Free Planet Fitness Centre Entry

Woke up feeling restless and lethargic, but still chose to get changed and head out..I look awfully pale and the fact that I wasnt having any make-up on. Headed down to Vivo, to try out the Planet Fitness, and the experience there was AWESOME!! hahas, I love the machines there, as in it's more relevant and interesting ;) too bad I couldn't have my camera with me, which I doubt they would allow me to. As it was my first time there, I brought so much stuffs with me, that my bad weights more than 3 kgs I think?!, and it turns out that they have everything there FOR YOU!!!! argh! I should have checked with Daryl first before I packed my bloody bag..ARGGGGGH. The gym was awesome, even running on the treadmill doesn't tires me out anymore, lol, because they have a freemotion=TV on it!!..call me a country bumpkin, I don't care, like I said, it was my 1st time there so ya!

I love that place, and Im gonna make full use of it during this short one week entry. =)

Enough said, off to my DS.

Nites =)

Pics from Mother's Day

Happy Advance Birthday to Joycelyn K.S.S

Eventually I went down to Joycelyn's birthday celebration, I was all excited about it, cus I get to see people which I've not seen for a long time!! =) Peishi,Yanlin,Shihui..of cus the birthday girl.. Joycelyn. A little get together, Angie and her Bf, Mindy, Hongyi, Hongyi's bf, Liying, classmates from QP, yea almost there, it was nice to see them, maybe it's due to the distance, didn't had much to talk about.. my heart felt a little cold. Might be due to my flu, hahas. Anyway, it was nice, joked here and there, yea the atmosphere was o-k.

It was nice to have a group of people there just to celebrate your birthday, it was nice especially when your loved ones is there. That is the most important. Lucky girl.. =)

I was imagining mine. It was horrible when I imagined mine. How pathetic my celebration would be,I cant even think of who to invite.. so it kinds of shut me out of it. It's like a mental note to myself that I should just disappear on my birthday for this year. Cus I guess eventually no one will bother bout it.

Enough said.

HAppy advance birthday to you girl =)
HAppy Birthday!! ;)

Detached

Some came some left. What went bad will never be given a second chance. It's like a bad apple, once you found a part of it rotten, you won't bother to eat it anymore and just dump it away. I used to have that thought, but has anyone ever really bothered to just cut away the rotten part?, it's just that one part of it.

To some they can't really be bothered cus in a way, it's their life, they wont bother as long as it doesn't concern them. They are just satisfied with the way things are. To ignore what they don't wish to see/hear. So basically, I guess a few/ a lot of people seems to be sliding out of my life very soon. It's really sad. It was once a big group, now it has become 3 or 4 parts. Only a handful left. Maybe it wasn't them. It was me.

But I can only say so much. I can't bring anything back. No one seems to be bothered. I can only think of "those days", this is life I guess, my once reknowed "Best Pal" can't even be bothered to say a word "Hi" how sad can that be?, if I have to point fingers, maybe all 10 of it would be on myself. I didn't handled matters the right way, and it all went the other way. I am angry seriously, it's so obvious that no one liked our presence, yet I still insisted on staying. How thick skinned am I these days?..for those that loathes me, this is the time when you can sit back and have a good laugh about it.

Down

Down with flu,cough,fever,sore throat. You name it I have it. It's really annoying especially when it happens to be on a weekend. My weekend is freaking BURNT!.

Hate it.

screwed

Im so fucking screwed, I've just finished painting my nails and Im waiting for it to dry like NOW. Dead. So screwed. So my day was spent sleeping away till bout 3 plus. Caught "Speed Racer" at Ehub, didn't regret it, it was an awesome movie, the CG was damn good. It's not at all kiddy, it keeps your anxiety level high. hahas, I was literally pinching.hahahas so sorry =p

Mother's Day celebration was terrible this year, the food wasnt that fantastic and the service was horrible. Im not being a critic here but the organization was bad, the staffs showed attitude, argh, okay I know it was busy and all but they were literally bad.The dishes came out slow, a few tables complained and stuff..it made dad real mad. So I kept myself busy by taking pictures here and there, shall upload it another time when Im in a better state to do so. im feeling so sleepy already!! ARGH =( when will my nails dry man. Tomorrow we will don our uniform to work, =) hopefully I wont look horrible, Im still having problems bunning my hair..argh.Oh yea, my aunt made a comment like- " Did she lose weight?..like no difference.." Wah!!! another fella that doubts me. =( Please dont compare or judge me can!! zZZZz, it's getting VERY EXTREMELY IRRITATING.

Alright, I cant be bothered to wait for my nails to dry, I needa sleep already!! gotta wake at 0530am..SHEESH!!
Nites.

Luckily it all made sense.

Regrets.

Call this Karma.
What goes around, comes around.

Oh GREAT! _|_

Im down with flu..OH GREAT!
Best days of my life.. __

Weekends <3

Woots` it's finally the weekends.. =)
Even stretching of my back feels so good. I can sleep in once again ;) , I don't have to apply makeup when I'm out on weekends..I LOVE IT!! =)
I've been saying loads of random stuffs lately like when my friend is sitting beside me and has her heels slightly off, I went "your feet feeling itchy?.." "maybe there's hair.." okay that was lame, but that's me for the time being, doing/saying the most ultimate random shit, like TO THE MAX. Must be too much of the trainings that it actually got to me, too much information loaded.

So randomly, I've watched Iron Man plus Harold and Kumar..both are awesome shows not to be missed. ;)

Enough of my randomness.I'm seriously bored to death.This entry took me like more than 1 hours to complete.My mind's' in a blank.I'm feeling hungry but I dont seem to have the appetite.
Alright I'll go watch Dane Cook now, seems so hilarious that it kinda tempts me..

Over and out.

