Realism

If getting back at others meant so much for you..
There's more to life than this, if back then you were unhappy about the jokes made, you could have said something.

I may not be as good as you guys when it comes to such stuffs, to lay down the facts and talk about it. I feel the sting, thanks for sharing the experience.

Freaking hurtful.
Thanks for bringing me down.

swings

I'm having the swings, and it's making me feel so cranky tonight. Emotions got the better of me. And it irritates me because I hate feeling this way.

Words just cant express how much it meant to me, for you to make your way down just to company me for dinner. It's always the aftermath that I realise how dumb it was of me to behave in such manner.

you make me feel important.. (:

Thanks for the feedback

When it happened?, I've not a clue. It's been going downhill since then. The more I tried to be cool about it, the more it got worse. Everyone has their own point of view, so if you're unhappy about the thoughts of others, you can just jolly well not view anything that links to them.
You can simply delete the person. Save the trouble. Do yourself a favour there. Simple as that.

Maybe cus there's some injustice along the line that a ITE graduate like me draws home a relatively higher pay. Am I very proud of that? Have I thrown money at your face, or made fun of you in any ways before? Calling me names like domestic servants/ glorified high flying cleaners. Call me names, just because you ASSUME that people looked down on you. If you have something that you're unhappy about, you can trash it out. In my face.

So do you feel great now making fun of people/ me? what have you gain from it? does it feed your ego now? do you feel like a better man now?

Seriously, it hurts alot. I hope this makes you feel damn superb and up there.
To come to this level, to make fun of me. Do you feel elated? On top of the world? Why go through so much just to make fun of me?

The reason why I wrote this entry, yes, I am affected. And yes, I'm finally reacting. Yes, you're making me feel like shit.Yes, you've got better brains than me, yes you're a graduate that can draw much higher pay than me, yes you can get your own transport, and then? what's next?

All these assumptions, I dare you to speak to me in my face. Since you're seeking revenge, why not do it straight into my face?. Hurt me and see me cry, won't it make you feel better?

Cloudy Day

Been feeling lethargic since morning till now. It feels like my bone will break any moment. The weather looks so good, for me to sleep in hehehe. Ohh well, I'm feeling super tired. I merely had 3 hours of sleep?. Body please wake up soon..

SEKUPANG

Anytime any day, as long as I'm not working and it's not the weekends and the money ain't tight, I'll go back there just for the spa and massage. The view was so serene, so peaceful, so carefree. A place for you to hide away, just for a day. Now I know where I can go, it's not that difficult, just that we've got to be extra careful, walking around there.

This is the second time back there, a year ago, I was filled with fear, for it's the first time I've gone to Batam, and the people there scare me. This time round when I'm back there, though the people there STILL scares me, I've kinda got use to their awful stares..

Thank you ladies, you know who you are (:

Thanks Drey.. (: I had a sumptuous breakfast. ='))

Good nights <3>

The more one tries to perfect something, the more she stumbles..

So it goes

I was all excited before I came back home. Was planning to take myself out for a nice lunch/dinner, walk around and all. But ended up sleeping my day away. All I did after I woke up was sitting in front of the monitor and seeing the many incoming birthday wishes.. (:

This year's birthday has been nothing but silence. I can't help it cus it's night time, and when night falls, emotions just gets to me. I'll just need to get use to it (: In another 3 hours time, it'll be the 21st already. Just another day has past. This is something new for me, I'll just need to get use to it.

It's surprising no one is home now..not even Daddy. Ohh well (: any day could be a birthday.

Time for tv and ice creammm (:

Happy Birthday!!

Happy Birthday to Me!! (:

I'm finally 23 now, and it's 11 more days to the New Year! I wanna go for some countdown thingy since I'm OFF on the eve (:
Birthday this year has toned down alot, nonetheless thanks to FB that people wishes me on my bday, my phone doesn't ring like hotcake in the past anymore, they're all on FB. hahaah. Except Ah lam surprisingly, who msg me at 12mn LOL so cute.. then followed by Bi who called at around 12plus to wish me and sang me bday song where I cut him mid-way saying that I wanna record it down and he stopped singing. Not forgetting Ku who came all the way down to bi's block and waited for me with the birthday cake and her priceless scrap book for me (: which I really like alot! It's nothing fancy or expensive, I just enjoy receiving scrap books, dont ask me why..really.

Thankew everyone, be it you remembered, or it was FB or after reading my blog or somewhere along that line..thanks for the wishes

2010 is coming to an end real soon, as per usual there will be many thoughts and feelings about it..will write that maybe in another entry. In the meantime, I need to prepare for work..I've got called up!! at least I'll be back from flight at 2 plus..still not so bad I guess..at least it aint somewhere FARAWAY..hahas..

ciaoz~

Eat and eat and EAT!

Woke up real early this morning, getting all excited for the outing. Had my hair treatment done at RM90 hmm and my nails with nail art at RM61, I did classic pedicure with 3D nail art on my toes, love the look of the flowers on my toes (: had yummylicious pork's spare parts kuay teow in the morning before we headed to the salon and there after the pedicure session, we headed over to get barangs, lots of snacks!! (: mine was only RM75!!..last stop was the prawn noodles at Jalan Eunos Merah, if Im not wrong?.. talking about it makes me so hungry!!!!

Waiting for Mr Tan to get me fries for my dinner..LOL cus I just woke up like half an hour ago. I'm already addicted to the nail art, I foresee more damages in the near future.. LOL uh ohhh..

Total damage for today: RM226 = $97.20 (:

waiting

I'm waiting for the call, I know I'll be called up for flight, be it a long or short one, Im ready for it and all I need now is a call from them. I've been waiting for my phone to ring for the longest time. Not that Im complaining that the "my space" time has worn off, I just can't seem to stay home for more than 24 hours. Been pacing around at home today, been constantly checking the crewlink hoping for someone to report sick so that I can be activated.

I've paint my nails and ironed my uniform.

Ate so much today, had muffin at 6ish then went back to sleep at 7ish. Woke up at 11ish, had 2 bowls of choco pops and a sandwich. Then I had dinner at 5ish didn't finish my box of rice, which consists of veggies and lots of meat which dad bought for me. I guess only mummy knows me best when it comes to getting dishes for me. And that's about how I spent my day today. I read a little of my novel, ended up searching for food again as I was reading on the pizzas and what nots in Italy. That made my tummy roar so loudly. I just got to look for food. Mummy surprised me with sesame ball =) just in time to curb my hunger but sadly, I'm still feeling HUNGRY. I have weird cravings at weird hours. For instance, I'm having craving for soup now. Where the hell to find soup at such hour, unless Im talking about maggie mee soup. Which is not the case. I'm craving for mushroom soup...UGH.

Italy has been on my mind for quite a while now, may I strike 4D enough to tour Italy. ( cus it happens that dad switched to some random channel and it's showing ITALY )

Anyways, there's so much running thoughts in my head now, like when I was bathing and looking into the mirror, I was trying to picture myself with different hairstyle, it just feels too mundane, I wish to change it, but I have no idea on what hairstyle to go for. I can't go like those pixie short hairstyles, neither can I go for those vogue hairstyles, because my face will be exceptionally big. But I hate how the curls look on me, I wonder how..
Christmas is round the corner (: can't help it but I'm hoping for lots of nice food!!! wonder if there is any family gathering this year, kinda missing the blue cheese, the cakes and I wanna have TURKEY for Christmas!! all those yummylicious.. and the Christmas decorations.. for once, for the longest time, I feel for Christmas..

enough said, I'm sleepy already..lol.

xoxo

Jojo..

Christmas..

Home to rot Part 2

I've yet to prepare and head out to run my errands, cus I'm enjoying "my space" currently cus there's no one home cept Coco baby and me (: She gets to laze around while I get to watch drama after drama (:

I still have the crave for Rapunzel.. anyone?

