syaz burst out laughing..hahahah..

The class was very noisy last night, not due to discussion of the lecture but the jokers went crazy last night..LOL!!..

Till the next Monday, where the joke starts all over again..

cravings

Im having cravings for ABC soup. Shall have it for lunch tomorrow =)

Dear pimple, though you look pretty cute, can you not appear on my face anymore? I dont have spare cash to invest on you..

No matter how many times I've blinked my eyes, my days still seems so draggy. Can it fast forward a little to at least maybe mooncake festival? 7th month is near the corner, which means mummy is gonna be extremely busy, cus I'll need her to fetch me home once again. LOL!! Laugh for all I care, I just can't help it can?..

I'm pretty lucky today, cus one of the sector was cancelled, so we only need to do the Langkawi sector, which wasn't full at all. I love the load today. =) Ouhh! I had BK for lunch today, like after so long..

Enough of the food rantings, it's making me VERY HUNGRY..zZZ

good nights for now..

xoxo,
Jojo..

Momo

It's a crazy Monday to start of the week, I had to force myself to get out of bed, or should I say the pain on my back was so bad that I had to wake up and head out to see the chinese physician to fix my back. It was drizzling when I head out, the drilling from the renovation 2 units away was driving me mad. I never liked having to be in the lift with banglas, but today was an exception, I just needed to get to the sinseh asap.

I've got myself 4 circle tattoos on my back followed by the godly needles..I guess it's the "IN" thing now, to do "zhen jiu" for patients.

Headed over to meet the sick one who just had his op done, my gawd, get well soon dude..

After which it was straight to town to meet Teressa for her supposedly brow trimming which turn out to be a quick lunch and shopping. LOL. Damn! Total damage for today literally burnt a hole in my pocket. It's like my few days of savings gone. But I felt good, retail therapy. We had skinny pizza, didn't know that leek is actually SPICY, lucky I didn't add too much tobassco sauce like Teressa, her lips were literally red after the 1st slice. Ouhh ouhh!! I've got myself 2 books from borders, shall start on them tonight!! =))



=)
xoxo,
jo

Penny for your thoughts

I used a wrong approach, speaking in a manner which came out so differently, or which caused unnecessary misunderstandings. For that instance, I felt that throbbing pain in my heart, how much I meant to them. For that instance, I wish I wasn't around to hear anything. Me and my stupid mouth, brainless nonsense just comes right out from it when I've not realise that it's going to hurt people. Either ways, I felt it. Thank you very much.

Inception at !2:20 was awesome. The suspense was ongoing, like throughout the whole movie, time was a factor for them, but I hate the ending, there wasn't a closure, but I believe he didn't pull through, he remain at where he was, where he felt best. Ouhh well.. gonna rest now, need to be up like another hour time?..

October, can you be a little faster?..
I wish I could enter my own subconscious and rid of that fear that is kept at it's lowest level. I wanna face it and break free from it.

good nights..

Mad

As much as I hate it, I'm doing it all over again. I face it head on. No matter how much I dread the class cus it's the same lecturer, I'm giving it one more try. His lessons are really important, I've managed to get a clearer understanding of his lecture. Press on Jo, class of 90 students? freaking insane.

After 3 whole hours, my brain feels pretty much drained out. I feel the headache once again, at least it shows that I'm actually using my brain. Press on Jo!!

Gonna search for food now,
hungry ttm..

SMS

Tired. Exhausted from my 4 sectors.

dashed.

nights.

Back to school

It's finally the 19th! will be heading back to school, back to basic. =)

Woke up with eyes so puffed up like a pair of goldfish. Cried my eyes out last night, was watching the final episode of "My Fair Lady".

ciaoz! =)

Walk it out

Yes! we made it.

3 crazy woman met up early in the morning at 6:45am for "The Big Walk" though I've only slept like an hour and a half?.
It's been so long since I've took part in the walk.. nothing spectacular about it, though mum said the goodie bag was pretty impressive?.. It does feel good to be able to do something that you've planned for.

My friend's Taiwan trip seems pretty awesome, I wanna do that lantern thingy too.. can't wait!!

Dark circles forming once again.. bloody toad..

nights!
xoxo,

jojo.