Weekends NEARING!! =)

This week is a fast one, it's gonna be the weekends SOON!! woots` cant wait cant wait.
Got a test to clear tomorrow, oh mannnn..I dread TESTS..and it's so difficult to memorise..weekends coming meaning the 13th is approaching too!!, omg Im so nervous. Slow and steady, fast but not clumsy please. Chop chop!! argh, I'm looking forward yet with alot of stress and etc. Not much catching up have been done lately, what's everyone doing?..is Cactus back from HK alr?..has everyone completed their exams?..WHERE ARE YOU ZAHARA!!! you idiot!! never call me anymore!! found new friends abandon old ones already los.. =( so many so many..Van,Aud,PeiShi,ShiHui..many many, the list goes on..Meifang,Peijun,Sheryl,LingNa..see!!! so many..but I'm always tired after trainings.. =( my phone seldom ring these days anymore, cept for some occasional beeps once a while.. I've not studied for tomorrow's test!..hmm, how?.. I've not done my own notes for the 13th. I'm so dead.

There's this joke I've heard on the radio like 2 weeks back, it went..
" you're so fat that when you walk, your butt cheeks go blekblekblekblekblek!! "
I was laughing so hard to it man, maybe by reading it you don't feel the impact, but when I related it to my friends, they were laughing equally hard..

Alright time to knock out.
Nights everyone.

E Hub

Uber long time since I last post a proper entry?..went E Hub just now, is that new shopping area at DTE called E Hub?, not sure, anyway I was there so yea. Walked from White Sands. Memories of the past when I use to frequent that park connector to school, the swings/playground is gone, the econ minimart is still there and the school that gave me loads of memories still remains. 4 years since I stepped out of the school feeling relieved and freed. But as I look back, it's the memories that I missed. The canteen, the noisy people in class, my 1st love, LOL..so many many! hahas. Oh well..time never waits. It waits for no one.

So back to E hub, hmm, there's a mini ferris wheel, wanted to just sit in it, though it's a small one. It cost $6.50 per pax. There's NEW YORK NEW YORK over ther! argh, shouldn't have had my dinner at white sands. BOO!, met my cousin at B&J for ice cream hahas, loads of cookie dough ahhhh, yummylicious bt I wasn't able to complete it. =p

I wonder why..
but I'm addicted to the irritant.
I don't wish to get hooked. Cus month(s) down the road, I'm gonna be a lonely ranger. =(

Post Labour Day

I wrote a freaking long entry but decided to just scraped it out.

Not in any mood.

Im nt in a happy mood at all.

Pissed

Where did my freaking 400 plus went man??..fuck. I thought I could fucking save, bt my account just shows decreasing numbers EACH DAY.
Fucked.

Spoiled.

My phone gave up on me, and I'm kinda lazy to head down to Cine to send my phone for repair. My camera is having some prob, the pictures have some extra lines to it..and the image looks kinda distorted, must be the way I handled it. =( Been dropping my bag on the floor quite alot lately with my phone in it, that explains, been too busy these days to do some decent blogging, hahas. Well well, will be having my SEP MCQ test tmr. Lately, been eating alot till mum says my thigh looks big.. oh no. No more snacking in class..

Was watching some korean drama last night, my favourite actor hmm, not sure of his name, but he's got the charms, mesmerized man. lol. Geez~
Will be heading down to Century Sq to collect my Samsung phone that was sent for repair and yet to collect for like 2 mths alr..I only remember of it after my V9 gave me problem lately.
Went for Nic's 21st last Friday, we spent most of our time gambling,eating and more eating. The usual pranks on the birthday fella, Nic was thrown into the swimming pool, followed by downing himself with a cup full of mixed liquors, he puked thereafter and his grandmother gave us a earful man. She was like saying "aiya ni men na li ke yi ze yang, peng you..blah blah," and I wondered why she brought up marriage? hmm?.. wasn't paying much attention to it though. And the rest of the night was spent at Daryl's place gambling once again, and the winner of the night was JZ and Mas..while Ken was on the com with Dota, Josh and Paul sleeping and Daryl on my DS.. while Jh,me,Mas and Jz continued the game of 21.

Nothing much for yesterday, met up with Shi hui for dinner and went to PINC for my mani and pedi.. spent my day sleeping =x
Wonder how the girls did for the interview?..hmm..

Alright gtg, my sis wanna use the com
Ciaoz

2nd Day SEP

I'm feeling extremely DEAD right now. Got home only like 5am in the morning?. Yea, and now Im awake. a mere 45mins of rest ONLY. Mum kept hitting my leg to wake me up today, everyone seems grouchy this morning, must be due to the inadequate rest. Came home this morning to see mum using the com, thus I conclude that she is not having adequate rest too. Which resulting in this clashing exchange of emotions. I feel so fucked up I felt like yelling, but I deserve this shit and blame no one. I've only got myself to blame, knowing that I got to wake early yet I still chose to slack out till the wee morning, but it can't be helped though, the topics we exchanged was simply fascinating but at some points I felt like killing myself. Then again, it's ME. Simple things of others brings me down real fast. I DONT WANNA GIVE A FLYING FUCK ANYMORE!!..whatever exchange of comments in future means nothing to me anymore. I've nearly forgotten what Vicky had thought, now that I reflect, I should have remain calmed. I am feeling fucking grouchy right now, I hope I dont slip on the slide man, I dont wanna be out of course. I hope the AXE OIL works, my head is giving me a splinting headache.

The slide was great!, it felt as though I was committing suicide.
You got me SUICIDAL.

Beginning of SEP Training.

Today would be my SEP Training. =) Feeling a little excited and at the same time nervous, as what we're told, there are loads of stuff for us to memorise, once again. No Air's- playing on 98.7 FM right now, hmm, changes everyday, do you remember what was the 1st most hurtful word you ever said to your mum or dad?.. was looking at my friends blog, and somehow or rather I kinda agree with her, and she's a total changed person as of back then. No longer being bullied, she stands for herself. I guess what breaks you makes you a stronger person. We used to be the best of friends back then in primary 4, I see the change in her..