Craving for bubble tea hmmm slurps..maybe later =P

miss you baby` (:

GREAT

GREAT, just great. I'm feeling superbly tired but I couldn't get back to sleep. Insomnia is back. My body is aching mad right now, and my tummy is roaring loudly.

Should I make my way down office later?, or should I just write an email?. I'm feeling really tired today. Have no plans for nothing. My hands looks horribly red and sore right now ): and my right index finger feels as though the nail is gonna fall off any moment now. ARGH!!! my mind is so active right now, but my body is crying for more rest. I've been tossing and turning since 3:30.. hmm should I order Mac breakfast?.. or try my luck and head back to "sleep"?.. what an off day! zZz

It's going to be a lethargic Tuesday. Maybe I'll just run some errands then spend the rest of the day at home, rot away and watch some shows on channel 856/855 since it's been a while I've watched those sitcoms.

I'm chatting away online with Flo who's in EU now..enjoying her last few hours before she heads back home..it's already 6:17am!!! should I get my mac breakfast?..lol

amazing

When you're enclosed in an area, 14000 ft above, when you have no where to run, where you can't avoid what you don't wish to see or do. There's no "I try" only "I can do it". It's amazing how I can push my limits, like doing more than what I see myself doing.

I realize I need alot of pressure added to me if I need to get something done. Just like today, I was given the task of being "in-charge" at the back as I was the most senior. All the responsibility came to me, and I would say I'm impressed with the way I handled stuffs. Though not perfect, at least I didn't shun away from the responsibility, or maybe put it this way, I'm cornered. It's a one way traffic, no way me saying it's okay we can do without the service. In my head, I was giving myself some of my own pre-flight briefing, my thoughts were running mad crazy, so I told myself, one way or other, Im in this flight, the passengers got to reach their destination, I can't just shriek away from my responsibility. I calmed myself down, took a deep breath, and we took off.
Everything went smoothly.

I never see myself being able to lead, because I always tell myself I can't and in me, I'm scared of having to make decisions, but today, I broke the curse, it's all in me. It's just a matter of whether you wanna do it, or not. I could have chose to take MC but I didn't. (:
Do it once and do it good.

I'm still learning each time,
think fast act fast..

When obstacles/challenges comes along, mentality plays a huge role, if I were to sulk and whine even before heading to work, it's definitely going to be a sucky day.
I'm enjoying the challenges I've to face, it's like a sense of accomplishment, in a way boosting that tiny little confidence of mine..

Loving it in a new light..

xoxo

jojo' over and out

good nights all!! (:

one more day

One more day to my off day, can't wait. I'm still feeling so tired after such a long sleep. Anything more than 6 hours is considered long for me already. Didn't manage to watch "love in the cab" on channel U yesterday due to flight. And, my nightmare is back! having horrible toothaches, and now the left side of my face looks a little swollen AGAIN!!! what's happening!!! ):

Anyways, last week was crazy. I drove for 2 consecutive days, had mad loads of Japanese food (: , got myself a skirt FINALLY, hangout with bi's friends for dinner,bowling and 1/2 hr game of Citidale. Though I'm slow with such strategic games, the nonsense they did, and Chelsea's facial expressions was superb funny!.. not forgetting the last minute BBQ at Nel's. NO LIGHT!!! lol. Though I hate preparing the food because of the weird smell and all, at least at the end of it, it tastes and looks good (: now I know how to prepare the bacon with golden mushroom. Nonetheless, I love the spicy white button mushroom bi made, makes my tummy rumble at the thought of it, though it burnt my tongue cus it was too hot, and I was too eager to eat. LOL.
Had "surprise attack", that made me feel so embarrass up till now.. LOL!! FARK! UGHHHHH!!!!!..oh well..

Either ways, the weekend was madness to the maximo!! (:

wo ge ni yi ge _|_ zai ge ni yi ge "tui!"

ciaoz~

xoxo

Jo (:

Early morning

The weathers' so nice this morning. =) I like this kinda weather, cooling not chilly. Slept like a log after my flight yesterday. It feels so good! but I wasn't able to sleep further at night, I woke up about 4 in the morning toss and turn till bout 6 plus before I fell back asleep and shortly after woke up again. My body clock just refuse to sleep after 3ish. UGH.

I used to think patience is one of the quality I have in me, but as the years gone by, I realise I'm slowly losing it. I lost my patience to the slightest things and my temper is getting from bad to worse. These are the bad habits that slowly crept into me.

Needa get a hang of it..

Cant think of a title for my entry, I'll just leave it blank first. I'm still feeling lethargic and what not. I should be able to sleep last night, as I was dead beat. Literally walked for the whole day, but apparently I woke up at 2:40. Tossed and turned till now. CRAP. And my crewlink is down yet AGAIN, so I won't know who's working with me today. zZz Mum didn't wake me up 4:40 hmm, guess she didn't set the alarm. This is not funny, 2 days of insomnia. There isn't much festive feel this year, though the lighting and all are up. It looks pretty dull though, mixture of blue and purple it didn't brighten up rather made it look so sleepy.. or was it cus we were exhausted from all the walking. I've finally tried "happy lemon" and I like my blueberry kanten plus agar. =) taste like yakult with jellies. LOL.

I've also decided not to perm my hair, after trying the temporary curls. I don't like how it looks on me. It just made my already big face look BIGGER pictures will be up maybe later. I've finally got myself a pair of skirt and to think that it's been a while now since I've wore my jeans, which I have no idea where has it gone to... enough of rantings..

Needa prepare for work now..

xoxo

to be continued..

serve the consequences

Being complacent, living the days of "I'll do it tomorrow", seriously, for the convenience of now that you leave things till the day after tomorrow, and end up having difficulties later on. Sadly, as much as I hate this, I'm actually one of the culprits, making things so inconvenient. Small little things like, dropping of MCs that could have been done like early in the morning just now, rather than having to wait till after lunch to head back to office to do it, just these small little things, whereby I could have just be a little more hardworking and head up to office from work yesterday. I'm outright lazy.

I never liked going to the office, cus I sense the aura, hahah I mean it's like when you're in school, would you like to go into the principal office as and when?.. I have those kind of fear whenever I have to step into the office. I make sure that if I were to go in, I'll just do my stuff, chop chop and leave. It's just me.

So after ranting here, I'll go prepare then head out to office and slowly make my way down town. See the inconvenice done Joanne..TSK. =(

-LG.

Driveeeee

After more than half a year of NOT DRIVING, I've got the chance to drive again today (:
Though the weather condition outside wasn't exceptionally great, I had my fair share of fun. Went over to Nic's place to hangout and visit bb Zaden. Since we were hungry and no one was using the car, we took it out for a spin. And I must admit, I'm one of those many hazard drivers. =( If it weren't for mummy being persistent of driving, I would have chose to cab down.

I wonder how I've actually got myself a license, where did I find time to head down diligently for classes when I don't even do that for my classes now?. That phase seems a blur. From the very first lesson till the day I've actually got my license to hazardous driving and the fact is, I do miss driving (: I'm still trying to brake slowly as in no jerks at all, apparently it's still not to perfect YET.
Ohh well..

Monday is finally over =)

Time to get some rest, this post took me half an hour to write, too many running thoughts, but my words doesn't seem to be flowing today.

Tired..

goodnights
xoxo

jojo.

Just like a drug

I wished the weekends could have lasted longer. I get lovesick everytime it hits weekdays. As much as I hate to admit this, I feel a little out of place without his presence.

As much as I try not to cling like a koala, the more Im so attached to him.
This is only half an hour ago, I feel a little uncomfortable already. Geez~

Kay, gtg hate it when I got to rant here.

Blweah

Till my next weekend getaway...

Rain check

Just like the pouring rain, it's like a down period for people around me.
Just like the weather, my mood has been swaying pretty much in very big waves. Just like the wave, my mood goes on and off.