=)

It's pouring outside but my heart feels so warm..it's been a while since I had morning calls. Baby, you just made my day =)

rain

Kiss the rain..it's pouring outside..
nights..

Agnes

Been a while since I went for movie, caught Despicable Me with Nic and her sis we had a good time laughing in the theatre. For that split moment, I remembered toothless..

I miss you..

monopoly deal

I feel so full and exhausted right now after the buffet dinner we had and the hilarious game of monopoly deal. I must get my hands on a deck of the monopoly as well, so freaking addictive!!

Time line

___/\/\/\/\/--\/\/\/\/\__/-/-/-/--\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\

wish

I wish I had my very own butler. LOL dream on..

Just like that, I've spent my off day, staying home watching Korea drama since 2pm till now... 3am? geez` freaking no life. But it felt good, drama marathon, long time since I did that. So I guess for the next few days I'll be doing the same things till school starts.

At least there's things for me to look forward to for the coming week. I wanna watch "Despicable Me", the trailer seems cute though. Anyone not watched it yet?

B said I look like I've put on some weight..from my fingers in the pic..TMD. LOL

My eyes need to rest now. I hope Spain wins. VIVA ESPANOL~

nights.

One more day to my off..

M-o-R-n-i-N-g

Dragged myself to work, KMG was a long day. Just glad that it was over. This should be the longest flight for the month. I'm a little less motivated today, to work. At least it makes my day past faster. My legs looks pretty horrible right now, it's going to take a very long time for the scars to recover. I wonder how did I collect these marks. Please go away. I've had enough things to fret. The freaking bruise on my left thumb seems to be getting bigger and darker. LOL. Freaking ugly..

DRAGGGGGGGG...

Out-

Can someone just freaking drag me out of the house?.
Misery at it's best.

Bruise

Dear bruise,

can you disappear soon?, you're making me look as though I've been abused.. =(


Wasn't able to search for the music video for "Love the way you lie-Rihanna feat Eminem" but manage to get the song from Shi, it's like a must to listen to these few songs these days, it's on repeat in my play list. In a way it does speaks of how some stuff happens in a relationship..the brutal love.

"Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em "

LOL

I couldn't recall I've ever done the same pose many years back, LOL. Till Fen found the pictures and posted it up.


Present 2010 Farmway

Past 2006 Punggol End

Finally it's my 3rd day, need to get it done and over.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars...I could really use a wish right now...

Take a break

I'm not a very complicated person, I indulge in simple things, small yet brings contentment to me. Just little things like sitting there beside me when I'm down, not having to utter a word, or a cup of longan water when I'm not feeling well. I'll be overjoyed. =)

Happen to chance upon this song- Never too far away by Mariah Carey. A very nice song, lots of emotion in it.

People change, there will be a point in time when it just hits you and you have to move on. It might be hard and lots of obstacles, times so bad when you feel like giving up because no one was there and it all seems so helpless. Swallow that sour feeling and hang on. Don't give up just yet, no matter if people left you, be it if you're left all alone standing there. Hang on.. just push on a little more, with that every little step, at the end of the other side, when you've finally see the light, you'll realise that those small little steps that you took have actually became a small little path, that has brought you where you are now.. just a little bit more. Go for it..

Wipe out

Negativity has been slowly eating me up. I let myself slipped into the emotional roller coaster and let it lead me on for a very long time. It made me feel like shit, and it made me so depressed. It's not as if someone died or something. But this is all bullshit. Im sick of it, yes I've banged the wall. Now I'm leaving this emotional baggage for good.

Been suppressing all these emotions all by myself, wondered how it actually triggered. Either ways, I don't wanna bother no more.No one can help me cept for myself. Though I'm concern about it, I wont be able to do anything. So,
I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!!! I've been praying that everyone leaves their emotional baggage, that happiness will reach them and let the bad times be forgotten, but apparently mine didnt. Now that I'm really sick of it, I'm letting it go, yes I know I should have done that like long time ago, WHAT TO DO!! Jo is ALWAYS LIKE THIS.

Goodbye emotional baggage,
pessimism gets you no where..NO WHERE. I don't wanna jog on the spot no more..why bother?..
Let the memories rest..at the end of the day, we aint in the memory no more, it's NOW that matters.
Had enough of the nuisance..