Is there a change in me?..

Selective words these days.

FINALLY!!

Finally it's the weekends! =)
It was my last day of grooming lesson, no doubt it was merely a 2 1/2 days of training, Im missing Ms Vicky already, hmm, she's a very nice lady, she calls herself the bad mama, hahas. This woman is matured, tough and indepedant, maybe not physically tough, but she is mentally tough. The 1st impression she gave me was kinda strict, but as we went along with the lessons, I kinda like her. She's someone I respect alot. No doubt she had an injury, she still came to give her grooming lessons, but looking at her, I believe she's in her 50's already.

We learned social etiquettes, manners, etc. It was fun, seriously..was laughing away during the training.
Now that the lesson has ended, I kinda miss her..hahas! oh man, take good care..seriously, you seldom see me giving someone so much respect man. She's like the 4th or 5th person?..I hope I get to meet more of this kinda people, they are so interesting, and Im never bored when they're around.. =)

For the next 3 weeks, I'll be at STC for SEP lessons, woot. 3 weeks and after which a few more days of foundation and OJT starts. Time flies, and I got to keep up with the pace. TIME aint waiting for me at all, and some stuffs seems to be slipping away.

Like a dream

Everything just seems like a bubble, a dream.
It stopped.

This emo state is crap, why am I fucking emo-ing about?.
Fuck.

Grooming

Touchdown at 1920hrs yesterday, the flight attendants were very friendly, we had lunch and dinner on board, very filling =) so I guess the 2 sector flight was fun, took a few pictures =p shall upload it when I have my cam back.

Today will be our grooming lesson, we're suppose to bring our own hairdryer..LOL..lucky mum manage to get me one in time. Im feeling so sleepy..argh.

Somehow or rather, I'm afraid of making sacrifices.

This is so random once again, I guess people can't figure out what Im saying too. I prefer 48hrs a day than a mere 24 cus it's really not enough, I'm missing my friends, love one, family like alot lately, sinking into the emo state once again. I spent most of my time at work, and once Im back, Im too tired for anything. But I'm pushing myself to have lil meet ups here and there. Back to isolation.

Taking a bigger step out of my comfort zone.

That much stronger?..

So the 4 days 3 nights shit is over. Bon Apetite'! =) I just felt like talking nonsense since I still feel a lil sleepy, hahas.
Somebod's back from Thai!! I look like some impatient mum waiting for her son's arrival at the arrival hall..before that I was there at the budget terminal like 10? freaking hell, I was freaking early, lucky I had my DS to company me all the way till touchdown. I was playing Mario Party, lol. That sure took me a freaking long time to play. Received loads of items! WOOTS! Filmsover Tees =))) muahaha, now I've got new tees, save me from shopping, should look at the amount of Cigs brought back man, lol!!! Lucky bastard. Bloody hell, went RED LIGHT DISTRICT, what an ass.

Today's my turn to go on flight.. =) to Balikpapan. Some "divers paradise", in Indonesia if I didn't get my notes wrongly. Will be doing my familirisation flight today, hope I dont fall asleep on board. zZz Else, I'm gonna die!. I need some starbucks session, missing my Green Tea Frap like ALOT.
Alright gotta go.
;)

Thai COCK

3.04.2008

As I'm blogging away some fag going to Thai to have a sex change. LOL..okay not funny, some fella is leaving at 4am for Bangkok, and I did the most horrible shit, I keyed the address of the unit wrongly for some AIG travel insurance shit. GG Joanne.

4th day of training was quite fun cus I got to learn the terminology for almost everything. So much information loaded at one go. My adaptability is kinda slow, everyone is talking to everyone, everyone has something to talk about, I'm like the "try so hard" to fit in catergory, not opening up myself to the others, and I guess they don't have much to talk to me too, I realise most of the time when Im in class, I dont really smile, and Im digging my own grave, cus this wont reflect good on my trainer. Many times I tried to be initiative and all, but it's still not good enough, so I guess I've got to try and try and TRY HARDER. Some aint making lives any easier for you, they simply wont acknowledge. So there you go, just greet and don't try to think that it's silly and etc.

4.04.2008

Just received the overseas call like 20mins ago, at 2320 hrs. Now, it's like so army style, time will be changed to 24hrs, no more convenience of 12 hrs clock. Time check now is 0009 hrs. So gong!..zZz Finally it's the weekends, which means I can SLEEP IN!! ;) I dont have to wake up at 0530hrs =)

Today was the 5th lesson, I was extremely tired, was dozing off here and there, trying very hard to keep myself awake. Phew~ the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Today's lesson was real DRY, till I seriously couldn't keep my eyes open man, it was more on F&B, the types of tongs you will come across, the Biz class and the Economy class..etc. But lucky my batch was able to leave earlier, to head down to STC to make our pass =p. My face looked extremely fat, ARGH.

Was hoping to see familiar faces at STC, but nah, there wasn't any.

Sometimes, changes takes place so fast, I wasn't ready to accept, it all went crumbling. Never ever the same anymore, I wasn't expecting it to turn out so cold, but eventually it did.

April Fools

Not much pranks this year, hahas. Maybe everyone has grown tired of it after all, today's my second day of training, is this my second time blogging?..as Im typing, I feel my eyelids slowly shutting down. TIRED. EXHAUSTED, will be the words you'll see frequently on my blog I guess.. ;)
Almost finishing the Admin & Ops book, next up will be the foundation manual which will be THICKER, zZz STRESSED. My SEP is coming!! LAGI STRESS!!!!
I need a massage badly, I feel my body draining, been a good girl lately, and I made it a point that I sleep before 12mn, yet I still feel sleepy..BOO! =(
Missing out on social life soon, and I feel a little out of place in class once again. OUT CAST. Am I not sociable?..hmm, hais. Or is it cus it's only like the start?..where I got to start all over again, making frens from the start..