Lull period.

With the rain pouring outside, I can't go for my jog.

Hello testing!

My voice is back!! (: mummy's remedy is amazing hahas! I can finally hear myself once again, though it hasn't fully restore back to it's original, at least I won't run out of pitch anymore. I'll try to speak as little as possible to conserve it for my brace command, I feel so much better now! (: I don't have to use so much strength to talk.

Another round of water parade before I hit the showers.

Have a great day y'all! =)

Shineeeeeeeeeeeyy

Over the weekend we spent the WHOLE afternoon washing and polishing the car, from late noon till evening, till the sun has set..imagine that. That was plenty of work DONE. Feeling kinda proud though most of the job wasn't done by me..LOL. At least you see your own reflection clearly when you look at the car, nice and shiny =)

It's not easy polishing a car, imagine how much work those working at the car wash got to go through..hmm so much hard work. geez.. But it helps your arm lose some fats though. At least for me, LOL. At least it makes me feel better for a while..

-Edited-

As though he works like a remedy for me that I became well when he came back..now I'm back to square one. Down with the stupid flu..I thought the flu vaccination should be able to keep me away from such. ):

Had lots of first time encounter over the weekends, be it work or otherwise.

I've officially lost my voice, all I can make out are distorted sounds that's irritating to the ears, which apparently serves as an entertainment to the rest. BOO!

Even bi had his share of fun, when I told him I've lost my voice when I came back from my overnight flight, he'll still try his luck and call me, "hello?..testing testing.." hahaha. That was funny I swear! but I couldn't make out much noise even my thunderous laughter was lost. I have to use lots of strength to speak, which I feel is pretty tiring besides this, my nose ain't giving me a good time as well, I have to blow my nose every now and then when I feel that it's blocked, but there's nothing inside..imagine how irritating that can be, and because of the constant hard blows.. my ears are blocked. Very sickening. I wonder how do I go for my SEP recurrent tomorrow in such state. =(

Please let me recover already.

wasted another sem.

thoughts

I'm at my worst I would say. This isn't the first time I've gone through these, yet again, nothing is going right. I've lost motivation for school, but yet I keep telling myself I need the cert, yes it works as a backup for me in the near future. But apparently I've not change a single bit, I'm still as lazy as ever, not working anything out. I'm still living the days when nothing seems to matter.

Now everything is piling up and I feel so sick and tired. I tell myself from time to time that I will be better. Who am I cheating? I'm in a big self-denial. I can't solve my own problem, I can't weigh my pros and cons what I want for myself. What have I been doing?

Useless.

Down down down...

I'm going down down down down down. The fever is back yet again. I'm feeling really horrible now. This is like the worst combo ever that'll happen to me. It's not as if I've been taking lots of heaty stuffs, in fact I've been taking things that's considered "cooling".

It seriously sucks to have the combo coming all at once, my nose is blocked and I cant breathe..there's nothing in my nose, no mucus or what not, so I couldn't clear it, it's just BLOCKED. So I have to sit upright. Then the headache is back again, I can feel my forehead reheat once again. Damnit. =( I feel damn sick and pist off. i can feel myself floating again. Which is equally irritating, cus that means I have no energy to walk around. =( AAAAAAARgh~

And my freaking throat is killing me!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! =(

My unique family traits

See, when I cannot get back to sleep I would think of plenty of random what nots that keeps me so freaking active that I will tend to do a second entry like what Im doing right now. This is going out to my sis.

I was randomly blog hopping, so yea. Since it's been a while now since I've read her blog, I thought it's time for me to "invade" once again. I wonder if she reads mine, since mine is like so prominent. It's like on my favourites list. So yea, here goes. To my dear sissy, just to let you know, you have the biggest heart I've ever seen, as in always sparing a thought for others out there, unless on your lull period, where you get all cranked up and SELFISH. hahaas, ouhh well that I've got to understand cus that's what happens to me sometimes too, I guess in a way we're the same, we give when we can, and when we're running dry, we'll tend to me a little "stingy". Hmm, a good listener, always ready to lend a listening ear whenever possible, especially when I need one before I go to bed sometimes, just for me to whine my day away, or gossip bout that and what nots..you have a unique personality my dear sissy. Please don't look at yourself that way, you have a great personality, and your laughter is freaking contagious, cus when you laugh I can't see your eyes!! hahahaha. Though I love to attack your egos sometimes, cus I'm having that inferior thingy going on with myself too. So I'll tend to be a bully at home =) but you guys are catching up as well, bullying me, wearing my clothes and Im left with nothing nice to wear when I need to go out. Please arhhh!! dont treat me like that ehhhhhh... hahahs...

Hmmm, and for Joey.. though you're 9 years younger than me, at least Im proud to say that you know how to take care of yourself and behave like a young lady. Whereby we dont have to worry bout you getting astray and all. Though you get on my nerves most of the time, when you were younger, but no more for now, at least the 3 of us don't behave like enemies no more.

Im proud to have these 2 monsters as my sisters though they get on my nerves sometimes, but we've only got this chance in our lifetime to be sisters, this lifetime to make life difficult for each other, to share the sorrow, the joy and the laughters be it at our parents or anything else. Though we don't show it to our family members how much they matter, we show it in ways that we feel comfortable with. Like mum, shouting at the top of her voice whenever she's back home from work, I take that as a form of love from her to us, to show her utmost care and concern in the loudest way, and Dad, bringing back his smell from work, the sandwiches, his presence, his slamming of doors..LOL as a form of showing that he cares..it's these small little details, I believe every family has their own unique way of showing how their love for the family. My family does it the loud way, which I'll sometimes laugh to when I think about it.

It may be irritating when it happen there and then, but whenever the family gets to sit down and watch tv, someone bound to bring out these unique ways of us showing care and concern, and we'll all die laughing at our nonsense, trying to imitate one another and irritate the shit out of us.

=)

XOXO

here I am

What happens when I can't fall asleep at night? especially under such unbearable weather. I will head here to rant about my day.

I would say my day was well spent, screaming and what nots, at least it got my mind off stuffs. So happily after my flight, I rushed down to Bishan to meet the kahkis for our prawning session and fish spa. I thought I was going to be on time but apparently they were EARLY. So I've got to help them "PEK"/peel the shell of the prawns. GGGrr~

I was screaming so badly when we went for the fish spa, money well spent for them, to watch me in such a dire state. I was screaming at the top of my voice, I didn't care bout my image, luckily my vulgarities didn't come out but I was in a very state when I tried the fish spa, excuse me if you're laughing at me now, you should try it for yourself!! The fish are as long as your fingers and it's like a whole school of them will crowd rounnd your helpless pair of feet, there was a video when each of us place our feet in, but Im just too lazy to load that up, cus it'll take like donkey years to get loaded.

Then it was prawning session. Mw, caught the least for the day! lol. As per usual there will be someone to offer prawns to Fen, lucky woman, always attracting people.hahaha! Her bf will ban her from Bishan as well if he were to find out about this. LOL!!.. And as for myself, there were many times when my rod hit the "tiang" LOL!! wasn't on form today to catch the prawns, as I was feeling kind of tired from flight, and also not enough rest. I was pretty much drained out after the 30mins of fish spa, therefore I was a little retarded with my movements when it came to prawning. I wasn't my usual self, didn't help much when the fellas were "peng-ing"/BBQ-ing the prawns, I was literally standing there waiting for instructions for me to do things. Else I was like an obstruction.

Fen bought gong cha for all of us =) hehe, slurps!.. I was mad hungry by the time we finished prawning. And up till now, I still wouldn't allow myself to touch the prawn. So it's either fen or mw will have to help me get the prawn out of my hook when I were to catch one.