I got your point B. For what I want to think of stuffs that's not necessary at all. My numb skull needs a little time to process.. :)

so long`

Xoxo

RAH RAH RAH!!

My freaking tears rolled like free, I feel so exhausted..why am I so tired today?. I sat outside the arrival hall for a good 15mins. I just literally sat there, staring into space. I need smecta, seriously. My motion sickness is getting from bad to worse. It got so bad that I had no appetite at all, couldnt even finish my favourite cheesecake. I guess that's why I'm so tired and feeling so emotional. I get even more frustrated when I cant stomach any food down.

Met K at the bus terminal and we took the same bus home. Took a stroll back and it made me feel better.

gonna crash now, tomorrow's my 3rd day..one more day Jo, and it's your off day =)

Nights..

rest

I'm just going to rest for the whole of today, feeling pretty uncomfortable..that nausea feeling, jet lag.

*yawns

Woke up pretty early this morning, waiting and waiting.. from 8 till 12 plus, before reluctantly leaving home to company Sheryl for her interview. Im feeling so tired now..*yawns..*
hmm, what is it?.. It's so nerve wrecking..

Mr Tan you're lucky you're away, else I would've bite you!

Back to work

Been a while since I looked forward to work. Being home the whole week wasn't really what I've planned to do. At least, I've rest enough and back on feet for work =) need to get my momentum back, since Im away for a week. 1st day of work, and it's a full load to and fro, hectic but manageable. Though there were those few that tries to get on our nerves once a while lol.

I must admit that I've put on weight. My uniform got so freaking tight that it gave way yesterday. Yes, laugh it out loud, what a freaking joke. I'm lucky it's only the thread ran off and not literally torn a big hole. I don't wish to know what will I do if that really happens. Hais, I've got to cut down on my intake, or maybe starve myself a little so that I'll get so hungry till the gastric actually eats off some fats from my butt.LOL. Me and my wishful thinking.I've got cravings for mangoes, hmm too bad there wasn't any for me to purchase yesterday because of the season. GOODNESS!!! speaking of which, I've forgotten all about my lapis that I've bought, which is still inside my cabin bag, LOL!! omg.

TTYL!

Ice SQUEAMMMMMMM!!!!

Woke up early this morning and headed for breakfast with Fen at Cartel, miss their french toast and ham. (: I like the golden brown look on the toast and the taste of it though it's easy to cook, reason being- my mum never likes to cook at home as the kitchen will be messed up, thus I had to dine out.

After which, I had to head down to the Singapore Flyer to register for "The Big Walk". I'm serious about it okay!, hehe. Im glad I signed up for it, though the queue was long and the weather was so hot. Thanks for the company Fen!!! (: I had to sign up for 4 other woman, which will be following me for the Big Walk. LOL!! Thanks ladies, especially Kiku because she'll be wearing HEELS for the big walk! LOL!!!
We took about an hour to queue. Imagine that, so many passionate Singaporeans enthusiastic about the walk. After settling with the registration, we cabbed down to Katong for our heavenly treat at Oblo (: which was coincidentally a few shops away from "Everything with Fries" (:

Ordered a platter each, which consist of 2 macroons of your choice, a slice of cake and an ice-cream. I fell head over heels for their mango passion sobert. It was delicious!! sweet,sour savory that lingers in your mouth. MMMMmmmm~ hahaha. Their ice cream is from Moven pick. (:

I enjoy the meetups with Fen, she'll always have something for me to think about, to ponder on. It got me so hyped up. It's indeed thought provoking. =)

Dont spend time pondering over matters that's redundant, conserve that energy and use it on matters that's more important to you. I gotta keep moving forward.

under the same sky

Been having too much free time on hand, I was bumming around at home the whole day, slept my day away, feels so awake right now that I cant go to bed.

Hey you, I miss having you around..irritate the hell out of me, if I continue being like this I'll go crazy very soon, Im so home bound now. Luckily Im heading out tomorrow, cant wait to get back to work, the leave is driving me crazy. Should have cancelled it earlier, I dont need a break at all, I feel so energized. Long flights here I come, Kathmandu, Chennai..Im gonna conquer you!

Wonder when school commences, can't wait.