My schedule is so pack, time is precious. I don't wanna waste it.
Some people's holiday to Bangkok on the 4th. Hmmm, 4 days 3 nights. =(

Anyone sweet enough to brighten up my day?..hahas.
Nites.

Sad

Today will be my second day of training, I was totally drained out when I got home yesterday. I slept throughout the day, skipping my dinner, which I seldom would.
Had 2 consecutive nightmares when I slept yesterday, both were kinda horrid, one was I cant remember what,..SHIT, and the next one was I killed/confronted someone's dad. The dream felt so real, maybe I should check up wikipedia and see what has my dream has to tell me..am I feeling stress or something? lol.

The saddest of all, I got to take out my tongue stud. =( Goodbye for good. =( I feel so handicapped without it, like as though my tongue is short of something, lol, making my speech a lil weird, as though short tongue. LOL.
Alright gottta prepare le..

Im back!

Im finally back from the 2 days trip from Malaysia!. LOL. I swear this was uncalled for, everyone was so spontaneous man!.. At first it was purely just a gambling session at Daryl's place with only me and jh, short of one player, but still we played " shan jiao mah jiang ", and it was JH that initiated it, lol, cus people seldom play 3 leg mahjong. The game didn't lasted for long, a phone call came and it was JZ, the first thing he said was " wanna slack? " so I told him to come over to Daryl's place, then the next thing he said was " wanna go malaysia?" time check was bout 11.20pm on the 27th night. LOL!! I swear everyone was damn steady that night, so he drove me and JH back to get our passport and off we went JB!! hahas, JZ went in to pump petrol and thereafter was supper at some store at the ah gua lane, hahas, the bloody king size Ramily burger was like RM6? lol!! it's DIRT CHEAP MAN!!, then we went to the convenient store, and JZ got a 5L cooking oil!! LOL!! omg, and I got myself a loaf of bread that cost bout RM1.50? LOL!!! went back to Daryl's place for mahjong, then the sudden idea of going Sunway Lagoon came into my mind, so I just said it out.." Aye, go Sunway Lagoon la! " I was expecting answers like " Siao Arh.." but instead the reply was " OK los.." I was like WTF!!!!! hahahahaha, then we started calling people asking them if they wanna join us to Sunway..so first we called Sh it was bout 6am, she thought we were joking, zZz =(



So we came to a conclusion that no one wanted to follow so we set off, on the 28th morning, sending JH home to pack his bag and thereafter to my place, packed our stuff and left for Malaysia..I thought the journey was going to be a fast one, to go Sunway Lagoon to have some fun and head back to Sg. But my calculations went wrong, and I wasn;t able to meet the ladies for dinner.. =(

Jz was travelling like 175 km/hr, on the highway, had our lunch at A&W which freaking taste like crap and continued the journey to KL..

We got lost on our way to KL, turning at wrong junctions, having to pay extrra TOL which is damn hilarious yet irritating. Eventually after some help from other vehicles, we manage to get to SUnway, but it was too late when we got ther, so we decided to stay at the hotel for a day before proceeding to Sunway for fun..hahas!

The hotel was freaking ULU!! it was called Sun Inn Hotel, it was located opposite Sunway Lagoon, Rm 110 per night for 4 person, DIRT CHEAP right?..hahas.

Alright, enough of my nonsense, time for BED.
nITES.

Rotting

Now that I'm temporary jobless, I've nothing much to do. Instead of resting more often, I seem to be heading out more, staying up late and sleep only like 5 or 6 plus in the morning and waking up in the late evening, yesterday was the first time I attempt sleep at 10.30pm. It was difficult, I woke up at 3.30am and I was freaking awake, but I force myself to sleep instead of using the com.

And now I'm bloody hell wide awake, I just feel like sleeping in more, I feel so tired yet I can't continue sleeping. =(
Today's the 27th. 4 more days to go.
Someone asked about me yesterday, it's not like you dont have my no. you know?.. instead of asking me, you chose to ask my mum. But I don't think you're that concern either, isn't it great that I've left the place already?, so why bother to ask my whereabouts now?..

I don't feel happy at all this morning, kinda moodfuckingswing again. Yesterday was bad, don't wish to go into details, it's like a cycle, it'll come back round to me.


Sometimes I just sat there and stared blankly into my future.

So wanted to

Susan msg me early this morning, OCS needed typist for tmr, but I rejected. Not now.

Today will be my last day at Clinique. Picture taking session today! I hope... hmm..
Alright, gotta prepare now.

To That Person

Stop ASSUMING. I wasn't talking about you in my blog.

Good Friday

[ 2nd Entry ]

Time check: 3.08am on my computer

For the past 30 mins or so, I was blog hopping, reading my past archives. Hahas, I have a habit to read back my past entries, and still laugh bout the silly things I've used to wrote, be it angry, sad, happy or confused. I see a standard pattern in my blog entries whereby I just whine and whine and whine. So basically, I just love whinning. That is one thing that didn't change. hahas. Feel like waking up early to go for a tan later, but I guess I'll be lazy. Was suppose to meet The Usuals later on, but I didn't reconfirmed with them, so I guess the meeting up will be called off?.. hmm, so I predict I'll most likely be rotting at home. :) Which I guess I'll need it? since I haven had much sleep lately, besides yesterday =p

Somebody must be watching CSI now, said to complete season 4. So I guess there's loads more of episodes. Was talking to my friend on msn, and I realise that guys tend not to solve problems. They just prefer to remain silent, even when questioned, they'll DENY everything and just let it be, though they know that they feel upset bout it and everything, they still chose to remain as it is. This is one thing I can never tolerate I guess?.. If you have doubt or anything? just clarify?! I prefer straight in my face then keeping it to yourself and making things all so miserable. Having the other party wondering what actually went wrong and having so mnay thoughts..not knowing exactly where went wrong, and the other party doesn't voice it out and just LET IT BE. Best scenario, this fella just disappears! wahh, crap. Anyways, not my problem, if you can just let it be and let go then good for you dude.