Okay, my entry is a little jumble up, maybe I'll do the editing the day after or something. It's a fun experience though, Bibi!! we shall go there again!!.. I wanna see how you handle the fish spa..LOL!!..

After which it was sinful dinner for us. We had katong laksa followed by dessert at Haagen Dazs Springvale. WOOT! Punch me in the eye man! FAT LIKE FARK!!!!

yes, I know here I am whining that Im fat and all and there I am happily gobbling down any kind of food within my range. I guess if I don't maintain my figure, my bf is gonna runaway. Im gonna weigh more than him very soon!!!! =(

Stupid mouth, mind over matter!!! mind over matter!!!!! I MUST TAHAN!!!! Cant fit into my clothes very soon!!!.. =( dont wanna be fat and even more ugly.. =(

LOSE WEIGHT I MUST!!!!!!!! GET LOST FROM FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got to go catch some rest now, another long day tomorrow...

XOXO

Jojo

Jogged

It feels good, went for a jog at the pineapple park alone after work. It felt great. Though I was dead beat the time I came back from flight, but I still push on, need to get some steam off.
It kept my mind off stuffs, at least it didn't stick to me like glue anymore. Guess I didn't stretched enough that I'm feeling the cramps on my left calf.
It's nice jogging on your own pace, just the music the scenery and nothing on your mind.

Gonna go bathe now and then time to do my mask! (:

untitled

Back to the weekdays once again. Geez`

Play around with words

With the wrong body language and tone, words that you say will make the other party feel pressurized. I take myself for instance, for a few occasions I recalled back, I realize I'm always too eager to get my point across not realizing that people might misinterpret it into another meaning and eventually get hurt/ think otherwise of what I'm trying to put across.

I was given a few simple examples, and true enough, it's like a subconscious effect after taking information we hear, and unknowingly project it out in a manner that you will never expect yourself to fall into.

The simple example bi showed me, not once but twice and in my head I was reacting exactly the same..

Am I too simple/stupid to use my head to think sometimes?.. must have been playing too much that I've forgotten bout human relation.. subconsciously doing things my way which I believe has caused those around me to start thinking.

For those that knows me well enough, have I changed? I really don't realize it myself till someone voice it out to me..

Just some running thoughts.. (:

A star for myself

Give a round of an applause for myself =) *claps* I didn't show attitude at work today, I feel that I was carrying out my duties professionally..LOL.. serious. I didn't flare up, no temper, just genuinely from the heart. It feels good at the end of the day. It's like an accomplishment. There were a few situations but it was all handled carefully. It's the teamwork I guess =)

I really don't wish to be reliant on the painkillers, but the headache won't budge, I'm trying not to take painkillers now, but the throbbing pain is irritating me plenty. Tried using my palm to clamp my head, like read hard, it only ease the pain for a moment, then when I release it, it'll go on again. People at work tells me all sorts of stuff like not enough rest, not enough water, the weather.. but it all doesn't seem valid to me because I never had such problems before.

GGGGgrrr...

period

Sometimes, it's just our own wishful thinking that things will work out in a better manner.

Scars will remain as scars no matter how much you try to make it recover, once the fragile vase has been broken, no matter how much you try to piece it back, it will never look the same again. This applies to everything.

I lie awake at night, having those running thoughts flashbacks that hits me one by one. Life ain't like a whiteboard where things could be erased and forgotten.


The headache is back..it ain't subsiding!! =(

Bought the star curlers and I love how the curls look there after.. =) but my ponytail is still too long for work, so I've still got to bun it up.. pfft`

What's wrong with me..

Series of shit has been happening to me. First it was the wisdom tooth saga and now it's the headache that refuses to budge. It's considered the third day now since it has pestered me. It's really frustrating..and after reading up on google.. I feel that I fall into the "rebound headache" category. I remembered overdosing myself with the panadol extras when I had my bad toothache..and now it's like causing a rebound..it states:

Rebound Headaches

These are headaches as a result of overuse of pain relieving medication. It is a vicious cycle as the sufferer tends to use analgesics in order to relieve the headache thereby perpetuating the pain. Other drugs like ergotamine which is used for migraines may also be responsible for rebound headaches.

Any chronic use of analgesics that is stopped for up to a week will often lead to improvment of the headache in a case of rebound headaches. The easy availability of OTC and scheduled analgesics plays a significant role in the increase of these type of headaches as the sufferer is often unable to understand the benefits of stopping analgesics or cannot tolerate the pain (headache) and has to use an analgesic."

I've just popped 2 pandol extra. The headache seems dull but can be irritating at times..as it feels like it's getting more intense each time.. can these nonsense stop already.. =(

My bad habit

I remember this feeling when one has to "book-in" how you'll long for your special someone's return. It's the effort that's put in that touches me lots, really.

You're my bad habit sweets.. (:

simple dinner

It was just a simple dinner over at Vivo with the fellas, though not all responded at least there was a handful. Just the 4 of us, we had dinner at Thai Express, I was craving badly for TOM YUM, so I chose the Tom Yum Pla which is the Tom Yum Fish..it tastes just as good as the seafood. (: Cravings satisfied! and I had Gong Cha twice!! hahaas, it has the ai-yu jellies..I love the purple plum ai-yu tea, =) NICE.

Met up with fen earlier, and we had a shopping spree once again, as I was too hungry when I met her bout 6, we headed to provence to get my favourites =)) munching away happily..hahas..
Then we went cotton on, bought ourselves the same flats hehe and then we went crazy at Daiso. All in all I had 17 items of food and 1 pair of socks. LOL.

Mr Tan wasn't that happy bout me getting shoes again, so I gotta make sure I do wear those flats pretty often.. =p

Though we seldom meet up these days, the fellas are still as nonsense as ever, we all had our fair share of laughters =) It was nice catching up..

Not much pictures taken for tonight, not even a dual picture with Fen.. but it's the company that matters bahh.. =)

Now I know how it feels when there's no response..AT ALL.

blues NOT

My day aint that blue afterall, I had so many things to do. Okay not really MANY but yea, handful, enough to keep my crazy mind from drifting again.

Will be meeting up with the fellas for dinner at Vivo tonight, I miss tom yum madness!!! I was so happy I've manage to find people for dinner tonight, yeaayy!! =) but to my horror, I realise I can't have SEAFOOD?.. DAMN!!! and I'm still arranging dinner at Thai Express..FML TTM!!! I'll have to choose an alternative, seeing it not having it. UGH.

I miss those spicy shits, so so so so so much!!!

Im currently waiting for my hair to be set. I've bought a hair dye from Mustafa the other night with bi and Nel..I would say Mustafa looks nicer now? lol you've got to see it for yourself..back to the hair dye, as I'm sick of seeing those patchy colours on my hair and also the fact that I wanna do something to my hair for the longest time ever..and since I can't do bangs, then I thought an alternative would be to do a touch up for my hair DIY style. I wonder how horrible it'll look,hmm...eitherways since I'm already at my worst, I don't bother much bout the image no more. So be it if im UGLY. As long as Im happy with it, you have no say in MY LIFE.

19mins had past, another hmm 21 mins?.. I don't really know if time really works for such stuff but yea, I guess I'll just follow the typical kiasu style, the longer the better?.. hopefully I do see new colours? or at least no more patchy sights..

Ohh oh oh!! yea watch "Unstoppable" simple storyline but it's nice to watch on a night when you have nothing to do..

I've a list of shows that I've yet to watch and hopefully something happens..LOL!!

-Eat,Pray,Love
-Jackass 3D
-Paranormal Activity 2
-Megamind
-Due date
-Sex and the city 2

hmm yea the list goes on unending.. Im currently still on the drama : Hai pai tian xin..yea laugh at me, I know kinda back dated, but I have khaki to watch it with me, who is non other than Mr Collin Tan. LOL!! That show is silly enough to keep me this optimistic and saint, and the fact that he's there to watch it with me. It's the FIRST TIME my bf would sit and watch a drama with me.. and that's because he's a female trapped in a male's body. LOL!! this statement is quoted from him so yea..