Hey~ wo zhen de hao xiang ni..

Dream

When it was so far away I wanted it so bad, after a while it went away from sight, I thought I've let it down, but when it's thrown straight at me, I fumble and wants it so bad. Joanne, what do you really want?.

I remembered sitting at the emergency row when I started off still so fresh and green. I stared out of the window and saw this 737 waiting in line to take-off, in my head I told myself, give me 3 years, wait for me. I was so full of confidence, so determined to pass this transition period to move on to the ultimate goal. But as the environment sets in, and obstacles came by, I've forgotten bout the promise I made to myself and allowed myself to drop, to let go of what meant so much to me. I was literally knocked off my feet. Knocked down. 2 years has past, and here I am facing the same scenario once again. Staring at the crossroads in front of me, I see 2 different scenarios, a very big decision for me to make. I need to calm myself down, and think through what I really want for my future.

I miss sitting by the breakwaters staring into the unwinding sea..East Coast anyone?..

She's out of my league..

Awesome show, I'll give it 4 popcorns out of 5. I was literally laughing throughout. This show is so real, it displays the life of one that is pretty inferior of himself..not gonna say much of it.

Guys like Chuck doesnt seem to exist no more, it's very hard to find such people around these days. It's not something complicated, neither is it impossible, yet it's so hard to come by.

I admire funny,witty and truthful people be it the ladies or the dudes. I find people with such character fun to be with, they wont bore you out, and they're truthful, aint no beating round the bush, just sincere, fun-loving and easy-going. I don't see much of such people around no more, where have you humans gone?

One way or other, I could really relate to Chuck, it felt so real. I admit I have pretty low self-esteem so yea, that's me. If you have pretty high self-esteem then good for you.

Good nights..

Day 1

Standing under the scorching sun, while we wait patiently for our love ones to fall out and be with us for one last time before sailing off. My tears didnt start till the very last moments when I see his ship move further away from us, and his face became so ever tiny till I cant see his features no more. My tears welled up, but I held them back. I miss that monkey already. Please let these 4 months move faster, let me be as busy as possible so as to keep my mind off the missing.

It's my longest goodbye, especially the moment he waved goodbye and the ship moving further away from bay. It feels as though I've not held enough of his hands and hugs.

Dear God, I pray for good weather and that Collin will come back safe and sound.

4 months..
I'll wait!

As much as I try not to show my resentment, I can't. Man, I cant imagine without him around to disturb / remind me stuff.... this is pretty sickening. I cant believe it's already the 18th. Crap.

before I forget

Before I actually forgotten that I've to make a trip down to the airport to get the tickets fix, my head is gonna roll balls. -.-"

It's stay home Sunday for me today, wanna catch "The Break Up" which I never got to watch. Some ridiculous scenes that actually reminds me of ME!. DAMN, LOL, it's so freaking true. Do things willingly and pro actively, take initiative then being asked to do so, like saying sorry not for the sake of saying only. It's true we dont do mind reading, sometimes it's because we're too close to the person, we forgotten about the basic respect, basic courtesy which slowly progresses to "cant be bothered". The grey areas that most have met with from time to time. It's pretty funny when you look at how people are handling it and give them the advise, while you cant solve your own crap. It states that such situations gets you stitches because your emotions are so involved/engaged that you cannot think rationally. Thus childish acts appear, I know I fall into that category. Which in turn have accumulated myself a great number of vocabulary of what not..hahas, this show is so REAL. LOL! GOODNESS!!..

Either ways, I just got to have this here. BABY...Never ever do a sharp turn when my belt aint on, because now I cant get that headbutt moment out of my head!! LOL there's a tiny red bump on his lips. Im sorry! ;p

Received my favourite hotcake meal breakfast from baby. (: Sweetest ever!! Breakfast delivery though he's worn out from work last night.

Gan jue dao yi si de xiao xin fu.. (:

Smiling away while having my hotcake. kuang kuang kuang <3

Approaching

As the date draws nearer, the more I fear the unforeseen. It's no longer weeks away but DAYS.

"Dang yang guang zai ci hui dao na piao zhe yun de guo zing zhi nan.."

Friends

Friends play a part in your everyday life, be it in big or small ways. I would say friends spend more time with you more than anyone else, sometimes even more than your partner.