Enough of complaining..

[ 1st Entry ]
So I woke up only like ermm, 3 plus today? =x kekeke.
Lazy ass is finally surfacing. ;)
9 more days! can't wait can't wait!! :))

So I had the runs today, like this would be my 5th visit to the too-let. LOL!!! =p It was massive..LOL!! okay details skipped. So "Bekunis" is working real good that it fucking makes me feel like I'm in labour. So, if you wanna risk your life like me and try the pills, be my guest.

There after the bomination..cabbed down to " Holy Trinity" went to crash the chruch for some Good Friday fun =x Oops, just curiosity. Had to like "fast" for the day, but I skipped the "no meat" thingy. So I guess I can't live without MEAT. Be it PORK,BEEF,CHICKEN..MEAT MEAT MEAT!!!!
So after the service/mass, headed down to TM, by then I was freaking wobbly, an angry monster. I wanted FOOD. hahas, VienThai was where I had my feast, a mini one considering the fact that Im on DIE-T. Had Green Mango Salad and Pad Thai. Yummilicious I must say, sadly it has all been flushed down the toilet bowl. Had some arcade fun and caught " Be Kind Rewind ". Seriously, it was kinda boring at the start with very irrelavant scenes, you will only understand the show more like nearing the ending, when I don't feel that sleepy anymore. Did I make any sense?.. Nope I guess.

PEISHI...
Joanne seriously wanna catch " The Leap Years" with you. HOW HOW HOW!!!! :(

WHINE.WHINE.WHINE.
Boo!

New Day

Enough of those rantings, my second last day of work at Clinique. This Sunday would be my last. And next week would be a FREE WEEK for me, to sleep in all I want and just rot for a bit.

There's so many package I see online, like Batam/Bintan package, but Im too broke to go. Today's the eve of Good Friday. Was contemplating whether to club or not, but I guess I don't feel like going anymore, don't wish to bump into some people there. So tonight would be a quiet night. Am addicted to CSI New York, damn cool, was like stuck to it. I bet if I'm not working today, I'll be stuck to my com the whole day.

My hair extension is geting irritating, feel like taking it out real soon, but then again. $140. Maybe one more week..
Check out my friend's blog!! http://cassis-room.blogspot.com/ new bags launched!, my god my spelling sucks man, I cant spell the words these days..DAMN.

That's all for me now.

Not like anyone bothers.

Though I left, still, I was curious to know bout what's happening around. So I was kinda asking alot of questions, but the reply wasn't much. I can't possibly kept pestering when the person refuse to speak up. Come to think of it, there's no point either. Not everything needs an explaination.

Counting down..11 more days to go. Why do I feel that it's kinda vague?..
Almost a week now, and I've still not got over it. This can't go on. Like what the horoscope said, just MOVE ON, it's pointless to remain where I am.
Blabbering too much..

Had Botak once again, this time round I took the Cajun Chicken, hmmm, I'll still prefer the western near the prime mart. Just my personal preference, but I dont think Botak is as nice as what I had expected, or was it cus I expected too much from it?..

I left with a bad impression.

Ended

It ended earlier than what I had expected it to be. I dont wish to get involve with OCS anymore.
End of phase one. So long. This is it.
Too much so much, it hurts.
This happens too often, call it KARMA.

Learn it well and don't trip on it again.

Random

All the yada yada.
Eventually Im left with like 8 more days to go before Im officially out of OCS, like for good.
I doubt they'll ever need me back to help once a while. I don't feel like showing up for work too, cus of the misunderstandings and all. So much for the fond memories. It's always ruined. Be it one way or the other. So I wont be seeing them anymore. The noisy environment which I got so use to.. yada yada, blah blah.

Watched [ Rule #1 ] last night. It was a let down man, okay I got the shocker at some parts of the freaking show as though I was strapped to the electric chair or something, but the twist was fucked up. Seriously, I was expecting more to it. So yea, waste of my $7. Afterwhich, it was slacking at Macs at first it was just for a drink, which in the end ended up as another "Dai Dee" night. LOL. We wanted to use the 20 piece nuggets as bets for a few rounds of " in-betweens" first, but some people kept losing, so we decided not to waste the 20 pcs nuggets like that. hahas, so we crapped and slacked and Dai Dee-ed till bout 3plus in the morning?..hahas! before we decided to head home. It was damn hilarious at certain point in time, when you suddenly do some stupid dance moves that makes you laugh your ass off.. ahahas, like " lost in the woods" lol! shaking the whole body as though you got possessed. LOL. Wasted it wasn't videoed.

An ugly mark left. What happened?

A Bet

I made a bet to myself. 29th would be my last day working at OCS.
I'm left with 13 days.

I dont fell like leaving at all.
Little but fond memories.

Double O

Freaking got wasted once again last night. Was msging loads of nonsense to random people. Made a fool out of myself once again. Damnit. But it was fun having one big group of people clubbing together :)

Mistakes learnt.

1. Never to "tah" a jug anymore.
2. Make sure my phone is in my pocket and not taking it out to randomly msg people once again.
3. Who's ur daddy? lol.
4. Never trust the other side.
5. Fuck off jerks.
6. Never ever drink so fucking fast.

We were literally gone by 1 plus, okay not really gone, more of hmm, high I guess. Enough crapping, need a lil napping.

Ciaoz!







[ Goners of the night..]

I feel so lost ..

The papers are finally over. There goes my ITE life. Did I spent it well?.. cus I feel so weird inside. It's undescribable.

Hais.
Byee.

As we go on..will we remember?..