Just so you know Mr Collin Tan,
you RAWK my world! =)

Monday blues..

Was trying to use the Ipad to blog last night apparently to no avail. Thus the details now. I was on a long "leave" which I wonder how much it's going to result in my pay reduction. *Fingers crossed*

The swelling has subsided, though it looks a little bruise on my face with that uglified greenish bruise there. I was glad my weekends was kept busied. At least Bi was there. Though there were really times when I felt like punching him straight in the nose, lol. But isn't it all bout the bittersweet that makes everything more memorable? that's to my own perception. Instead of losing weight, I've been happily gaining all the weight I could ever get. Instead of sticking to the soft food, porridge and what nots I chose hard solid food. Like really hard!. LOL that's the effect of not having proper meals for so long that now, after I've got rid of the wisdom tooth, I ate whatever I felt like eating, though it takes a longer time, I rather take solid food than stick to porridge cus Im really sick and tired of it.

Will be heading back to work like FINALLY. I do miss the work environment, and of cus the $$ flow.
There's still some other stuffs to be done to my tooth. =( REally, I feel pretty fked up. No more candies and all. Feel my pain and agony. =( I've still got one more tooth to pluck, one root canal and hopefully no more reactions from my other 2 more wisdom tooth. I'm still traumatized by the whole dental visit shit.

Love me at my worse or just STAY AWAY FROM ME.

Stay away

As much as I tried to remain positive. Each time I look in the mirror it's like a slap on my face, the swell just wont go away, it doesn't even looks like it is improving..it remains this huge. It's really depressing, getting those weird looks from people. =(

UGLY AND FAT.

We attended Ai Ping's wedding dinner, she's looking at her best =) very sweet, she looked so gorgeous in her princess like gown and her custom sari. "Mums to be and the Dad next door.." so cute. hahas. There was 2 ongoing weddings, so cool. Ai Ping's and her sister-in-law, both held their weddings together, both ex flying crew.. awesome to the max. Pictures will be up later..

Bi, you took the trouble to rush and all just so to company me at the dinner, thankew so much, though at the expense of you being tired..xin ku ni le.. made me laugh so much, thanks for being there for me.. (: sitting beside a monster me.

miss you..

Was randomly editing pictures and happen to fall in love with this.

For you..

Aching mad

My face got even more swollen. This feels so crappy.

Made my way to the office this morning, arrived at the airport about 7:45am ain't I early or what.. hahas.. had a talk with my manager and saw some of my favourites =)

Feeling a little sick right now, gonna go rest some more.

Baby dearest I miss you..so much.

Oh no..

Seriously I hope she doesn't have to restitch again, which I doubt it. Because I can still taste fresh blood in my mouth and the pain is still as excruciating, in fact my face looks more swelled up now. I'm scared of returning back to the dentist, I don't feel so brave anymore.

FML, Im still in agony.

FINALLY!

I did it!! the wisdom tooth is gone! Im in another stage of agony, the pain was excruciating, cried like a baby. The after effect of the painkiller wearing off was horrible. It was too much for me to handle, I was crying away while I changed the gauze. Joleen couldn't take it when she saw me crying, I guess she felt helpless and not know what to do.. I still taste blood in my mouth now, hmmm, no more gauze though. I dare not squeeze the gauze into my mouth anymore, it makes me feel so uncomfortable, and it kinda sticks to my wound, so I dont wish to aggravate it any further. I dont wanna kill myself.

I hope this is the last time I have to visit the dentist to get my wisdom tooth removed. There's just too much things going on at the same time that I actually feel traumatized by the whole process. The dentist didn't really make me feel any much better, after extracting the front part of my wisdom tooth, the dentist seems to be struggling alot and it kinda worries me. True enough, with all the chiseling and all going on, my root doesn't seem to budge. So she had to make me walk out of the room to the xray room with my bloody wound, I was freaking out pretty bad. After the Xray, I had the urge to just run away, run home or something but that didnt happen of course, I obediently returned back to the room to continue with the surgery, that 1 hour seems to be the longest time I've ever had to endure. It's even worse than my root canal. I was literally shivering all over, like how coco will react when she sees the groomer or the vet, that scene should be hilarious, I really don't know how to react. I wanted to laugh at myself, as in my body was literally shivering, not as if I did it on purpose or what, but yea it came naturally, not within my control. LOL.

I had running images in my head as I lay there waiting impatiently for everything to be over and done with. I was scared stiff when I hear the chisel sound thingy it was in my mouth for a good whole 5 mins? I was so afraid that it'll cut my mouth open, like those gore scenes in SAW, my imagination was running wild I tell you. Then I imagine myself in one of those jackass scenes, which I almost choked myself, as I was too engross with my imagination that I forgot to swallow/breathe.. how dumb is that..hahas..

Mum says my face doesn't look swollen, which I beg to differ. If she say my face not swollen, that means IM FAT!! freaking hell.

That's alot of shit I've gone through for today. But I manage to finish my big bowl of porridge, 2 packets of pineapple tart and small slices of pear. Hmm, Im having cravings for bubble tea!!! kaoz.. this is crazy..

I miss you baby..

I wanna laugh so hard but I can't!!! TMD!!!! TOINK!!!
Joleen just said something dumb. Italics ( Ee-TAR-Licks) HAHAHAHAHA!!!! freaking hell!!! I cant laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haahahahahaha.. SHIT!!!!! OUCHHHH MY JAW!!! they purposely sia!!!! now my mum wanna join in the fun and create nonsense to see me suffer...SSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BBBBBBAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

STUPID

Im goddamn stupid. I could have just gone to this dental instead of returning to the same dental clinic. This one that I've just gone, could arrange for an operation for me at 330pm today. Phew~ a sigh of relief for me finally. Seriously, Im freaking stupid. So much for listening to my doctor to go here and there and what not when I can just go to other dental clinics and see what they can do for me.

STUPID DUMB ME.

AGAIN

I wonder how many entries I can come up with in a day. Since 3-ish in the morning till now, this should be like my 3rd post already?, I've edited my "Taiwan" entry, as in more visuals added in.

Im glad the ache is gone for the time being after taking the painkillers. I'll have to head down to the doctor and then to the polyclinic to hopefully get my referral letter from the gp. So much to go through. K A R M A. This is the result. Geng too much mc's in the past, now that I have real cases I fear of taking mc. K A R M A!!!.. now it's time I suffer. Like suffer big time, called up Raffles hospital..they have standby dentist, that will cost me $500 just to activate him that doesn't include gst and consultation fees and what not. Then I called SGH, they have dentist available, and I'll just have to pay $90 flat rate for consultation, charges for the removal of wisdom tooth and what not have to base on dentist to access my situation before they can charge accordingly. Then nget was telling me there's such thing as getting the hospital to send the bill to my place as in to pay later, which apparently made me see a glimpse of light, but then again.. after checking, there's no such condition. SAD right.

So people out there, heed old people's advise..save for the rainy days. So that when such things happen, you won't have to bother bout money matters.
Is there any dentist that's running a charity drive or something, like helping the needys to pluck out their wisdom tooth?.. UGH.. how else shitty can things get for me?.. IM AT THE LOWEST PIT.

Some pictures to make your day..
Laugh at my FUGLINESS..







I was contemplating whether to cut bangs or not, and when I ask this question, bi will reply" Do you need me to show you how you look like with bangs?" then images of the bowl like fringe appears in my head, the hair that went wrong, so bad that it sticks to me like a nightmare from elm street. FUGLY was the only word which I consider appropriate.

I looked god damn fugly, like a drag in this picture. GOODNESS!! *smacks forehead*

That's some fugly pictures of me to entertain your day.