Friends are always there for you to share your sorrow,joy and NONSENSE. For people that knows me, knows that Im FOS.

Sometimes, I'll try to msg some to check out on them, it's like part of my memory remains there, times when it was a table full of the "gossipers". But when I feel the feedback ain't that receptive, I hold back. Im glad keke is around, but I cant possibly throw everything to him, he aint superman though.
It aches me sometimes to see him so worn out after he returns from duty, especially today.

blood hound

The 2 monkeys in my life are growing up so fast, it's like I don't know them anymore. They look so different now, so grown up, which means Im aging!! Looking at my second sis reminds me of me back then, the exact scenario, the exact situation. The love lorn period. LOL.

It's like a flashback of my own "TEEN" days. I can't believe this, it feels so yesterday that I was feeling so ever lost and clueless of where my future is bringing me, which apparently is still a bother to me. Going through Sec 5, the O'levels and what not. I miss that phase (: it's the bitter sweet days, or should I say the last moments of me in that unsightly uniform. I read her blog, I feel her pain. When things aint working, and you;ve lost the will to fight for it no more, when letting go was the only way out of this misery. It takes 2 to tango, which I believe she gave all she could, waiting and waiting. That fella is in for a rude awakening to lose a girl like my sis. That's the problem with the "Tan sisters" we love with all we got. So much so that, sometimes, we just stop. Stop in our track, fear the next step we're gonna make.

One thing Im proud of, she's able to stand up from her setbacks and not let people bring her down. Though it's killing her inside, she puts up a brave front and move on. You go girl. Keep these distractions aside, and focus on your upcoming exams. Though the road is still as windy and long, keep moving on for you will never know what's going to show up next at the other end of it. I've got your back sissy, just so you know. (:

Rainy morning

Im lucky to have forgetfulness as memory.. (:

Pictures speaks a thousand words, love this natural shot, I can't help it, it's the smile and that candid shot.

Home alone

Im done with the "cleaning up" not sure if it's considered cleaned up. LOL

Shall laze a while more before I head out to get the bills done.

-Edited-

Back from whitesands. Settled the bills and waiting for the jellies to be done. Wonder if it'll taste nice, I've added aloe vera pulps in it, cant help it (:

So fast my off day is coming to an end, back to work tomorrow UGH. Can I take another 2 weeks leave?..

Insomnia

I cant fall back asleep after mum woke me up while I was lying on the sofa. Can't believe I've actually sat for 2 papers, one more to go later and Im done for Sem 1. The peeps will be heading down to Changi V tomorrow after the paper, final class gathering before the sem resumes. All the best everyone. Im not having high hopes for Maths. I was pretty surprise to see the number of familiar faces that's with DMS. The only difference between us is they're full time DMS students.

My paper today for English was okay. I was feeling a little tired at first so I took about 10mins of rest while I was doing the paper. I had many crazy ideas in my mind when I was doing my essay writings. Hopefully Im not out of point though. It's quite depressing to see my friend not in the hall to sit for the exam, she chose to opt out for this sem. Wonder how is she now. These past 2 days was a special bonding time for us 104th people. Everyone was so concern for one another. I was quite surprised with how everyone was helping one another out. It feels so secondary school, that weird familiarity. That close bond. Why does this always happens only when you've got like so little time left to spend with your mates?.

All the best to all of you 104th! get this last paper out! over and done with! and CHILLLLLLAX!!!! :)

Your thoughts control your feelings.

Inevitable

Some stuffs are just inevitable like the red shirt protesters that went on and on in BKK for the past few weeks, and eventually I've dropout from the trip. At first there was an alternative for me to head Japan with Cher as she was able to claim free tic for me through her mileage thingy from JAL but not for the month of June due to peak season, argh crap. Tell me, should I cancel away my June leave and save it for later part of the year? because I have no place to go in June already, the ticket to go PEK is too expensive, definitely not in June. Whereby air fares goes sky high. Hmmm, anyone got no plans in later part of June?, maybe Bintan or somewhere nearby?.

I've got tons of places I wanna go like Universal, MBS, RWS, Keppel Bay, Zoo, Museums, Malaysia-JUSCO and Holiday Inn Plaza, the firefly tour..etc the list just goes on. Hmm, where to find such ever ready khaki for a getaway?. Anywhere but BKK. Crap.