One more hell to go

When you don't study, don't expect much from it. The paper to me was difficult. Reason being, I didn't study enough. Simple as that. Those that mugged hard, paid off. It was easy to them, I gave up the 3rd question consisting of 20 marks, there goes my accounts. So if I manage to " pass" this paper, I'll consider myself LUCKY SHIT.
So one paper down, another hurdle to go.
One of my friend is told to leave work, I guess it's due to the attendance. But I believe things can be talked out, can't possibly ask you to leave just like that when they're in need of people?.. hmm?.. I don't think A will let go just like that. Chill ya, there's still space for negotiation and try to be early for work or something?.. I suck at cheering people up, guess I only made you feel more stressed out.

I can't possibly dwell on this paper anymore, since my effort wasn't there in the first place, so next up will be Audit. Dang!.. and thereafter, it's the freaking HOLIDAYS! when im freaking BROKE!..how cool is that. And some people is leaving for Thailand soon. Hmmmm..

I better get back to sleep,
My tummy's churning..
I'm HUNGRY!! =(

Edited:

There's this sour feeling inside my throat which Im unable to swallow down. Away from home, away from Singapore. 3 years would be the minimum, what's the max?.. What's it like in Netherlands?.. Quoted from Z.

Extreme Stress

Exams just a day away. I'm still stuck with Cash Flow..and I've yet to start revision on Hire Purchase.zZZz.
This is scaring me.

I kept thinking of stuffs that I wanna do after the exams, that ain't right. My schedule looks damn packed. Which I kinda dread, cus I'm still tired, from all these overnight thingy. " Who ask you?.." hahas, thankew very much. Dont let me catch your weakness.

What will actually happen 2 years from now, apart from the ever growing age..that's catching up with you so fast..

Realise...

To the pal..if ever you're reading. Sorry.

Some Updates

Very good morning!, today's a freaking rainy day that I was so caught up in bed that I missed school once again. Argh! Crap.

A few updates of what happened around me lately, since I've not been updating much.

-Was up last night as a translator..cey2 this sounds cool. Hahas, but wasn't of much help caused I dozed off at 2am.

-Finally I was hitting the books, literally submerging myself into the revision questions and it felt GREAT.

-Someone forwarding me weird msgs, that made me smile like a dumb fool.

-Lack of sleep

-Lack of movies to watch. Speaking of which I finally caught "P.s I love you" on movies.net last night, but I only stopped at part 3. Kinda disappointing.

Seriously Im kinda lazy to blog, that's why everythings ending up in point forms. =x

And Im seriously eating alot lately..argh. I had like...

- Botak Jones ( Fish n Chips ) which is not so nice..to me?..

- 85 market ( ah balling, sweet potato soup, and the stupid jelly ( cheat my feelings ), Ouh Lua, black carrot cake, and untouched indian rojak. HAhas..

-KTM mee soto!! yummylicious.

-Erm, not sure of that store name, but it freakin serves food only after 5pm! wth! eyh! u still owe me chicken chop! I don't care!

-Cartel and more cartel!! DAMNNNN!!!

I needa weigh my freakin weight man.. DANG!! I don't wish to invest in the tummy too. =p

Then I attended my Uncle's wedding at Intercontinental Hotel.

I watched my work mates playing soccer a few blocks away from KTM..it was hilarious.

And..

Clubbed with Aud like freaking last min ;)

hmmm, is that all about it I can remember?..hmmm, oh ya! slacked with Andrew, bloody hell he won our money from In-betweens!! UGH!!

And, I made my best pal fuming mad, that my msgs wasn't even entertained. Im dead.

Bored

Was trying to change my blog template a few days back, but DAMN there were several errors that I can't figure out. Cus I aint no IT student and I'm seriously noob towards such stuff.
So a few updates..

I had my hair extension!! lol, freaking costed me a fucking BOMB. $140. I got chided for that, like literally spend whatever I have left on it, and it doesnt look natural at all, cus it's only 70 strands. =( $2 per strand.
So that is one thing down. I've finally gone back to school, but sadly not today, as I'm having a horrible throat that even swallowing down the saliva would own my throat man. ARGH. Hate this crap.

Went to parkway ytd..it was FUN =) was stuck at Borders for almost an hr plus, we were stuck at the "Games" section, searching for " Where's Wally" it's damn addictive man! lol. I was the winner for the night. LOL. =x Before that, had Ajisen, hmm no doubt Im not a fan of RAMEN, still I gave it a shot. I tried the ermmmmm.. ton smth, I cant recall the name, it taste real nice as in the soup and the bacon I think. The ramen was "O-K".
So basically, I was literally laughing the whole day even though my throat was giving way. ;) Still, I enjoyed myself.

I love hardgay's swimming trunks. LOL!!!!!! ( if you know what I mean..) hahahah.

My throat hurts..
Anyone..BINTAN? in march?..

When you learn to cherish

Simply shuts me off. I wonder why.
Am I that irritaing?. I hate doubting myself.

Cramps

Post syndrome for exams, work and future. Is giving me extremely bad cramps. I don't like this feeling, yet I've still got to work 2pm today. ARGH =(

Too much of thinking in the day resulted in a bad nightmare. I can't remember what I dreamt but it was kinda bad, that I actually broke out in cold sweat. Hmmm, but some how or rather you were in the dream. Okay, thanks for waking me up this morning, hahas. I still insisted on having 20 more mins.. =p but I guess this woman fell back asleep alr..hahas! you and your MIDNIGHT shift!! GGRR!!! continue later when im back, gotta go to sch alr.. byee

Is it my fault things became this way?. Time is always a factor, I'm always in the wrong time frame, eventually I feel the intense hurt. Ha. So what if graduation is nearing, is it going to make any difference. Cynical.

I've just realised I've set my priorities wrongly. And definately planned it wrong. I see things in a new light now, but I guess everyone will be like going " yah right there she goes again.." Hahas, but this time round I've got to be determined. It's like finally my dream came true. There's bound to be sacifices to make. I'll lose some things that holds great significance to me. I'm known to people as a confused girl. I hope I'm confuse no more.
Time for me to really PLAN FOR THE FUTURE. within less than a month, I'm leaving ITE for good. So my first top priority is to clear my finals. It's not going to be easy, I need to be extremely disciplined. Force myself.