Back to my toothache. FML totally.

Something to distract me

Silver's really cute in this video, the both of them actually.. at least it made me smile..

WORSE

Im fucking feeling at my worse. K A R M A.

In agony

Im wide awake right now, the toothache is seriously getting to me. Im running a temperature and I don't know what to do. I just popped 2 painkillers hopefully something happens, at least to numb the ache or something. I really cant take it.
I dont wish to take mc this is like the worse ever. To have all the nonsense all at once. It's like there's no quick relief for this. And this is it.

IN AGONY.

Devastated

To get a referral letter from the polyclinic, I'll have to wait till END OF DECEMBER before I can FIX AN APPOINTMENT with NDC. By then wouldn't I have died of hunger?. It's like Im force to go on strike with my tummy. It's growling so loudly for food, but I can't bite anything. The trip to my company doctor was redundant, she did filling for me which is totally irrelevant to my pain.

Though I've got a referral letter from my doctor, NDC will charge me under private which will cost up to 2K, and that for any other appointments with NDC in near future which I hope not, will be charged as private no subsidy no nothing. So I drop the idea of sending my referral letter from my company doctor. Now, I need to go to the polyclinic to see their dentist which is like..end of December for them to understand the situation before they can write a referral letter for me to make an appointment with NDC for wisdom tooth removal........

Is it so difficult to just write a referral letter for me so that I can make an appointment with NDC?..

FML TO THE MAX, now I can only rely on painkillers for god knows till when. The Xray I did is making me more worried. My wisdom tooth is growing horizontally, that's why my other tooth are feeling so much pain, so much so that Im running a temperature..

Any recommendations for extremely strong painkillers? apparently the panadol extra aint working for me.

FML.

Airy

Dear wisdom tooth, how are you now? I'm kinda missing you right now, it's a black hole on the left upper of my gum. If it's not for the lower widom that's causing the problem you wouldn't have to go.

It took me 1 hour to finish my bowl of shredded pork with mushroom rice. LOL thanks Fen for the company..lol, to watch the bo guay take her meals slow and steady. hahaha.

Now I've got 3 more wisdom tooth to go. Man, I wanna rid of all my agony. I look so rundown right now. So many red dots on my face, frizzy hair, bloated face and thunderous thighs. I'm looking at my WORST. Oh well..

Bleah..
Time to rest, feeling giddy already..

Not Okay..

The consumption of panadol is getting more intensive now. The fact that the dentist aint open on Sunday kills me. I shall wait till Monday. Dear toothache can you just spare me from the agony. It's pretty much irritating. I need to pop panadols to temporary numb the pain. With the headache and the earache, I guess it's the wisdom and that cracked molar pressing on my nerves.

Monday. Just 1 more day.

TAIWAN

Seriously, I wont mind going to Taiwan once again, because the time spent there was not enough..or should I say it'll never be enough? LOL I had tears forming in my eyes on the day we had to leave Taiwan. There's no culture shock, and it's not that complicated to get to places. There's just so much to see in Taiwan, they have the countryside and the modern era sites of Taiwan. I like those kind of feel. Unlike all the high rise buildings you see everywhere in Singapore. I mean it's nice to go away to places like this once a while. And also the fact that I have bi there with me. That means a whole lot to me. (: With bi around, I have no worries, it's like a sense of security, like I'll never have second thoughts like..ohh no will we be able to head back to the hotel, is he going the right way.. those thoughts didn't came to me at all. (:






I really enjoyed myself over there, though there were times when I tried to "la sai" lol. It's the first time I see bi angry okay.. lol. Pattern more than badminton! hahas, and I learned a new command from "san yi". LOL!! so funny!!.. Pictures are up, this time round in bi's album cus we're using his camera throughout the whole journey cus mine was of a lower quality..so yea. Hahaas.. I've missed out on quite a number of places, I hope I get to go there soon, this time round maybe I'll go for a week! hahaha, cus 5 days is really too little for us.

I miss the "cong yiu bing","qi li xiang",the family mart and the 7-11 and the ramen shop, and the "di gua qiu"..so many!! hahas..oh mann..




I've finally went on a vacation before the end of 2010. (:
I'll always remember the nonsense, laughters and fun thrills we had over in Taiwan.. (:

Bibi chen, wo ai ni. (:

finally!!!

Im finally in Taipei!!! I cant believe this, it's been so long since I've gone for a holiday, though it's raining outside now, nothing stops us from roaming around the place while we wait for Mich and the rest to meet up with us at the hotel.

Once again I behave like a mountain turtle, I bet I've got on bi's nerves. LOL!! what! I just cant help it right.. I've bought my oversize yakult, hopefully will be able to hit Shilin tonight, shop till we drop!!!!

Bibi..thanks for companying me here.. =)

I love the 7-11 and family mart!! lol so colourful!!!!!!!!!!

I'm like in a holiday mood for the longest period of time ever. Been missing so much from school, literally MIA-ed from the SIM-ers. Great. Wonderful. The grave has been dug and it's all ready for me to lie in and cover up with mud. Lost my priorities once again. In my own lala land. Bi calls me LG = Lazy girl. ): Hais.

My groupmates gonna shoot me down BIG TIME. It's already the 18th. Everything is in a mess.. my stuffs ain't packed, I've got a long flight tomorrow, the weather forecast aint showing very good weather though. I have to play tug of war at night, NO BLANKET!. I need to jot that down in my shopping list, my OWN BLANKET.

Complacency sets in once again.

I cant agree more..

Geek in progress.

For every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. -Quoted from Roz-

Dream come true

In a way, it's a huge relief for me. The ordeal is finally over. 4 months has past and keke is finally back. Safe and sound. It feels like a dream come true, when I see him again alighting from the stairs. That feeling-indescribable. I couldn't control my tears, thought I'll be brave enough, but my tears were circling in my eyes the moment his ship was in sight. Cried my eyes out balls.

Who said 4 months was easy to get by?..BULLSHIT!. LOL.

Shall update when I've got the time, gotta prepare for another big event. My sissy's graduation.

ciaoz`

last day

Okay just one more day, then it'll be my off day tomorrow. Just one more day. TAHAN!!!!!

But, the other half of me really dragging, the thought of having to head down to HQ after work.. =(
Weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

just ONE MORE DAY...

looking forward to Saturday

Hopefully I'll be mad tired by the time I get home from work and just crash away. I'm looking forward for my off on Saturday. Hmm, but what can I do on Saturday... hopefully Cheryl has some crazy plans hahas! that woman will be back today returning to Pek only on the 10th of Oct. I hope her transit in HK gets delayed so that she'll reach SG around the same time as me later hahas! then I'll have dinner khaki already.

Went over to Nic's place yesterday. Bb Zaden is a PIG!! hahaha, sleeping so soundly no matter what we did to him. LOL. Don't expect much during confinement, the mum is in a bad state lol!! she can't bathe, can't sit under the fan, can't wash hair, can't drink this can't eat that..wahh I tell you.. I feel her pain man. It's not easy..so scary..I salute you. Woman body really work wonders, though I have friends around who gave birth and all, maybe cus I've never really visited them during their 1st week of discharge from hospital and all, it's not as easy as what I've remembered. There's more to it that meets the eye. I asked mummy how she felt when she's sleeping with bb Zaden beside her at night, does she feel the connection? you know those kinda stuff only mother feels..LOL and she told me " very tiring, you can't sleep at all.." any small movement by the small one, she'll wake up. She's totally exhausted. Both her hubby and herself looks so worn out. So much for bb Zaden..like woahh..

I don't know how to explain this feeling but, it's the first time I feel so different bout the whole situation. Maybe cus we hangout alot, and now that she's heading towards a different path now, that feeling feels weird. Then she was talking about when we're 27 and Zaden is 4 years old..WAHHH!! I feel even more fearful of the future. Like a panic attack button activated in me..LOL.