Gonna go on a date with Collin ( see,I've bold your name in your favourite colour ;p ) later in the day (: can't wait for him to come back. It's merely a day, and Im missing his presence..

how do I survive my mid-crisis?..October please reach me soon....

Happy valentine Day

Morning!! yes at this hour..well I've just finished watching "Valentine Day" on the laptop so yea, nice movie, should have caught it in the theaters though. Pretty much I got the whole idea of this heart warming show. Though Im here all ALONE watching it cus Mr Tan has to leave early to be the "AHMAD" for the day. He looked like a clown...HAHAHAHA!! I know I'm gonna get it from him. I DONT CARE!!! hahaha.

The time is just nice for me to go prepare now, I'll be wearing a weird looking top which I've bought like when I was in secondary 2? and never wore it till like NOW?!. ZzZ

OKay, back to TREASURE HUNTING!! =p

Umpteen times

Many times I've been telling myself that I want a better life. A life that I can throw my laziness away and be able to accomplish more freaking things in life. Testing of my own determination once again.
Wake up your freaking idea..JO!

At the end of the line, I've only got me,myself and I. PLEASE!! I needa freaking CHANGE ALREADY!!

BYE.

Breakfast

I must admit, mamo is a wonder woman, it took me one hour to get back home from the market and I've only bought like bread, beancurd, 2 packets of mee pok, and some hum jing peng, I swear I wanna cry for help already. My arms feels as though they dont belong to me anymore. LOL. Now I know why mamo rides the piyo piyo to the market. Not an easy job.

The way people stare at me at the market makes me feel so out of place. It made me feel so AUNTIE!! no more next time!! LOL.

Phuket with love

My parents have left for Phuket, leaving their offspring's behind in this sunny little tiny dot. So loving at such an old age. LOL!! Enjoy your trip over there, please keep your arguments to the lowest I hope.
Can't believe my folks actually beat me to Phuket first! damnit. I can so imagine their excited faces. Hahas, especially Daddy, behaves like a kid. LOL.

Wonder what they'll be up to over there. Phuket!! hmm just you wait.

Alrights, heading out for marketing now since the 2 young ones were up so early today to send the folks off. Shall get them some breakfast..

Ciaoz~

HAppy Birthday Mamo!! Enjoy your Phuket trip (:

Subjective

Quoted from a blog..

" It takes guts to change your life like you did.. U always have a choice.."

I've chose mine, and I'm sticking to it. I know what I'll have to face, I don't blame those that couldn't understand my decision.( I finally understand that feeling ).

At first it felt like total lost, cus people shun away from me. I'm standing there alone to fend for myself. I chose selective listening, and to face my consequences. It was difficult at first, like a mental struggle to go through, peeps that used to msg me everyday disappeared. I was actually affected by all these small little actions. Though there were some that told me it was okay, nothing wrong for me to choose this way. It's just in me, that I will feel so otherwise.

It didnt take me long to figure things out, to talk things out and to get it out of my system.

I've to learn to grow up, to move on.

Im really sorry to those that I've hurt, and I know sorry doesnt help the least bit in this context, nothing does. I don't seek for people's understanding for what I've chose.

Im thankful to those that still stood by me.

I ain't losing faith, because there's you. (:

fingers crossed.

Considering gettin a blue contacts.. it's the freaking GSS once again!!!

First out

Can I dont go tonight?. Seriously. Thinking of it feels so fucked up.
This sucks.

miss you.

Deserve it

Im struggling with my revision..GG

The Last Song

Headed out to town like after so many months away from it. Walked around Far East, Ion, Cine.. and I've got myself a skirt. Caught "The Last Song" and had Applebees for dinner. Not that fantastic though, maybe cus I didn't had the steak as I got myself spicy prawn arabiatta (if I didnt remember wrongly..)

My eyes feels kinda sore right now after the crying session from the movie kinda thought provoking..and the lifestyle there!! the weather, the beach, the house.....DANG!

People make mistakes, even your love ones.