This roller coaster has to stop. It's time for me to get off the ride. I cant live my life this way anymore.
So I'll be

-Mugging real hard for this fucking finals.
-Stop being paranoid for small stuffs, which is getting on peoples' nerve.
-Stop taking things for granted.
-Cherish whatever I'm left with.
-Look Forward.

I dont wish to look back ten years from now regretting like fuck.


Good Nights.

New Loves

I've fallen for Marie Digby's vocals man..and Richie Kotzen's talent.........OH MANNNN!!! THEY ROCK MAN!!

Fucking PIST OFF

Headache man, woke up early like 6 in the MORNING OKAY..
Just to wake some people up, eventually I got screwed. Okay, if I make people wake me up in the morning, at least I'll try my very best to not SHOUT or make the person feel fucked up for waking me up.
If you get a remark like " YOU'RE VERY IRRITATING!! " zZZz wasnt I suppose to wake you up no matter what?..
When it's not appreciated, it just stings me. So yea, thanks for ruining my morning. Thankew so much. I just love having a fucked up morning to start off with.

I'm missing the fish head steamboat alr..

* I need you boo..gotta see you boo...* - Chris Brown : With You ROCKS!

Missing out

Although we're left with maybe less than a month till the final exams.. I've been skipping school as though exams were over. Loads to catch up on..any kind souls willing to burn their mid-nights with me?.. Apart of me wanna do well for this final shit..a part of me is left wandering. This is extremely bad, and I've got no one else to blame but myself for landing up in such a state, and I guess Ms Choo has already come to terms with it.

We're giving up on ourselves, before people gave up on us. I feel a lil wee bit stressful having to turn up for school like say tomorrow?.. I dont wish to see Ms Choo's face and people hounding us for our projects. I feel bad, but it just doesnt seem to have a big impact on me till the extend of making myself going the extra mile.
This sounds so loser man. Any kind souls willing to help this useless person here?.. =( Call me sadist, but I miss the days when my mum FORCE me to study, cus no matter how unwilling I was to study, the cane was always there for me, so yea. I never wanted to give in to the cane..
Like wad Ed said, I'm always giving in to the devil in my mind. It's too late for soul searching, just fucking pray that at least I clear my sem man. One last final stretch and that's it. GET THE HELL OUT OF ITE.
Speaking of which, Im gonna miss the class man, though I didnt made myself THAT sociable, only a handful were close to me..

Remembering the first day of school, when I cursed and sweared bout how fucked up this class was, which still does in a way..LOL!! I'm kidding!! okok.. the first time Van spoke to me in the auditorium..the first time I made friends with Shu Zhen and Co, the first time I thought Syahid was damn cool but turns out to be otherwise..the first time when I thought Zhe Wei was some fucked up ah beng..lol! joking larr! as in like those typical AH BENG..hmmm, the first time when Audrey and Van walked up to me and said I had flawless complexion when I had a pimple on it..My first found best fren SITI ZAHARA..hahas..Andeline the one that I thought was in the wrong course..hahas..Rina the noisy girl in class..hahas..still is ehh still is..LOL..hmm who else let's see..Jinyi aka JING YI aka Edmond aka HANDSOME ED..hahas.. the ah goon I thought, on his first day in class, whom turn out to be the funniest monkey..hmmm, Ryan and Ming han when we went to watch X-men3 lol! when we were suppose to do CIP, together with SuZhen..Gabriel that fella who fell for Yvonne, hahas!! u sucker! lol!! hmmm Yvonne that went haywired..Jieyin ever wanna fight with me..lol..Cai ling the one that has nice hair..Siyu the very skinny girl with long hair, Felicia hmmm the monitress..Huifen..the loud speaker!! lol!! no offence, but you seriously gotta tone down a bit.. =p Yati, the purple eye girl..nice lady..Farhana the ever so sporty lady of QA!! hahas.. Deedee the damn hot chick..hahas..Nysha the pretty girl..Ira I seriously love her hair..Alfred my suck blood brother..LOL..Johnson, the fella that sits beside me during OFA who likes to stay on soccer.net... Tom the fella that skidded near Circuit rd..hahas..hmmm,Azure the one that looks tao..hahas. Nurul the one who has very slim figure when she turned up at the first ever class chalet with tudung yet still looks nice..Sharifah very quiet girl that kinda get bullied at times..Naeera, she uses profound words man!! the twins..hahas. Kappoo the ever so irritating fella in first sem..that eventually went MIA..Allvyn he likes to drink..as of what Ms Choo said..quan tien the ever sleepy guy..Iza the shortest yet smartest..no offence arhh.. ;) Jun Jie!! wah wah wah this fella, always careless during OFA..Yana, I only started talking to her like 3rd Sem?..cool chick.. did I miss out anyone??..if I did, my sincere apologies okay?..
Anyway, though it's only 2 years, it's nice having people around in this class, though Im not that sociable to all, but I hope U dont forget my name someday when you happen to bump into me..Last but not least...of cus it's Joycelyn!!!, she is with me since sec 4 okay! lol..I didnt put ur name last on purpose okay..she was with me day 1 of school alrite! a gamer.. the one with all the latest gadgets.. =)

Im JOANNE.=)

Dress on SALE

Wore only once selling at $18. Contact me at daze1034@hotmail.com

Lady is 163cm.

CNY 4th Day

So right now I'm freaking bored. Ended up betting soccer with Senget..hahas!
I bet Liverpool gonna win so yea, you better suck thumb and just pay that $1.50! hahas..
Went Hog's Breath Cafe with the cheeky girls..lol. To celebrate Lily's belated 21st!

Man, we're turning 21 this year..freaking fast man.

The food there was not too bad, I liked the MUDPIE! hmmmmmmm =) yummylicious.
We're like talking bout Edison..LOL! comparing stuffs like is this the standard asian size etc, etc. LOL!