I feel the gap with the people around me these days, when they go on about BTO and all, it's like they sound like my parents. LOL!!

I'm really lost for words, it kept me awake for quite a while last night..

give up

I wrote a pretty long entry and it got deleted! Dang~ now my train of thoughts all gone. zZz

I woke up on the wrong side of bed today for sure, else my body is screaming out to me because I feel so won out right now, my limbs are feeling so weak, I feel as though I've not rested enough. It's like I cant lift up my arm, it'll just hang loosely, no strength at all. I feel so "jelly-like" LOL.

My weekend was spent working and shitloads of fun (:
If it aint for Fen, I wouldn't had gone for F1. Thankew so much woman, it was an experience of a lifetime.LOL. Though we know shit about what's going on. hahaha. Yes, ignorant fools, but we had our fun. Cheering for all the wrong things..LOL!! (: As long as we're enjoying it, who cares?!. ;)

Been having mad cravings for Thai Express's red tom yum seafood soup. It's so freaking addictive. Though my lips swell like sausage, and my tongue burnt like mad. It's too good to give it a miss!.

Not forgetting the pregnant mum Ms Nicole (: who gave birth to little handsome boy Zaden on the 20th of Sept. =) Cute to the max I would say, will be popping by her place later can't wait !

There'll be more happening stuffs lined up in the coming DAYS =) hehehe. CANT WAIT I TELL U!!! SO EXCITED!!!! October yow!! ;)

so much for that

So much for acting tough. Act as though Im not bothered. I was holding on to my phone everywhere I went today, hoping that it'll ring, to the extend that I thought my phone was ringing when it didnt. Crap. I thought bi wasn't going to call until just now when he called, and said that he left me a voicemail last night when I was on flight. =)

STUPID ME! I know he feels very awkward talking to himself. LOL, I can feel like he seems uneasy leaving a voicemail..LOL so funny =)

*wo cheng ren wo..kou shi xin fei..!*
It does matters. Even for a min. =)

Hmm..

Im back. Long night I would say.

Was reading the mind over body section and came across one of the article that was talking about thyroid or something like that couldn't remember the article, it affects one mood, and it can cause depression. Like getting emotional over nothing. Sounds like what I'm going through. Forgot to take down the help hotline for it. Anyone has thursday's straits times to spare me?.

Good nights. It's time for my bedtime.

Havent been myself of late. I'll just isolate myself. I don't even feel like heading out. No amount of shopping will make me any better. Drowning myself with work and sleep. Stupid monthly crisis. I hate this pms period. It makes me get so emotional till the extend whereby I don't even feel like asking anyone out, not even my sis. I just wish to be alone.

I woke up early today, hoping that I'll be called up for flight. I even had my uniform ironed, just waiting for them to activate me. Can someone explain to me why am I feeling this way?.

Gonna go catch a nap..

Refreshed

Feel so much better after a long night. =)

Good nights world.

uncomfortable

Up till now, I still get the uneasy feeling.
Stupid me.

I tried texting, but the reply was cold. Hais.
Stupid me. STUPID.

Shock Labryinth

It really gave me a shock. Freaking hell, horror movie in 3D imagine that!. LOL. I was like jumping throughout the show, at least I didnt close my eyes but I covered my ears. The sound effect was horrible. Scare the shit out of me. And Jkss can still tell me the show was too boring and she fell asleep!!! whereas for YL she tried to scare me but failed..hahaha. And now they're more interested in the other horror movie, The Child's Eyes..OMGoodness........ my heart is getting weaker each time. LOL.

Went out to Bugis with Teressa on thursday, conquered Bugis st. Walked for a good whole 4 hrs! goodness!!! but it was time well spent, we managed to get quite a number of stuff, pocket one big hole again. CRAP and to think the horoscope said to "freeze my cards, keep it away from me" LOL!! crap. But it was really quite a number of stuff, and it's those topshop lookalikes for half the price. And it's solely Bugis St only! not even Illuma. Crazy shit.

I've had enough of the mooncake saga, no more snowskin for the time being. Had too much of it at the fair till I'm a little scared of it already.

Gotta go shower and sleep soon, needa rest my aching legs and shoulders. (:

xoxo

jo

Tired

Just woke up and Im feeling extremely grouchy.

I did have a good laugh today, so much so that I actually teared when I was laughing. Imagine how hard I laugh. That's really 1X good one.

There's no food at home, and I really feel like having ba chor mee.. hmmm, 85 market?..who's free now..UGH.

--- =)

My cravings have been met! just got back from 85 with my sis, had satay, ba chor mee and ah balling (:
Satisfied. =0)

Wednesday BLUES..

So much walking yesterday, my knees doesn't feel like they belong to me anymore. Aching like crap. I was laughing at the slightest nonsense yesterday, must be due to the tiredness that's kicking in. FML I'll be back at 2ish today. I need a full body massage BADLY. My shoulders are aching, you know those kind of feeling when you're totally exhausted and your back seems as though you're carrying like what, 5 tons of oil or something like you got to constantly stretch your back every few minutes, so much fidgeting and all. Thursday come quick. I've still got many things not done yet. Assignment is one of them.

FMLTTM. Can I just whine for today, I seriously feel like crying.. I wanna sleep!!!! :'(

Give me a random nonsense to laugh about today, please please please..just give me a 1X good laugh, and my day will swift pass faster..please please please..

Screwed body clock. =(

Im turning green very soon..

BLUEHh..

Monday blues..NOT

I've finally watched "Step Up 3" man it's good. So good. I like it alot. Those groovy dance steps, makes me so excited throughout the show. LOL!! where the hell my dance kahkis went..zZz Can we hit the club some time soon? go groove it out a little, miss dancing the night away..hahaha.

Love this part when Luke brought Nat up to the air vents area.. =) the storyline is simple, about people living their passion. Doing things that makes them feel alive. The dance moves are awesome (:

Apparently I watched it alone cus ps left me midway! she was feeling giddy after watching the movie as we're seated like 2nd row from the screen so she was seated at a very awkward position. She went shopping while I was left alone to watch the movie.

After which, we shopped a little at Vivo before we left for town. Strange things been happening lately, and today, a guy walked up to me and asked if we could be friends, my gawd it gave me a shock, we quickly walked away. I'm scared of such people..the last encounter of such weird people was at Simei's popular bookstore, the fella freaking stalked me..scary shit.

Ps and myself walked so much today, and I'm proud to say, I've spent only $20 today!! (: great achievement! hahas.. I guess all the walking is giving me knees the hard knocks again, it's kinda aching even now...man.. and my feet have been cramping on and off.. double crap!.

We've also checked out *Scape, nothing much though, there's a dance studio on the last floor (: looks damn cool with people waiting for classes and those that's practising their dance moves. So tempting....

got to rest now..

xoxo

Nights! jojo.

up and about

I'm too wide awake now to fall back asleep, especially when my phone is not beside me. Woke up to pee and realise that my phone died on me. So now it's charging and I just so happen to on the computer and now.. got myself stuck to the computer.

It's finally my off day today, what a long day yesterday. But all's good. =) At least it's over. Slept so early last night about 9 plus? ya, that explains why Im up like now.. hmm what should I do tomorrow..as in before I go for classes in the evening.

Ooo! there's so many stars tonight =) hehe, clear skies.. September, can you please get by soon. Ohh Im going for mooncake testing tomorrow..wahah. =) can't help it..
GAWD I feel so hungry right now! crap.. better head back to try and sleep..

My friend gave me a new name, Geok Sian..LOL!! damnit.
xoxo

ciaoz`

Thankful

Im thankful for whatever that has been happening around me lately. That I was able to brave it through with positivity. It feels so good when you know it was all worth it. Every small little thing that happens, means alot to me. =)

Thank you so much, you, you,you and yOu and YOU and you and so many of you!!
Especially my baby, my ku partner, ms Koh, the nqmm's, mantianal..my mates at work, and those who stood by me all these while.