I like Miley's hair, wavy and nice (:

Im dreading tomorrow or should I say later, it's my first BLR flight. Oh the mighty one up there, spare me more patience and understanding, I need it ALOT.

awake

I'm wide awake right now to fall asleep, thus I was blog hopping. Many went away for holiday, be it a short trip or a 2 weeks getaway. Everyone got their share of rest and relaxation! When is it my turn! YES IM JEALOUS!! VERY JEALOUS!! so what if I get to fly to so many different destinations? I dont see NOTHING!. LOL.UGH. My last ever trip by plane was Bangkok in 07, 3 years back balls! I've been seeing so much Taiwan, Japan, Hong Kong, Malaysia, Siem Reap etc.. pictures on FB, everyone's been going on long holidays! so nice.. I will work extra hard to save up the money for a well spent trip! Else I'll feel so unbalanced LOL!!

TIO BAO!!!

I was happily collecting my winning tiles in hope that I was able to break even at the end of the game. But, I proved myself otherwise. Who games a "chow ping hor with an ANG TIONG as eyes!!" UGH. Joke of the night.

I guess I need more training from viwawa. Pfffft`

Note to self: Never ever drool on the arm again! x_x"

You've got this loving feeling.. (:

=)

I'm not gonna hold on to the cup no more.
I'm glad there was you. :)

HABIT

I've got this bad habit of mine which is stuck to me for a long time. I tend to read my past entries whenever I feel lousy. It's like a reality check for me to see if I've improved or got worse, and apparently I'm like slipping back. This IS BAD. I've been staring into space too often than not lately. Motivation span for studies is dropping at an alarming rate.

I've been thinking of the meet up I had with Fang and Na the other day. And the future; still freaks me out. I can see changes in them, the way they talk about their future, how they have set their path/goals and moving forward. Whereas for myself, I see myself growing roots to the ground/ "hen-tak-kaki". I'm proud of my ladies, as in they have worked out their path well. Why I don't seem to have that spark in me?. I tend to focus on negativity than seeing things as an opportunity. I want to learn from my mistakes!

I used to give up on myself easily, get myself all crushed and hurt, as though the world owes me. I have tendency to indulge myself in pessimism, which Im dying to get rid of. Self-pity is pathetic. Live for yourself and not for others, for they are not the one that breathes life into you. Don't live with regrets, never allow anyone to bring you down.

Enough said, back to studies.

DMS

2 more lessons to go, and we're gonna sit for our very 1st paper. 10-1pm. GG. All the best people!

one more week

One more week to go and we're on our own for exams. Everything happened so fast, I'm still trying to catch my breath. Macdonald for 2 weeks I foresee.

English individual results are back, mostly got an average grade. We were all out of point, "IMPORTANCE of keeping a healthy lifestyle.." most of us ended up with giving solutions instead of explaining the need to maintain a healthy lifestyle.

Exam fever is here, all the best people!!

Word of Advise

You dont have to change to be like others, just be yourself and for the better. =)

:)

The morning kicked off well. At least for me it was smiles and laughter. :)

kick that lazy ass

I've managed to read up till chapter 2 of my maths. I know it's nothing significant, but at the very least I've understand how to apply the formulas in. 8 more chapters to go. Phew~

With the exam fever round the corner, I see my mates struggling like crazy. They're meeting up for studies today which I cant as I've got a India flight tonight. Pfft~ Math equations looks intimidating, thus it makes me turn away from it. I've had enough of regrets in my life, not going to avoid it anymore. I chose this path and I will press on! com'on Jo! it's only 3 modules! DONT GIVE UP!.

Truth

You're just the same. I've finally let down this huge stone, she can carry it for me from now on.
ALL THE BEST to you girl. I hope you're up to it.

blah

Can the rain stop falling? it's pretty depressing?.

There haven been random stuffs I wanna do lately, hmm. Lull period.
Where have all the crazy people gone?, I wanna do some crazy stuffs to feel alive man. Anyone up for the reverse bungee shit?..

Not everyone accept randoms. But this is me.

Dad's bday is tomorrow, maybe I'll look around see what I can get for him. This fella seems to be going through menopause, flaring up as and when, behaving like a kid. Poor mum takes in all. Maybe I should get him a crash helmet, let him crash his numb skull head a bit.

Enough rantings, not working. Im heading out!

Wedding!!