Okay, cut that crap..I sang the birthday song to the WRONG PERSON! lol..instead of singing.. " Happy Birthday to Lily... I sang it as "Happy Birthday to Sheryl.." LOL!!! OH MAN!!!!!! hahahs..

i'm lazy to blog alr..

Oh yea Im waiting for " The Leap Years", "P.s I Love You", I wanna watch them..
Who's up for "27 dresses" and " Ah Long Pte Ltd" ?!! Please bring me along to watch it!!! thankew very much!

Pictures uploaded =)

[ Birthday Girl ]
[ The Cheeky Girls ]
[ Lily & Cactus ]
[ Mudpie!! ]
[ah Long's gf ]

CNY- 3rd Day

Desperate means calls for Desperate measures. LOL.

Theme Park

I wanna head down to the theme park!! any takers?..

1st day of CHINESE NEW YR

Happy Chinese New Yr to all =)
Had a fruitful CNY eve, ate so much till my tummy felt weird and therafter was CJ7 with bi..
I would give it a TWO THUMBS UP!!! the show was way awesome =)
Though it's more like a non-fiction movie, where aliens exist, man that little CJ7 sure looks like my coco baby..hahas!
A movie which I literally CRIED! and laughed like mad..hahas. I LOVE IT! =)

Gonna prepare and head out to my ah mah's place fer second round of steamboat from where we left ytd, lol, and more steamboat at nite at my great grandmother's place..OH MANN!! Spare me from the sinfulness.

I fell in love with the DJ.. hahas.
I'm getting so high..

ANG BAO WO LAI LE!!!!!!!! =)

Ps: Can I own a CJ7 too? I promise I'll treat it good..hahas..

LEAVE ME ALONE.

Struggling Down.

People make choices everyday, every decision you make, you ought to know there'll be consequences to face. I faced mine. And I'm taking the other way out.
What are white lies?..
I dont seem to be able to comprehend, I've not forgotten.

Closed chapter.

Anticipating. It's Nerve Wracking.

Medical Check-up

A very good morning to all, I'm bloody tired right now, cus I couldnt sleep last night; tossing and turning, I just cant fall asleep, so eventually around 3plus am I went out to the living room to use my com.

So how will you feel satisfied with the term of " cherish every moment of your life?"
Are you cherishing every moment of your life right now? or are you sulking away on what had happened last week or yesterday?..
I'm still learning..
Man I'll be working at Katong today, luckily I have Drey to company me, but I wonder how's her eyes, poor girl hasnt recover from her eye infection yet..
This is gonna be a long weekend..

Apart of me feels sad.
Out for medical..Byeee

Same old story

Knowing that eventually I'll bound to get hurt, I still went head in.
Knowing that the hurt will be even worse, I still chose to head in.
I simply cant stop myself. I chose my path.

One tends to forget what they lost, and not remember to cherish.
Whereas Im one that tends to cherish too much, I held it too tightly.
As silly as I am, as silly as how you will call me.
I've fell back in.
This is the same old story.

I've chosen another path which is coming along my way very soon.
See where my limits can go.I'm beyond recovery.

I failed

I cant express myself well, but if you need to talk to me, just tell me, dont keep it inside of yourself. I know you're good at hiding your feelings. I wanted to talk to you but I dont know where to start, as a sister I failed.
I feel lost, like totally. As though Im crumbling down instantly. So many things in my mind, it's all jumbled up.
It's as though..

Im mentally breaking down.
I cant stop crying.

Tarot Card

Was late for work once again today, turned up only at 1.30 when I was suppose to start at 1pm
Hahas! Damn, but luckily there wasnt much for me to key in mostly just changing of destination.
I learned how to do airway bills today. I was kind of blur at first cause I was suppose to attach this document with that document, Des nearly killed me.LOL. But as a newbie you cant really blame me can you?..hmm, even photocopying of stuff was a difficulty to me. Zul tried to help but we made things worse, LOL!! Oh well :p

After which, Mum,Des and me headed down to Bugis for lunch, we had KFC's family feast! LOL.
It was extremely FILLING till I was on the verge of exploding.WAhaha.Kris came to meet us, and I was getting all excited cus Des had a deck of Tarot Cards, so I was looking forward to his readings.
We settled at Sketches, didnt really like the place, but their Tiramisu was SUPERB!!, yummy, sadly, no picture was taken cus my phone died on me. =(
Patiently I waited for my turn. Kris went first cus she was rushing..followed by mummy, after which it was finally MY TURN!! =)
I was the only one that had the "bad" cards, mum and Kris both had triumph cards whereas mine was more on the down side, so my reading was kinda bad..
But I got to work hard to change my fate, shall see bout that..

hmmm,
may the fat woman and best man wins. LOL!

I know I aint thinking too much

Knowing too much aint helping too much either.
Am I to chuck this thought aside? I'm having mixed emotions, I hate my self-confidence.
Just when I thought I got over the fact of some unreasonable thoughts, it came straight at my face.

Distance.
My thoughts are slowly turning negative, and this time it seems my intuition is true.
Help me. I dont wanna sink anymore.
I dont wish to see things that I dont wish to see, but it still happened.
I brush away the thoughts but yet another surfaced.

If the one you love doesnt appreciate you as much as your past, why cling on to her?..
maybe she isnt the one for you at all, it was only the nonsense she does that makes you happy.
Look around you, while you were depressed and thought you only needed her, it's actually cus you kept yourself cooped up in your room, you were so joyful with your friends, she aint that great afterall, dont cling on to her. She's just a lost soul now, she thought she felt happy, but she's having mixed emotions again, are you really sure she's the one for you?..
Because she just felt that it isnt, something is missing.

Mr Paul Frank..U STOLE MY FAG!
Ha.

Now the emotic girl surfaces once again.
Fucked up.
Dont talk to me.