Im lovin' it!

I enjoyed myself so much at Settlers, laughing my ass off, playing the game of "taboo" pictures will be up soon..

Stay tune =)

xoxo

Jo

wide awake

Slept too early, and now I cant get back to sleep. It's the first time we were on the phone for so long (:

Looking back, these past few months, the little things that we did sums up to quite an amount of stuffs, it's been a long time since I've sat down to literally do stuff for someone. It relieves those secondary school days, when I had so much passion for doing small little things that were never appreciated which made me stop .
This away trip made me learn quite a bit. I learned to manage stress, loneliness, time..Okay maybe my time management still needs some adjustments, at least I learn how to write things down before I proceed, or at least jot things down, so as to prevent myself from forgetting. It might seem like those basic/simple stuffs. But it's not that easy for me, because Im someone that lacks self-discipline. Comparing work to play, Im a person that will choose play any time any day. So yea, I'm trying to cut down on my unnecessary sick leaves..LOL.. and quit being lazy
Now I'm left with my studies, it's something which I lack motivation and enthusiasm for. It's a love hate situation. pfft`

Guess I'll go take a long warm bath..hopefully it'll make me feel sleepy..

Feelings warm the heart and soul..

good nights..

Tomorrow

One more day, and Im off! can't wait for it. =) so many things in my head I wanna do. And I want to meet the pregnant mum soon!! Shall meet up with her on Friday, hopefully she's free. 9 more days to Zaden's estimation of delivery date. Imagine the anxiety level. Goodness!!

I've finally received the postcard that baby sent. I was jumping around high and low when mum passed it to me. She was like saying.."finally right.." hahaha. =)

It's worth it, I thought to myself..

Alright back to preparation, need to reach airport by 6:10 am today's gonna be a lovely day (:

smile (^_^.)

xoxo
Jojo

drained

I couldn't wake up for class once again. Only woke up like 8 plus as I was feeling hungry. zZz

Feeling a little out of place, because another fellow member is leaving. Take care girl, you'll be missed. I never like such feelings, when someone has to go. We gave her a surprise, got her a card, and capt even got a perfume for her. We took lots of pictures, she broke into tears when she was reading the card, my tears rolled when I saw her crying.

Departures are always sad, nevertheless, it's for the better good. Wishing you all the best in your future endeavour. . =)

Always online

Though it's just a click away. Many times I wanted to. ...

It's finally the last day of the 7th month. It has came and left once again. It's nearing the mid of September, whereby assignments are due, lantern festival (mooncake) hahas and hmm what else, too many to list. It's gonna be a busy month. =) Which means October will be nearing me in no time. =) The ordeal will be over soon =)

Mum brought back a tub of pineapple tarts few days back, I told myself not to touch any of it, but today I failed. It's too freaking tempting, and it's like within range, hahaha. It wasn't kept away. HOW THOUGHTFUL of her..when I told her I've got a diet to watch.

MPO individual down, 3 more assignments to go. BUSY BUSY month..

I have so many things on my mind that I wish to get my hands on. But then again, I've got to sort them out, under the list of "needs" and "wants".. I guess at the end of the day, there'll be nothing that I actually "NEEDS".

Finally I've finished up some stuff that has been dragged for weeks. (: slow and steady.

Sleepy spells kicking in..

Time for bed..

Toodles!

much much love..

jo.

MUKE MAINTAIN!

Bi came up with this "muke maintain" thingy, after I told him I've been eating so much..LOL!!

Though he's not with me here and now, he's nonsense and his jokes just cracks me up wherever and whenever I think of it. Thank you baby =) you gave so much laughters to my bored out life..hahaha.

Headed to the jam packed Comex with my peking love, Cheryl Lee Pei Pei hahas, still as crappy as ever with her nonsense that never fails to make me wanna zap her. LOL. We had to queue like say half an hour to make payment but it was all worth while. =) Then headed to Thai Express, my die hard love of recent. I love the mango salad and the red tom yum seafood soup with my watermelon and lime freeze. IT'S THE BOMB!!! THE OMG FACTOR!! hehe. Gossip queens, and thereafter to her place at Park Royal hotel where we went camera crazy. Hahaha. She bought a selphy photo printer which I've been eyeing for the longest period of time. DAMNIT CHER!! she'd killed me if she were to read this entry..hahaha.

Then baby called me, it's like FINALLY!! NO MORE DISTORTION!! just good reception =) I can finally raise my voice and speak like a bullet train =) so much love so faraway. My crazy Mr Tan =)

After which it was the 10:30pm XLB madness, I'm telling you, there was so much food that I'm abstaining from PORK maybe till baby is back. I didn't dare count the number of xLb I've had, but I threw up eventually, due to too much stuffing, and laughters..everything came out..hahas.

We laughed so hard till my tummy gave up.

Lesson learnt,

no more madness over XLB anymore!

PUKE!

ass-signments

HELP!!!!!! I'm only half-way through my assignments. Been too distracted with EVERYTHING. Be it food, tv, music,toilet,food, and MORE FOOD. hahahaha. UGH!!!! HEN FAN ARRR!!!!!!

Side track..
Where can I get my hands on a horoscope gadget .. hmm =)
counting down makes me so excited. The days are getting so much nearer each day. =) Can the time zoom faster this time round?. I'll be more than glad to COMPLY!.

Been having insomnia lately, besides that 15hours of sleep I had the other day, the rest of the time I'm tossing and turning SO SO MUCH! thinking of so many things. What I want to eat when bi's back, where to bring me, the big BEAR HUG!, hahas, soft and comfortable comforter..pillows!! and so much more..I'm gonna make him my butler when he comes back. muahaha. Can the days get FASTER PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!! can't wait.

I've never longed for someone so so long before. 4 freaking gawd damn months. So much sufferings, longings, missings, laughters, cryings..MY GAWD CRYINGS. hahaha, I still remember that fateful night, when I hugged him and cried so bad. But it's okay, after so much that has happened, I have no other thoughts but to see him real in front of me. I'll see you soon..

Many chances slipped from me from time to time, it's either "chi yi bu" or feelings were never said. I hope I do learnt from these lessons, and that I should learn to grasp them from now on.
Lighting doesn't hit the same place twice.

Living life in my own colourful ways.. I have so much random thoughts in my head. Thinking of it makes me smile so foolishly to myself. It's a beautiful Saturday (:

Smile..

xoxo

Jo.

SLeeping in

It's been such a long time since I had such a long SLEEP. I went to bed at say 11-ish last night and woke up only like now?!. LOL. Okay I did woke up a while at 7plus this morning to answer baby's call. He loves to disturb me when Im sleeping, said things like "cook maggie for me ehh.." then I was like " okayy.." HAHAHAHA.. when Im sleeping and you wake me up, I'll just simply comply to your request. LOL!! just so that I can get back to sleep. I miss his nonsense, it's been a while now since I've met a talk cock competitor that can out win me. Apparently he's the only one who can do that. I wonder why.. hmm is it cus I give in to you?.. LOL!!

Will be meeting my primary school mates for dinner at Nandos tonight. wahaha, better finish up my assignments first before I head out for some fun. I've decided not to change my article and complete it, cus time is running out and I can't seem to relate to the other articles. If only Collin Tan is here right now, at least I can throw my assignment to him..HAHAHAHA.

Speaking of him, while I was on the train home yesterday, I was staring into space thinking about him, then I smiled to myself, only to realise after a while that the fella sitting opposite me was smiling back to me! gosh! imagine how embarrassing that was..zZz but ouh well, Im use to such gestures..

Can't wait for his return..it's driving me up the lorry! lol..

back to my assignment..

xoxo

jo.