I cant help but burst out laughing. My susu is getting married! woot~ like wow! hahas, this is like the shortest notice I've ever received, it's gonna be a very small celebration. Just 2 tables. Like finally, ah beng getting married, like after so many years. I cant explain how Im feeling. But Im glad he found his other half. Congratulations~

Alone me =)

Went out early this morning to get my stuff done. Paid my bills and got my nails done. It feels good sometimes to be alone and music to company me throughout. Heading out for revision later, hopefully no more nonsense. Hahas!

Will be meeting Syaz and Ym at 6 to study. Hopefully it's a fruitful one today, at least get my assignment done. Looking at the sky now, argh it seems like it's gonna rain any moment..

There's so many sad stories around lately, the plane crashes, the Earthquake in Qinghai, and many other stories around like Indonesia, India, Bangkok. Hmm, I just hope that these sufferings can come to a stop soon.

Tired..
Out~

restless

Been feeling pretty restless these days, and I fall asleep real easily. Just the other day, while I was on my way to Boon Lay by train, it took me a mere 5 mins to fall into a deep sleep. It was pretty embarrassing though, as I was literally leaning towards both sides. No matter what position I've tried, be it sitting straight, leaning back or slightly bent forward, it doesnt work. I'll still end up swaying to my sides. It was so bad, I remembered waking up to see myself so near to the fella beside me, luckily he was sound asleep as well, but those that were standing near me didnt give me a good time. They were literally STARING AT ME. I wonder if I snored?. Geez~

But taking train from Tampines all the way to Boon Lay was no joke. It was a torturous journey, my notes didnt help, it made me felt worse. It took me about 1 hour 15mins to reach Boon Lay? or was it more than that?. There was a nice park located below the track nearing Boon Lay, very scenic place but too bad it was raining heavily that day. Else I would have went there to walk around a bit since Im all the way there.

Finally my days of suffering is over, I've suffered from the "dry" days. Been trying to stop myself from getting unnecessary items and being very thrifty on what I purchase. My e-filing is done and I've got to settle those bills already. :)

Sometimes I just cant help but to have plenty of random thoughts running in me. So much so that, I'm tangled up in it. I guess not much people understand how I see things. And maybe I should change my thoughts as well, because it's quite harmful to me. I dont know how to put it, but yea it affects me sometimes and that I've gone through it before. Things happen for a reason I suppose it's a matter of how you see it and manage it. Im still learning, trying to spare a thought for others.

Im tired, cant remember what I was trying to say. Anyways, I'm feeling very full from the cheese prata and chicken briyani.. FAT FAT JO.

xoxo,
Jo.

Idiot

Like an idiot I wait. Waiting patiently for Zara to send me her stuff. Im so gonna kill you woman.

I actually told mum to wake me at 4am. FML And I didnt realise it up till now!, my mind totally shut down.

I feel so sleepy right now~ ugh.

The first glimpse of dawn, my eyes are teary; caused by umpteen times of yawning and I've got no freaking idea what the hell Im doing. All these seems so.. (can't find the right words to fit in).

I got to wake up like freaking 2 in the morning for Sunday's flt. Pffft! as the departure is at 630am? they sure know how to screw you bad.

Realise Im writing in point form, my brain still feeling very disfunctional.

-another 5 mins.

:)

To be back from a long day having to see a familiar face.. =) you got it!

J.Co

Met up with Syaz at mac for a supposedly "study" session but ended up chatting away. Life for her seems good or should I say better now since the last I heard of her. Slept so much today :) should be heading for bed soon got a long flt tomorrow. Geez~

Im more hard up for work than school, is this a sign. -.-" Someone's patience fuel went low, so fierce man. Take a chill pill!

Bear

Getting tired easily these days, especially after meals. What a PIG LIFESTYLE!! Just got my lazy ass out of the house this morning for breakfast and tanning. Hahas, not so bad alright.. my next step is to get ready and head out to study! which I kinda doubt myself..hahas! damnit. Im feeling sleepy as Im typing away, this is crazy. Im SLEEPY!! crap~

xin bing

It will never ever happen again, OMG. I felt real bad about it. This is the first time I experience it bad. I hope it doesnt drift away.. hais. For the first time I'm jammed.